To the world you may be one person but for one person you are a world....
Talks
It's the best way to show what you feel about someone.
I have seen people talking about a certain person to another certain person. What's the difference?
One person is who has gained a place and the other one is the person who is gaining a place in heart. Both have a precious meaning to one person.
And talking about something can really make you feel light and remove atleast half of your stress.
Again the person you share your worries must be trustworthy. I came across many people who speaks about some other person's problem and at last say that don't say to anyone I have promise him or her but I had to share it with you so please haan. Like why?!
Someone had trusted you thier grief, stress or anything,how can you say this all just because you couldn't keep it with yourself.
That is the reason I keep my problem and stress to myself only. Like I don't have any massive problems but still I always try to keep it to myself.
But you know there are certain people who can't keep things and need some advice or opinion about something so they share. It's alright no big deal but I have this small fear that the person will say it to someone and I am really an insecure child who need time and space so I prefer to keep things to myself.
There are some topics which need to be discussed and we should talk and take advice and opinion about them. I take advice and all but keeping mejority of the part to myself and just say the important part.
Same as I needed someone to talk about all the wedding thing is going so I chose tayijaan who is cool and knows how to handle the situation. She won't ask anything and just give an advice.
My mother she is my mother so she will dig in the case and than it will be waste of things.
Next morning was busy with me in files and all the work which were required only for me and in all these half of the day was passed.
When I shut all my work farid walked in with a file all busy reading it.I sighed and wait for him to speak.
"Need your signature Amaya and need that file of Germany branch."I took the paper and signed on it.
"The file is in my office,is it urgent?" Ia asked him who rolled his eyes heaving a breath.
"Yup... Say me I will get it?" Throwing his hands up in air he said in duh tone.
"It's in my left drawer in blue color. There will be five files okay? Take all of them and come." I instructed him.
He nodded and walked out of my room I slumped on my bed with a yawn when nabhan,tayijaan and ammi walked in. Nabhan was busy on phone texting someone while mothers walked to me with a grin.
"We made this soup for you it will help to have more blood in your body." I glanced in bowl to see a tomato soup. I nodded and spooned it in my mouth.
"No!"We all turned to nabhan who yelled and walked in my balcony dialling someone.
"What are thinking about the proposal amaya?"I stared back to his mother who had hopes in his eyes. I shook my head and drink the soup when again he walked out and glanced me with a frown.
"What?!" I asked confused
"What?!"ge snapped at me his mother glared him
"You are ogling me." I spat back glaring him.
"You really don't need to work with that broken limbs." He comment looking at my hands and leg.
"When you can work with a stupid mind why can't I work with broken limbs." I smiled angering him while the Ladies hold their laughter.
"My head is all fine but you will need to get stiches again and need to drink that blood for five months." I paled at his words and in next minute tayijaan threw a pillow over him which he dodged in second with smirk.
"Enjoy the blood I will have the kababs on your behalf." Mocking me he walked out. Allah!!
"You made kababs when I am sick mommy." I turned to my mother who smiled at me. I pout when she laughed hugging me.
"I will make them again when you will get well Amaya." The universal lie.
I pout and finished the soup which was not bad but only good when you are sick.
Than I had my medicine and slept for two hours due to effect of medicene.
*****
I was seated on my bed reading a book when tayijaan walked in with a glass of milk with turmeric in it. I sat straight.
I was sipping my glass when she spoke slowly not to offend me.
"Is there something my son did to you amaya?" What is left that he didn't did to me.
"No tayijaan...." Smiling I gulped my words she smiled.
"Than is there any problem with him that you are....." I knew this was coming.
"Tayijaan he can have much better than me..."I tried to reason out but can a child be save from a mother.
"When you already love him....."My snapped to her who had a soft motherly smile.
"I know beta that you both have something and don't say me about it. But atleast try to understand his effords." I felt ashamed but one day this has to come for me.
"He betrayed me tayijaan..... I can't again go in a hell." I said slowly playing with the glass in my hands. She so sweet to be a mother of nabhan.
"Beta hum ladkiyon ki yahi zindagi hain. Kuch bhi kaho humein yahi riwayaat se chalna hoga. Pata hain tumhare liye kitne rishte aayein hain." She took the glass from me and held my hands in hers.
"Har koi issi cheez se peeche ho gae hain ki tum 6 mahine ghar se dur thi. This is our life beta, we can never change this cycle. We have to accept this. I have seen your mother crying for your better future and no doubt you can pay for yourself and all that modern things but atlast ghar aaker khana pakana hain,ghar dekhna hi hain. Kuch bhi karlo kitne bhi kaamwale rakhlo akhir mein tumhe hi dekhna hota hain beta." She was right we can never change the mind never.
"Nabhan ko maaf nahi koro par uska saath bhi nahi chodo jaise usne choda, usse dikhao ke tum amaya ho usse uski galati ka ehsaas hogaya hain na abh usse galati theek karne ke liye waqt dena aur raasta dikhana."
"Tayijaan aap apne bete ki side le rahi hain....." I teased her who chickled and hit me slowly.
"Nahi pagal uske dard ko aur tumahre anson dekh kar keh rahi hoon. Usse meine kabhi roote hue nahin dekha. Jabhse hosh sambhala hain kabhi nahin roya par kuch din se aise rehta hain jaise kisi dard mein ho tumhara bhi yahi haal hain." I numbed at her words. Nabhan cried for me? He is pain because of me?
"Khud ko aaziyat nahin do. Saath hokar iss dooriyon ko khatm karo woh shaytaan ko mardo jisne tum dono ko alag kiya hain." Her words were playing with my mind now.
"Matlab...." She smiled at my confusion and answered me.
"Shaitan bahot khush hota hain jabh ek biwi aur shohar mein darar aajaien." She informed which was really new and shocking.
"Tayijaan mein haan kardongi par kya woh mujhe khush rakhega?" At this even she was fearing.
"Uske dard aur aanso kehte hain ki woh tumhe sabh dega joh ek biwi ko chahiye hota hain." I nodded playing with the ring in her hand.
And with this I said yes and
preparation of marriage begin. ______________________________________