Helena POV
It's been a few days since Y/N and I was intimate. It's not that I don't want her, she just completely shut me out. She still kisses me and cuddle with me but whenever I want to touch her she pushes me away. Last night she even slept in the guest bedroom!
I'm scared she will break up with me. Something is wrong with her but she don't want to talk to me. What if she don't love me anymore or has enough of me? Am I to old and ugly for her? No! That's not the reason she promised me so many times I'm beautiful.
It was New Year's Eve and Y/N and I go on a double date with Helen and Damian. I wear the dress she gifted me on Christmas, light makeup and black heels. I still hate them but it's the only thing what matches a dress like this.
I wanted to make my way down, I'm late as always, before I hear Helen talk to Y/N. "Talk to her darling, I'm sure she won't judge you or anything." I hear Helen say. "I can't! You know how it went with Lana! After that I promised myself to not do it again." Y/N answers. Do what? "Yes but it's something you need and rather she give it to you or you do it yourself. It's that simple"
"It's that simple my arse! She will freak the fuck out! But I can't suppress it anymore. I'm done. Last night I slept in my room, to scared to lose my shit" suppress what? "You need to talk to her as soon as possible, it eats you alive. Maybe she agrees, you will never know if you don't talk to her." Agrees to what? Why does she talk with Helen about it but not me?
"Alright, I'll talk to her, but if she breaks up or something happen, I'll blame you!" she said sternly and sighed in defeat. Why should I break up with her? Wtf is going on? I made my way down the stairs and they both look at me. Damian was on the sofa on his phone.
"God Hellie, you look magnificent! It's exactly how I imagine it would look on you" Y/N said in awe. She held her hand out for me to take what I happily excepted. She swings me around, looking me up and down and kissed me softly. "You are gorgeous" she whispers. "Thank you" I smile brightly, the conversation from a few minutes ago already long forgotten.
We got into Y/N's car and Damian drove us to the restaurant. Me and Y/N sit on the backseats and I placed my hand on her thigh. Slowly I moved my hand up higher. She placed her hand over mine and stopped me. She interlocked our fingers, brought our hands to her lips and kissed my knuckles. fuck that was cute She let our hands rested on her lap.
Helen made the reservation for us and I remember the way. Oh no! We drive to the French restaurant Y/N and me had the double date with Sarah and Holland. "Do we drive to the 'au Vieux Moulin'?" I questioned. "Yes, how do you know?" Helen asks confused. "I was there a couple weeks ago and I wasn't pleased with it." "Why's that?"
"She liked the place and the food, she didn't liked it how 2 boys looked at me." Y/N answers for me. "And to be fair me neither. But I saw Noel again and Claudi! ..And I forgot to greet you from her.. I'm sorry." she adds. "It's ok, don't worry" Damian smiled through the mirror.
Y/N looks good as always and I'm scared the same boys look at her again. Or worse someone else, maybe a waitress this time. I squeezes her hand and she immediately get worried. "Bubbs are you ok?" "Yes, why?" "You squeezed my hand really tight, you do it whenever you're jealous or uncomfortable." I didn't know
"I just thought about the boys or someone else looking at you, nothing important" I say insecure. "It's important to me if it makes you feel like this. I promise to kiss you in front of anyone who checks me out, okay? If I don't see it or else just tug on my arm and I'll do it" she offers me. I nodded my head and hoped for the best.
We made our way into the building and the same boy was on the door and greeted us. "Good evening and welcome to 'au Vieux Moulin'. Do you have a reservation?" The boy asks and eyed Y/N up and down, AGAIN! His eyes lingering a little too long on Y/N for my liking. That's exactly what I meant, why does he has to do it again?!
We stayed behind Helen and Damian and I tugged on her arm. She bend down and gave me a short yet passionate kiss. She backed away smiling, peaked my lips again before she looks the boy dead in the eyes.
"Yes we have, 4 for McCrory." She says coldly. "And I would appreciate if you stop staring at me. Unless you want big trouble." she adds. "Then you shouldn't wear something like that" he whispers under his breath. Oh no..
Y/N POV
Did he just really said that? I'm so pissed already because I can't talk to Helena about what I need and now he has the audacity to tell me I can't wear that!? "Care to repeat?" I ask in a low dangerous voice, my eyes burned into him and I stepped forward. He shakes his head repeatedly and answers scared "no ma'am, I'm sorry! Won't happen again!" "That's what I thought, now our table please!"
He practically run to our table to light up the candles. We sat down and he stood next to the table. "Anything else?" I raised a eyebrow. "Y-Your server for the night s-should be here any m-minute. In the meantime, let m-me know if y-you need anything." he stutters and left as fast as possible.
"You really scared that poor boy love" mom chuckles. "He deserves it! Who does he think he is telling me what I can and can't wear? He was lucky enough I didn't got harder on him!" I say angrily. "Calm down baby, he will never do it again" she says and kissed me to calm me down. I just melted into the kiss, like always.
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I really need to tell her she needs to fuck me with a strap on! I can't be away from her any longer, I need her, I need her touch and her hands all over me! This time we had a waitress and she doesn't look at me or Helena and I'm relieved.
Helena placed her hand on my thigh again and didn't move it up this time. Her touch still send electricities through my body like the first time. No matter how much electricity she sent through my body, I need a dick inside of me. A nice one that stretches me out completely.
This is what I hate about being bi.. I'm sure all the bi or pan people outside can relate to that. I can suppress the urge to feel one in me but not forever. Only a couple of months. Than I need a good fuck and I can live without it a few months again. I'm scared to tell her, because I don't know how she will react.
I need to tell her later, because I'm needy. I don't remember the last time I was this needy. Normally I'm the one who gives more than received, but now it's hard for me to not ride my fake dildo on my own.
Anyways.. The dinner was delicious and we had a good time. Mom told us it's 5 minutes before the beginning of the new year and dragged us outside. All the other people were already there and waited impatiently for the countdown.
Suddenly they all yelled "10,9,8,7,6,5,4,3,2,1 happy new year!!" and cheered. Everyone kissed their partners and wished all the guests a happy new year. I kissed Helena and we heard fireworks explore. I wanted to look at the firework but Hellie pushed me back to her.
"Please don't pull away yet I want to feel your lips against mine a little longer" she whispers and looks the whole time on my lips. I smile and placed my lips against hers again. I placed my hands on her hips and pushed her hardly into mine. She moans into the kiss and the moment I let my tongue slip into her mouth. She is as needy as I am
We French kissed a few more seconds before I pulled back. "Happy new year my love" I whisper. "Happy new year baby" she whispers back and peaked my lips again. I turned around and hugged mom and dad and wished them also a new year, along with Hellie.
Around 2am I drove us back home. I dropped Mom and Dad off and Helena and I drove to our house. Before mom got out of the car she said, "don't be scared darling, communication is the key, I love you!" With that she closed the door, interlocked hers and dad's fingers while walking towards the door. I waited till they was inside, just to make sure because they are quiet drunk.
The moment Helena and I got into the house I saw the way she looks at me and I know she will try to turn me on. I need to tell her now "Hellie, I -" she interrupts me by slamming me against the bedroom door after we get inside.
"Shut up, I want you!" With that she connected our lips and pushed me towards the bed. She literally throw me into the mattress and crawls on top of me. She connected our lips again and sat on one of my thighs, she slowly moved back and forth, desperately needed some friction.
She kisses down my jaw, let there some open mouth kisses and sucked on my neck harshly. She bit down and I hiss. Normally I would moan after, but this time nothing. It's almost as I can't get turned on anymore if I don't get the release I am really craving for..
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a/n: y'all know what will happen next chapter😏