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the morning sunshine came like a smooth wave of the ocean, although it had been far too late to call this time of the day morning any longer. a groan escaped Felix's lips as he attempted to turn on his side still deep asleep but something prevented him from doing so, his face was buried on a soft yet tough surface he couldn't recognize in the midst of his slumber. and when it had become difficult to even breathe anymore Felix finally opened his eyes
blinking a few times to push the sleep that wouldn't stop dawning upon him even after he had clearly attempted to wake up, he pulled his hand back from Hyunjin's chest and exhaled a deep breath his head turning to look at how they were sleeping and a vivid shade of rouge spread across his freckled cheeks, his head was on Hyunjin's arm and face was previously muffled in the said boy's chest, while his other arm held him tight and close by wrapping around his upper body
one leg of Felix on top of Hyunjin's hips and one leg of Hyunjin in between the latter's raised and laid leg while one of Felix's arm was under Hyunjin and the other was wrapped around his torso, in much simpler words every inch of them was tangled with one another, their limbs were tied together like two ends of a bow
he gulped and placed his arm that was free flat over Hyunjin's chest in an attempt to push him away but, as expected, it was of no use. he sighed in defeat trying to take out his other arm that was below Hyunjin while he pushed once again, and much to his luck, it worked. Hyunjin groaned in his sleep and turned around to lay on his back which made Felix smile
but it was soon washed away when he realized how darn numb his arm was, he couldn't even feel it which made him wince while he attempted to move around his stiff limb. he gently sat up on the bed turning to gaze at Hyunjin and a soft smile fluorescences on his face as he gazed at the taller with fondness written all over his face
he looked so squishable and adorable, lips softly agape and raven hair scattered all over his eyes and forehead. "gosh so adorable" he muttered under his breath and after staring at the raven-head for a little before getting up and leaving
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"Felix?" a worried voice echoed in the empty halls of Felix's apartment walls, "lix-ya?" Hyunjin walked out of the bedroom into the lounge while frantically looking around to find Felix "hyunjin?" a soft voice resounded from behind Hyunjin "huh? where did you come from?" he questioned rubbing his swollen eyes with his fingers, while Felix dried his wet hair with a towel "I was in the washroom" he replied walking toward the kitchen
"oh" was all Hyunjin answered with, he stood there dumbfounded watching Felix do whatever the hell he was doing, Felix chuckled slightly when he gazed at him-- this was a habit he recently discovered of Hyunjin, he randomly stands in the middle of places stiffly as if he wasn't human but some sort of game character "you can go wash up, I'll make breakfast" he spoke taking out a few things from the refrigerator
'thank god I went grocery shopping' usually his fridge would almost always be near empty while the only things that occupied it would be a half-eaten meal and a few drinks, but these days he's been buying more things than usual as his appetite has surprisingly increased just the slightest. he thanked the heavens before turning to Hyunjin who was gazing at the wall clock "Hyunjin?" he called out his name to get his attention "yes, um don't bother I'll go get dressed, and pick up coffee on my way" he responded running a hand through his tangled locks "oh okay, Your clothes are on the window sill, I left them there to dry off" Felix spoke and the latter nodded before leaving the lounge
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that morning was the last time the two boys saw each other, they've shared one or two phone calls but haven't had the time to meet up ever since. Felix has been busy with work while Hyunjin-- surprisingly enough has been immersed in studies, although it is not a lie that he doesn't think about Felix day and night he has tried not to be too much of a bothersome to the other boy and has restrained himself from texting and calling too much
even when he's studying, or at school, sleeping or eating doing anything for that matter, and even when he isn't doing anything all he ever really thinks about is Felix and what's more astonishing than this statement was that he didn't mind, like at all. he didn't mind the fact that Felix was living in his mind and glowing in his heart every passing second of the day, and despite being aware of both things he didn't care
"Felix, there's another customer" the brunette boy heard hye-jin speak to him while he tied his hair up in a half-ponytail and turned to look at the table that was now occupied by two girls and a boy sitting "Mkay" he replied, making his way toward them as he greeted the customers and just like that he got back to work
this has been his routine for the past two days, despite the fact that Hyunjin sternly told him not to do any difficult activities he still worked as hard as he would on any other day and told Hyunjin that he was just fine and there was nothing to worry about
he wouldn't lie though he has been feeling worse than he does normally, his headaches have gotten worse to the point that he loses his vision for moments and all he sees are bright lights, his entire body has begun to throb and it doesn't seem to ease at all, he's gotten three nosebleeds since the last time he saw Hyunjin whereas usually, he'd get once a week or so, anything he eats ends up coming out in minutes
so in much simpler words, he can feel how near death is these days, and it frights him to the apex of insanity but as always he took hold of himself focusing on work rather than these thoughts that have haunted him ever since he's had to face Hyunjin's absence, it was absurd how he has started to rely so much on Hyunjin that without him he falls apart
the brunette walked toward a nearby table and sat down on it as this was his last order to serve, he has been here for quite some time now, and he was already halfway through the day which meant it was now break time for him and another one of his co-workers, who also after serving a table sat down in front of him. Felix glanced at her only to find her already staring at him
and upon that awkward interaction, the girl quickly looked away, diverting all her attention to her mobile phone with a rogue shade painting her cheeks. Felix didn't pay much mind to it assuming that she was shy and because they didn't know each other-- like at all she must've not wanted to engage with him, she was a newbie after all
a few moments seemed to pass and Felix's eyes that were settled outside were beginning to falter between shutting and opening, which seemed to be normal alongside the unbearable pain that sparked in his head but what was not normal is how he was slowly slipping down on the ground from the chair, as though he has dissociated from his body
"Felix?!"
a loud yell caught Felix out of his trance as he turned around quickly to look at half the entire cafe staring at him, with either worry or weirdness on their face "are you okay?" she asked leaning to hold Felix's shoulder, he was dazed-- he didn't quite understand what was happening "yes?" it came more out as a question than a statement, everything was yellow and blurred and he couldn't spot a single face nor could he hear anything as soon enough ringing took over his ears
and the last few things he remembered were how warm liquid rushed out his nose and how panic filled the cafe before his body finally collapsed to the ground
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"I think you draw very well, in fact, your sketches are absolute beauty!" Riya beamed with joy as she complimented Hyunjin's artistic skills, with seven thousand stars in her eyes she glanced at Hyunjin who couldn't have been more annoyed by someone's presence, he wanted to run and break free from this curse but he had nowhere to go, they were in lecture and instead of listening to the teacher Riya was more attentive toward Hyunjin's doodling
he hasn't answered her ever since she sat beside him and started talking yet it seemed nothing could stop this girl from getting on Hyunjin's nerves "can I ask you a question?" the light that dazzled in her eyes seemed to have dulled down and her enthusiastic facial expressions and tone has also been tuned down
it seemed that Hyunjin has had enough and saw this as a gateway to peace so he finally broke through the sheets of silence and spoke up not looking up at her "will you shut up if I say yes?" he questioned, voice low and barely audible. she seemed embarrassed but quickly hummed in response "I'll try not to talk too much" she replied following the hum which made Hyunjin sigh
better less than nothing "fine" she smiled a little before gulping and glancing back at Hyunjin's notebook "who is this guy you keep drawing?" and as those words slipped out her mouth Hyunjin's pencil stopped before he licked his lips and began to sketch again "someone I know" was what he replied with "oh" and with that she sunk back in her chair fidgeting her leg continuously while she stared at the teacher in front with a blank gaze
and soon enough the bell rang, every student present in the classroom started to scatter around and loud noises filled Hyunjin's ears while he too got up and began to put his stuff away before he was reminded of a thought 'school's over that means Felix must be on a break right now, should I call and ask how he's doing?"
his worry for the boy has been gradually increasing and to add salt to injury, they haven't talked since last night, shocker I know. 'I don't wanna bother him...but I need to know how he's doing' with that thought invading his mind he walked through the hallways taking the path outside the school as he took out his mobile phone from his pocket and he pressed click on the first contact that popped
his hand raising to settle the phone over his ear as he waited patiently hearing the bell ring, seconds seemed to pass before the line was cut off by an animated voice "the number you are trying to dial is unreachable at the moment, please try later" his heart dropped in his stomach as fret started eating his mind 'what If something happened to him?' was all that could go through his mind
so he dialed the number again and waited for Felix to answer, praying for whatever Gods that existed in the skies above to not do anything bad to his Felix. students rush past him and beside him while he stood frozen, feet stuck to the ground as his entire mind was shut off-- call after call and there was no response, which led him to hop on his motorbike and begin to drift to Felix's workplace.