EPILOGUE
This goes out for anyone who thinks it's WORTH the WAIT.
see you in the third and final installment of this series, CARDOZA BROTHERS III: GOOD BOY featuring Adrian Llyod Cardoza.
thank you for coming this far <3
WARNING: 18+. EXPLICIT CONTENT! Please leave if you are not comfortable or you're under the appropriate age. Thank you.
I can't exactly remember everything. Sometimes you don't remember how long or how many times already when you're doing something.
So just like that, I can't exactly remember how long have we been making out, how long have we been touching each other's body parts, and how long have we been teasing each other... to finally lead up to this moment.
"Alex... Alexander..." ungol ko.
We tried kissing first, and then I asked if I could kiss his neck and basically just take care of him first.
Muntik nang dumugo yung ilong ko nang makita ko yung katawan niya talaga, he took off his dress shirt and I just fucking lost it.
Napalunok ako, binaba ko pa yung tingin ko sa may abs niya tapos pababa sa... nevermind, you get the point.
And now I'm laid down here on top of his bed, he was the one to take my shirt off and even my pants, nakaunderwear na lang ako ngayon habang pantalon at boxers lang ang meron siya.
Ang importante sa'kin ay komportable siya, this is his first time, I want to make sure that it would be good for him then maybe we could try different things after that.
But shit, he's so good with his fingers inside me.
"Y-You don't have to--"
"Let me do it, I want to know every single part of you, Rina."
I already prepared myself while we were making out and almost naked like five minutes ago, hindi niya nagustuhan yon, so he wanted to try and do that.
Nataranta ako sa una pero... I let him.
Bwisit kasi yang mga mata niya, kung makatitig sa'kin parang ibibigay ko na ang lahat sa kanya, kahit pati na rin yung mundo.
And I let him. I gave him everything like an idiot in love, and I still am in love with him, of course.
"You're wet."
Of course I fucking am, how can I not?
Nababaliw na rin yata ako, namumula ako na parang ketchup, tangina... anong nangyayari sa'kin?
"Ah!" ungol ko agad when I felt his fingers move faster.
What the fuck?
Naalala ko when I had sex with my ex for the first time, when he took my virginity. Ganitong ganito rin ang reaksyon ko pero may problema, may problema talaga.
Nahihiya ako, shit.
"Hm..." tumigil siya at tinitigan ako.
His lips curl into a soft smile before he took his fingers out slowly from inside.
"...you must have enjoyed it, ang swerte ko for my first time..." natawa siya at lumapit sa'kin.
I wrapped my arms around his neck and observed him. 'Di siya namumula, parang ang saya saya niya pa.
"Oo na, maswerte ka, tch..."
"O bakit parang naiinis ka? You enjoyed it, right? Should I--"
"No! Just..."
This is really weird.
"...komportable ka ba?" tanong ko ulet sa kanya.
"I am, ikaw?" sagot niya tsaka niya hinalikan ang leeg ko.
Muntik na 'kong mapaungol sa halik niya sa leeg, tangina, pati ba naman halik sa leeg ko kinababaliwan ko na?
Maybe... maybe this is all Alexander.
Alexander is the only one who can make me feel this way, kahit noon pa man, siya lang yung tanging lalaking minahal ko, hindi pa rin nagbabago hanggang ngayon.
"Hoy."
"Huh?"
He pulled away and looked at me, he tucks my hair behind my ear and pressed a quick kiss on my lip.
"May nakakatawa ba? I'm taking this seriously, Rina."
"And so do I..."
"Then why are you laughing?"
I smiled and kissed his hand again.
"Because I love you."
Natigilan siya sa sinabi ko, bumalik yung ngiti niya at hinalikan ulet ang pisngi ko, pababa sa panga at leeg ko.
"I love you too." bulong niya pabalik sa may tenga ko.
I could tell how warm his body is right now against mine, I saw something red around his ears, natawa ulet ako at hinalikan ang balikat niya.
"Are you hard?" I laughed.
Nabigla siya sa sinabi ko, pa'no ba naman kasi, ramdam ko yong lalaki niya sa may binti ko, I thought it was his belt or something but it wasn't.
"Sorry..."
"You don't have to apologize, sinabi ko na sa'yo 'di ba?"
That means he's been holding himself back for like... 30 minutes now?
"You don't have to hold back, Alex. I am okay, and you've already prepped me, remember?"
"Yeah, you're very wet."
Bastos!
He laughed at his own words, baliw talaga siya minsan.
"I can... uhm... change positions if you want."
"No... don't." sagot niya agad at lumuhod, he then unbuckled his belt and threw it to the floor.
Doon ako kinabahan.
Doon ko narealize na... shit, this is happening.
This is not a dream and I am nervous as fuck.
Mas lalo lang akong kinabahan sa nakita ko.
His hair is down but wet and I'm guessing because of the sweat, his broad shoulders, toned chest, and his fucking abs? This man is healthy, grabe, maybe I should just back down?
Next time na lang siguro? 'Di ko yata kaya 'to.
"Damn, Katerina..."
He unzipped his pants and completely removed his pants off his body.
"...you are so beautiful..." he smirked.
Oh my gosh.
I can see it.
Nakataas, what the heck?
I still have a chance, I can still stop this, right?
"...do you want me to take that off from you... or..."
Napalunok ako sa lalaki niya, binalik ko yung atensyon ko sa kanya ulet at umupo, tinanggal ko yung bra ko at pati na rin yung panty ko, my panty is fucking wet, it's his fault.
Bakit ba kasi ang galing niya?
He's already a genius and now he'll also be a genius in bed, damn it.
Wala pa ngang nangyayari pinagpapawisan nanaman ako.
I froze when I felt his eyes on me, something was different, mas lalo lang akong kinabahan nanaman.
Ang lakas at bilis na rin ng pintig ng puso ko sa kaba dito.
Dahan-dahang bumaba yung pokus ng mga mata niya mula sa mukha ko, pababa sa may hickey sa leeg ko, napatitig pa siya sa dibdib ko tapos... sa baba ko.
He's basically eyeing me from head to toe.
"I have never someone as gorgeous as you, Katerina Miranda..." he smirked.
Dumilim ang titig niya sa'kin nang tinanggal niya yung boxers niya.
Shet.
Ba't ang laki?
He's been carrying this?
Okay, deep breaths.
Napapamura nanaman ako sa utak ko, tangina, tangina talaga!
"...I can't believe I'm about to give my first to the woman I have been in love with for the longest time, how lucky is that?" dagdag pa niya.
He crawled back to me again with his manhood all up for me, 'di pa rin ako makamove diyan sa lalaki niya, pa'no ba kasi yan papasok?
"I love you." ulit niya.
Napadpad ang mga kamay niya sa may hita ako, pataas sa baywang ko hanggang sa nakarating na yung mga kamay niya sa dibdib ko.
I flinched at first but I remained calm in front of him, his fingers felt warm against my chest, I was already breathing hard because of his bare body against my own.
I knew that he had a great body, but it was different kapag nakita mo na yon.
"I love you too." I whispered.
"I heard that it would hurt..." he said while wrapping the condom around his length.
I smiled and then closed my eyes before pulling him even closer to me until there is no more space to separate us after he finished putting his condom.
"...so tell me... tell me if it hurts, Rina."
Lumawak ang ngiti ko sa sinabi niya.
"I will, Alex. I will."
I think na mali si Alex, he's not the lucky one, but it's me.
I'm the lucky one.
I was the lucky one to meet you, I was the lucky one to fall in love with you, and I was lucky to be the one you've fallen in love with.
And now, I do not think that I could ever... let you go.
Dahan-dahan niyang ipinasok ang sarili niya sa loob, pinagpapawisan nanaman ako. 'Di ako makahinga, 'di rin nakakatulong yung puso ko.
I knew it, I knew that he might not be able to fit, shit.
"Are you all... i-in?" I asked, whispering.
"I'm only half-way..."
"Halfway?" gulat ko.
Are you telling me that he's only half-way inside?
Parang ilang taon na siya diyan na pinapasok yung sarili niya sa loob ko ha?
Only halfway? Only fucking halfway?
"Are you okay? 'Di ba masakit?"
Alam kong kinakabahan siya sa'kin, even though he's the virgin here, he's not the one who's getting 'fucked', right?
It's me.
I'm the one who is going to get fucked here, and he's here to fuck me.
I'm already here, I'm not going to back out. Pero kung 'di ko pa rin kaya, I'll tap out.
"Just... continue. Go in, Alexander..." hingal kong sagot sa kanya.
Nag-aalinganan siya sa una pero tango siya pagkatapos bago niya sinubukan na ipasok yo'n.
I was more nervous than scared, I trust him, I trust Alexander.
Huminga ako nang malalim at pinikit ang mga mata ko. I moaned and called his name when I felt him enter, now I really feel it, the real shit, his actual length inside me.
"Ah~" ungol ko bigla nang gumalaw siya.
"Sorry..." he apologized.
Fuck, he is big, or maybe none of my exes have really been this 'big'. I was intimidated first, but hopefully... I could get used to his size.
Hopefully po, hopefully.
"You can... move now..." I whispered, still panting and gasping for air.
Tinitigan niya 'ko kasi na para bang aso that's waiting for their treat, I know he's watching me, he's making sure that I feel good, that I'm okay.
He already made me feel good with his fingers inside me kanina para ihanda ako, muntik na nga ako do'n eh. I almost released in his fingers but I kept it in.
And so he moved.
It was slow at first, and it was good thing because I'm still trying to get used to his size.
Pero nung dahan-dahan niyang binilisan yong galaw niya, that's when the 'hard' part began.
"Ah! Ah! A-Alex-- ah!"
Kahit anong gawin ko talaga, kahit na medyo okay na 'ko, ang laki pa rin niya.
I could also hear Alex's voice gradually getting louder the more he thrusts inside me, mas binilisan niya rin ang paggalaw.
I held it in, this feels like an actual workout for some reason, I never thought sex would be this... good?
I can't explain it.
Natawa ako sa sarili ko, pero napahid agad yon nang bumilis pa siya, I'm losing my breath and so I hold onto him.
"Fuck, Rina... you're so good inside..." he smirked and wiped his sweat.
He's so hot. He's so fucking hot.
"I'm close, Rina... I'm fucking close..." mura niya.
I pulled him into a hug with my hands roaming around his back, my left hand up to his hair, and my right hand down to his lower back--scratching his back in pleasure and a bit of pain there but I'm getting used to it and to his size.
It didn't take him five more minutes to finally release inside me, iinumin ko yong pills ko mamaya, I just want to be extra sure, sometimes you still get pregnant even with protection.
Doesn't hurt to be extra careful, 'di ba?
"So good..." he moaned next to my ear and proceeded to leave another kiss on my neck.
"...I love you, Rina. I love you."
"I love you too." ngiti kong sabi kahit na hinihingal pa rin ako.
First round pa lang 'to pero parang 'di ko na kaya, ang dami kong pinagdaanan. Alexander is something else, I'm not sure if he really enjoyed it though.
He laid down next to me, pinulupot niya ang braso niya sa baywang ko.
Hinalikan niya ang labi ko, matukso at mainit ang halik na'min before he pulled away and left a kiss on my forehead and on my cheeks.
"Thank you." he whispered.
Hinihingal din siya nang konti, namumula rin yung pisngi niya, and his eyes... his blue eyes are gorgeous as always, but it's brighter.
Lagi ko kasing kinukumpara kay Ares noon, parehong asul ang mga mata nilang dalawa pero mas maliwanag yung asul sa mata ni Ares kumpara kay Alexander, but now... right now, it's just as bright as Ares' eyes.
"Rina?"
"Sensya na... ang ganda kasi ng mga mata mo."
Hinayaan kong gumalaw ang mga daliri ko sa may mata niya, ang ganda talaga, yon ang isa sa mga dahilan kung bakit nahulog ako sa kanya, nakaadik kasi yung mga mata niya, sino ba namang hinde?
I'm not into swimming but I'm willing to swim in his ocean blue eyes, I swear.
"It's nothing compared to you."
"Please..."
Nagtawanan kaming dalawa, komportable lang kami pagkatapos nang ginawa na'min, akala ko matutulog na 'ko dahil sa pawis at workout, pero heto ako, okay pa rin.
"How was it?"
"Good, really... good. I... I enjoyed it. I do know that I want to do it again with you."
"Ngayon na?" tanong ko sa kanya.
Obviously kabado ako, I'm not sure kung makakaya ko pa yung second round kung ganito na 'ko kapagod.
"No, I'm sure I tired you out..." he laughed.
Baliw. Tired me out? It's more than that, gago.
"But how about you? Did you... feel good?"
"Ah... I'm okay."
"Okay? So you didn't feel good?"
Nagfocus lang ako sa experience niya, na he's comfortable kasi first time niya 'di ba?
"How do I make you feel good?"
Teka lang, ba't bigla siyang umupo, don't tell me... he wants to do another round?
"A-Alex..."
"I heard that it'll feel good if I use my fingers, it worked kanina, how about my mouth?"
Oh my gosh.
Hell no.
I'm not ready for that. 'Di ako prepared na makita si Alexander sa pagitan ng hita ko, mababaliw ako, I'll only want to pull his hair and make him work harder, I'm only aroused just thinking about it.
"A-Alex--"
One thing about Alex, hindi mo na siya mapipigilan kapag napagdesisyunan niya na yon.
Napagdesisyunan niya nga na tanggihan yung nararamdaman ko sa kanya for years, and he kept it until we got older which is now.
"Teka lang... Alexander..."
Tinanggal niya yung kumot sa may katawan ko at dahan-dahan niyang hiniwalay ang mga binti ko, he then kneeled and positioned himself down to my core.
"I won't stop until you feel good, Katerina."
Alexander is a monster. I didn't think that he had such a great stamina that night.
Sinubukan niya talaga ang lahat to make me feel good, I appreciated it, of course.
"You guys are gross." galit na sabi ni Genevieve sa'kin habang nginunguya yung pagkain niya.
She's been craving for Ice Cream for weeks now pero ngayon puro siya donuts, sabi ni Ares she was eating six tacos last week, this woman is a foodie.
Siya yung tipo na kain ng kain pero 'di siya tumataba, kahit noon pa nung nasa high school pa kami, dami niyang kinakain pero 'di talaga tumataba.
She does gain weight sometimes, ngayon kasi nageehersisyo na siya so she's gaining some muscle now.
But for now, 'di mo na pwede.
Dahil buntis siya.
Nagulat ako nang nalaman ko na buntis pala siya, and I was not even surprised that Ares is the father. Ares told me everything, inexplain din sa'kin ni Alexander, everyone was so surprised.
Pero si Quinten at si tito Klaus bwisit na bwisit kay Ares.
And me?
I cried.
Iyak ako ng iyak, 'di ako makapaniwala na magkakaron na sila ng baby Genevieve or baby Ares.
Genevieve used to say na ayaw niyang ikasal o magkaron ng sarili niyang pamilya, but when she found Ares, I just know that all her plans completely changed.
"You guys are really gross." ulet niya.
"Ano ba? Wala naman kaming ginawa?"
"Walang ginawa? You kept it a secret that you've been dating Alexander Cardoza for a while now?"
"It's only been months, Genevieve, kumalma ka."
I had to tell Genevieve na matagal ng kami ni Alexander, sasabihin ko naman din sa kanya pero naging busy nanaman siya kay Ares, busy na magkaron ng anak.
"At nililigawan ka pala niya noon? Kailan? Ilang taon?"
"Di naman gano'n katagal! I already told you!"
"Tch, and he's taking care of you?" she asked, wiping the sugar on the corner lips from the donut.
"Yes! He is!"
Alam ko na galit siya sa'kin dahil tinago ko yung relasyon ko, pero galit siya kay Alexander because she thinks he might hurt me again.
"Does he treat you like a queen? Be--"
"Oo, Genevieve. Oo. And... if he doesn't treat me well then I would have dumped him, remember?"
I know my worth. And my Alexander also knows my worth so well, that's why he's trying his best to be a better boyfriend every single day.
Ilang taon niya rin 'kong pinaghintay, it's only right that he works hard for it even na kami na, even if he's my boyfriend.
"How are you? Kamusta naman ang baby mo?"
Malapit na rin siya, kinakabahan ako para sa kanya kaya lagi na 'kong bumibisita, I would visit her after my work, minsan magsusulat pa 'ko sa kwarto niya.
Alexander would pick me up every time.
Wala na rin kaming time to do 'it', I was just so busy taking care of Genevieve na nakalimutan ko na yun.
Alexander didn't seem to mind either dahil busy din siya kay Ares. Alexander is busy helping Ares managing the Cardoza Angels agency para 'di mastress Ares with work and his fiancé.
"Well, we're having twins. It's going to be extra painful..."
I smiled at her, I grabbed her hand and kissed her knuckles. Nung nalaman ko na she's having twins, I was extra concerned for her, tapos umiyak nanaman ako.
"Don't worry, I'll stay by your side... with Ares, of course. Siya yung tatay eh." tawa ko sa kanya.
"I know... I'm just... nervous."
"It's okay, we'll be there. I promise."
That's all I could tell her, ano namang alam ko sa pagbubuntis? I don't know anything yet, as of this moment, kaya nga kabado talaga ako, I wish I knew something to at least help her.
Tinanong ko nga yung nanay ko at pati na rin yung mga kamag-anak ko, I even asked the mother of Christian Baddel's son.
I did everything at this point.
"Rina..."
Alexander sat next to me at hinawakan ang kamay ko nang mahigpit habang nasa labas kami ng kwarto.
The room where Genevieve is currently giving birth with Ares with her. Kanina pa 'ko iyak ng iyak tapos ubo ng ubo sa nerbyos, I'm so worried about Genevieve.
"I don't... I don't want to lose her, Alex..." I cried.
Sinandal ko ang ulo ko sa balikat niya habang nakapulupot ang braso niya sa may baywang ko to comfort me.
"...bakit ba kasi binuntis ng kapatid mo yung kaibigan ko, ha?" galit kong iyak kay Alexander tsaka palo sa balikat niya.
Natawa naman siya, 'di rin nakakatulong 'tong magaling kong boypren eh! I'm still crying while praying to God na sana okay siya, na sana okay si Genevieve at okay din yung mga kambal niya.
"I guess... it's love." bulong ni Alexander.
Niyakap ko na lang yung boyfriend ko, iyakin yata ako. I'm sure Genevieve would tell her kids that their tita is a crybaby.
Finally, Genevieve gave birth successfully, nagpapasalamat talaga ako na okay siya at ang mga anak nilang dalawa ni Ares.
I was so scared and I was still crying in front of her pagpasok ko sa kwarto.
"Genevieve!" iyak ko at umupo sa tabi niya.
Karga ni Genevieve yung lalaki at karga ni Ares yung babae. They're so beautiful and cute! Parang kamukha ni Genevieve yung babae na karga ni Ares.
Alexander took so many pictures at pati na rin yung mga kamag-anak nilang dalawa.
Tito Klaus is here, kasama na rin si tita Aurora, malalate raw si Quinten. Mr. and Mrs. Cardoza is here, 'di makarating si Adrian because of traffic but he is late, just like Quinten.
"His name is Maverick, and she's Maisie."
Naiiyak nanaman ako, jusko.
Ang ganda nila at ang gaganda rin ng mga pangalan nila, tangina... ayoko nang umiyak.
I need to calm down. Hinawakan ni Alexander yung kamay ko nang mahigpit and took me outside, he knew that I needed to calm down.
We left the room and Alexander closed the door, naiwan namin sina Genevieve, Ares, yung mga anak nila, at tsaka yung mga kamag-anak nila sa loob.
"Are you okay?" Alexander laughed again, he pulled me closer and kissed my forehead.
"Hm... 'di ko alam... p-pero... those babies are cute..." I said, wiping my tears.
Natawa siya ulet at tinulungan akong punasan ang mga luha sa pisngi ko.
"And so are you, love." he smiled and kissed my cheek this time.
"And don't worry, our kids are going to be much cuter..." dagdag pa niya.
Gago ba siya?
This is not the time to think about our future kids or something, this is Genevieve's kids today!
It's their day!
"You want to have kids?" tanong niya sa'kin.
'Di ko pa naisip yon. I'm not sure kung gusto ko bang magkaroon ng anak, I've dreamt of it before pero 'di ko sure ngayon.
"Kind of? Siguro..." I sighed, medyo kalmado na 'ko.
"Ikaw?"
"Of course I do. As long as it's OUR kids."
"Nambobola ka nanaman."
"I'm not! I'm telling the truth. I'm sure na mas cute ang mga anak na'tin."
He's already thinking about that? Natawa ako sa sinabi niya habang pinupunasan pa rin yung mga luha ko, I'm now crying in happiness and not because I'm worried of Genevieve anymore.
"Ilang anak ba ang gusto mo?" I asked and hold his hand.
"Hm... as many as you want, ikaw ang magbubuntis, Rina. It's all up to you."
Naimagine ko na maligawan niya ko, na maging kami, na mahalin niya rin ako nang husto, and to you know... have sex.
I don't mind imagining getting married to Alexander and making our own family together.
"I don't mind it, I don't mind having as many as kids as we could make one day."
I don't really care if we take it slow or take it fast, we've waited far too long for us to be finally together, hand-in-hand.
What matters is that we are happy and our love for each other and it will be stronger than ever.
"I love you." he smiled and kissed my lips.
"Love you rin." I whispered and kissed him back.
I can't help but think about our future together. I can't wait to tell our future kids about our love for each other, and our story.
I was just not expecting to tell them... two years later.
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It was a big surprise to us when we both learned that I was pregnant. Although the birth of your oldest sister is a challenge, it was my first... but it was worth it. You are all worth to us, I hope you always remember how much we love all of you. And I hope that one day, you'll find love and life as worth the wait for you too. I love you, we love you.
Nothing but love from your mother,
Katerina Grace M. Cardoza
THE END