Mom: No worries about that just go relax and have fun he needs time. Go kiss your son and nephew because KJ woke up asking for you. (I went over to the little pool where they were playing and my son splashed me it made me laugh but he asked me if I was ok. I don�t know why he asked me that but I said yea then I kissed the two of them then I went with Nate on the beach. I feel a little bit freer around Nate just for the fact that I don�t have to hide who I am anymore and he still here. A little fun in the sun can be good just to get out and clear my mind so leggo.
I left my mom, She was having a field good day hanging with her grand kids just enjoying the summer. Nate wanted to take me for a swim to clear my mind about the situation so we can talk about Chris breaking up with me.We first stopped to a gas station to get some gas then I went inside to get some snacks for the beach.After that we went all the way out west to chill on the beach just to get away. The smell of the water went up my nostrils and I just looked up at the sky inhaling and exhaling .I took off my clothes so I was only in boxers then I jumped down in the sand and laid back even though the sand was hot as hell.I looked up at the clear blue sky and I was relaxed until my light got blocked by Nate shadow.
Nate: Nigga what the hell you doing let's go in the water (He took my hand and strongly pulled me up. I was walking behind him just looking at how beautiful his body was.His back was so defined with muscles and it was chocolate.It leads down to his deep arch then his bubble butt that had a nigga forgetting we were friends.My hormones was taking over just now I vulnerable so i just hope he as str8 as he say he is. We got in the water and we stayed close to shore with only out head above the water so the questions started to begin. So how long you and Chris been together
Me: Bey do we have to do this now I just trying to enjoy the beach and not think about him
Nate: I'm trying to get you to feel better about the situation man so do you want to talk about it or not
Me: We been together off and on since I was sixteen.Thats a few years good
Nate: Dang bey that's a long time so why did yawl break up again
Me: I started to laugh because Nate is just being super nosey right now but he just trying to help.We broke up because I guess I turn down his marriage proposal I think that's what it is he said I hurt him
Nate: Yawl never talked about getting married pior to last night.
Me: We were engaged
Nate: He started to laugh then why are you so surprised that he wanted to marry or make it and official engagement if you two already agreed to get married. This is where your age come into play cause you both are just so retarded then he burst out laughing
Me: Nigga forget you!I didn't expect him to jump up and want to get married right now.I don't want to get married right now but he do.I told him I got a son and you know how these crazy baby mothers is carry on.I just don't want give her a reason to go to the courts with and they take my song away from me especially how after that boy killed his son or the other dude that kidnapped raped and murdered that little boy then put him in paper bags.
Nate: I totally understand because our society ain't really to big on gays I just had to stop one of my friends from beating up one gay guy who was trying to come on to him.I had to ask him if he was gay because he let that dude just change his mood for the hold day.The dude hit on me too and I was like thank you but I don't go that way bro and he respected that.Life to short to be getting mad for petty shit just like this shit between you and Chris it's stupid and petty.If he really loved you he wouldn't care about marriage as long as you two were together.
Me:This the third time he shove me off to the side.We went through so much together and I went through to much just to show him I love him but I guess that don't mean nothing to him. By the way you ain't got to worry about me coming on to you for the record.
Nate: We cool bey you my boy and I know we got that respect for each other man so don't worry about nothing. We stayed in the water talking about a lot of shit.It surprised me that we didn't get closer from long time ago even though we were friends when I met him in college I just thought our friendship would die when the class ended. (After we got wrinkled up we got out the water and then we got in his ride.) So what you want to do now?
Me: I'm starving so let's go get some Wendy's
Nate: Good idea because my mind was on food all that time we was in the water talking about your relationship and this petty break up.You to will be back together in week.
We went to the Wendy's that was close by the by Nate crib but we went on the drive through because we were still a little wet and naked only in boxers. after we ordered I just laid back then looked in the mirror to see what looked like it was Chris car. I told Nate Chris was on the drive through behind us and he told me just let it go he will come around. I understood all of that but I was just so hurt that he broke up with me again then clean up all his shit from out my crib I just wanted to talk to him. I texted him then I said in the text I love you Chris don't let something like this ruin what we have built.I could see his shadow through the glass reading the text so I called him then he looked at the phone again but he didn't answer me. I just angry and I got out the car and went over to his car and open the door then went inside. It was a typical bottom action I know but I was mad as fuck
Me: Chris why you doing this to me! ( I started to cry because this shit hurt me to the core. I didn't give him what he want so he going to hurt me back that's so childish) Talk to me Chris why you doing this to us
Chris: Why you doing this to us! you don't fucking love me and I don't want fuck up things for you and KJ so I eliminating myself bro( I was crying so I went closer to him then kissed him on his cheek but he brushed me off then that's when it struck me that he didn't want me no more. He start telling me get out and get a grip of myself)
Me: Wow! This what we come too when last week you couldn't stop telling me how much you loved me! What the fuck is this shit Chris! What the fuck is this shit! You going remember this shit bruh and I won't ever forget this . I fucking almost died twice for your ass and you mad because of a marriage proposal when that wasn't even needed what we has was passed that. All this show me is that you didn't love me at all I just was a piece of ass to you
Chris: Get the fuck out of my car! Go live your life and not be married to me let's see how happy you will be.
Me: I fucking hate you! You make me sick!
Chris: I hate you too! Get the fuck out my car man!
I got out his car and I slammed that door so hard that the glass cracked.I was so angry and confused because he turned into a different person all because I didn't want marry him.I feel like I've wasted a big junk of my life fucking with him or I felt stupid to think that it was real.I was so confused right now as I climb back into Nate car.
Nate: Bey are you ok I told you not to go over there what did he say to you
Me: He don't love me! It ain't what he said it's how he said it to me he was so cold and it just seem like he was a different person.Im so confused right now bey cause I almost died twice for him and he going to talk to me like that.I just started to bitch out and cry as we drive off from Wendy's. We went over by Nate and he just he was just trying to be there for me.
Nate: Make yourself at home brother. My parents gone away so I'm house sitting and I didn't want you be alone so thought you might want crash here for tonight if you don't mind seeing how both of our kids are taking care of. We can talk some more
Me: I need rum bey I'm all fucked up right now! Dion texting me I'm just over fucking him too. Probably need to take this opportunity to stay single for a while
Nate: yea why not you probably can try out some pussy for a while but see some clothes you can take a shower in that bathroom down the hall and I will use the one upstairs so we can drink when we done
Me: Maybe I should but naw to much drama with females I just ain't into that.How can I be taking dick then go back to fucking females that's hypocritical.
Nate: That's true ( I went down to the hall the to bath then after Nate and I got a bottle of hennesey into his room while we watch soul food because it was on cable) We just talked about everything and started to drink a lot more and the rum made me feel so much better I wasn't thinking about Chris or nothing and I was actually smiling.
Me: I'm actually curious about you why aren't you running away from me right now. I'm gay bey and I'm drunk
Nate: Mjay you my boy man and I don't have a problem with you being into niggas it is what it is. You could kiss me right now and I wouldn't get hard
Me: Yea right! I know I might not be what you into but I know I can turn you on I'm a fine ass nigga well I drunk fine ass nigga.
Nate: Try me then let's test this theory no matter what you do I bet you I won't get turned on at all my friend. I ain't gay!
Yea I know many are mad as hell with me but I'm back now for good to finish up the story but I just want thank my true fans for waiting for me.....Hope you guys enjoyed the chapter and there is more to come
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