"I'm just going to use the loo really quick, and we can go down to eat. Kimba? Be a babe and give Y/N one of me tees?" Cheryl said bringing my attention back to them as she mentioned my name.
"How was it?" Kimberley asked, getting up and heading to the dresser.
"It was good, much needed." I admit, sitting on the bed feeling extremely uncomfortable under Elizabeth's gaze.
"I'm glad," Kimberley said passing me a simple white shirt with the school long on it. "I hope my Chezza wasn't too much trouble." She nodded towards the bathroom just in time for Cheryl to be walking out in just her bra. I quickly divert my eyes to the ground, out of respect to Kimberley.
"I was a good girl" Cheryl confesses, I can hear the smile in her voice.
"Can I use your bathroom to change?" I quietly ask, Cheryl just nodded as she continues to change, not caring who's watching. I wish I was that confident.
I awkwardly got off the bed and make my way to the bathroom, well aware of Elizabeth's eyes following me until I was out of sight.
I can't help but feel so out of place in this room. I know both Kimberley and Cheryl come from money and not to mention that Elizabeth girl too. She just looks so elegant, bitchy but elegant.
I take my sweaty shirt off and pull Cheryl's shirt over my head.
"It even smells expensive." I chuckle to myself. I wash my hands quickly, my stomach rumbling letting me know I am indeed very hungry.
"Y/N?" Cheryl questioned, followed by Elizabeth mocking Cheryl's accent.
"Ready!" I said opening the door walking to stand next to Kimberley, making sure she blocks me from Elizabeth's sight.
I don't know what it is, but she makes me feel uncomfortable. It's almost like she knows because she's smirking looking at me as I shyly hide further behind Kimberley.
"Howay man!" Cheryl exclaims, grabbing Kimberley's hand and flipping off Elizabeth.
I can't help but giggle at Cheryl's actions. I actually pity her for having to share room with such a bitchy girl. I guess I can count myself lucky having Kimberley as a roommate. So far, she's been nothing but kind and really sweet.
"I'm fookn' hungry." Cheryl mumbles.
"Same." I agree, watching as everyone throws dirty looks our way as we walk by them.
I can't help but wonder if they all know I'm the new girl here? Of course they know.
I hate the feeling of everyone watching me, everyone judging me and for once whatever they're thinking it's probably true. I don't feel like I belong, and they know it. Kimberley and Cheryl have made me feel a bit more welcomed, but it's not enough and I know I actually do not belong in this school.
We make it to the lunchroom and wow! This looks like the fanciest restaurant ever, not to mention it's absolutely enormous. As massive as this school is; everyone seems to know everyone, and it is very intimidating being the new girl.
Thankfully my roommate and her girlfriend have taken me under their wing so far. I am following them closely copying every move, not knowing how to act myself. Fortunately, it seems that they haven't noticed, or if they have, they're choosing to be polite and not mention it.
"We have our own table; do you want to sit somewhere else or join us-?"
"Chezza, don't be silly she's sitting with us. We know the other girls will not mind at all." Kimberley said, cutting Cheryl off and I am grateful because I had no idea what I was going to say. I don't want to feel like I'm intruding but I also don't mind tagging along.
"Girls!" Cheryl shouts. Making every girl on the round table stop talking and looking up. They're all staring and I'm starting to freak out.
"This is Y/N, she is my new roommate." Kimberley said, softly placing a hand on my back making me jump a little.
"Hi, I'm Nicola." a pale red headed says, smiling as she extends her hand.
"This is Lex, Lily, Amy, Kate, and Ollie." Cheryl used her finger to point at each and every girl as she mentions their names.
They all said hi at once then bursting into giggles as they looked at each other.
"Hello," I half smile while giving them all a little wave.
All the girls seem to know each other pretty well. I just sit here and eat my food quietly listening to their conversation here and there.
"Bitch," Cheryl starts but before she could continue Kimberley grabs her hand.
"Babe." She warned her, and Cheryl shook her head. I look up to see where Cheryl was looking and of course I am met with a pair of green eyes again.
She smirked before turning to her friends laughing at whatever the girl next to her had said.
"Aubreyyy!" Elizabeth said loud enough for us to hear but we all just ignored her.
The girls go back eating, I tried to act normal and at ease but I can feel somebody is watching me but then again everyone is watching. Everyone has noticed the new girl in the room. I tried to ignore all the stares and actually enjoy the food, but it is a very difficult task.
Kimberley has tried her best to include me as girls have been talking about their classes, which teachers they like and which ones they hate.
I noticed I have most of my classes with them. Cheryl said I had dance with her which puts me at ease.
The room is starting to clear out but our table is still in deep conversation. Lily had mentioned sneaking out for party on Friday as a welcome back celebration.
I've also learned that just on the other side of town there is an all-boys school, not that I care about that because I am definitely not interested in boys, but all the other girls seem to be all giddy about it.
We've decided to head back to our dorms. The only room in the same floor as mine and Kimberley's is Cheryl's. I've also learned that that Nicola's room is quite far because she has a single person dorm, I guess she had to convinced her dad to pay extra for her own room and I can't even begin to think how much more she has to pay for full privacy.
"Y/N?" I hear Cheryl call my name "You don't mind if I stay over with Kimba, right?" She asks, a bit shy.
"Of course not, just no funny business." I said pointing at them both. Kimberley had a slight blush on her cheeks, but Cheryl was just grinning.
"Yay, walk us to me room and then we can all go back to yours!" Cheryl said quickening up her pace. I shake my head at her energy, these girls don't seem too bad after all.
I've learnt that Cheryl is from Newcastle upon Tyne, UK and her Geordie accent is very unmistakable. They use us for me and me for my/mine. Which I had gathered from just the little time I've spent with her. She's very feisty, the complete opposite to Kimberley who is actually very calm and collected. Very well put together and treats everyone with so much kindness. She sees the good in every person and helps without wanting anything in return. They do say opposite attracts and they are the living proof of that.
We made it to Cheryl's room, I was in my own little world which I don't really mind because they were in a bubble of their own.
The first thing my eyes land on is my hoodie and shirt neatly folded on the bed, but I clearly remember leaving on the bathroom floor because I was rushed by Cheryl.
"Here." Kimberley said passing me my clothes giving me a small smile before looking across the room where Elizabeth is laying on her bed, headphones in and not even paying attention to us.
I know Kimberley is just as confused as I am. Elizabeth had to be the one who picked up my clothes from the floor, folded them, and placed them on Cheryl's bed.
I look back to Elizabeth and she catches my eyes and for the first time she offers a gentle smile, but I can't bring myself to smile back. She gives me an uneasy feeling in my stomach and chest. My mom always told me to follow my gut even though she never did. But that's a trauma for another day.
"Ready!" Cheryl said running out of the bathroom slamming the door a little too loud.
"Cheryl!" Elizabeth groans looking rather annoyed.
"Cheryl!" Cheryl mocked back, flipping her off once again.
I giggle at Cheryl running out her dorm before Kimberley can yell at her.
"Sorry, Lizzie." Kimberley offers a small smile.
"I wish you were my roommate; I can't stand your girlfriend." Elizabeth said with a genuine smile.
"Give her a chance, she's not that bad, eh Y/N?" Kimberley said nudging my side. I just nod looking at my feet.
"Kimbaa?!" Cheryl shouts "Y/N?" she continues.
"We better go, have a good night Lizzie." Kimberley waves, blowing a kiss across the room.
"Night, girls." Elizabeth waved back. I didn't say anything, I just kept walking alongside Kimberley until we're met by a very bouncy Cheryl. She might not be that bad, but she is very energetic that is a fact.
Getting back to our dorm does not take long, both rooms are actually pretty close together. I let out a big yawn the minute we open the door. Sitting on by bed, I look at my phone seeing it's almost midnight, I sighed. I've been ignoring all the messages that have come through not wanting to get sad on my first day.
I must've been lost in my own world that I don't notice Kimberley and Cheryl are both snuggled up in their bed. I get up making my way to the bathroom to get ready for the night. As I'm brushing my teeth, I catch a glimpse of myself. I don't recognize the imagine in front of me.
My eyes are empty, and it hurts seeing myself like this, I was never this hollow. I blinked back my tears and rush into bed.
"Goodnight, Y/N." Both Kimberley and Cheryl yawn, laughing at how in sync with each other they are.
I wait until their laughs turn into soft giggles "Night, girls." I smiled, trying to get comfy in this cold bed.
Laying on my girlfriend's bedroom floor I can't help but smile. She's been lost in her books doing homework for a few hours now, but I don't mind. As long as I'm spending time with her, I don't mind what we're doing.
This is all bizarre to me, I never thought the hottest girl in school would be interested in me, not to mention she's a few years older than me.
"Staring is rude." She winks, making my stomach explode with butterflies.
"Being so beautiful should be a crime," I said getting up, walking towards her and settling myself on her lap.
"So beautiful." I dreamily smile more to myself than to her.
I slowly bring my hands to cup her cheeks caressing them softly.
"Y/N," She whispers but I don't let her finish. I am kissing her with so much love my chest feels so tight.
I'm so in love, I thought to myself. I am so in love with the most perfect girl in the world.
I deepened the kiss forcing my tongue in her mouth. I hear her moan and I can't help but bite down on her bottom lip taking it between my teeth and pulling back.
We both stare into each other's eyes, getting up at the same time and walking towards bed.
If I love her, I should be ready to be like this with her right? I thought to myself.
I've never wanted to do this with anyone before and I couldn't be happier that my first time is going to be with the girl of my dreams.
"Are you sure?" she whispers as she lays me down on her bed.
"With you? Anything." I said before I could stop myself.
"Fuck." I breathe out quietly, not wanting to wake up the sleeping couple across the room.
I'm upset with myself for constantly going back to that memory and feeling regretful. Throughout the entire afternoon, I successfully avoided thinking about her, but as soon as night falls, she effortlessly invades my thoughts and dreams.