@kySetheria
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Dahil sa litseng Viral na 'yan na pagawa pa tuloy ako ng social media accounts. Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, and even tiktok account. Completo.
I search myself in different platforms, and confirmed, I'm seen everywhere. Ayon sa mga tao'y nag trending ako dahil sa isang babaeng nag ti-tiktok I was sitting under the tree, wearing a mask and was so focused on my phone. The video blow up because people called me 'attractive'. As far as I remember, this was when I was in the park with the special science. Mag-isa lang ako dahil nag walk-out na si Layvanve at nagpaalam naman si Mattew na bibiling palamig.
I was just sitting!
@magda: si babe naman, nagkaaway lang kami kung kaninong likod na nagtatambay. Uwi na mahal, di na me galit.
@loy: pakisabi sa asawa ko sa likod mo hanap na siya nang mga anak namin.
@toykiz: naranasan ko rin 'yan eh. Yung umupo.
@yenyen: ay kami pa nyan, sis.
I can't help but to cringe by their comments. Naging tatay pa 'ko nang wala sa oras. Even people from my school seen the video. Some commented that they knew me and stuffs. Mas lumakas ang ingay dahil sa vlog noong Adeline. I also just found out that she wasn't the first one to make videos with me. People really tried talking to me, but everytime I would just walk past through them or excuse myself.
It really creeps me out tho. Some people even tried making videos copying me, making contents about me. Some people even used me for popularity, like this one.
@AidanLuis:
with my poging kapatid.
He posted a picture of us sitting at the couch watching a movie. I was focusing on the television while laying on the couch, my left arm on my cheeks supporting my head's weight.
@AidanLuis:
grumpy kuya.
He posted a picture of me standing few steps away from him. He was also at the frame, pouting and his brows furrowed. I think this is when I scolded him because he left the microwave on, saying he feel asleep.
He posted more pictures of us and people liked it. Para siyang taga update nila, sa kung ano anong ginagawa ko. There was even one when I was driving to class. Drinking wine. Him laying on my lap. Meron pang pinagluluto ko siya.
Sakanya pala galing ang ibang pictures na nakikita ko sa internet. Hinayaan ko na lang siya, doon siya masaya, eh. Pinagsabihan ko na rin naman siyang wag sumubra sa pag po-post sakin cause it's creepy and it's invading my privacy. Siya lang rin ang fina-follow ko sa IG, siya lang rin at sina mommy't Daddy ang friends ko sa Facebook. He insisted to make my tiktok account public, cause he was the one who made it. Gumawa pa kami nang tiktok video kasama sina mommy para lang daw magkalaman.
I don't know how but people manage to find my account so fast. Marami na agad ang na sa friend request ko. Mabuti na lang naka private lahat ng account ko maliban sa Tiktok.
After some few more scrolls ay kusa na 'kong nakatulog. I woke up 5 in the morning. I did my morning routine after waking Aidan up, like I always do. We're already eating when my phone ringed as a sign of a notification. It was a notification from Instagram.
@Killy commented on your post.
Killian commented on my IG post. Well it was just a picture of my desk with my notes and laptop on my study table. I took it last night while studying. Aidan said I should post something so I did.
@Killy: sipag naman ni2. Baka umapaw na sa 100 average mi 👄
I replied to his comment.
@kySetheria: you replied to- @killy have to work hard. Summer needs an hard working parent.
@Killy: replied to your comment- ikaw na bahala sa brain ako na sa looks 🎾
@kySetheria: you replied to- @Killy ur looks won't feel his tummy, dummy.
@killy: replied to your comment- at least his pride and confidence will overflow 💿
I was about to type a message but summer barked. I didn't even realized he was near. An idea suddenly, appeared in my mind. I picked him up and put him on my lap. Summer is an eater. He would always pout and throw tantrums like a child whenever he doesn't get enough treats.
I picked the left hotdog on my plate and showed it to him. His mood lights up the moment he layed his eyes on it. Nilapit ko ang hatdog sa kanya, but before he could bite it I moved it away. My movements was fast, I took my camera and captured his reaction. He tilted his head and eyes are looking at me, offended. Pagkatapos siyang mapicturan ay ibinigay ko na rin ang hotdog sa kanya.
I posted his reaction on my IG account. Then gave it a caption.
@kySetheria:
You can keep ur pride for urself na lang daw. @killy
Agad naman nag react at comment si Killian.
@Killy: Daddy's sulking na. No more nuggets for you. ☸
I laughed and didn't reply anymore. Tinapos ko na lang ang pagkain at nagready na pa eskwelahan. I drove with Aidan to school after that. May mga tao na rin sa school. And of course girls from different Schools are here.
Nagpaalam na sakin si Aidan dahil ibang daan na ang tatahakin niya. Papasok na sana ako sa classroom nang may isang kahon ang umagaw sa attention ko. It was faced in front of me na para bang gusto niya talagang makuha ang attention ko.
Tinignan ko naman ang may gawa non. "Claire."
Mas lumapad ang ngiti niya nang magtagpo ang aming tingin. She handed me the box again.
It's a black small box with a red ribbon.
Sinulyapan ko siyang muli, hindi alam kong anong gagawin ron. Nang mahalata niyang wala akong planong tanggapin 'yon ay kusa niyang inabot ang aking kamay at pinatong 'yon roon.
My brow raised nang makitang natigilan at namula siya nang maghawak ang aming kamay. She brushed her reaction off by shaking her head. She glanced at me widely again. She walked closer to me. I halted when her arms wrapped around my left one.
I glance at my surroundings looking for her friends, yet they weren't there. "Your friends?" I asked her.
Tumigil siya sa paglalakad, she glance at me again as her grip on my arm tighten. "They're busy." She's lying.
I can see it.
Hindi na lang ako nangialam at nagpatiwarik sa lakad niya. "Kumain kana?"
I nodded. "You?"
Ngumiti siya. "Nope,"
Tinignan ko ang oras sa aking relo. It's only 6:23 may oras pa kami. "Let's go,"
Hindi ko na hinintay ang sagot niya. I walked my hands on my pocket while her arms are on my left one clinging to me. I took her bag from her and carried it in my arms while held my by hand. May dadaanan kaming ibang mga estusyante. People are glaring at her. Some are even judging her by their glance. Pero pag tinignan ko naman sila'y agad nagpapacute. I didn't mind them and continued.
Dinala ko siya sa cafeteria nang special science. "Wait here." I said as I put our bags down. "Anything you want?"
She didn't move. She stared at me as if she wanna say something yet hesitates.
"Hm?"
"A-ano..." She looked away and played with her hand.
I pat her head. "My treat. Anything you want?"
Tumingin siya sakin, gulat.
In the end I was the one to choose for the both of us. Nahihirapan daw kasi siyang pumili dahil 'mahal'. I bought her a tapsilog with ham and chocolate cake and a bottomless ice tea. Kumain na 'ko yet I still ordered a kamote fries.
I sat beside her. Nahiya pa siya noong una dahil may mga nakatingin sa kanya. Siya lang kasi ang nagiisang babae dito. Everyone here is all from special science. I watched her take bits of her food. Hindi ko maiwasang maisip na ibang iba sa ngayon kesa kahapon. Kahapon kasi'y napaka confident niya, ngayon naman parang gusto na niyang magtago sakin.
At the middle of her eating, my attention went to her behind ear. I know she's wearing makeup pero sa parteng 'to ay wala. Nakita ko ang pamumula doon. Akala ko'y simpleng kamot lang, yet the more I stare at her I realized she has scratches around her body. Sa braso, leeg, tenga, daliri. Iba't iba ang laki. Merong peklat na lang, meron ring halatang bago pa.
Napangiwi ako nang makita ang tenga niya mismo. May hati roon. Maliit lang pero halatang nahati talaga. I tried to touch it but Claire flinched. She looked at me like she's scared. Her eyes formed a circle.
"B-bakit?"
"Yung tenga mo... May sugat?" I glance at her ear again.
Sa gulat ko'y bigla siyang tumayo. Mas she look so terrified. Dali-dali niyang kinuha ang bag at naglakad paalis. Napatingin samin ang ibang estusyante. Sinundan ko naman siya.
Dire-diretso siyang lumakad, tila nagmamadali. Hinabol ko siya't hinablot ang kamay. Para kasing hindi niya naman alam kung saan siya pupunta.
My tongue couldn't form a word when I saw her teary eye. Her eyes widen so I can see a clearer vision of her eye. There's a fear reaction in her. Na guilty naman ako sa pag-iisip na baka mashadong sensitive ang tanong ko kanina't biglaan.
I cursed in myself in my mind when tears started to fall from her eyes. Pinagtitinginan na naman kami yet I didn't care. Guilt ate my system. I pulled her closer to me and hug her. She's smaller than me, hanggang leeg ko lang siya. Bumaon ang muka niya sa leeg ko. Her arm wrapped around my waist and I can hear her sobs. I pat her head as she continues.
After a few minutes ay kumalma na siya. Kusa siyang bumitaw sa akin. People are watching us, and she realized that. Nahiya naman siya't yumuko. I chuckled before getting my towel. I wiped her tears. Pumikit siya sandali. When she opened her eyes ay pinakatitigan niya lang ako.
When our eyes met, she blushed and look away. I chuckled at her. She's so light skin that it's pretty obvious when she blushes.
"Let's go to the bathroom. You should fix yourself." I said.
I didn't give her a chance to speak and pulled her with me already. Pagdating sa banyo ay siya lang ang pinapasok ko. Seperate ang babae at banyo nang lalaki. Even tho I have the right, ang panget parin pumasok sa banyo nang babae pagpumasok ako roon.
Pagkatapos niya'y lumabas na siya. Iniiwasan parin niya ang mga tingin ko. She blushes by my every touch.
"Ok kana?"
She nodded. Pulang-pula parin ang tenga't leeg niya. Inakbayan ko siya't inakay na paalis.
"Where's your school? It's late, you should go now. Ihahatid kita." I suggested.
Hindi siya umimik pero kumalma naman na siya. Her eyes are so soft. She look so fragile and innocent. Malayo sa energetic and masiyahang Claire na nakilala ko kahapon.
I stopped walking when I noticed weird by her action. Napatingin siya sakin. Her mouth is softly pouting.
"May problema ba?" I asked her.
Hindi siya sumagot. Her eyes look so fragile. Her silence alone answered my question.
I held her hand kaya napatingin siya sakin. "Hey, what's wrong?"
Lumambot ang mga mata niya na agad niyang iwinasi. Nag pilit siya ng ngiti. She shook her head at me.
I didn't believe her. Instead, I softly walked closer to her making her step back. She stopped when her back hit the wall. Napako ang tingin niya sa 'kin. I put my arm on the wall leaning closer to her.
"Claire," I don't know why did that sound sexual?
She gulped yet she can't take her eyes of me. "Hm?"
"What's wrong?" I asked again. More calmer this time. "The truth, Claire. The truth."
Hindi siya nakaimik at napatingin lalo sakin. There's an emotion in her eyes. But my arm is blocking the sunlight making it hard for me to identify that emotion. Mas nilapit ko ang muka sa kanya.
Her eyes are so soft. Para bang ang hinahina niya. Like she's completely harmless.
I left a few inch between our faces. Her eyes are wide open, not breaking our stare.
"Claire-"
Hindi ko na natapos ang sasabihin dahil bigla siyang nanlumo't napaupo sa sahig. I panicked at lumuhod sa isang paa.
"Hey, what's wrong?"
Her hands are on her chest. Bumigat rin ang kaniyang paghinga. She's blushing again. Mas pula pa siya kesa kanina.
I held her arm. "What's wrong?"
Hindi na siya makatingin sakin ngayon. Sa gulat ko'y bigla niya 'kong niyakap. "You're going to be the death of me." She whispered.
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Claire's POV.
Hindi ko alam kung paano pa 'ko nakaalis sa sitwasyong 'yon. I just found myself in the clinic bed. Khai's not here yet. My heart still can't calm the shit down. After the incident earlier, he got so worried he carried me like a bride and brought me to the clinic.
Umalis muna siya dahil may kakausapin raw. After I told her about my situation, he suggested that I should stay here for a while. He's worried that I might lose my strength again.
Wala na kasi kaming pasok. The school announced it. Pero those people did it again. Yung mga kasama ko kahapon weren't my friends, they were my fucking bully. Fuck them. They made me talk to Khai yesterday.
Kalat na kalat kasing snober at hindi siya nanamansin. They expected that he would do the same thing to me. Yet instead, the opposite happened. Remembering how he smiled and laughed at me earlier flatter me so much.
Mina, the so-called queen B in our school, has a crush on Khai. So when she found out what happened, she completely lost it. She made everyone pretend that they're already in class today and there's an important announcement. Ako naman si Tanga nagmadali. Only to find out na wala naman talagang pasok.
Tangina. Kung hindi lang siya anak nang may ari ng school, e-te-tape ko talaga siya sa bangko't hindi papaalisin ron boung school year.
When I told Khai about it. He got annoyed, he even called what Mina did a 'bitchy thing'. And instead of going home, he offered that I should stay here.
Umayos ako nang pagkakahiga ng makabalik siya. He sat on the bed. "I called a friend. We got his permission. Sasama ka sakin."
"S-saan?"
"Class." That's what he said before talking to the nurse.
C-class?
Fear occupied my body. Fuck, no, hell no. Nandon si...
He's gonna kill me. Hindi pwede. Labag ito sa usapan.
"K-khai..."
Hindi siya umimik pero nakatingin siya sakin waiting for me to continue.
"U-uuwi na lang ako. My mom my be worried."
"Sirado na ang gate. Plus, you just lost your strength. Too risky."
When he's like this, I doubt my decision.
How? How could we ever do such thing to someone as pure as him.
What did you ever do to deserve them? They're bullshit.
Hindi na 'ko nakaangal sa decision niya. He carried me bridal style again to their classroom.
Every step he takes stabbes a 7inch knife at me.
"Khai?"
Hindi siya muling umimik at tinaasan lang ako nang kilay.
"T-the special science, what are they like?" I asked with hesitation.
Hindi pa siya nakaimik at pinakatitigan muna ako. "Mature, starves themselves to satisfy the academic achievement they're craving for."
"And? are you guys f-friends? What are they like?"
"Mapaglaro. Prankers. Competitive. Mapagmatingin rin sila sa paligid..."
He seems to think about the words he's spitting carefully.
I can't help but to pitty him. If only... If only, Khai.
If you found out what they did. Could you still talk to them? Would you still describe them the same way?
Kuya:
What the fuck are you doing here?! Have you lost it? Have you fucking lost it?!
I'm gonna fucking kill you, bitch!
You better be ready motherfucker.
You better tell him nothing you useless bitch.
Khai please watch out. I don't want you to suffer the same shit as him. Not you, not again.
Flashback...
"Is it done?... Good... Take care of that... Ok...."
"K-kuya?" I walked near him.
There he goes again with his calls.
"What?!"
"Y-yung baon ko p-po."
He stared at me with disgust. I flinch when he grabbed me by the jaw. "Fuck you. Wala kang makukuha sa akin bata. You whore."
Padabog nya 'kong binitawan.
Again. Lagi na lang.
Me:
Babe?
Hey.
Good morning po.
Kamusta kana?
Kumain kana ba?
Different message. Dalawang linggo na. Dalawang linggo na siyang hindi nagpaparamdam.
My boyfriend. He hasn't contacted me for days. I went to his house at wala na rin siya ron.
[C-claire?]
"Hello? Kyesha?"
[Ayan na?! Ipakausap mo sakin yang babaeng yan?! HELLO? CLAIRE?] I heard tita Kristine's voice from the back.
"Tita? Hello po? Tita-"
[DEMONYO! DEMONYO KA! A-ANONG GINAWA MO SA ANAK KO?! HAYOP KA! HAYOP KA, VALLE! HAYOP KAYO!]
I halted when I heard her shout. Subrang ingay. Different sound. Different emotions. Yet I can't hear them all but my heart beat skipping beat.
"A-ano po? May nangyare po ba?"
[H-hayop kayo.... Pinatay n-nyo ang anak ko! Wala kayong a-awa!]
End of flashback.
Years past the burden and pain, is here. It's still here. In never left.
That day, news spread out. My boyfriend was found dead in a grass field. He was last seen at the school yet he was found in a mountain.
The image of him laying on the ground lifeless still hunts me.
They're voices, they're blames and accusations, it still hunts me.
And guilt still fucking drowns me, knowing he died because of him.
Kuya:
Better keep that slutty mouth of yours.
Please forgive them, Please forgive me, kill.