Alam na ni Layvance!
"What you did is against the rule." May pagbabanta ko siyang tinignan kahit nanginginig na 'ko.
Adito kami ngayon sa classroom. At dahil kanina pa ang uwian ay kami lamang ang narito.
"I'm the SSG President. I'm obligated to make sure things go the right way." Hindi parin naalais ang nakakalukong ngiti niya. "And you being here is a huge mistake. You do realize that you're in a all boys school, right?"
"Then I'll leave." Matapang kong turan.
But to my shock his face turned dead serious. Unti-unti siyang naglakad sa akin. "It's not that easy, Ms. Setheria." His hands went to my cheeks. "You think I'll let you go easily?"
Winasi ko ang kamay niya at pabalibag na tumayo, pinapantayan ang mga tingin niya.
Pambihera. Magkapatid nga talaga sila ni Lawrence. Mga putangina.
"You're just like your brother." Malamig kong turan.
His eyes turned darker. My eyes widen when his arm went to my waist. "I'm far, far, far, worst than my brother, Darling. He's nothing but a trying hard wanna-be-me." Bakas ang pagkaseryoso sa boses niya.
Subrang lapit nang muka niya sakin naamoy ko na ang hininga niya.
Shocks ang bango!
"T-then what do you want?"
"You." Walang kautal-utal niyang sagot.
Agad akong napabalikwas dahil sa sagot niya. Lumayos ako nang plant hakbang habang tinitignan siya nang masama. "Ano?!"
"I want you," He answered without hesitation.
"Gago ka ba?!"
"Language, miss."
"Ulul. Lilipat na lang ako nang skwelahan." Lumapit ako sa isang upuan kung nasaan ang bag ko nang may nauna na sakin. "Ano ba?!"
Hindi siya umimik at tinago ang bag ko sa likod niya. "Like I told you, it's not that easy."
"It is! I'll transfer school that's it!" Pilit kong inaagaw ang bag ko sakanya kaso itinaas nang piste ang kamay niya.
Mashado siyang matangkad. I think he's around 6'2ft kaya hindi ko maabot ang pisteng bag.
"Piste, bahala ka diyan. Edi sayo na yang bag na yan." I give up.
Hindi ko naman ginastosan ang laman non. Kahit ako nga ang bumili non ay hindi kaya nang enerheya ko 'to.
I walked away from him but before I could leave the room ay may kamay na namang pumulupot sa bewang ko.
"Ah!" Tili ko nang maramdaman ang paglutang ko. "Layvance! Fuck you! Let me go!"
He's carrying me in his shoulder na parang sako nang bigas. Hindi niya' ko sinagot. Kumunot ang noo ko nang ibaba niya ko sa Teachers table.
His hands both went to my sides parang kinukulong ako while he's infront of me. "Hindi ka pwedeng umalis." Seryoso niyang turan.
"At bakit?! Diyos ka ba?!"
"No-"
"Oh, yun naman pala, eh. Then stop commanding me!"
"I'm not."
"Then let me go!"
"No!"
Nasampal ko na lang ang noo ko. Tanginang to. Ano ba naman tong taong to.
"Ano ba talagang gusto mo?!" Napipikon na 'ko.
"You!"
"PUTANG INA!" Hindi ko na napigilang magmura.
Minasahe ko ang ilong ko, trying to calm down.
"Just let me finish. You had a talk with Lawrence earlier, shouldn't it be fair na ako rin." Nakakunot na ang noo niya.
"Ikaw rin ano?"
"Kausapin mo!" Pinigilan kong wag ngumiti.
Para kasi siyang batang may hinihingi sa nanay niya.
"Eh, kanina pa tayo naguusap, eh."
"Pero hindi naman tayo nagkakaintindihan!" Tila bata niyang pagmamaktol.
Hindi ko na napigilang mapangiti.
"Oh, ano ngini-ngiti mo riyan?"
I bit my cheeks to restrain myself from smiling. Umiling lang ako sakanya habang nakaiwas nang tingin. "Just tell me what you want already."
"Ikaw nga!"
"Be specific." I looked at him coldly.
Hindi siya nagsalita nang ilang minuto. Tila ang lalim nang iniisip. "I can't read minds, Layvance. You have to speak it out." Hinawakan ko ang pisnge niya at ginalaw-galaw iyon.
Nanlaki ang mata niya habang natigilan tila gulat na gulat sa ginawa ko. Tatagalin ko na sana ang kamay ko dahil tila hindi niya nagustuhan pero dinakip na iyon at binalik sa pisnge niya.
Ako naman ang nanlaki ang mata nang maspinalalim niya ang pagkabaon nang muka niya sa kamay ko. He even closed his eyes feeling my hands warm.
Bumilis naman ang takbo nang tibok na puso ko.
What the fuck is he doing?!
"L-layvance," He opened his eyes. It landed on me.
My heart's beat doubled when I saw how he stared at me. There's a lot of emotions in his eyes. Longing, comfort, desire.
Maslalong bumilis ang tibok nang puso ko nang hinila niya ang kamay ko nang mahina bago lumapit sakin at siniil ako nang yakap.
Hindi ako nakagalaw dahil sa ginawa niya. His hug tightened and I felt him digging his head on my shoulder.
Tila nanghina ako nang may marinig na humihikbi. Kami lang dalawa ang narito at dahil sa lapit niya sakin ay alam kong siya yoon.
"F-finally..." Humihikbi niyang turan.
Hindi ko na napigilang yakapin siya pabalik. "L-layvance? May problema ba?" Hinagod-hagod ko ang likod niya.
Hindi siya umimik pero mashumipit pa ang yakap niya sakin.
Hindi ko na alam kung gano na kami katagal ni Layvance sa positiong to. Hindi na siya umiiyak pero hindi pa rin siya bumibitaw sa'akin. Nagiba na ang position namin.
We're now sitting on the teacher's chair. I am sitting on his lap as he buries his head on my neck while his two arms are both around my waist.
Ilang minuto pa ang lumipas bago unti-unting lumuwag ang yakap niya sakin. His eyes are already swollen. Hindi siya nakangitin sakin. He wipped his after he took his glasses off.
When our eyes met I just smiled at him.
What am I suppose to do? Someone just cried their heart out on my shoulder! Should I say something?! Ano ba dapat?!
He smiled a little before putting his arms around my waist again. We stared at each other.
"O-ok ka lang ba?" Nagaalala kong tanong.
He nodded. "You have a great shoulder to cry on." Tumawa pa siya ng mahina.
Hindi ko alam if it's just me or my hallucinations. Pero may iba kay Layvance. He's different from the Layvance earlier. He's more soft now, delicate, and sound so approachable. Ibang iba siya sa Layvance kanina. Kanina'y para siyang lion, ngayon naman'y parang pusa.
"L-layvance, your arms." Pilit kong tinatanggal ang kamay niya sa bewang ko. Ramdam ko kasing humihigpit nanaman yon.
Pero imbis na tanggalin ay maslalo niyang hinigpitan at tuluyan nang lumapit sakin.
"H-hey! Ano ba?!" Pagpupumiglas ko.
"Let me stay like this, please..." Pinalambot niya pa ang boses niya.
Ramdam ko nanaman ang pagpula nang pisnge ko.
Yung puso ko!
"W-what?! No!" Pilit kong kinakalimutan ang nararamdamang paru-paru sa tiyan at muling nagpumiglas.
"Please?" Niyakap niya 'ko nang mahigpit.
"No! Ano bang nangyayare sayo?!"
Sa gulat ko'y bigla niya 'kong binuhat at pinahiga sa lamesa. "Nilalamig."
"Puta! Ano?!"
"I'm a cold person, Setheria."
"Ako rin! Pero hindi ako basta-basta nangyayakap!"
"No! Listen to me first would you?!" Medyo tumaas na ang boses niya.
Kumunot ang noo ko pero 'di na umimik.
"I'm sick, setheria. I'm badly ill." Nasilayan ko ang pagdaan nang masasakit na emosyon sa mata niya kaya alam kong seryoso siya.
"A-anong sakit?"
"I can't feel heat. I'm literally a cold person. I can't feel any heat. Mapa tao, bagay, apoy, climate change, wala." Bahagya siyang umiwas nang tingin.
Ay shuta. May sakit ba na ganon? Like liget?
"Anything but you," He added.
Nalito ako. My brows furrowed in confusion. "What do you mean?"
"You. I can feel you." Hinawakan niya ang pisnge ko. "I can feel your heat. Your warm. Your hot breath. I can feel you Setheria. For the first time in my life, I can feel something other than coldness. Weird, right? I can feel heat from a cold person like you." He chuckled.
Sinamaan ko siya nang tingin. Tinulak ko siya palayo't umayos nang upo. "Hindi ako nakikipag biruan sayo." I said coldy.
"I ain't either." Muli siyang lumapit sakin. "Walang bahid nang pagbibiro ang sinabi ko, Setheria. I'm serious."
My eyes followed him nang naglakad siya paalis. He took something from the Teacher's folder. Muling siyang naglakad palapit sakin. "I can prove it to you." He handed me the folder. "I prepared that while you were away. Away with my asshole brother to be exact."
I raised my left brow by how he described his Brother. Palihim ko siyang inirapan bago tinutok ang attention sa folder niya.
At totoo nga. He has Medical papers, Pictures, examination, lahat-lahat. Enough profs na hindi siya nagsisinungaling.
"Believe me now?" He asked before he took the folder from me.
Hindi ako nakaimik.
I'm still confused. Those papers proved na his sickness was inborn. Even his birth certificate was there. But one more thing I noticed is that it's written there that his a twin.
Pero ipinasawalang bahala ko muna iyon because what's important is he proved his point.
"I-i'm sorry," I don't know why I apologize actually.
Hindi ko naman kasalanan na nagkasakit siya pero na guilty pa rin ako.
I was dumbfounded when I felt an arms embracing me. "Why would you apologize? None of this is your fault."
Oo nga naman.
"But what do you mean you can feel me?" Takang tanong ko.
He stayed silent for a minute before he sat on the chair and pulled it closer to me, he hugged me on my waist.
"Kanina. When I put that pin on your ID chord. I accidently touch you arm when I walked pass you. That's when I felt it for the first time. I had doubts at first, but when I touched you again in the hallway earlier, that's when I confirmed it." Tumingala siya sa 'akin. "I can feel you, Setheria. Your body heat. I can miraculously feel it." Mas humigpit ang yakap niya sakin.
Huh? Ano daw?
Gago nararamdan daw ako. Ganon ba 'ko ka hot?
Hindi, nasayo daw kasi lahat nang hangin kaya nararamdaman niya.
"P-pero pano?"
"I don't know. I don't care. All I know is I can feel you. I need you, Setheria. I badly do." Tumayo siya sa pagkakaupo't yumakap ulit sakin. "P-please let me feel you."
Ano daw?!
"Huh? Pano? Lagi ka lang yayakap sakin? Ugok ka ba?!" Tinulak ko siya palayo.
Hindi naman siya nagpatinag at tinawanan lang ako. "I love that idea."
Tinulak ko ulit siya palayo. "Ugok!"
Nairita na ata siya sa pagtulak ko kaya hinawakan niya ang palapulsunan ko't nilagay sa balikat niya. Nagmumuka tuloy akong nakayakap sa kanya.
"I'm serious, Setheria. Kahit hindi oras-oras. I just want to feel you, please?" Pinaamo niya pa ang mata niya, waiting for my answer.
Well what should i do? May sakit siya. Now he has the chance to feel heat ipagkakait ko pa ba yun sakanya?
Ansama ko namang tao. Matagal na!
I sigh. "Wala naman akong magagawa. Baka sakaling init ko pa ang makakapag pagaling sayo." I stared at his eyes. It's full of hope and expectations. "Let make a deal then."
He got confused. Kumunot pa ang noo niya. "What do you mean?"
"I'll let you borrow my heat, in exchange of your voice."
Mas lalo siyang nagulat. Nanlaki pa ang mata. "Ano?!"
Magiging Ariel tayo for today's video.
"I'll let you feel me, but you won't tell anyone about me and my gender. And don't ask about it either." I clarified.
Mukang na gets niya naman ako dahil napatango-tango pa siya.
"Deal?" I asked.
"Deal." He smiled before he hugged me again.
Hindi ko na siya pinagkaitan at niyakap pabalik.
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A: who do you think is the ML? Layvance or Lawrence?