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Edited by Dymens
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'God, he is so nasty...'
'The things he demands from me are nothing compared to what he wants.'
'A relationship is about compromise.'
'He is holding back for me.'
'I should try my best too.'
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*Warning* Mature content. 18+ (START)
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She overcame her uncomfortable feeling and straddled his tight, "Xuan Mu, I'll never satisfy your needs, huh?"
"You won't," Xuan Mu chuckled and hugged her waist, "But what can I do? I love you too much." He looked at her tenderly, "I'm good in bed, am I not?"
"Mm, the best. You are holding that beast inside you well." Fighting her discomfort, she leaned towards him and kissed his lip, riding herself on his thigh.
Xuan Mu cupped her under the ears and deepened the kiss with closed eyes. Her fleshy tights were grinding his thigh, tickling him and teasing him with her wetness. He took hold of his throbbing member and started to jerk himself off, "Good girl. You're doing well."
Bing Shi's lips curled up, her breathing turning heavier. Knowing each other for so many years, there was no need to be shy. Clenching his tight, she pounded on him to the rhythm of his rising hips, "...Xuan Mu..." Feeling his kisses become messier, she distanced herself. "Cum inside my mouth," she whispered and crouched down between his legs.
With a groan, Xuan Mu grabbed her head and pushed her down between his legs. He lifted her chin and unloaded everything into her mouth. The hot liquid scalded her tongue; she couldn't hold it in and started to choke as some drops found their way down her throat.
'Bad idea! Oh my god, Ewww.'
She sat up in a panic and started to fan her face. With watery eyes, she asked for help. There was some residue in her mouth, and she didn't know what to do with it, afraid of ruining the moment further.
Xuan Mu looked at her with worry, then with an amused look, raised his eyebrow, "Not as tasty as in books, huh?"
In the twilight of her room, he leaned down and grabbed the back of her head, covering her mouth with his, he sucked everything out of her. She couldn't move an inch; he locked her in place with his legs and arms, cleaning up the insides of her mouth with his slick tongue.
'What's wrong with this man...does he have to go to such extremes?!'
At the beginning of the day, Xuan Mu gave Bing Shi the purest kiss in her life and at the end of the day, he also gave her the dirtiest one.
He slowly let go of her swollen lips, "What a memorable day." With a low chuckle, he stroked her wet chin with the back of his fingers, afraid a heavier touch would break the heady magic.
"..." She wanted to run to the bathroom to clean up but was stopped by the strong arm around her waist.
"Where are you going?" Xuan Mu asked with a pout, "Don't run away from me." He grabbed her by the waist and seated her on his lap, "Now, that I'm satiated," he crept his hands between her legs, "It's your turn."
'Help..me?'
'Who? There is only Xuan Mu...and me... ha ha...'
"I don't think I'll make you climax today," he smiled sadly as he put his hand between her legs, parting her walls, he caused her body to flinch, "Shh, don't be scared." With his middle finger, he rubbed the surface of her inner walls, "So...wet."
Xuan Mu licked his finger with closed eyes, savoring every drop. With an intoxicated face, he whispered to her ears, "Mmm...Tasty...so tasty...." She felt his hardness growing under her tight. "Bing shi...why are you...so delicious...hm?"
"..." She stopped drawing hearts on his chest awkwardly. Not knowing how to answer and afraid of ruining the mood, she turned towards his chest and sucked on his nipple, drawing a low moan from him.
When she felt his hand between her legs again, she let go of his nipple and shut her eyes tight, closing her legs and curling herself up instinctively. She bit her lips, stopping herself from making a sound. She was such a failure of a girlfriend. Instead of feeling hot, she felt cold and uncomfortable.
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*Warning* Mature content. 18+ (END)
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When he felt her shaking body under his arms, he stopped his action. With a pained heart, he massaged her arms, trying to get rid of all the goosebumps on her, "Bing Shi, you are safe with me." He covered her in a blanket, "Good girl." He hugged her over a blanket, "You tried so hard for me."
Under the blanket, she made herself as small as possible and looked him in the eyes, her face stained with tears, "I'm sorry."
"What for?" His mouth formed a smile, hiding the hurt behind his eyes.
Her tears started to fall uncontrollably, "For not wanting to make love with you." She rubbed them off with her blanket, "I feel like I don't love you enough," she said with a broken voice as if an invisible needle was held against her throat, "Xuan Mu, how do I love you more? I want to be the best girlfriend for you. But no matter how hard I try, it seems it's not enough."
An unpleasant heaviness resided in her stomach, though empty, it writhed as if struggling to digest a full-course meal, "Do I deserve your care and love? I'm...so defective."
Xuan Mu supported her face with his shoulder and hugged her tighter. She was asexual. It was not her fault. He couldn't be too selfish. In a low choked voice, he whispered to her ears, "Bing Shi, you deserve... everything... I'd go through hell...if it meant I could keep the love you have...for the defected me."
Though they were incompatible in some parts, they still tried their hardest for their relationship to work.
If he was stressed and took it all on her, instead of being confirmed with him or running away, she took it all in and gave him her support with a smile. Thanks to her, they hardly argued with each other, because she'd avoid most of the mistakes the other couples made.
Though he wanted to chain her to him, he let her go to chase after her dreams and accompanied her silently throughout her days. Thanks to him, she never felt alone.
Except for their beliefs, they compromised on everything else.
They tried their hardest to be better for each other.
In this world, they only had each other.
If they didn't support each other during their hardest times, who would?
"Xuan Mu, we should..."
"Shh... Bing Shi, don't ruin the mood."
"..." Bing Shi nodded silently.
'I have to try harder.'
'I want to make him happy.'