"You and I 'til the end, don't need to pretend"
Avery's POV
It's been 3 years since I gave birth to Alica now she is 3 years old. She looks up at me and makes grabby hands "Uppie Mommy!" "Not right now Mommy is busy." She tends to get fussy when I don't give her attention. She huffs. I stop and lift her. She plays with my hair messing up my bun. So much for a bun. "Mommy!" "Yes?" "Me hungry!" I laugh and hand her a banana all sliced up. She claps and eats the sliced banana. "Thank you." I smile and rub her back. She burps. She yawns "Me sleepy." I take her to her room and put her in her crib.
All Alicia does is eat, sleep, fuss, and whine when she wants my attention. Atlas and Rylee come in I put my finger on my lips they nod and tiptoe to me. "So Alice is asleep?" I nod. Atlas turns on the TV and says "Uh Avey come." I come in and look at the TV closely and notice it is Matthew.
I turn the volume up a bit.
"Hello, this is Lacie Marty your daily reporter I have some news. Matthew Williams and his Ex broke up 3 years ago and Matthew also known as the ruthless, cold, and cocky is once feeling empty. He says ' My ex and I broke up because I thought she was cheating on me.' We asked who his ex was and he said 'My ex is no other than Avery Smith.' I was even shocked. I mean how can the sexiest and most famous model and Matthew Williams be together? That's all the news for now! Bye from Malibu News!"
I turn off the TV and curse "Fuck!" Alica crys in her room. I dash to her room and rock her back to sleep. I sigh and hear a knock on the door. I walk to the door and look through the peephole to see Paparazzi. I sigh again and open the door. They bomb me with questions. I raise my hand and they quiet. I sigh and start explaining with a song.
Let it out
Been building up, you better let it out
Say everything that you've been meaning now
I want it to burn
When you tell me I'm such a wreck
It isn't easy cleaning up your mess
It's like I've got a rope around my neck
She says it won't hurt
But everything you do makes my heart race
I can't even think straight
Is this just a game to you?
Reruns every night
It's always the same fight
And I think you should know
I hate your touch, I hate your mouth
I can't stand every single word that falls out
But you're all that I've been dreaming of
This is not another song about love
I hate your voice, I hate your lips
I hate how badly I wanna steal your kiss
But you're all that I've been dreaming of
This is not another song about love
Asphyxiated just to say the least
And with your eyes, you're suffocating me
Emptied my lungs, it was getting hard to breathe
You couldn't care less
But everything you do makes my heart race
I can't even think straight
Is this just a game to you?
Reruns every night
It's always the same fight
And I think you should know
I hate your touch, I hate your mouth
I can't stand every single word that falls out
But you're all that I've been dreaming of
This is not another song about love
I hate your voice, I hate your lips
I hate how badly I wanna steal your kiss
But you're all that I've been dreaming of
This is not another song about love
The sky fades from blue to gray
Inside she's just like an ocean, still I'm drowning
How badly I wanna sink and let it take me away
I don't know why I come back, I do every time
We get close to the end, it's a finish line
Sing these words for the girl I've been dreaming of
Is this just another song about love?
Let it out
Been building up, I better let it out
Say everything that I've been meaning now
Dreaming 'bout
I need it now
I need it now
I need your touch, I have no doubt
I want your love 'til it all runs out
'Cause you're all that I've been dreaming of
Is this just another song about love?
I need your voice, I need your lips
I need you bad, I wanna steal your kiss
'Cause you're all that I've been dreaming of
This is just another song about
Another song about love
They look at me with sorrowful smiles. Malibu News comes to me and asks me "What is your side of the story?" "My side of the story is when I was with Atas we hugged each other and hung out for 3 hours. When I go home we did the dirty. 3 weeks later I'm vomiting every morning so I take a pregnancy test and I'm pregnant! When I tell him or at least try he cuts me off and tells me to get out of the house in my nightgown. That's my side of the story."
I sing again.
I know they don't like me that much
Guess that I don't dress how they want
I just wanna be myself, I can't be someone else
Try to color inside their lines
Try to live a life by design
I just wanna be myself, I can't be someone else
Someone else
They yell, they preach
I've heard it all before
Be this, be that
I've heard it before
Heard it before
Big boys don't cry
Shoot low, aim high
Eat up, stay thin
Stand out fit in
Good girls don't fight
Be you, dress right
White face, tan skin
Stand out fit in
Stand out fit in
Stand out fit in
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Can't be someone else
They yell, they preach
I've heard it all before
Be this, be that
I've heard it before
Heard it before
Big boys don't cry
Shoot low, aim high
Eat up, stay thin
Stand out fit in
Good girls don't fight
Be you, dress right
White face, tan skin
Stand out fit in
Stand out fit in
Stand out fit in
Stand out fit in
Stand out fit in
I am who I am
No matter what
Never changing
No matter what
No matter what
Big boys don't cry
Shoot low, aim high
Eat up, stay thin
Stand out fit in
Good girls don't fight
Be you, dress right
White face, tan skin
Stand out fit in
Big boys don't cry
Shoot low, aim high
Eat up, stay thin
Stand out fit inGood girls don't fight
Be you, dress right
White face, tan skin
Stand out fit in
Stand out fit in
Stand out fit in
Stand out fit in
Stand out fit in
They hug me and leave all their numbers on paper so I can call them. They got it all recorded hopefully Matthew doesn't watch TV as we used to. I close the door behind me and collapse on my couch. "Hey, Avey. What's wrong?" "Matthew might find me or his daughter!" I whine. Alicia runs to my side and lays down on me. I hold her and caress her hair with my right hand. We lie down on on the couch.