**Trigger Warnings**
I've gave them my blood
It was shed excruciatingly
I have broken my bones
Pain like hell fires
Never Again,
And that was solely mental.
I never thought
That I would so willingly
Let blood drop into my bathroom sink
As I stare blankly into the mirror
I gag at my reflection
But it doesn't stop there
Soon I'm hurling like no tommorow
Bliss, disgust
And blurred images of a smiling face
Not my own
She would be disappointed
She would be mad
But she isn't here
Because it's all just a dream
What to do
When you never wanna wake up?