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: sorry :
Aria's death has been a huge impact on me.
I've been able to hold my feelings in.
I tried; it worked sometimes but not all the time.
It's been a couple days since she's jumped.
Now her funeral is coming up.
Everyone knows I've been close to aria so they send me letters or pretend as if they are sorry for me just to make me feel better, it doesn't make me feel better at all if anything it makes me feel worse because I could have stopped her, but I didn't.
I could have stopped her, but I didn't. Why didn't I?
I was just laying around in my apartment.
Nothing to do, or I just didn't want to do anything.
I just bathed in my tears all day.
Barely ate.
I walked around my house trying to find something to do, trying to find something that won't remind me of her.
Anything.
Something.
My phone started ringing.
It's been ringing more than ever these past couple days.
I just wanted to be alone and not to talk to anyone.
No one at all.
I picked my phone up and answered the call.
"Hello? Hello? Y/n are you there" a voice says talking quickly but sounded as if they were calling.
"This is?"
"aria's mom, remember me?" she says.
"Yes, I do."
"Honey are you okay, you don't sound like you're doing well" she says.
Silence.
There was no way she thought I was ok.
I treated her more like family than her own FAMILY.
"No, I'm not doing okay, I just lost my best friend!" I yelled.
"Honey, she was my daughter she meant more to me than to you" she says.
"You surely didn't treat her as one, she looked up to you just for you to treat her like that?" i say.
"well-"
"Well, I? WHAT, nothing. You're the worst mother ever, your disgusting" I say.
Silence on her end.
"You don't even deserve the mother title, your horrible" i say.
"How could you say something like that" she says.
"How can I not? you don't deserve the title, you're just the birth giver nothing else. You're not a mother, your more like a monster" I say.
"I'm not a monster! I tried my best." she says.
"You should have tried harder! You didn't even try at all!" I yell.
"y/n stop"
"WHY DO I HAVE TO STOP!" i yell.
"Your so rude, how can you say something like that to me."
You could hear that she was about to cry.
"How can you live on after doing something like that, you know what bye" i say hanging up.
She wasn't about to annoy me on my phone.
I threw my phone on the couch and walked out the door.
I was tired of everything.
Just livid.
But I could handle my feelings towards anyone.
Just not her, nor the rest of her family.
They were just disgusting.
Horrible.
I walked out my apartment complex and across the street to the other side.
I was walking with my head down, until.
I bumped into someone or something.
"sorry" the person says.
"it's fine" I said and kept walking.
I felt a light tug.
I turned around and it was aria's twin brother.
Atlas.
"Y/n?" he says.
"Atlas" I say sarcastically.
Atlas was the most annoying wannabe ever, rude, careless, he was about average height, dirty blonde with a horrible tan, the bottom row of his teeth was crooked so when he would talk the bottom row would jiggle and move around, it looked like a fence that got hit by a tornado.
He was the opposite of aria.
He started laughing out of nowhere.
"what's so funny" I asked.
I was serious.
"Just thinking of how that idiot jumped, I mean it was better off without her but it was never like she was even here anyway" he laughed.
I gave him the most confused and disrespected look.
"What?"
"she's an entire idiot, thinking leaving the world would make a change. Ha" he says.
"So useless" he adds on.
He continues to laugh as if it's funny.
I was speechless, so I slapped him.
"What was that for!" he yells.
Demanding an answer.
"You know exactly what that was for! How could you even talk about her that way, your sick just like your mother" I yell.
He storms off.
I didn't care at all.
He didn't even ruin my mood.
2 people in one day, who was I going to meet next.
The daddy?
Pfft.
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