Almost right after the term started, I received a letter from Harry. I got it when I was sitting with Remus and Sirius at lunch.
"Why didn't Harry send me a letter?" asked Sirius moodily.
The two men leaned over each of my shoulder to read.
"Why is everyone always so nosy with my letters?" I huffed, before opening it up and reading out loud.
Dear Sara
I had a fight with Seamus the first night back
"Oh so that's why he sent it to you." Sirius said.
I rolled my eyes and continued.
He called me a madman, and said he didn't want to share a dorm with me anymore. Apparently, your mum didn't want him to go back to Hogwarts because of me. I'm really sorry but I got a little angry and had a go at your mother. Seamus also said that you were mad for believing it too.
I don't know why I'm sending this to be honest. I just thought I should tell you
Love, Harry
I sighed, leaning back and rubbing my eyes. "Ugh, everything is going to dogs."
Sirius moved away from my side, and Remus just leaned his chin on my shoulder.
"I'm sorry Sara." he said softly.
"It's alright. I was expecting it anyway, especially seeing his reaction at the station." I blinked back tears. "It's fine. I don't want to talk about it anymore."
Just a few days later, Bill announced that Fleur was now a part of the Order. Not that she would do much, because she was still working on her English and didn't really know much about England. But, she was there.
The first time I had seen her since the Triwizard tournament, she waltzed into the kitchen as I was cooking dinner.
"FLEUR!" I screamed, nearly pouncing on the girl.
She laughed and hugged me tightly. "Sara! I am so glad to see you again."
Bill walked up behind, leaning against the doorframe and smiling. "Alright Fleur, don't break her back, Remus can do that for her."
I gasped and pushed Fleur away, rounding on Bill with fire in my eyes, while Remus spit out his tea, coughing. Sirius started laughing madly while thumping Remus on the back.
"Bill!" Fleur scolded him. "Don't embarezz them!"
Bill jsut grinned. Remus and I were both red in the face, avoiding each others gaze.
"Still haven't gone around to it?" Bill asked grinning as he stepped up next to Fleur and put an arm around her.
"Shut up Weasley." I muttered, turning back to stove.
"I'll take that as a no."
Remus was still coughing slightly, muttering something before rushing out of the kitchen.
"I hate you Bill." I tsked.
"No you don't." he said smugly.
"Whatever. Loser."
Fleur shook her head. "I apologize on behalf of Bill."
"Come on, are you telling me you really haven't yet?" he leaned forward.
"We haven't even had that conversation yet. Enough! Please!" I snapped.
"Alright, let's just switch topics." Sirius said.
"Speaking of switching subjects....." Bill said. "Look at these two!"
"Which two?" I turned around to see that Ollie and Tonks had arrived for dinner to. But something was off about them. Today, Tonks' hair was black, stopping at her chin. But that wasn't it. I was used to her different hairstyles. It was that.....
"YOU SLY DOGS. YOU GOT TOGETEHR!" I gasped, pointing at their linked hands.
Tonks grinned and shrugged.
"I knew it." I grinned. "Three Galleons please."
Bill sighed and took out three Galleons, passing them on to me.
"Thank you!" I sang.
Soon enough, dinner was ready and Remus finally came back into the kitchen, pausing when he saw Ollie and Tonks still holding hands. He smiled them.
"Oh, triple dates!" I cried. "We can go on triple dates now. And Sirius, you can bring Mad-Eye with you-"
I was cut off with a piece of bread being thrown at me face, and Sirius laughing loudly.
"Okay, I deserved that." I said with a laugh.
~ ~ ~
The next morning, I had the day off, and thankfully, so did Remus. As I was in the kitchen making some tea, Remus was sitting at the kitchen table behind me, flipping through the Daily Prophet and letting out noises of "Argh. Ah. Seriously? Fucking idiots." the entire time. I couldn't help but giggle.
I glanced over at him. We have been together again for just over a week. But, we weren't together together. We weren't exactly boyfriend and girlfriend. But we were sort of together?
I turned around. "Hey Rem?"
He looked up from behind the newspaper. "Yes Sar?" Noticing the expression on my face, he put down the newspaper completely. "Are you alright?"
I nodded. "Yes. NO. Well, yes I'm fine. Just, it's an awkward question I wanted to ask you." I fiddled with the string of my hoodie.
"You can ask me anything Sara." he said kindly.
"Well, um, what are we?"
He blinked. "What- what are we?"
I nodded. "Yeah. Like. Are you....my boyfriend? Or not? Like, are we officially dating? What do we label ourselves as? I mean, we're not friends with benefits that's for sure. Oh fuck or is that it? Am I reading all of this wrong? That's embarrassing if I am I-"
During my rambling, Remus had stood up from his chair and stood right in front of me, enveloping me in his arms. I leaned against him and closed my eyes.
"No. We are definitely not friends with benefits Sara. I can't believe you would even think that." he let out a small chuckle. "As for our label.. I- I don't know." He pulled away and held my hands. "I love you. You know that. But I'm also afraid. Afraid of commitment."
"But why? I mean, we kiss. We hangout. We're together most of the time...." I wondered out loud.
"I know. It's stupid of me. But I guess the idea of officially labeling it as a relationship scares me. With how the world is going..... You already know that werewolf's are not something people like. What if I get sent to Azkaban? What if something happens to me? And not to mention, is it even a good idea? I'm older than you, and I'm poor and dangerous. And-" he traced my scars with his thumb. "And I hurt you before. What if I do again?"
I cupped his cheek. "Oh Remy. I understand how you feel. And I respect it I do. But I also want you to know that no matter what I love you. I don't care that your older. I don't care that your poor. And I don't think your dangerous."
He sighed. "Can we wait a little bit longer? I've never even officially been in a relationship before."
"Really?"
He nodded. "I've had....... flings. When I was in school. But I never committed with anyone. For the same reasons. Afraid of hurting someone."
I nodded. "I get that. Of course we can wait longer before labeling us as something."
I leaned up and kissed him, wrapping my arms around his neck.
"You two are disgusting."
We looked around to see Sirius, leaning against the kitchen counter and eating a cookie.
"What, enjoying watching us kiss?" I asked, raising my eyebrows.
"Not particularly. I just came to get a cookie and you two were getting handsy. We eat in here you know."
"We weren't getting handsy." I huffed.
He shrugged and left the kitchen with a grin.
"That man is so insufferable." Remus laughed.
"Was he like this in school?"
"Even worse."
"Oh no." my eyes widened.
He nodded solemnly. "Oh yes."