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soft and serene rain pattered against the glass window of Felix's bedroom, although it was closed shut the cold weather outside still seeped inside and Felix could smell the moist soil making him take in a deep breath and let out a sweet smile, it was small but genuine. he gazed out and watched how stunning the rain looked under the moonshine and streetlight
he had never truly been able to appreciate how breathtaking rains could be and so tonight he gazed at it with contentment in his heart rather than fear. the freckled boy had changed into much more comfortable clothes while he awaited the boy who had saved him to come inside this room and light up his world once again like he does every time
they left the hospital earlier this night and Hyunjin had brought him home, in a rather quite odd way-- and the still fresh memory makes the brunette's smile deeper
small droplets of rain fell on Felix's face when he held onto Hyunjin's arm who had helped him get out of the hospital, the taller of the two had persistently insisted that he carries Felix in his arms but the brunette boy rejected all of his advances, and replied with "Hyunjin-ah, I appreciate your concern but I'm okay don't bother yourself too much" with a bright smile on his face and all Hyunjin could do was give in
and it was in fact true that Felix didn't want Hyunjin to bother himself at all, he felt as though he had burdened the boy enough and did not need to add to the list though it wasn't like his organs weren't doing backflips at the care Hyunjin was displaying, the thought of Hyunjin carrying him in his arms made all the blood in his body rush to his face
his hands softly clenching onto the taller's bicep as he let go for a prompt moment to let Hyunjin get the bike out of the parking and sit on it but before time could even pass there was the touch he has felt so much these past moments, Hyunjin's hand was back on his waist while he felt himself being pulled closer to a body he only wished to be nearer toward eyes settled on Hyunjin's gaze while the rain drizzled gently over them
Hyunjin comfortably seated on his motorbike with his arm around Felix who was still standing on the ground as he spoke the following words
"Get on carefully" Hyunjin's voice that resounded in his ears was foregone and all Felix could currently feel now was the safety the arm around his waist brought over him "lix?" And there it was, the nickname that never sounded any less pretty the more it was spoken "hmm" a soft hum was Felix's response letting Hyunjin know he heard him as he shuffled in Hyunjin's grip to get away so he could sit behind him
"Oh no, not there" Hyunjin spoke, voice calm and low while the sounds of the gentle rain overpowered his raspy voice "here" the brunette was pulled again by the waist and this time he was rather surprised when Hyunjin patted the front of the bike "how can I sit there? I-" he was cut off by Hyunjin's demanding tone "I'm not gonna let you sit behind me either, I can't risk you falling off"
To say the least, the shorter was baffled "fall off?" He couldn't comprehend Hyunjin's words, it was adoring that he was concerned for him but this was far too much of a childish thought "Hyunjin this isn't the first time I'm riding this thing, don't worry nothing will happen!" He protested with a gentle smile but the expression on Hyunjin's face contradicted Felix's making him sigh and huff
"Are you getting on or do I make you?"
The words were a threat to Felix's sanity, he could feel himself slip to the brink of going feral while he stared at Hyunjin's slanted eyes with his own doe ones not caring about the mere droplets of rain that knocked at his cornea and nearly brought tears to rise, an aching shade of crimson spread all over his cheeks and the top of his ears "I swear to god" the tall boy muttered under his breath before he tucked his arm under Felix's thighs which made him gasp and stumble back
but gladly, there was another arm that safely held him around his waist and all it took was the wind to pass by and Felix was set on the bike, facing Hyunjin and legs falling on each side. there was a sudden dizziness Felix had to cope with due to the sudden movements but once he wrapped his head around the fact that Hyunjin has carried him like he was a child who weighed no more than a bag of wool and set him down on the bike in a matter of split seconds he was absolutely baffled
his hands sat flat on Hyunjin's chest and eyes wide in shock "wha-" his words were cut off by a statement that sounded as though this situation mattered no more than a speckle of dust "you were taking too long" Felix scoffed at the answer "you can't just do that" he muttered under soft pants "yes I can" Hyunjin pulled the brunette's legs from the ground to wrap around his waist while his hand rested on Felix's head forcing him to bury his face in the crook of his neck "I can't see if you sit like that" the boy ruffled his hair before going back to the handle as he turned on the motorbike and began to drift away
Felix's arms curled around his torso leaving his chest as he felt the breeze brush his hair in the opposite direction, it felt cold on his bare neck and the behind of his ears but at least his face was hid in Hyunjin's warm neck, and they drove like that to Felix's house as if that was just the epitome of normal, just what 'friends' that were also supposedly strangers do, totally not bizarre at all!
although the insides of Felix were turning and twisting at the incredibly close intimacy the boys shared he kept himself calm but did fail at keeping the blush that was to rise from his neck to his cheeks and ears, his breath occasionally fanned over Hyunjin's soft skin but the boy barely paid any mind to it and after a while of silence and serenity, Felix's mind began to hammer itself with thoughts and questions, recalling and reminiscing.
all the words Hyunjin has said ran through his head and all he could do was close his eyes to block out the echoing voice in his ears but how could that be possible when he was clung to the reason for those voices, quite literally. the things those words and that voice made him feel were making him scream internally, they were astronomically celestial to witness and to have them said about himself was making the brunette boy want to gauge his eyes out or pluck his heart out either one so he'd stop his train of insanity for at least a little while
he knew he had developed a romantic attraction toward Hyunjin but he had tried his best to keep it tucked away and not let it come between their interaction and/or the way he perceived Hyunjin, but when the boy he is nearly head over heels for voices out such darn sickeningly sweet confessions how is he to hold the reigns of his thumping heart?
"lix?" and there it was, there it was again-- that sugar sweet tone that Felix could burn through hell for, the voice that sounded oh too soft each time it'd be referred to Felix "yes?" his voice was silent and muffled due to the rushing wind but it was loud enough for Hyunjin to catch, his mouth dangerously close to Hyunjin's ears suppressing his voice only to be heard by Hyunjin and both the boys liked it that way
for Felix's voice to only reach Hyunjin, for his touch to only finish with Hyunjin. "are you okay?" this was a custom for Hyunjin and by now Felix had grown used to it "yes" his answer remained same as always, of course, he was always okay with Hyunjin, hell, not just okay--he was perfectly fine with Hyunjin
the creaking of footsteps brought Felix out of his flashback as he gazed at the doorframe where stood Hyunjin, partially soaked as he walked closer to Felix and sat down the plastic bag he brought on Felix's bedside "where do you keep the dishes?" he asked taking off his dripping jacket and setting it down on the windowsill, tip-toeing around the entire room "Hyunjin! you're a recipe for disaster" shouted the boy who was laying in his bed previously but was now on his feet rushing toward Hyunjin
"oh, I'm sorry about the mess" the taller apologized for the flood he brought inside the house with himself "I'm not talking about that" Felix shook his head and grabbed the nearest towel he could find and walked to Hyunjin that stood still in the middle of the room, confused and practically dazed when Felix neared him standing right in front of his face with his own one twisted into worry and care "you'll catch a cold this way" he whispered
the brunette raised his arms to reach Hyunjin's head and dry his hair as quickly as he could "why didn't you bring an umbrella with you" he questioned, eyebrows twisted and lips spread out in a thin line. Hyunjin who was too in a haze of staring at his pretty face nearly forgot to answer but at the very last second came up with the words to respond "I don't have an umbrella on me"
Felix sighed, rapidly yet gently drying the taller's hair while he stood on his highest tiptoes to reach him comfortably although it was past comfortable, Hyunjin let the boy do whatever he wished as he stared at him with wider eyes than usual the sudden display of care made his heart flutter and he hated the feeling so much but he also loved it the same, the warmth that engulfed him and his fluttering heart watching Felix's dry his hair while he fretted over the boy catching a cold was impossible to ignore
despite all the hair on his body standing due to the chilly air that struck his wet body worse than lightening his cheeks were still tainted with the softest shades of pink that it was barely noticeable, his hands itched to be on Felix's skin but he held back the urge finding it extremely odd how he was literally feeling sparks at every contact of Felix's skin and his own, he wanted more
for his hands to graze and caress Felix but he immediately pushed the thought away finding it absolutely appalling, his eyes gazing at Felix as if it was the first time that he'd been able to see anything, taking in every little detail as he possibly could. he was so goddamn dazzling! and this thought had crossed Hyunjin's mind a trillion times at least but he just could not get enough of staring at Felix, he was stunned and each time he'd turn his eyes away he was pulled back in like a magnet
like there was some sort of sorcery pulling him back to stare at Felix as if there would be no air to breathe in if he didn't, like there will be no sun or moon, like every inch of this world would be deprived of any sort of water and usually, either of these things wouldn't even faze a minuscule cell in his brain but at this minute it seemed as though the responsibility to save humankind was dawned upon his shoulders and he had to do his job and gaze at Felix
for the sake of humanity, of course, not like it was his heart, body, soul, and mind were begging for him to look at Felix and admire him for years and years on, and while his conscience was in a battle with his amorous thoughts of holding Felix near, his body worked on its own like it had a mind that didn't belong to Hyunjin but itself and raised his arms to rest on Felix's waist, his large hands holding him by his hipbone and before he could fret over his absurd acts (as he would state it)
Felix stepped closer and held his face with both his hands, which were both cold and fairly small "keep your head in place please" the boy whispered ever so gently that Hyunjin assumed the gates of heaven opened above his head just at how beautiful the voice had sounded in his ears, his heartbeat was getting faster each passing second and he feared that if the boy steps any closer he'd be able to hear how feral his heart was going right now
He licked his lips gazing into Felix's eyes, he wanted to let this deep temptation pass away but the lack of attention the other gave him was making him yearn for more, he was far too fixated on drying his hair than paying attention to intimacy and somewhere deep inside this pathetic excuse of disgust Hyunjin put on there was this ache of touching Felix
Holding him, grazing him, there was this ache of kissing every single line on Felix's lips and this ache was far too out of his control now "lix" a sweet and soft whisper knocked at Felix's senses disturbing his actions as his hands froze in place
The tone was so commanding that his brain didn't even allow him to think twice before compelling, his gaze moving from Hyunjin's head to his eyes, and what he found there send electric shocks down his body-- so many emotions, and suddenly he was aware of the breath that was mingling with his own, the large hands set on his waist and the dementedly captivating eyes
Hyunjin licked his lips once again now that he had Felix's attention all on him it made the heat crawl further upon his neck, his eyes darkened unbeknownst to him as he leaned in unable to control any atom of his body, Felix's entire being shook at the sudden closeness that was brought over them by Hyunjin
But he did nothing to stop it-- it wasn't as though he wished to stop it, his eyes faltered between Hyunjin's hypnotic ones and his perfect lips that Felix could not stop gushing over at this current minute "y-yes?" He hated his voice for coming out as squeaky as it did but under the spell that he was it was understandable
Their noses bumped with each other when Hyunjin lowered himself to match Felix's height, making the boy fall on his feet from his tiptoes. Felix's eyes were round and wide while Hyunjin's were slanted and darkened, the room was eerily silent with the sound of rain falling yet it was so calming, darkness swallowed the place, and the only source of light being the dimly lit lamp on the bedside
Felix could nearly hear his heart beating like a drum, and before he could comprehend how loud his heart was and how dark his cheeks have gotten the hands that were previously holding him by his hipbones crawled up to his waist and pulled him closer by it, making the brunette boy stumble in Hyunjin's chest
He was drenched by the rain but somehow that was the last of Felix's concerns, currently on his list were the dark eyes that were driving him wild and the luscious lips he couldn't hold back from. as Hyunjin inched closer Felix's eyes grew larger, he was dreading what would happen next but it wasn't fear or anxiousness just pure shyness
seconds passed slower than years, the clock ticked louder than bombs the hot breath that danced alongside and with each other took Felix and Hyunjin into a wonderland only they were allowed in, and with one swift move, Hyunjin leaned in.