(Faith pov)
March-3rd-2019
Ariana's apartment📍
As I'm eating breakfast alone, since I didn't want to wake up my baby, she was sleeping very peacefully.
She walks down wearing my very large shirt with her cute bunny slippers. & what she told me caught me very off guard.
Ariana: "Do you think we should get a dildo? Like a strap on? I read online that it can make our sex 10x better?"
I almost choked on my cereal.
Faith: "Mmm...hmph...a good morning would be nice to hear."
I didn't expect her to even say that.
Ariana: "Good morning." She giggles. "I'm sorry I was going to tell you yesterday but we got distracted."
Faith: "Distracted eating each other out." I chuckle rolling my eyes. "I'm trying to eat here."
Ariana: "Well I'm fucking sorry, but really I was looking at some online, what size do you think we should buy?"
I sigh while eating my cereal, this wasn't how I thought my morning would start.
Faith: "Let me see the phone." I get up & stretch my hand out.
She hands it over & it's a literally sex shop online. I knew they had the stuff but what, I didn't realize the size & variations of dildos they had.
Faith: "What the hell is all this, dragon? Glass? & why is this one textured!?"
Ariana: "Don't ask me, I never bought one before, I was just looking at them."
Faith: "Take the phone back & delete your search history."
She puts the phone on the counter & gets herself breakfast & sits next to me.
Ariana: "Like anyone is going to go through my phone & I'm buying us one."
I sigh & can't change her mind about it, like at all.
Faith: "Fine what size you getting?" I looked over at her.
Ariana: "Well I umm....I....actually don't know." She says nervously.
Faith: "You're really getting one!?"
Ariana: "Yes I ordered it, don't judge your going to love it."
Faith's thoughts: "I rather not even going to ask?"
~2 hours later~
Ariana is out like usual & me doing my own thing passing time when I get a call from Max.
I was too busy playing my video game, missing about 3 calls. At the end of the game I hear the phone & immediately pick it.
~Phone call~
Faith: "Hey Max sorry I got caught up with some things."
Max: "No worries, I'm just calling about your song."
Faith: "What about it!?"
Max: "Here's the thing they're actually here in New York & would like for you to come down & have a word with you."
Faith: "A word wait did they like it? I put lots of hours into that song."
Max: "I really can't say what they thought, they just want to talk to you in person & what not...they like I don't know, can you be down at the studio right now?"
Faith: "Ya of Course, I can be there."
Max: "Great I'll tell them."
Faith: "Ya bye."
~Call ended~
I get ready & head down to the studio & head out closing the door.
New York📍
I walk down the streets of the city, more cautious of everything. Dating the biggest pop star celebrity who is my best friend has been difficult going out.
Faith's thoughts: "I better get this position if I don't get it idk what I'm going to do."
I rush & make it to one of the subway stops & check the time. I sigh in relief that the train would be here in 7 minutes. It was the fastest way to get to the studio. This wouldn't be my first option to travel by but I had to get there on time.
Faith's thoughts: "Why is it still cold, it's freaking spring."
Studio📍
I got to the studio & waited patiently, they were busy with someone else. Meanwhile I was anxious about the outcome, shaking my leg frantically.
(Jessica pov)
Los Angeles📍
Jessica: "You got this girl, go up & ask her."
I nervously go up to the girl & I immediately freak out & freeze.
Valerie: "Umm can I help you?"
Jessica: "Sorry, I thought you were...umm...sorry wrong person." Rush back hiding behind the corner.
Jessica's thoughts: "Fuck me, I'm so!!! Why did I have to freeze like an idiot?"
She is this girl at my college I've been going to since the January transfer. I thought it would be a good idea to go back to school & study. I'm still figuring out what I want to learn & with a shit load of free time it makes sense.
Jessica: "She's not looking my way is she?" I peek the corner & she's not.
Valerie is a business major, & she does have other classes she takes which is the reason why I see her often. She has math, & language arts with me. While she has her life figured out my dumb ass is just starting.
Jessica's thoughts: "Faith wouldn't freak out, she'd figured out what to do."
I rather not bother at all since she's busy getting some label thingy done. You win some, you lose some. I could get into business just to see her more, or into smart classes which I'm really not, I do like animation & drawing.
Without knowing where I was going thinking about college & things I could be doing better. I
Jessica: "I could talk to them about transferring to being an art major & then I could build up my courage."
Like I said I wasn't looking where I was going & ya. My dumb ass walked a book store & stumbled making a shit mess of books everywhere.
Jessica's thoughts: "This is so embarrassing!!"
Jessica: "I'm really sorry I'll clean this up!!"
I start staking up books quickly & poorly putting them back on the table. Again I was just helping clean up, as I turned around quickly not paying attention like I always do. I trip on my shoe lace making myself look dumb & very embarrassed.
Jessica: "Can't this day just end."
The store owner told me it was all fine & he could do the rest. I did apologize like so many times though.
The rest of the day didn't go as great either. I just continued to make a fool of myself, for some odd reason the universe decided to give me all the bad luck I had.
Jessica: "You got to be fucking kidding me!!"
Walking towards my car I get splashed by a car getting soaking wet.
Jessica: "Why!!! Mmmm!!! AHHH!!" I yell to myself in frustration.
I get into the car & beat the shit out of the steering wheel, resting my head on it feeling defeated.
Someone knocks on the window of the glass & Ignore it with me still on the horn honking the car. Again I hear them knocking, I turn on the car & groan turning down the window.
Valerie: "You okay?"
Jessica: "Peachy as ever." I said head down on the steering wheel.
Valerie: "Maybe you should get off the horn that could help make things better." She chuckles awkwardly.
Jessica: "Won't make any difference & why do you care."
I pull back & immediately turn red realizing who I was talking to.
Valerie: "Well it's a start, you had really good way of umm expressing yourself." She chuckles.
Jessica: "You saw all of that." I nervously say.
Valerie: "I probably wasn't the only one, hey do I know you?"
Jessica: "I'm umm, I'm Jessica we go to the same college." I nervously say still blushing.
Valerie: "Really I never seen you around?"
Jessica: "Ya I get that a lot."
I couldn't believe I was talking with her, she's out of my league. I'm a good looking girl at best, she's just wow, & here I am having a conversation with her. Like Faith told me before, don't be afraid to talk to someone, put yourself out there.
Valarie: "I'm Valerie by the way."
Jessica: "I know we have some classes together."
Valarie: "Well don't let today put you in a bad mood, chin up & smile." I smile nervously. "I Should get going, I'll see you in class."
Jessica: "Ya I'll see you too."
She leaves & I immediately breathe properly & jump in excitement, having a feeling of butterflies in my stomach talking with her.
Maybe today wasn't as bad as I thought I was.
(Faith pov)
Studio📍
Harley: "Faith Gomez?" I gesture. "Why don't you come in?"
I walk in & sit down & she's not the only person in the room.
Harley: "So before we start, what got you into music?"
Faith: "Well it was because of my best friend she had a knack for singing, I want to learn music & things just came natural afterwards."
Matthew: "I don't want to introduce your personal life but your best friend Ariana Grande is that correct."
Faith: "Correct, but what does my relationship have to do with any of this, I'm just trying to get on with her on my own, I made a song, sent it in, I worked hard on it."
Harley: "What Matt is trying to say is that Ariana put in a good word for you, Ari, she has a knack for finding people who are talented & gifted in music."
Faith: "Okay what are you trying to say, is my song okay? I'm not really understand what's going on here."
Matthew: "We heard your song already a couple of times & that's why you're here, it's great."
Faith: "There's a but isn't there?"
Harley: "Yes."
That made me anxious, very anxious & nervous. They explained to me further & they listened to the song with me & all of it sounded perfect to me, at least I thought.
Faith's thoughts: "I told her not to say anything."
At the end of the song they start discussing it to me & I tell them my inspiration for the song & we go back & forth talking. At the end of it they told me something I wasn't exactly wanting to hear.
Matthew: "It's a great song don't get us wrong but it lacks your touch & I don't feel that here?"
Faith: "Lacking I put hours upon hours of work on that song!"
Harley: "Don't get us wrong, we like it too, but it is not what we're looking for, when most artists/producers come in we can hear the song there putting out & we just don't get that here from you."
Faith: "Well that's a lot of bull shit here." I say frustrated.
Matthew: "Faith we're not trying to put your dream down, you have potential."
Harley: "When was the last time you wrote a song?"
Faith: "I didn't come here, to waste a full month just for it to be shit!! I have my girlfriend waiting for me seriously what the fuck am I supposed to tell her huh!? This is dumb I know what I wrote is great."
Harley: "It's a great song at best, we can see you know music, we're sorry to say it, we know you can do better than this...when was the last time you produced a song?"
Faith: "Mmm." I sigh & hand over my face. "I Haven't done one in 3 maybe 4 years, just give me a break please."
We continue to discuss the whole situation. Still frustrated about it, even though they're right, I was rusty. I could do better than this. They decided not to go with me & give me a second chance.
I told them it was okay, I didn't need it but they insisted & told me to take all the time I needed. But after all of that I knew exactly what was holding me back.
Ariana's apartment📍
I throw everything on the couch & sit down frustrated. All the work I put in for it to blow up right in my face.
Faith's thoughts: "She thinks she is coming home to congratulate me, what am I supposed to tell her!!"
I grab a pillow & yell & groan right into it, I didn't feel like cooking shit.
I literally did anything to help get distracted, but nothing helped, tried playing video games but nope. That did work at all & just made it worse. I broke a controller & I ended up breaking my phone as well.
Faith's thoughts: "Fuck that stupid ass game!!!"
I throw away the controller & grab my phone, throw it on the kitchen counter head down.
Faith's thoughts: "I really need to control my temper on god."
(Ariana pov)
Ariana's thoughts: "Why the hell isn't she answering her phone!?"
I left the studio/rehearsal earlier than usual. I was concerned about Faith. She always picks up the phone & texts me. If it's not the first ring it's usually by the 3rd time.
I get home & open the door to find my bebe in the kitchen with her head down.
Ariana: "Why did you pick up the phone & is everything okay?"
Faith: "Everything is rainbow & sunshine, no hay que preocuparse por ella, que me jodan la vida."
I put my purse on the counter & hug my baby, only to see her phone completely broken.
Ariana: "Que paso mi amor?"
It was that bad & I could tell it with her. My Fae always finding ways to make her life complicated.
Ariana: "Fae you tell me or am I going to have to force it out of you? Dimelo ahora."
She sighs.
Faith: "I didn't get, with the label, simple as that."
Ariana: "What!? You did amazing, what do you mean they didn't sign you on!?"
She should have gotten signed, she is amazing, they're missing something because I kid you not.
Ariana: "They don't know what there fucking on, I'll call them right now I'll change they're mind."
Faith: "Don't even bother, they told me I why, even has it fucking pains me, they're right, I'm rusty, I haven't been in the game Moonlight...almost 3 years since done anything music."
Ariana: "So that doesn't mean anything you help me on my album."
Faith: "Helped I just basically went over them, I didn't do shit, I wasn't able to write a song, they told me that straight up, & they're right."
Ariana: "What did they tell you?"
She explains to me everything they told me about her song. & I did understand what they were coming from but I heard her song & I thought it was great.
Ariana: "4yrs can do that to you but come on can't they give you a break." She shakes her head no. "Did they at least give you another opportunity?"
Faith: "Ya they did exactly that."
Ariana: "That's great we could start on a song & give them a piece of their mind them eat there fucking words."
Faith: "Actually let's hold off on that, I know why I didn't do good on the song, it's something I can't let go of." She sighs.
Ariana: "We could start early, get you a great song & with my voice on the...or we can wait & do that." I nervously said.
Faith: "You're cute when you get pissed." She chuckles.
Ariana: "So you're okay with waiting again? You won't have a job?"
Faith: "I know it's not the first time I had to struggle with something like this & it's for sure not the first time I had to buy a new phone." She nervously chuckles.
Ariana: "You really need to learn how to control your anger."
Faith: "I know."
Ariana: "Well tomorrow morning we're going to the store to get you a new one & you better not break that one."
Faith: "I can't promise that."
I rolled my eyes & hugged her, I really thought she was going to get it. But she didn't & it left her being at home job less.
Ariana's thoughts: "Even if you don't want my help I'm helping you."
I smile while still hugging her.
Ariana: "Are we ordering in?" She nods. "The same as usual."
Faith: "Ya you know it."