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"stop laughing It's not funny! It actually hurts" whined Felix, while the black-haired boy was busy throwing a laughter show, "I hate you" Felix threw a tantrum, as a joke of course "I'm sorry, I don't know it's just too funny" Hyunjin answered hearing Felix sigh out loud "My cat scratching me and then running out of the house is funny to you?" it was stupid, in all honesty. but for some reason, Hyunjin just had to laugh off his ass on that silly subject
"yes!" He replied as if it was the most obvious thing in the world, their conversation went on but what the tall boy wasn't aware of was the eyes watching him. sit in his room and laugh
The echoes of his laughter had sneaked outside of his room and his mother who was passing by was lucky enough to hear them, so she decided to sneak a peek to answer her ringing questions 'was this my son's laugh?' she hadn't seen Hyunjin even barely smile ever since his father died. so now that she had the heavenly sight right in front of her eyes she still found it hard to believe
tears began to brim at the corner of her eyes, her heart blossomed at the sight of Hyunjin laughing so brightly. a wide grin spread out on his handsome face the laugh that was so intoxicating and magical that it filled her soul with serenity, and her heart with content
the son who she hasn't seen even speak in joy ever since she married this man was now smiling ever so beautiful, and she couldn't wait to know the reason that was causing this beauty to be on display. she waited for a few minutes letting her heart slow down and her tears dry away before she knocked on the door catching Hyunjin's attention
his expressions that were moments ago very relaxed and merry had now turned into unsettled and confining, eyebrows knitted together while his lips pursed shut as he stared at his mother "Lix, I'll call you back in five k?" he spoke, voice as soft as the best of cotton to have ever been harvested, a few seconds later after hearing Felix's reply he hung up the call and sat his phone down in his lap
"do you need something?" he questioned, voice raw and rude. he was never that impolite with his mother "whose this angel that's making you laugh so well" she answered, setting herself down on the soft bed "what's it to you?" he questioned, cocking a brow "what is this tone you're using with me, dear?" she asked, voice soft and helpless
she felt hurt, her son wouldn't even bother telling her about his life "I'm confused" he questioned once again, and she sighed "do you mind telling me?" she cross-questioned him and now it was Hyunjin's turn to sigh "a friend" he replied, almost under his breath and she smiled so widely "a friend?" he rolled his eyes at her surprise, she knew how much he hated humans and their habitats "yes, a friend. hard to believe isn't it? your pathetic unsuccessful son can also have friends" he sassed
and she sighed again, staring down at her lap. why did he always think so bitter? "of course no son, I'm just happy" he stayed silent, and she did too. for some time they both stayed silent before she broke it, Hyunjin's eyes lingering low at his hands he was messing around with "I want to meet this friend of yours" he looked up at her in shock, she wanted to meet this angel that had made her son so happy "huh?" he was baffled at the comment she had passed "yes, Invite them over for dinner. tomorrow evening, 8 pm"
"and why will I?" he questioned, making his mother smile softly "because I want to meet them, that's why" she didn't want to tell him the real reason, knowing he'd probably get offended and take it for something it isn't. Hyunjin sighed "he can't come, he's busy" she shook her head "You didn't even ask him" he sighed, upset that his mother had outwitted him "I know he is" "please Hyunjin, It'll be nice for us to meet your friends" he sighed crossing his arms over his chest "so he can insult him as he does with me? no." she sighed "I promise he won't" he didn't wanna argue with her
but he didn't want to invite Felix over either, he knew the monster his father was. and he really didn't wanna involve Felix in the hell he was living in "I-" "Fine, if you don't want to invite him over that is okay, I understand you don't want me involved in your life" she replied, wiping away the tear that has slipped from her eye stabbing a dagger in his chest, he didn't want to hurt his mother. and she wasn't the reason, her husband was.
she smiled a painful smile and stood up from the bed, sniffling as she began to make her way out of this room "fine" he sighed, closing his eyes and resting his head on the head-rest of his large chair, she turned around in surprise "you will?" he licked his lips before nodding "thank you so much!" she put her hands over her mouth, behind them a beautiful smile shining bright
hyunjin nodded letting his eyes fall back on his lap "do you know any of his favorite foods? or things he might enjoy eating?" he shook his head making her nod making a mental note to ask Felix about this later "okay then I'll just make your favorite food" he scoffed at the comment "do you even know them?" she sighed, feeling agony rise up her chest "yes I do" he raised his brows toward the door shamelessly as if taunting her and asking her to leave
ignoring all his hurtful remarks she made her way out of the room with a soft good night
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"Hey, everything all right?" Hyunjin heard the brunette's voice from the other side of the line "yea, it's just my mom" he replied "Oh" he wanted to ask Felix about the dinner thing but he was too weirded out by it himself that he could barely find the correct words to phrase it "so um...are you free tomorrow evening?" he questioned, and boy did he feel proud at that. his ego was boosted at how amazingly he had started this topic
"I actually have to work, why'd you ask?" Felix questioned back "work? but it's Saturday" "I sometimes also work at weekends but end my shift early" the brunette explained making Hyunjin chew his bottom lip, what was he to say now? and there goes his confidence
"did you need me for something?" he gulped, feeling anxiety rushing up his chest "I um...thought you should have dinner at my place" he closed his eyes shut completely sucking in his lower lip, he didn't want to hear anything that would embarrass him "really?" was what Felix responded with, enthusiasm dripping from the way he shrieked
"yes" Hyunjin replied, opening one of his eyes. maybe he was safe "yes! I mean sure...I'll uh come around" Hyunjin opened both his eyes and sighed in relief "great, I'll pick you up at 7" he didn't hear anything in response which made him furrow his brows "Felix?" he spoke making sure the other is still connected "oh yea, sorry. yes, that sounds perfect!" he smiled softly at the reply
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"he wants me over for dinner! with his parents!" Felix squealed hiding his face in the pillow, his heart felt like it was going to burst out with excitement. he just couldn't contain his joy, he was so darn happy it was starting to hurt his cheeks from smiling so much. he threw around his legs spinning all around in his bed like a teenage girl who had just been asked out by her life long crush
he sighed out sitting as he glanced up at the ceiling, his hair and clothes a mess indicating how much he'd messed around. he bit his lower lips in between his teeth and plopped down once again, 'is this what it felt to have a crush?' he wondered in his mind, he could hear the echoes of his pacing heart and heavy breathing
hand over his chest he licked his lips before whispering to the air "It's not that big of a deal" his eyes set on the white ceiling, and his joy began to fade 'I should probably stop getting so pumped over nothing, he's just a friend. friends invite over friends for dinner all the time, I need to stop before I go too far and ruin this' his brows furrowed at the thought of ruining their friendship for the sake of his silly feelings
he shook his head turning around and letting out a loud sigh 'I won't let myself ruin us'
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the evening had begun to fall and it was quicker than Felix had anticipated, his nervousness was rising through the roof and he didn't know how to control it. standing in front of the mirror as he stared at himself up and down making sure he looked decent, the light beaming through the curtains behind him lit up the entire room a beautiful smolder of golden
it was quarter 6 and the golden hour had already passed yet the shine was still remaining, beautiful and heavenly. he sighed out relaxing his shoulders before smiling and posing for the mirror, he had been practicing how to greet Hyunjin's parents for the past 15 minutes and he has only failed
"Hello!" he enthusiastically greeted his reflection before shrugging his shoulders and rolling his eyes, he always wanted people to see the great in him. always putting out his best foot, and for that, he had to practice a lot assuming he had barely any good in him that people might appreciate
before he could dive in for another greeting the bell rang indicating Hyunjin had arrived, he licked his lips exiting the comfort of his bedroom, and walked toward the door holding the doorknob and swinging the door open, revealing a Hyunjin in all black. jeans and hoodie, his usual attire with a cold expression on his face that melted as soon as his eyes met with Felix
his fake demeanor being washed away by the presence of the pure boy he had made friends with, the boy with whom he didn't need to pretend to be someone or act cold just so he wouldn't get hurt. "hey" he was greeted warmly by the same boy he had slowly accepted to let inside his walls and didn't freak out at the thought of him knowing him, him as in the Hyunjin he is and not the Hyunjin he faked to be the Hyunjin the world saw and 'knew'
just Hyunjin, the Hyunjin who loved to skate and accidentally scrape his knees each time he did so, drink iced americanos while his mouth was stuffed with a chocolate chip muffin sometimes even vanilla, the Hyunjin who laughed and clapped like a maniac at the most useless things but wouldn't find the actually funny things laugh-worthy
the Hyunjin who could hold his breath for a minute and a half and thought he was so cool for it, the Hyunjin who would always zone out in the midst of conversations, the Hyunjin who seemed cold and hard as ice but was warm and soft like the coziest blankets in the worst of winters, the Hyunjin who'd always recognize the smiles Felix's faking
the Hyunjin Felix wanted to call 'mine' so bad
"hi" he replied, voice barely audible and raspy while he stepped inside the house hearing Felix shut the door behind him "sit down, I'll be out in a second" Hyunjin did as told settling himself down on the couch "not ready yet?" he questioned confused, Felix looked perfectly ready to him "just a minute more" the short boy disappeared into his room leaving Hyunjin all alone with himself, and his raging thoughts
'what if he says something?' by he, he meant his father. the man he couldn't trust even if he swore to be good with a gun pointing at his forehead, he sighed licking his lips. he felt anxious taking Felix to his house, his house which he called hell he didn't appreciate the thought of taking such an angel to a place that was considered to be Thanatos' hideout
you step inside and he takes your soul leaving you with a hole inside your chest for the rest of your life. before his mind could make up another stupid theory of how this was going to go he heard Felix's voice erupt his wrecking train of a theory flood "let's go!"
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the ride to Hyunjin's house was calm for Felix, with his eyes closed and arms wrapped around Hyunjin's lower abdomen. he has learned how to control his fears with Hyunjin, even though he just had that grisly nightmare just a few days back he still managed to get on this bike and close his eyes all the way to the Hwang Mansion "feel okay?" Hyunjin questioned making sure the boy latching onto him like a sloth latches to a tree branch was alright and fine "yes" the former replied in a tone that was easy to decipher that he was doing a-okay
the raven head has been asking him the same question the minute they got onto the bike, and Felix's answer was the same
while the ride wasn't horrific for Felix and was instead pleasing it was the totaly opposite for Hyunjin 'should've said no' he thought to himself, he felt sick to his stomach just thinking about all the things that could go wrong at this infamous dinner and somehow all those horrible theories linked back to his father who he dispised so much
his stomach fell when he had to make that one turn that indicated his house was near, but his heart sunk into the abyss of apprehension when he entered the gates of the notorious high gates knowing he was now on the land of his father, and soon the long road came to an end when the forest started and there stood the mansion of Hwang's
he sighed out, parking his motorbike as he patted Felix's arm before whispering "we're here" the boy opened his eyes, letting his hand slip into Hyunjin's who was standing before him with his hand out as an invitation to hold, once their hands were intertwined and Felix was off the bike they began to make their way inside the magnificent mansion
and the more Felix looked around the louder his "Woah" got, his neck had already started to hurt but it seemed the entirety of the mansion was just neverending, from the garden to the fountains then the mansion itself and its details, it was truly beautiful. the golden gate went well with the dusky color scheme of the outside of the mansion
dark greys and blacks mixed together, it was utterly one of the largest houses Felix has ever laid his eyes upon. the man guarding the main gate quickly opened the barrier that was held between the two boys and the house Hyunjin dreaded stepping inside, they walked up the speck of stairs and stood before the entrance of the Hwang Manor
before they could enter Hyunjin turned to look at Felix and spoke "if you feel uncomfortable, at any time during the meal. just let me know and we'll leave immediately okay?" his words sounded so sincere and soft and Felix couldn't help his heart that was swarming with butterflies
Although he was slightly confused with the way Hyunjin was acting he pushed it to the back of his mind and didn't pay much attention to it "I will" he replied, smiling sweetly as Hyunjin nodded and took the step that he never wanted to
and the world was still the same, the sun was sinking and the skies were how they would be any other day. the air was clean and chilly, Hyunjin was the same, his heart was beating and he had all the control over all his limbs. yet he felt so different, everything felt heavier and worse than it already was. Hyunjin had this vision surrounding him that something awful was about to happen and he won't be able to control it
he sighed, hands sweating as he stood in the middle of the house staring around. Felix probably noticed the stiffness in his posture and the sweating on his palms so he turned to ask the tall boy what was wrong "Hyunjin?" he muttered, voice low "yes?" the taller asked his bubble of anxiety popping as he turned to stare at Felix "you okay?" he questioned, concern all over his voice
Hyunjin nodded slightly, their small conversation was disturbed by a woman's voice "you're here!" she sounded enthused to see them, Felix turned his head back and his eyes were met with honey-brown ones, warm and soft. he guessed the gorgeous woman smiling widely at him was Hyunjin's mother, so he smiled back at her taking in her stunning attire
a gorgeous champagne-colored silk dress hugging her body, a diamond necklace on her neck, and extravagant earrings topping off the look, hair open with a side parting, she was truly no less than a goddess. no wonder her son looked like that "Hello dear" she greeted the brunette boy sticking out her iced-up hand, Felix gulped before he decided to let go of Hyunjin's hand to shake her's
but much to both of their's dismay the tall boy holding his hand refused to let go, Felix sighed not paying much attention to it and shaking her hand with his free one "Hello" he replied, tone shy and sweet. Hyunjin stood there with one hand in Felix's and the other in his jeans pocket. he boredly looked around the house until his eyes landed on the figure he's been absolutely restless to meet
eyes locking with the dark cloud of anger and his soul jittered at the contact, it was a mistake, this entire thing was a mistake, his father shouldn't even get to breathe the same air as Felix and here he was bringing the pious boy in front of the devil himself. he quickly tore his gaze and glanced at Felix who was talking to his mother while shyly fidgeting with Hyunjin's silver bracelet with his other free hand
his brows furrowed as he kept his worried eyes on the shy boy, licking his lips every second that passed. the clicking heels of his father's shoes coming down the stairs made nausea in his throat rise higher, and before he knew it, he heard the voice even his demons hated "Well, Hello there"
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this is too long skdhsjal 😭 (that's what she said) did y'all even read it or just skipped till the end bcs Ik I woulda done that 💀