You will encounter things in life wherein you need to choose between what you want and what you need to do. i understand that it will be tough for you to decide. You might even wish that everything will be easy, but it won't be that easy to do what you need to do, and forget what yourself really wants.
However, breathe for awhile. Take some rest, and go breathe some fresh air. Don't let unnecessary thoughts fill your mind. Trust yourself that you could handle the situation. And, whatever you decide on, put trust on it. Trust yourself in everything you do.
You may not know if your decision were 100% right, but the fact that you have decided on a very tough decision, shows how brave you are.
Decide things today that will make the future you, proud and happy, but don't forget to make who you are today happy, too.
Both versions of you, deserves to live happily.
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