HE HAD TO STOP. HE HAD TO, WHILE HE STILL CAN.
Ayaw niyang pagsisihan sa huli ang ginawa, kaya kahit na kanina pa may demonyong bumubulong sa likod ng tenga niya'y kailangan na niyang itigil ito. Kailangan na niyang bumitiw kay Shellany, kailangan na niyang alisin ang kamay mula rito.
But damn— her sexy half-naked body was making it hard for him to let go. He never thought he would get affected by her nudity. He had seen her like this back in Guimaras, but it was just for a brief moment. Now that he had a good look at it, he realized that she possessed this sensuality in her. He realized that she had this powerful sex appeal; something he couldn't just ignore.
And it all started with just one, fvcking innocent touch.
Shellany wasn't the sexiest woman he had ever seen in his whole life, but she was the only woman who had awakened his urges with just one simple caress.
And good Lord, her breasts were so perfect in his eyes. They were bigger than what he had expected them to be. Shellany was always wearing oversized sweatshirts so he hardly noticed. Kahit noong nagsuot ito ng magandang damit nang nagtungo sila sa Guimaras ay hindi niya napansin iyon— which was simply because he wasn't really looking.
And now... he's looking at them with wonders in his eyes. And he had to admit, he was enjoying the view.
But her breasts weren't just the only thing that made her body look so hot. Her waist was slim and curvy, too. Her hips were well proportioned with her upper body. And no matter how much she complained about her bottom, he still think she had a body of a goddess.
O baka iniisip lang niya na ganoon dahil hinahayaan niya ang demonyong bumubulung-bulong sa kaniya na tukain ang palay na lumapit?
Damn it.
He loved women—most especially that part between their legs. But he wasn't that kind of guy who would easily fall under any women's spell. He was always in control. He always knew where to start and when to finish.
But with Shellany... he had no idea what made him lose his sight in the right direction.
Para siyang nagmamaneho sa dilim—hindi alam kung saan na siya nakarating at kung saan susunod na liliko.
Being with Shellany every day was like a walk in an amusement park; full of wonders and... excitement.
Oh no. Bakit ganito na siya mag-isip ngayon? Parang kaninang umaga lang ay atat na atat na siyang matapos ang linggong ito nang sagayon ay matapos na rin ang booking ni Shellany Marco sa kaniya.
And then now, he found this trip with her a walk in an amusement park?
Pull yourself together, Cerlance Zodiac!
Would he really try to re-route? Would he really break his rule?
He shouldn't be doing this. Aiding her was not part of the services he offered. Touching her bare skin with his sinful fingers was already stepping beyond the line. Gazing at his client's naked body was not what he would normally do.
He should stop.
Yes, he should. That was the most reasonable thing to do.
He shouldn't be doing this. He shouldn't let his urges ruin his control.
But... would he really want to stop this?
Malakas ang pwersang umu-udyok sa kaniya na ituloy ang nais na mangyari ng katawan niya.
Ang huling sinabi ni Shellany sa kaniya kanina ay parang susi sa naka-bukas nang pinto. It was useless. Because he knew exactly what she wanted—he could see it in her eyes.
"You are hesitating..."
He blinked. He wondered why her voice started to sound like music in his ears...
"Should I make the first move, Cerlance?"
Hindi siya nakasagot, lalo nang makitang unti-unting lumuwag ang pagkakatakip nito sa dibdib. He knew that it's just a matter of a milisecond before her perfectly shaped breasts would appear in his sight. And he also knew that when it happened... there was no turning back. He wouldn't turn back.
Not now after developing this familiar feeling...
Shit. Hindi niya inasahang makararamdam ng ganito para kay Shellany.
Sa loob ng unang tatlong araw na tumanggi siya at umiwas ay dito rin pala siya babagsak.
Tama ito; mahina siyang nilalang.
Bumalik ang pansin niya sa ginagawa ni Shellany. May kaunti pa siyang kontrol na natitira—at gagamitin niya iyon para ibalik ang huwisyo nilang dalawa sa tamang direksyon.
Mabilis niyang itinaas ang isang kamay at pinigilan itong alisin ang brasong nakatakip sa mga dibdib kasunod ang kaniyang pagyuko.
"Wait," he said in a hoarse voice. Fvck it—that was how he sounded every after sex. He swallowed hard in a desperate attempt to hide the intense desire building up inside of him. "I won't hold back, Shellany. I might break you."
Oh fvck. That wasn't what he wanted to say.
What he really wanted to say was to stop this nonsense and that they should go to sleep for an early start tomorrow.
But he ended saying what his—their bodies— wanted to hear.
Double fvck. Para na rin siyang nagbigay ng forewarning kay Shellany na maghanda dahil wala siyang balak magdahan-dahan.
Gusto niyang sapukin ang sarili. Akala pa man din niya ay magagamit niya ang natitirang katinuan upang sugpuin ang apoy na unti-unting tumutupok sa kanilang dalawa—iyon pala'y gagamitin lang niya iyon upang lalo pang pag-apuyin ang paligid.
Si Shellany, na sandaling natigilan sa huling sinabi niya, ay napangiti. Then, she bit her lower lip to probably stop herself from chuckling. He knew she was trying so hard not to laugh, nakikita niya sa mga mata nitong nagpipigil ito. And damn her for laughing in this kind of situation. Hindi ba nito alam kung ano ang kaya niyang gawin sa maliit nitong katawan? He could fvcking break her. She would have a hard time walking without a crutch tomorrow, didn't she know that?
"Just because I am petite doesn't mean I can't handle a big man like you..."
Nang marinig ang naging sagot ni Shellany ay humigpit ang pagkakahawak niya sa braso nito. He was gripping it as if his life depended on it. Alam niya sa kaniyang sarili na kapag inalis ni Shellany ang pagkakatakip ng braso nito doon ay katapusan na ng lahat.
But Shellany wouldn't let him slide this time. Inalis nito ang kamay na naka-patong sa kaniyang balikat at dinala sa kamay niyang nakahawak sa braso nito. Hinawakan siya nito sa palapulsuhan.
"Let go, Cerlance..." she ordered—using her sexiest tone. "Your resistance is useless. Nararamdaman ko kung ano ang nararamdaman mo ngayon."
"I am doing my best to keep my control, Shellany. For your own good."
"Tulad ng sinabi ko'y hindi ako nag-aalala sa kaya mong gawin, Cerlance."
"Ano ang mangyayari sa kinabukasan kapag hinayaan nating mangyari ang gusto mong mangyari, Shellany?"
Shellany went silent for the next five seconds until she released a cheeky smile and said, "We will have to find out tomorrow."
At nang hilahin nito ang kamay niyang nakahawak sa braso nito'y wala na siyang nagawa pa.
Oh, he could do something about it if he wanted to, but he wouldn't. Tama ito; his resistance was useless. Lalo at pareho lang naman sila ng nararamdaman sa mga sandaling iyon.
Then, when her breasts were exposed, all he could manage to do was let out a soft sight.
Damn it.
Just like how they imagined them to be.
Beautiful. Her breasts were beautifully made from heaven. They were round and firm and huge, for fvck's sake. She had a slim body but her breasts were noticeable due to their size. And damn, he couldn't take his eyes off of them. Ni hindi naging balakid ang namumulang balat sa gilid ng kaliwang dibdib nito para masabi niyang iyon ang pinaka-perpektong pares na nakita niya sa tanang buhay niya.
"I told you," Shellany said with a smirk, "they aren't saggy."
"I never said they were."
"So, what do you think about them?"
"They look perfect..." Kasabay ng pagsagot niyang iyon ay ang muli niyang pagpapakawala ng mahabang paghinga.
Shit. He wanted to touch her, but where should he begin?
Gusto niyang murahin ang sarili. Umaakto siyang parang bata na hindi alam ang gagawin. Na tila ba iyon ang unang beses na nakakita siya ng hubad na dibdib; na tila iyon ang unang beses na gagawin niya ang ganitong bagay.
Marahil ay tama si Shellany—ipokrito siya.
"You aren't going to just stare at them, are you?'
He tore his eyes from her beautiful breasts and looked Shellany in the eye. Ang pamilyar na apoy sa mga mata nito'y tinutupok ang bawat himaymay ng kaniyang pagkatao.
At nang banayad siyang itulak ni Shellany pahiga sa kama ay nagpaubaya siya. Half of his body was laying on the bed when Shellany climbed on him. Their eyes still locked, their bodies maintained a fair distance. His hands were on his sides—waiting for the perfect timing to touch her. Shellany's hands landed on the sides of his shoulders, while her legs spread apart just above his crotch.
She was half-naked, he was still fully clothed.
Shit—he was acting like a virgin when it comes to Shellany. Nagmumukha tuloy na mas may karanasan pa ito kaysa sa kaniya.
Kung tama ang pagkakatanda niya, Shellany once mentioned that her ex-fiance was her first and last lover. Which meant he had more experience than her. He had dated and fvcked more women than she did with men. So, for him to act coy with her was something he couldn't understand.
Ganito ba ang dating sa kaniya ni Shellany?
Was her presence in bed making him feel like he was on the inferior side?
Shit. That's not a good sign.
"Still holding on, Cerlance?" she asked, still using her sensual tone. "Why won't you touch me?"
He gritted his teeth to control his urges. Then, he gave him a lopsided grin. "I'm giving you a minute of a headstart. After all, it's you who initiated to do this."
"Ahh..." Ngumisi rin ito. Ang tipo ng ngisi na noon lang niya nakita. It was somewhat alluring... and he couldn't help but give in. "So gusto mong ako ang mag-umpisa... at ikaw ang tatapos?"
"You can say that."
"Okay." She sensually bit her lower lip before placing her lower body on his. And for fvck's sake, she felt so tender down there he couldn't wait to...
Hell and damnation! Kailan pa ako nangailangan nang ganito sa isang babae?
Si Shellany, nang maramdaman ang reaksyon ng kaniyang katawan sa bahaging inupuan nito'y bahagyang napasinghap kasundo ng panlalaki ng mga mata. There was a mixture of surprise and astonishment in her eyes when she smiled again and said,
"See? There's no use resisting. Your body's reaction says it all."
Hindi na siya nakapagpigil pa. Itinaas niya ang mga kamay sa magpakilang binti nito at hinagod ang mga iyon paakyat hanggang sa maliit nitong bewang. Naramdaman niya ang bahagya nitong pag-igtad.
"Let's stop talking and proceed to the main thing, Shellany, bago pa magbago ang isip ko."
Nagtaas ito ng kilay. "And here I thought you said you wanted me to have a headstart?'
"Not by talking."
"Are you ordering me around, Cerlance?"
No, I'm begging.
Shit, he wouldn't say that. Ayaw niyang malaman nito ang katotohanang may kakayahan itong kontrolin siya... magmula sa mga oras na iyon.
Hindi na siya muling nakasagot pa sa huling sinabi ni Shellany nang unti-unti nitong ibinaba ang ulo patungo sa kaniya. And he waited... he waited like a lonely soldier waiting for his time to come home.
Shellany closed her eyes midway and lowered her face closer to him... And she was taking her goddamn time while there he was, stopping himself from ravishing her.
Then, her soft lips finally covered his, silencing his thoughts.
Shellany's kiss was gentle but with a bit of casual expertise and teasing insistence. Damn it, but she was a good kisser. Her lips felt like soft rose petals in a morning breeze. This wasn't what he expected them to be.
Shellany's kisses started off real good before they became even better. Sa loob ng ilang segundo matapos dumampi ang mga labi nito sa kaniya ay naging mas mapusok ito. Pinigilan niya ang sariling tumugon; h'wag muna. Pagbibigyan niya itong kontrolin siya sa loob ng isang minuto. After all, that was the deal. She had a one-minute headstart. Uumpisahan nito, tatapusin niya.
But damn was she making this minute so hard for him. The way she kissed his lips with increasing demand was doing his head in.
Her lips urged him to open his mouth and respond to her, and that's when the one-minute headstart became irrelevant.
He couldn't take it anymore.
To Shellany's surprise, he tightened his grip around her hips, opened his mouth, and delved his tongue in before closing his eyes in surrender.
That was it; there was no turning back.
TO BE CONTINUED...