Sana's P.O.V.
During lunch, while everyone were eating together, I stood up and looked at them. Knowing that I wanted to say something, they all gave me their attention. "I have a suggestion to make," I said. They waited. "I am leaving next week to return home. And, I know how close we have grown to each other. My suggestion is that I build a new home in the city where I can accommodate all of you so that we don't have to be far from each other," I said. They looked at me silently as Roopaji shook her head. "Listen Sana, we all are comfortable here and moving isn't as good for our age. We will remain here," Virenji said. "But I will prepare everything in the city for you all. You will get the exact building with the same or even better amenities," I said. "This is not only about you. Think about it selflessly. We won't move," he said. "Sana," Sharad said coming to me, "This idea isn't good for anyone. They are old. Understand them. Moving away to the city is a huge step. They won't go. Just let them be." "But what about me?" I asked. "You are free to come anytime," he said. "But I won't get to meet them everyday," I said. "Don't do that, think about them as well," he said. "This is not fair!" I said frustrated, "Your children and family members left you all here to die alone and when someone is actually caring for you and wants you in their life, you all are throwing that person out? I am not the one selfish. You all are!" They all looked at me shocked and I immediately regretted my outburst. Not being able to face them after what I just said, I ran into Sidharth's house and locked myself in the room. "Sana," Sharad said knocking on the door. "Leave me alone," I said. "Sana, open the door, once, please?" He said. I wiped away my tears and opened the door. "Hey," he said coming in. I sat on the bed and he came and hugged me.
"I'm sorry. I know I shouldn't have said those things," I said. "Everyone knows and understand. Sometimes in frustration, we say things we don't mean. That doesn't mean that everyone will hate us," he said. "But I said the worst thing to them ever," I said. He broke the hug and cupped my face. "Listen to me," he said wiping my tears, "Everyone makes mistakes but once you realise and acknowledge them, you say sorry and everyone will forgive you. Everyone knows that you made that mistake because you love them too much." "Do you think they will forgive me?" I asked. "I know they will," he said, "In fact, I know that they have already forgiven you." I hugged him saying, "Thank you. You're the best." He ruffled my hair and said, "Anytime." Breaking the hug, he asked, "Are you ready to verbally apologise now?" I nodded. "Good. Let's go," he said. We went back to the home where everyone were still sitting. "I'm sorry I said such horrible things to you all. You all have become a huge and important part of my life and losing you is making me scared. That's why I said all of those things. I hope you all can forgive my selfishness and childish behaviour one more time," I said. Roopaji came to me smiling and hugged me. "It's ok child. We understand," she said. I smiled, relieved and broke the hug. Looking at everyone else, they all smiled at me and I sighed. "I'll go and finish my packing," I said. "Do you want me to come and help you?" She asked. "It's ok. Being alone might help me clear my head," I said, "I'll see you all at dinner." She smiled and cupped my face. I left and as I crossed the road, "Sidharth came back. "Hey," he said coming out with a smile. "How was your surgery?" I asked. "It was good. The patient is fine," he said. "Good," I said. "Are you here to pack your things?" He asked. I nodded.
Holding my hand, he said, "Come. I have something for you." He carried me upstairs and into my room. He closed the door and locked it. "Sidharth, what are you doing? What if someone comes?" I said. He took off his jacket and threw it on the bed. Holding my shoulders, he turned me around and carried me to the mirror. He took a small box out of his pocket and opened it. Taking a necklace out, he hung it around my neck. The pendant was an infinity sign. "This will remind you everyday of my love. My infinite love," he said hugging me from behind. I felt as if I was deceiving him. Not telling him about my plan was killing me inside. He moved away my hair and inhaled the scent on my neck. He lightly kissed my nape and shoulder. He held onto me and walked backwards to the bed. There, he made me sit as he intertwined our fingers together, kissing the back of my hand. Slowly, he began kissing up my arm and my shoulder. He pulled the strap off my dress and laid me down on the bed while I began to get nervous. I needed to tell him what was bothering me and as he came on top me, I pushed him away and stood up abruptly saying, "Stop it." He looked at me taken aback and disappointed. "What happened?" He asked. "I'm sorry," I said. "Hey," he said holding my hand. He made me sit down next to him and asked, "What is really the matter?" I knew that I had to tell him. "I'm going back next week," I said. He frowned as his hands loosened on mine. "I didn't know how to tell you and it was eating me away so I had to," I said explaining myself, "Sidharth, we love each other and we will find a way to keep in touch. This isn't going to be the end of our relationship. Many people maintain long distance relationships and if you want, you can even move with me." He looked at me skeptical.
"When did you decide all of this?" He asked. "I always knew this is what I wanted. You also know that I can't possibly live my life here," I said. "So, you knew all along that one day you were going to leave everything behind and move back to the city?" He asked. "I never hid this from you either. You knew," I said. "I thought I changed you. I thought that my love changed your mind," he said, "Heck I even started dreaming of a lifetime with you." I felt hurt. I knew that this would be his reaction. Cupping his face, I said, "Sidharth, this isn't the end of us. We will continue our relationship." "How long do you think long distance relationships last?" He asked getting up, "It's clear you didn't have the same dreams as me, right?" I followed him and hugged him. "No Sidharth. I have the same dreams as you. But our lives are different," I said, "It will take a bit of time to get on the same page. Even I want to settle with you. I want my family with you." He stood still and didn't reciprocate the hug. Breaking the hug, I looked up at him. He had not a single expression on his face which made me nervous. "You don't have to wait until next week to leave. You can leave right now. As for me, you never thought of or considered my dreams and you only announce your decision. So you don't have to worry about what I will think or feel. Have a safe trip back," he said without looking once at me and stepped back. My eyes welled up as I just broke my heart with my own hands. "Are you seriously not even going to look at me? Is this all you are doing? Don't you want 'us' to work?" I asked. "It was never about us. It was about you, you and you," he said. "No! It is all about us! We can work this out," I said. "I can't have a relationship with anyone that I can't meet or talk to everyday," he said. "Now who's being selfish? You only want to break our relationship up just because you won't touch me everyday?" I said frustrated. He looked at me and gritted his teeth. "That's all I ever have to hear from you ever again. Even if you come back here, don't even bother to show me your face. Have a good life Miss Sana Gill," he said and left.
I broke down and fell on my knees. I sobbed and cried my heart out. After a few minutes, I gathered some courage and called Mom. Wiping my tears away, I said, "Send Jojo to get me. I want him here first thing in the morning. I'm coming back." I hung up the phone and gathered every last thing of mine and packed my bag. As I was leaving, I stopped and looked at Sidharth in his room, running his hands through his hair. He looked at me and closed the door angrily. I went back to the home and fell on the bed, crying on my pillow. Roopaji came to me and asked worriedly, "What happened? Why are you crying?" I sat up on the bed and hugged her. "Sana," she said rubbing my back, "Did Sid say something to you?" "No, I'm just feeling sad," I said. "Ohh...my baby," she said. I spent the entire evening in the room crying but didn't tell anyone the exact reason. Sharad came with my dinner and sat in front of me sadly. "I know what you can't talk to many people about your reason for crying but I know. I understand," he said holding my hand. "How can he think that I didn't think about him? How can he think of me being so selfish?" I said. "He's in love with you. Madly in love. He doesn't want to lose you," he said. "But he doesn't want to even try and work out anything," I said. "Just give him some time. I'm sure that you can pacify him before you leave next week," he said. I wiped away my tears and was about to tell him that I was in fact leaving tomorrow but stayed quiet. Why? I don't know either. "It's ok. Calm down and have some dinner," he said. I took the tray of food and ate a little bit. Mom kept on calling me but I didn't answer. I will explain everything to her once I'm back home. After a few morsels of food, I laid on the bed and closed my eyes to sleep away early. Jojo will be here for me in the morning and I will leave this place. If Sidharth doesn't want to see me then so be it. I am not going to explain myself or convince him to remain in this relationship if he doesn't want it. I took a deep breath and tried to calm my head before sleeping away.
The next morning, I woke up late and my eyes were red and swollen as a result of crying for hours. They immediately felt dry and itchy and I took my phone and looked at the time. It was seven o' clock. I got out of bed and bathed and got ready. I called Jojo. "Where are you?" I asked. "I am reaching in the next fifteen minutes ma'am," he said. "Ok," I said and hung up. I sighed and swallowed my grief. I took my bags and walked outside with them, surprising everyone. They all stopped their exercises and looked at me frowning. "Sana, what is all of this?" Sharad asked. "I'm going back home," I said shocking all of them. "But you were leaving next week?" Roopaji asked. I took a deep breath and held back my tears forcefully. "I know but Mom is constantly calling me back so I decided that..." I said with my voice breaking, "I decided that I will return." "This is not done," she said coming to me. "I'm sorry," I said smiling sadly. She hugged me and a tear escaped my eyes. Wiping it away quickly, I parted from her and smiled. Sharad came to me and held my shoulder. "Are you sure about this all?" He asked frowning. I nodded. One by one, I hugged everyone and got some good wishes from them. "One thing before I go. For me, saying this is necessary. I know that I have caused a lot of problems and trouble here and for all of that, I'm sorry. I am really very sorry," I said slightly breaking down but gathered myself and continued, "And thank you everyone for giving me the most valuable thing in life, family and wisdom. I promise that I will return to visit you all soon." I went to Roopaji and smiled, "Thank you for everything you have ever done for me. I know that by now I should be calling you Maasi but I thought I would pick it up with time and look at how unfortunate it is, I want to call you Maasi when I'm about to go."
Smiling sadly at me, she rested her hand on my head saying, "My sweet baby." I turned to Sharad and smiled. "Big brother," I said, "Thank you for making my stay comfortable and for being there always to hear me out." He hugged me and whispered in my ear, "Just tell me once and I will talk to Sidharth. I'm sure he doesn't want you to go." "If that was the case, he would have been here to stop me. But he isn't. His choice," I said and broke the hug. I took my suitcases and went outside the gate. Jojo still hadn't arrive. Sharad came to me and before he could say anything, I said, "I don't want anyone seeing me leaving in my car. Tell everyone to go on with their work as usual. You too." He looked at me sadly and went back inside. I wore my sunglasses to hide my tears as I stood and looked at Sidharth's house and just then, Megha came to me. "I know that you might misunderstand me a lot. But before you go, I don't want you to leave thinking that I hate you. Sidharth was never mine in any case. If he is not yours, he will never become mine either. Whatever trouble and pain my family ever caused you, I apologise on their behalf," she said clasping her palms in front me. "I don't harbour any hate or hard feelings for you all. I have forgiven you all a long time ago," I said. "You're really a great person," she said smiling, "I'm sorry I couldn't become friends with you earlier." "You can still now," I said smiling and extending my hand. She looked at me happily and hugged me. "Thank you," she said. I could see Sidharth standing by the window, looking at us. Breaking the hug, she said her goodbyes and left. In that time, Jojo also arrived. He came out the car, smiling happily at me saying, "Hello ma'am." "Hi Jojo. How are you?" I asked. "I will be good now that I have work to do. Do you know how boring it was not driving you around?" He said. I smiled, touched and said, "Come here." I hugged him and sighed. Breaking the hug, I said, "Pack the bags inside." As he was doing that, I looked at Sidharth's house, with one hope that he shows himself before I leave. My tears flowed from my eyes as my nervousness were building inside me. "Ready ma'am," Jojo said. I gritted my teeth at Sidharth's stubbornness and wiped away my tears. "Let's go Jojo," I said. He opened the door and I got inside. As he drove further and further away from there, my heart beat rose. Every momery began flooding in and I was overwhelmed with my emotions.
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Hey guys! Sad update. Still hope you enjoyed it. And before you swarm my comments with their separation, just a reminder that Sidnaaz is inseparable and no matter who or what tries, they will be together. Please vote, comment and share my story. Until next time, bye!