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(Liams p.o.v.)
" HOW COULD YOU BE SO STUPID" i shout at zayn and he flinches at me and looks down. " NOT ONLY AM I UPSET AND PISSED OFF IM DISAPPOINTED IN YOU" i yell not caring anymore.
" im sorry okay" zayn mumbles and i glare more at him " no zayn its not okay, do you know what you've done" i say more calmly than before and i sit down next to him. It's the day after this happened but hes just telling me now.
" Liam i don't need you yelling at me about what i did, i know what i did okay" zayn says frustrated." You have no right to be pissed off zayn, you have messed up so badly I don't even know if you can fix it" i say.
" maybe I don't.want it to be fixed, maybe im done with Niall and those babies" zayn says and i laugh." Whats so funny" zayn says and i stare at him amd slap him across the face. " what the fuck Liam!"zayn yells holding his cheek.
" YOU NEED TO GROW UP ZAYN, YOU THINK THIS IS HARD FOR YOU, THINK ABOUT WHAT NIALL IS GOING THROUGH, ALL THESE CHANGES HIS BODY IS GOING THROUGH, HE IS CARRYING TWO HUMANS INSIDE OF HIM HE HAS TO DEAL WITH THE WEIGHT GAIN AND THE PAIN, AND YOU JUST HAD TO BE THERE FOR HIN AND HELP HIM, BUT NO YOU HAD TO LOOSE YOUR SHIT AND SAY YOU DIDN'T WANT HIM OR OUR GUYS BABIES, I MEAN HOW STUPID CAN YOU BE ZAYN!" I scream.
My throat hurts afterwards and i finally look up to zayn who is crying and still is holding his cheek. " I-im sorry" he cries. I sit down next to him again and wrap a arm around him " i j-just don't think i-im ready" he cries into his hands.
" i know zayn, but you guys could've sat down and taked about it" i say rubbing his shoulder." Im so scared" he whispers and i pull him close to me " i know zayn, i know" i say rubbing his back as he cries into my chest.
" i messed up so bad" he cries and i nod " you did, and you have to fix it" i say and he looks up to me." He's never gonna take me back after what i did" he says and he sighs " i don't even know if i want to fix it" he mumbles and i stare at him.
" what do you mean zayn" i ask him and he looks at me " maybe this was supposed to happen, like we broke up for a reason" zayn says and i scoff and stand up. " so you're just gonna give everything up just like that?" I say and he groans " i don't know maybe" he says and i shake my head at him.
" you know im so disappointed in you" i say and he stands up " i don't even care people have been disappointed in me for most of my life" he says. " well has any body been ashamed of you, cause I'm ashamed to even be related to you" i say and cover my mouth.
I see the hurt look on his face and i just stand there " FINE I DON'T NEED YOU I NEVER DID, I DON'T NEED ANY OF YOU!" He says storming out of Josephs apartment and I run after him.
" zayn wait please" i say but he punches me in the face " im leaving, don't look for me" he says getting into his car and drives off. I hold my eye as i walk back inside and Joseph walks up to me " i saw what happened, are you okay" he says and i shake my head.
"let me see your eye love" he says and.i let go of it and his face scrunches up " he got you good" he says. " its swollen shut and already bruising" he says and i sigh "it should be, he was really hurt and pissed off, i deserve it" i say and he sighs.
"i shouldn't've said what i did, i feel like complete shit for saying that" I say and Joseph pecks my lips. It's like he doesn't know what to say, and i completely understand if he doesn't.
" its okay if you don't know what to say babe" i say and he nods a little and grabs a bag of frozen peas out of the freezer and lightly places them on my eye and wince at the pain." My poor baby" Joseph says and kisses me and i kiss back and pull away.
"i need to go after him you know that right" i say and he nods " but this is something i have to do alone" i say and he slowly nods." Just be safe" he says and i nod and kiss him " i will do, and please don't tell the boys that this happened or that im going please" i say.
" always" he says and i smile and hand him the bag of peas and he walks me to my car." I love you" he says and i smile " i love you too" i say and give him a quick kiss and get in my car and drive off.
But not missing the sad look on Josephs face.
( Louis p.o.v.)
"Niall you wanna hang out?" I ask him and he keeps on looking at the tv but nods. It really breaks ny heart to see him like this, and i
Since i kind of know how he feels it hurts me even more.
" Niall" i say sitting down next to him and he looks to me with teary eyes. " oh niall" i say and he cries and i wrap my arms around him as he cries into my chest and i rub his back.
" you dont deserve this" i whisper into his hair and he just cries " im so sorry niall" i say kissing his head and pull him closer. I try thinking of something, anything to make him smile and somthing pops into me head.
" you know Joey graceffa is gay?" I say and he stops crying and looks at me " everyone knows this, he just hasn't admitted it yet" he says." No he has" i say and his eyes light up " you're lying" he says.
" no im not" i say pulling away from him and turn on my xbox and go on YouTube and click on Joeys music video. We get to the end when the guy kisses Joey and Niall squeals " but he didn't actually say he is though"Niall says and i click on his video that says 'yes I'm gay' and we watch it.
" i can't believe he actually admitted to it" Niall says smiling and i nod " i know its amazing" i say smiling at him. All of a sudden his smile turns into a frown "no no no you're supposed to be happy" i say and he looks at me with tears in his eyes.
"how are you strong about this" he asks and i laugh " strong, im not strong I'm heart broken, im only acting okay for you, but on the inside im a complete mess" i say and wipe the tears that are rolling down my face.
"you don't have to be strong for me Louis" Niall says and i shake my head " yes i do" i say " why" Niall says.
' cause as your big brother i need to stay strong and be there for my little brother'.
If only i could say that " you wouldn't understand Niall i just have to" i say to him and he hugs me " I love you Louis" Niall says and i hug him " i love you too Niall" i say pulling away.
My phone starts to ring and i look at it and see liam is calling so i answer." Whats up" i say " if your not alone i need you to get alone" he says, im slightly confused but i do anyways telling niall ill be back as i leave to my room.
" okay im alone, whats going on" i ask and he sighs "zayn told me what happened and i was yelling and i fucked up and said im ashamed of him and he punched me in the eye and left telling me not to look for him" liam says and i nod.
" so let me guess you are gonna look for him and you dont want anyone to know, but you need my help to find him" i say and he laughs " exactly Tomlinson, so are you gonna help me?" He asks.
" when aren't I in, cause once you find him you're gonna bring him here and imma kick hia ass" i say and Liam laughs again. " okay so just look for him tell me where he is and I'll bring him to you" he says.
" yep, okay I'll ger right on that bye" i say and he says bye and i hang up. I head back down stiars and sit next to niall and i text liam I'll get it to him later " what was that about" Niall asks " nothing" i say smiling.
"okay" niall says resting his head on my shoulder " so i called my doctor and told her that im not going to be going to school till the babies are born" niall says.
" is she gonna call the school and let them know" i ask and he nods " yeah, I'm just gonna need one of you guys to bring me my work and stuff" he says " will do" i say and he scoots closer into my side.
" it's okay to cry" niall says and i furrow my eye brows " what do you mean Niall?" I ask him. " its okay to cry, to feel sad, it's okay if you're broken and let it show. You don't have to hide it" Niall says and i sigh.
" you just wouldn't understand" i say but he gets up and looks at me " stop saying that" he says. "stop saying i wouldn't understand, cause i understand a lot more than you think" he says and stares me in the eyes.
I break
I start crying and he hugs me and rubs my back and i cry into his shoulder." I just want to be strong" i cry and he shushs me "this doesn't make you weak Louis, this proves that you are strong enough to let go, strong enough to just let go" niall whispers in my ear.
" hey Niall I-Louis what's wrong" harry says and i feel another pair of arms around me. And i start to cry harder and i untangle myself from them and just walk to my music room and see Ashton sitting on the couch writing.
He looks up and drops his stuff and rushes up to me " are you okay" he asks and i shake my head. then Luke, Michael, and Calu walk in and they just stare at my clenching onto Ashton.
" is he okay" Luke says " no" is all Ashton says rubbing my back and leads me to the couch. "dude suck it up" Calum says glaring at me and Ashton glares at him. " what is your problem" Ashton says and Calum scoffs " he needs to suck it up" Calum says.
" get him out of here" Ashton says so luke and Michael lead Calum out and i sigh. "I'm sorry, Calum is just.....well Calum" Ashton says and i nod wiping my eyes. "Wanna hang out in my room" i say and he nods and we head up to my room.
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After a while i have already sent liam everything he needs and Ashton and i are drinking our pain away. " i mean he's such a man whore" Ashton says and i nod chugging down the rest of my beer.
" you know who needs them" i say setting my beer down " we don't need them at all" Ashton says chugging the rest of his beer down and drops it on the floor.
He stares at me and i stare him back in the eyes and all of a sudden we're making out on my bed only in our boxers. " no sex" he says breathlessly " no sex" i say kissing his neck and he moans "Calum" he moans and i press my lips against his " i love you harry" i say into the kiss.
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(authors p.o.v)
Calum is heading to louis room cause he feels bad for hows he's been acting. Once he reaches the room he hears moans, he hesitantly cracks the door open and sees louis intop of Ashton grinding down on the boy only in their boxers.
Anger boils up in Calum and he closes the door and storms down stairs." Dude whats up with you" Michael asks " why don't you ask the two upstairs how im fucking doing" Calum says and storms out the house.
Every one head upstairs and sees what Calum saw and just like Calum anger boils inside of Harry and he quickly heads down stairs. The boys follow him and he's freaking out " Harry whats gotten into you" Luke says walking up to Harry.
"it's nothing, i just need to go to bed night guys" Harry says pissed off and storms to him room." What the hell just happened" Michael says and the 3 boys just look at each other.
" it's late, maybe we should just rest and question tomorrow" Niall says and they all agree." Night guys" niall says and Luke and Michael head to their room and Niall head to Harrys.
They don't talk, they just get settled and go to sleep cause they both know now isn't the time.
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I dont even know what this chapter was,im sorry.