For Bojan, the rest of the day flew by as the band had to prepare for their next concert. He was so busy that he seemed to forget about his problems for a while.
Once him and the rest of the bandmates arrived back at the hotel, Bojan decided to take a hot shower. Instead of finding it relaxing, his head became flooded with thoughts of Jere. The touching, the hugging, the kissing. Even just remembering them made his entire body tingle as the warm water covered his body.
It was quite late once he got out so he headed straight to bed. However, sleeping seemed impossible. His head felt overcrowded with different thoughts as he laid in bed by himself. He thought of how comfortable he felt when he slept next to Jere, holding him in his arms. He felt like he couldn't sleep by himself... he needed him there with him. He wanted to hug him, hold his hand, kiss him... even just looking at him would help him sleep.
1 hour later
It was now 1am and he still hasn't managed to fall asleep. "Maybe I should get up for a bit... maybe that will help.", he thought.
Before going out on the balcony, he put a sweater on as it was chilly outside. He looked outside towards the quite and empty city streets. A small breeze hit his face. He felt so lost. He didn't know what to do. He felt like he was by himself and that no one could help him and that even if he talked about it, no one would understand. He didn't want to be judged.
After a while, he heard the door of the balcony open gently.
It was Nace.
Nace: "You can't sleep too?"
Bojan: "Yeah, something like that."
Nace: "Bojan... I'm worried about you. I've never seen you like this."
Bojan: "Like what?"
Nace: "Like you're constantly in your head. It's like you want to say something but you can't."
Bojan took a deep breath, "I just don't think that anyone would understand..."
Nace: "You can't be certain unless you try."
Bojan started fidgeting again, just like he did when he was talking to Nace at Jere's apartment.
Bojan: "I-I... I think I-..."
Bojan almost felt like he was suffocating. All of the conflicting emotions that he was feeling started bubbling up and he could no longer keep it to himself.
Bojan: "I think... I think I like Jere..."
Nace: "Like as a friend?"
Bojan: "No..."
Bojan started blushing. Even though it was dark outside, Nace could still notice it.
Nace: "Did something happen between you two?"
Bojan looked around to make sure that no one else was there, eavesdropping on their conversation.
Bojan: "Yes... we kissed... and more than that...".
Nace: "How long has this been going on for?"
Bojan: "Ever since Eurovision."
Nace felt sorry for Bojan. He felt guilty that he was completely oblivious to what was going on between Bojan and Jere. He could have been there for him and he wouldn't have felt the need to keep all of this to himself for so long.
Nace hugged Bojan tightly. "You could have told me... you shouldn't have felt the need to keep all of this to yourself."
A tear escaped Bojan's eyes. "I'm sorry, I was just so confused. I still am. I don't know what to do.".
Nace: "How does Jere feel about hiding your relationship?"
Bojan: "He did tell me that he didn't want to keep us a secret forever... but he also said that he understands if I'm not comfortable coming out yet."
Nace: "It's already a start that you told me. I promise I won't tell the rest until you are okay with it".
Bojan: "Thanks, but I just don't know if I'll ever feel ready."
Nace: "Before you weren't ready to tell me but now you did. I'm sure that eventually you'll be ready to tell the whole world."
Bojan started looking towards the empty streets again.
Nace: "Do you miss him?"
Bojan: "I know I saw him this morning but I really do. I feel like I don't have the words to explain how much I miss him already. This might sound weird but I just felt so lonely in bed by myself..."
Nace: "Why don't you call him?"
Bojan: "But it's almost two in the morning. I don't want to wake him."
Nace: "Maybe he's missing you too".
Nace smiled to show his support.
The thought of hearing Jere's voice again, even if it's just through the phone, made him excited.
Bojan: "You know what... you're right. I'm going to go call him now. Thanks Nace and goodnight!".
Bojan went sprinting back to his room, hopped on his bed, dialed Jere's number and called him. While he was waiting for Jere to respond, he felt his heart flutter. He was staring up towards the ceiling, hoping that Jere would answer his call. He needed to hear his voice. It was no longer just a desire, but a neccesity.
He was about to give up when the call suddenly picked up.
Jere: "Hello?"
Bojan found it so cute and adorable how tired and sleepy Jere's voice sounded.
Bojan: "Did I wake you up?"
Jere: "Yeah, but it's okay."
Jere yawned. "So, why did you call at this time? Is everything okay?".
Bojan felt shy to tell him the reason why he called; to tell him how he misses him already and how he cannot stop thinking about him. He was scared that he would come off as clingy.
Jere: "Hello? Are you still there?"
But Bojan wanted to tell him. Maybe it's all in his head and maybe Jere feels the same way.
Bojan: "I just... really miss you."
Jere laughed gently, but the moment he heard that Bojan misses him, he smirked behind the phone and screamed internally. He also felt the same way. "Didn't you just see me this morning?"
Bojan: "I know but I can't help it. When will I see you again?".
Jere: "That's a surprise!"
Bojan: "Oh come on, tell me!"
Jere: "No no no!", Jere laughed again. Jere's laugh was like music to Bojan's ears. He found his laugh so attractive and contagious.
Bojan started feeling sleepy.
Bojan: "I should let you rest... good night"
Jere: "Good night Bojan".
Bojan felt much calmer after the phone call. Hearing Jere's voice was healing to him and it brought him so much comfort knowing that even though Jere was tired, he still stayed awake to talk to him.
Bojan closed his eyes, with his lips curling up into a small smile and managed to sleep calmly all night long.
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