Lylah W.
I hate my life right now. I'm literally sick as fuck and I feel like I'm gonna die
I called my doctor and she told me I probably have the flu. I'm so sick that I couldn't even go in because of my lack of energy so she pushed my appointment ti the next week which is today
My stomach has been cramping because I'm about ti start my period. Not only that, I have a cough and runny nose and my throat hurts and so does my head
I've had a migraine for 3 days now and I literally want to kill myself
I can't even eat anything how bad it is
Mateo has been trying to help but he's starting to get annoying
He's always in my space, breathing down my neck asking if I'm okay 24/7
I be wanting to punch him but I can't
I honestly think he's sex deprived because we haven't had sex since last month and that was the day he left for that business trip
Right now I'm watching tv with Arlo. He's fast asleep on my stomach right now. I don't know why he likes to sleep there now cause he never did before
I'm supposed to be going to Kroger right now to get my medicine but I don't feel like it
My phone starts ringing so I pause my tv and pick it up
It's a FaceTime video from Mateo
"Hello" I say when I answer "Hey what are you doing beautiful" I smile
"Nothing just watching tv with Arlo but he fell asleep on me" he laughs "I was calling to see if you finished the laundry" I nod my head. I was washing clothes earlier
"Yeah I put your clothes in your room why?" I ask "Me, Jeremiah and Paxton are going out for drinks later and the pants I want to wear were in that load" he explains and I nod my head
"Yeah they're clean"
He tells me he's on his way home and that he'll see me in a minute. We say I love you before hanging up and I go back to watching tv
*****
I wake up feeling someone shake me. I look up and see that it's Mateo. He's fully dressed and his hair is all over his head but not at the same time
"I'm leaving now" he says making me sit up and frown "Wait huh" he laughs
"You've been sleep for about 3 hours" I look at the time and see that it's 7 pm "Oh I didn't even know I feel asleep"
He kisses my lips and before he can pull away I hold him close "You smell so good" I say and he takes a deep breath "You better get off of me or you'll be unable to walk for the next 3 days" I laugh but let go of him
"Now I have to wait until this goes down" he says and I look at his print that's super ducking noticeable
"You're really hard right now" I laugh and takes a seat on my bed "You shouldn't have whispered in my ear" he says defensively
After about 10 minutes he leaves and I lay back down
I don't know how long I'm laying there when Novah and Desarea come into my room
"Wanna watch movies" Novah says and I nod
We head downstairs and sit on the couch next to each other
"Can we please watch Disney movies" I ask hoping they give in
"No Lylah" Desarea says annoyed "You're such a child who still watches Disney movies" Novah asks laughing
"They're literally so entertaining" the both room their eyes and I laugh
We decide to watch Step Brothers
After that we watched about 2 more movies before Desarea cut the tv off
"We have to show you something" Novah says and I frown as Desarea picks up her phone
"Show me what" I ask confused as I sit up
Desarea starts to show me her phone but when the front door opens she pulls away
I grab it from her anyways and look at what she has pulled up
Tears start to form in my eyes as I watch the video. Before it gets worse I swipe out of it only to see that this was sent to her on me and Mateos 7 month anniversary
"What's wrong" Mateo comes behind me and tries to hug me but I push him away
"You knew about this" I ask as my voice cracks
"We didn't know how to tell you Lylah" Novah says and I look at her "You too?" I say I'm disbelief
Mateo takes the phone out of my hand and clicks on the video of him and some other girl kiss and her starting to suck his dick
"It's not what it looks like" Mateo says and I turn around and push him
"YOU FUCKING CHEATED ON ME" I scream as tears start to pour out of my eyes
"Lylah liste-" I cut him off "NO FUCK YOU AND FUCK YOU GUYS TOO" I go to walk away but he grabs my arm
"Lylah please" he begs and I push him away "All of you guys are fucking dead to me! I don't want to see you ever again" I say walking up to my room and slamming my door
I sit on my bed for about an hour and just cry my eyes out until I can't anymore
I can't stay here
I grab my duffle bag and pack everything that I can in it
When I'm done I go to call Arabella but before I can press dial my stomach turns
I rush to the bathroom and throw up in the toilet. It burns so bad tears start leaking out of my eyes
I'm over the toilet for about 2 minutes before I'm done
I sit there for about 5 minutes wishing I had my mom here
Why me
I get up and brush my teeth before throwing on some jogging pants and a hoodie
I grab Arlos cage that I use when I need to take him to the vet and carefully put him in it
He cries so I give him some snacks and carry the cage and my bag out the room with me
As I walk down the stairs I see Mateo walk towards me
"Where are you going" he says worried. I hate the fact that I'm crying right now. I ignore him and walk to the kitchen to grab Arlos food
"Lylah-" "Stop talking to me" I say as I head towards the door
"Please Lylah don't do this" he begs once again
I take a deep breath before looking at him "Mateo I don't have shit to say to you" I open the door but he shuts it
"Lyla-"
"STOP MATEO! FUCKING STOP!! YOU KNEW WHAT I WENT THROUGH WITH JUNIOR AMD YET YOU STILL GO OUT AND LET ANOTHER GIRL SUCK YOUR DICK SO LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE YOU DIRTY NASTY LOW LIFE BITCH" I scream making everyone come out of there rooms
Tears are coming down fast as I see Elena stare at Mateo like he's crazy
"YOU DID WHAT?" She asks walking towards him. I take the chance and walk outside to my car
I get in but before I can close the door Elena comes to it
"Im sorry baby" she gives me a hug which makes me cry even more
"Im sorry he did this and I understand why you want to leave" she says as she pulls away
"I'll always love you because I still and will always look at you like a daughter" I smile at her
"I love you too" she closes my door and walks back into the house
I drive off and blast some music so I don't cry cause I'm trying to see where I'm going
I got a hotel room to stay in for 2 days. It's actually pretty nice
Arlo doesn't want to be here, I can tell. He's only super close to me when he's sleepy but the whole time we've been here he's been laying on my stomach
I blocked Mateo, Lylah, and Desarea. Jeremiah didn't know so I'm not gonna block him. He told Desarea they need a break because he looks at her differently
I feel bad but then again I'm the one who literally just got betrayed by the three closest people I talked to
Junior has always been blocked except for on instagram and i never got Ella's number
Me and Arlo are just watching tv and waiting for my dasher to get here
All of this happening doesn't help the fact that I'm still super sick. My headache is 10 times worse and my nose is even more stopped up
I door-dashed some ginger ale and some strawberries cause I've been craving those since like forever
Maybe it's because my period is coming soon
Wait
I quickly grab my phone and go on my period tracker
When I stare at the screen I start bawling my eyes out again
I stare at the bright pink bold letters across the screen
"NO PERIOD FOR 2 MONTHS!! TIME FOR A PREGNANCY TEST"
Please god no