Dedicated to Sica0916 for not getting mad at me when I lied and said this chapter will be up yesterday... haha
"So we're boyfriends now..."
"Yep."
"Yeah..we are together..."
I look over at Ryan and see him nervously biting his lip and shaking his leg up and down. It's actually kind of cute and I can't help but to smile. "You know, no matter how many times you say it, the answer is not going to change."
He laughs a little before looking over at me from his position on the side of my bed. "I can't help it. It's just so weird. I don't know how to act around you now." He confesses.
I sigh and get up from the floor to sit next to him, laying my hand softly on his leg. "Well, just act like you would with any other boyfriend."
"I've never had a boyfriend before." I have to bite down on my cheek to keep from letting an 'awww' come out. He is just to adorable right now!
"Ok, then act like you would when you had girlfriends."
"So you want me to tell you a bunch of lies to get you in bed then leave once I have gotten what I wanted." He says with a glint in his eye.
My mouth drops open and I try to think what to say about that. Did I seriously just pick a player to be my second boyfriend?! I start to look around my room, not wanting to meet his eyes.
"Uh.." Yep, still speechless...
Ryan starts laughing and pointing at me. "You should see your face right now!"
I turn my head back towards him and I give him a 'what the hell' look that has him laughing harder. "Am I missing something here? What is so funny about you confessing that your a nothing but a player?"
"I was kidding! Come on. I'm your best friend. You should know I'm not like that." He shakes his head a bit and gives me a smirk.
I blush a little, "Oh, right." I mumble. "Sorry I called you a dirty nasty player."
"You didn't say dirty and nasty."
"I censored it before letting it come out of my mouth." He laughs and shoves me in the arm, making me topple of the bed. Jeez, where did that strength come from?! I grab his hand and yank him down to the floor, jumping on top. I pin his arms down and am about to yell in victory before Ryan does some kind of freaky ninja move and I find myself now pinned under him.
"Fine, you win." I say between breaths.
"You know I kinda like this position." He whispers while leaning forward slightly, his eyes on my lips.
I swallow nervously. Am I really going to kiss my best friend? Well, he is my boyfriend now and there will be kissing and other stuff. I should just start getting used to it now. Yeah, I should definitely get used to it now...
My thoughts vanish when Ryan's lips are an inch from mine. I take a deep breath in and close the rest of the distance, pushing my lips onto his gently. His lips feel soft against mine. Nothing like Alex's rough kissing. I feel like I don't have to rush with Ryan, but am able to take my time and explore. I open my eyes slightly and see Ryan with his eyes closed tightly and trying to decide if he should put his hand on my cheek. I watch him move his hand towards me and hover an inch from my cheek before he jerks it back then trying again.
I try not to. I really try not to, but unfortunately I fail and start laughing like a fool. I couldn't help it! He looked to cute! I'm sure he would of laughed at me if the position had been changed!
"Is kissing me that bad?" Ryan asks looking offended.
I try to reassure him that the kiss was great but every time I opened my mouth I would laugh all over again. I lay down on my bed and bury my head into the pillow, trying to muffle the sound.
After a few minutes more, I am finally able to calm down enough to explain myself to him. I glance next to me and don't see Ryan sitting there anymore. I sit up and look around to see he isn't in the room at all anymore. He laughed at me when I thought he was serious about the girls but he gets mad when I laugh at him?! Ok, I guess it's not the same but still he should know I would never purposefully upset him like that!
Aw, dammit! I guess I have to go find him now.
I get up and run past my parents, stopping short when I see the two are cuddled up on the couch in an intense make out session. YUCK! Thats probably going to do some serious damage to my sleep tonight... I think and shake my head, trying to remove the image.
"Get a room, pervs!" I yell to them as I start running towards the door again. I get outside and look up and down my street looking for any sign of where Ryan might have gone. I sigh deeply when I don't see him and start walking towards one end of the deserted street. When I make it to the end I turn the corner and keep walking in a random direction.
Ok, if I was an adorable bi boy, where would I be? I think to myself as I continue to look up and down the road. I spend the next five minutes continuously looking in every possible spot with no luck. I'm just about to resort to looking under cars and behind bushes when I am suddenly tackled to the ground.
"STRANGER DANGER! STRANGER DANGER!" I scream at the top of my lungs and start pulling hair and scratching skin, trying to save myself.
"Tyler, shut up! It's me!" I stop screaming when a hand is thrown over my mouth and I look up to see Alex laying on top of me, breathing hard and wincing at the thin scratch across his cheek.
I grab Alex's hand and sling it off of my mouth. "What are you doing?! You don't sneak up on people like that!" I yell and poke him in the chest with every word.
"OW! I was just trying to surprise you!" He grabs my hand in his again, holding it away from his body.
"Surprise me?! You jump out and say surprise! You don't tackle somebody to the dirty ground! I thought some freak was about to make me his little play thing!"
"You can be my play thing." He says suggestively, throwing me a wink in which I roll my eyes at.
"No thanks..I am looking for Ryan." I just realize that I haven't told Alex who will be our new boyfriend. Wow, that still sounds weird...OUR boyfriend. There is something wrong with me...
"I'll help you look." I smile at him gratefully when he offers me his hand, pulling me up. We walk side by side for a few silent minutes.
"So have you decided who it will be?" Alex asks casually but I can see the nerves as he glances at me, biting the inside of his cheek.
I hesitate before answering him. I hope he will be ok with my decision. I mean he should, he is the one that told me to pick whoever I wanted.
I take a deep breath before answering, "Well..I chose...Ryan." I look quickly at him to see what his reaction will be. Definite shock and something else. Anger?
"Why are you mad?"
"I'm not"
"Ok...sure your not." I say sarcastically.
He ignores me and we continue to walk for awhile before the awkward silence starts to drive me crazy.
"Tell me why your mad!" I grab his arm, turning him towards me and demand.
He pulls his arm out of my grasp and runs his hand through his hair. "Why did you pick him?"
"I thought you liked him?"
"I do but I also know that he has liked you as more then a friend for a long time now." Did everyone know that he liked me, except for me?! I still don't believe it. I would have picked up on something like that...at least I think I would of...
I look at him confused, "Doesn't that make it better, though? That's the type of person we wanted, right? I mean I guess I could of picked, ugh, Brad." I say in disgust.
"I would have broken up with you if you had picked him, the guy that hasn't changed his socks for a week because he's afraid something bad will happen." Alex says with a laugh. My body shutters as I remember the smell in gym class today, all the sweat mixed with his dirty socks...never again will I stand behind him while doing pushups, my nose an inch from those...feet.
"Anyway, you don't want me to chose someone else do you?" I silently plead with my eyes, not wanting to have to give Ryan up. Even if Alex does tell me to chose another, I'm not. I'm already attached! Whoa...we've only had one kiss, how do I feel so strongly about him, already?
He stares at me for awhile before finally sighing and shaking his head, "No, Ryan will be fine."
I grin and wrap my arms around him, giving him a tight hug. "Yay! Don't worry this will be great!" I tell him, enthusiastically.
"Just do me one favor." He asks before I can pull out of the hug.
"Sure."
"Don't fall in love with him and leave me." I smile softly and lay my hand on his cheek, giving him a soft kiss.
"You and me, forever." I whisper against his lips. As I look into Alex's eyes, I feel as if nothing else exists, just us and our love for each other. The world disappears. I forget all about Ryan and why we are out here. It's just me and him.
"Is that Ryan over there?" And the moment is ruined...
I look in the direction Alex is pointing to and see Ryan sitting on the same bench that i was when I first called him. His head is bent down, staring at the ground and it looks like he is mumbling something to himself. He looks really sad. Did my laughing at him, cause this?
I turn back to Alex and quickly explain the reason why I have been looking for Ryan. He looks slightly jealous when I finish.
"So, I should probably go talk to him alone at first." Alex agrees and I walk slowly to where Ryan is sitting. When I get closer I hear him calling himself and idiot over and over. This makes me feel even guiltier and I sit down next to him.
"Hey." He doesn't say anything but glances out of the corner of his eye at me.
"I'm sorry."
"For what?"
"For laughing at the wrong time." He snorts and rolls his eyes.
"Did you come here to tell me you don't want me anymore?" I'm shocked at his question. What is he talking about?!
Ryan shakes his head after I don't say anything and gets up, walking towards his house. Really?! This boy seriously needs to stop running away! I can't spend all of my time chasing him!
"Ryan! Stop!" He listens but doesn't turn around.
"What do you want now? Haven't you said enough?" I haven't said anything!
I groan when he still doesn't face me. "I wasn't laughing at the kiss! In fact, the kiss was pretty hot, but if you didn't think so.." I trail off, knowing he liked it as much as I did.
I hold in a smirk when he finally turns around and walks back over, sitting next to me. "I did." He says shyly.
"Yeah?"
"Yeah."
"Then why the hell am I chasing you all over the neighborhood? We should be letting our lips get to know each other better." I wink making him blush. Wow. This is going to be so different! With me and Alex, I am always the...girly one...but with Ryan, maybe I could try out my dominant side. I get excited as I think about this. This is really going to be better then what I had first anticipated.
I wave to Alex and admire his body as I watch him walking over. He grabs my hand and pulls me up off of the bench, sits down and pulls me onto his lap.
We all stare at each other in an awkward silence. Ryan is staring at Alex with a nervous look on his cute face. Alex is looking at Ryan with one eyebrow raised in amusement. I roll my eyes at the both of them. Great, guess it's up to me to get us past the awkwardness.
"Do something to make him more relaxed." I whisper in Alex's ear so Ryan can't hear.
He thinks for a minute before reaching over and grabbing the front of Ryan's shirt, pulling him closer and touching their lips together. I watch them not really knowing how I am feeling. Jealousy, sure there is definitely some of that but also a little turned on and perhaps a bit of a peeping Tom feeling thrown in there...
Ryan wraps his arms around Alex's neck pulling him closer and opens his mouth slightly. And of course, Alex being Alex is more then happy to deepen the kiss, rubbing his tongue against Ryan's.
I cross my arms and pout a little. Well, he sure looks relaxed now! I didn't go that far with him! I don't know why I want to hit Alex right now. Maybe because it's just wrong to see the guy you love kissing another or maybe it's because I'm feeling left out.
"I'm still here, you know." They continue to kiss, as if they didn't hear me!
"OH MY GOD RYAN, YOUR MOM IS WATCHING YOU!" He breaks the kiss and practically jumps to the other side of the bench, looking around frantically.
I laugh a little and position myself in between the two. Yes, this is better, I think with a grin.
"Was someone getting a little jealous?" Alex asks with a smirk.
"No! I was just bored." Like I'm really going to admit it.
"I have a question." We turn to Ryan and wait for him to continue."How are we going to act in school tomorrow?"
I think about this for a minute. How are we suppose to act? I didn't plan this far ahead actually and by the thoughtful look on Alex's face, neither did he.
"We're together just like any other couple so I say screw everyone else and what they might think." Alex says finally.
"Screw 'em then!" I yell and jump back into Alex's lap, giving him a hard kiss.
Ryan hesitates before making a decision but shrugs his shoulders with a smile. "Tomorrow will be interesting." We all laugh a little at that.
Yes it will.
AN: I know, I know this chapter is a bit boring...ok alot boring! but I had to have the part of them all getting together and the nervousness and crap lol But do not fear...I PROMISE THAT IT WILL GET BETTER!! LOL so just don't give up on this story yet... :P