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Edited by Dymens
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That was their love.
He, who lived with his soul on fire, had laid himself utterly bare for her, vulnerable and exposed.
She, who faced the world as a warrior, was loved like a protector that only defended herself. His wounds were raw and they were roaring at her for justice.
'Am I really not enough for him?'
'But his life it's still in my hands.'
'I'm the one to decide...'
'~ It's not Xuan Mu. It's his depression, which is acting. Quickly think of a reason how to cure it.'
'How?'
'~ Give him more reason to live.'
'Oh? Oooh...'
She had yet to realize that she was getting herself into a ride-or-die connection that would stay with her always and in all ways.
"Don't forget. Your life is in my hands... When was the last time you masturbated?" Bing Shi suddenly asked him.
"Huh?" The young man on the other side was stunned. Was that his Bing Shi on the other side? "Bing Shi?" He had to assure himself, "Is that you?"
"Mhm? When?" Bing Shi went to take a picture of herself.
"I don't remember. I'm too busy," Xuan Mu told the truth. Bing Shi was always straightforward, but when it came to this type of thing, she was always reserved. That's why he was so surprised.
"I'm trying to do something with your depression. Here is my picture. Let's see if it works," Bing Shi sent him a picture of herself. She was sitting in her bed with her panda pajamas on. She covered her puffy red eyes with her arm and smiled cutely at the camera, her tongue slightly lolled out as she showed off her white teeth.
"Bing Shi..." Depression? That was why he was behaving like a scum? Why was she with such a sick person?
Xuan Mu covered his heart. No, don't love her more, or you'll explode, he ordered himself.
"Sorry, I didn't want to show my eyes; they are puffy from crying too much," Bing Shi laughed weakly.
"No. I'm sorry for my behavior," Xuan Mu felt guilty. He wouldn't be able to look her in the eyes.
"Don't worry. It wasn't your fault," Bing Shi assured him.
"It was. I took it all on you. Can you accompany me while I'm at it?" Xuan Mu felt nervous. It was their first naughty time, the first dirty call at the least.
"Oh, sure if it helps you," Bing Shi tried to speak normally, but her face said something different.
"Huh? What?" Xuan Mu's heart started to beat frantically. Did. She. Just, Agree?
"Go ahead. You have to relieve yourself," Bing Shi giggled shyly.
"..." Xuan Mu gave up. Was this what she wanted? Then, he will listen to her. He was lying in his bed, wearing only thin black sweatpants without a top on. His body was lean with slight muscles. It wasn't well-toned. He didn't need it. What he wanted was strength and stamina, not a perfect body of a model from a magazine.
"Did you start? I hear nothing. Make a little bit of noise or something," asked Bing Shi when she couldn't hear a thing.
"...Mm..." Xuan Mu chuckled deeply. A low groan escaped his lips to satisfy her curiosity as he did whatever secret deeds he did on his side, "...Ugh..."
"Oh.My.God." When Bing Shi heard his killer chuckle combined with that groan, she almost fainted. His voice was too much for her young heart, "I feel like I'm baking in an oven."
"...Bing Shi..." Xuan Mu chuckled. The thought of her knowing what he was doing himself... God, he couldn't even describe it. It was sweetly indecent, "...Do you want to touch yourself with me?" His breathing hitched.
Did. He. Just. Ask. Her. To. Masturbate. With. Him?
"Huh?" Bing Shi felt her body's reaction, but her brain was elsewhere, "Why? I don't have depression."
"..." A low, frustrated laughter escaped his lips. His girl almost killed the mood again, "I only asked," looking at her picture, "I want to try it together sometimes."
Silence...
"Bing Shi?" he smiled. Was she shy?
"Uff...I'm still here. Or maybe not? I think your voice just brought me to heaven," Bing Shi giggled, squeezing her thighs together, her heart was racing, a bit too fast, "S-sure."
Xuan Mu teased her with another groan of his.
"That's enough I can't take anymore," Bing Shi had to cover her red ears, "What's wrong with your voice? It makes my legs go jelly! Literally!"
(A/N. That's where her pseudo name Mrs. Jelly comes from. ( •⌄• ू )✧ )
"...Pfft..." Xuan Mu chuckled.
"Xuan Mu! Don't chuckle like that!" Bing Shi protested.
"I like you," Xuan Mu confessed with a silent smile.
"I like you too," Bing Shi responded with a red face.
"Do you want to talk during it?" Xuan Mu's whole being finally relaxed.
"We talk too much sometimes. Let's be silent this time," Bing Shi still wanted to live.
"As you wish," Xuan Mu could see it. Tomorrow, there was going to be a rainfall of questions from her.
Such a rare thing for Bing Shi and Xuan Mu to be so silent. The silence didn't feel awkward, as both of them were finally feeling content after all the chaotic disputes.
"Xuan Mu, are you done? I'm sleepy," Bing Shi tried to keep herself awake by rubbing her eyes. It was two in the morning.
"Far from done. You can go to sleep. Thank you for staying up for such a long time," Xuan Mu started to feel guilty. Was his selfish side acting up?
"Take good care of your little Mu Mu. It's going to be mine in the future," Bing Shi grinned. She just found out about her new entertainment.
"Only Mu Mu? What about my whole being? And who said it's small?" Xuan Mu sulked, thinking about how he was going to be teased by her a lot. Whatever, as long as they'd have fun.
"Haha, you are right again! My big Mu Mu, My Xuan Mu, Good niiiight," wished Bing Shi with a yawn.
"Good night. Sleep well," Xuan Mu laughed. Could her voice sound even more sleepy? It didn't suit her personality at all. Her voice sounded like she was bored to death, despite her having fun all the time.
'~See? I was right again.'
'Yeah, I'm lucky to have you, my heart only knows how to get hurt, so useless...'
'Wait, It's keeping me alive.'
'It also knows how to get excited and happy.'
'Maybe it's not that useless after all?'
Xuan Mu played with himself the whole night as he looked at her cute pictures. He couldn't get enough. His imagination went wild with the thoughts of Bing Shi.
He covered his face with his arm and started to laugh. 'Dear, can you be even more amazing?'
He didn't even know he had depression.
Did she save him again?
Was she still his drug?
No.
She was his antidote...
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