Chapter 32 Gardenia
Lu Qingzhu was gone.
It was as if this person had never existed. After that rainy night, Lu Qingzhu was nowhere to be seen at school or at home.
He rushed into the teacher's office to inquire about the whereabouts of the head teacher Lu Qingzhu, but the answer he got was that the other party had already gone through the formalities for suspension, and even the house in the old city had been rented out.
He searched all the places he could find, but couldn't find any sign of Lu Qingzhu.
For no reason, he suddenly had a bad feeling.
Lin Jinyang began to have some strange dreams frequently, not the fire nor the nightmare at dusk, but bits and pieces about him and Lu Qingzhu.
It was like another continuation of his life. In the dream, he did not become the same table with Lu Qingzhu, and the two strangers kept a strange distance from each other.
But since when did he start to notice this rabbit-like snow-white and soft person.
The man's delicate and gentle facial features, slender and light wrist bones, or the correct handwriting that he accidentally glimpsed in the teacher's office, all attracted him deeply, just like a lonely whale for half a century, dreaming in the early morning When he woke up, he met the only starlight that matched him, the rippling deep blue sea water, the starlight in the indigo night sky, such a cool and drowsy feeling of fall, the whole ocean seemed to be throbbing and trembling because of the encounter with each other.
So he raised his huge tail fin, and the warm sea water rolled up the waves, and the grand white waves bloomed gorgeously, presenting the stars with waves full of bright moonlight.
The dull person didn't notice it from the beginning to the end, all the encounters he thought he had carefully planned, those unspeakable anxiety and hesitation, were all in his eyes.
The love and longing that he tried so hard to hide in his eyes would be easily seen through by him no matter how he pretended to be.
[Lu Qingzhu, do you like me]
The simple eight words were tossing and turning between his lips, and the slightly clear texture exuded the indulgent fragrance of gardenia.
So he approached cautiously, waiting for the cute and soft rabbit-like person to slowly fall into his trap.
He never thought that one day, people like him would expect to 'like' this kind of thing.
But everything came to nothing on that cold winter night.
Lu Qingzhu was gone, and he could not be found anywhere.
He looked for people everywhere like crazy, but before he could find it, he died in the man-made fire.
Lin Jinyang woke up in a cold sweat.
In his hands, he held the pair of platinum rings that had not been sent out. The new silver luster shone in the sunlight.
He got up and went to the opposite side. Since he knew Lu Qingzhu, he had never visited Lu Qingzhu's house. Standing in front of the door now, he stretched out his hand and pushed open the outdated door, probably because he was going to rent it out. The door was unlocked and could be opened with a slight twist.
He opened the door and went in.
Lu Qingzhu's room was turned over in a mess. He picked up the stack of white papers on the table, and an envelope fell out of the interlayer. In addition to a few photos, there was also a note.
Lin Jinyang's eyes fell on the name of the signature at the end of the note.
Su Xi.
Lin Jinyang rushed out.
When she arrived at the hospital, the girl with gentle eyebrows sat on the bed holding a book, and the transparent medicinal liquid slowly flowed into her body along the drip.
He walked up and threw the photos of him bowing his head and kissing Lu Qingzhu in front of Su Xi.
"Su Xi, where did Lu Qingzhu go?"
Su Xi raised her head and looked at the young man beside the bed.
She had the same cold and cruel facial features as she remembered, and her cold and aggressive tone made her want to laugh.
"I promised Lu Qingzhu that I wouldn't tell you where he is." Su Xi lowered her head and slowly rubbed the white paper.
I just bought a new book, and the edges of the pages are as sharp as a thinning blade, and it will be scratched if one is not careful.
"After all, he took the initiative to find me and said he was willing to donate bone marrow, as long as I could help him get rid of you."
"You're lying!" Before she could finish speaking, the young man in front of him suddenly punched the wall beside the bed, and a dull crashing sound startled her slightly.
Are you pissed off?
Lin Jinyang, you really like Lu Qingzhu enough.
"Lin Jinyang, I'm a terminally ill person, do I have to lie to you because of this?" Su Xi smiled and raised her head, "Love itself is a matter of your own accord, only an idiot would put a lover's relationship away. Sweet words and sweet words are taken as the vows of a mountain alliance."
"Lu Qingzhu just doesn't want to lose you, the only person who treats him well, so he has been accommodating you to tolerate you. For a person like him, no matter who gives him a little sweetness, he will hold on to it eagerly."
Su Xi slowly tore off the page in his hand, the collector's edition of the famous book, I am afraid that it will no longer be worth collecting.
She raised her hand and threw the book into the trash can beside the bed.
"Lin Jinyang, you can't know what kind of person you are. Who do you think can bear a suffocating love like yours."
"If you don't believe it, go and ask Wang Hao in the third and sixth class of the No. 8 Middle School next door. If it wasn't for Lu Qingzhu's entanglement, he would not have been unable to stay in the No. 1 Middle School."
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He had already guessed that Li Rongqiang would be handed over to the Su family, and he also guessed what would happen to him.
Compared with the narrow room in the previous life, this damp and dark basement was even more terrifying, as quiet as a cage for imprisoning monsters.
He was locked in.
There were no lights in the narrow basement, except for one bed, only two iron hooks fixed to the wall with chains the thickness of a finger.
This kind of room, a long time ago, was used by circuses to tame hurting beasts. Those ferocious monsters would not give in, so the trainer would put it in a dark basement and lock it with iron chains. Those heavy iron The chains are all made of cast iron, and the surface will rust as soon as it gets wet with rain, and it won't take long to pierce the skin when tied to the ankle, and the more you struggle, the more painful it will be.
When he saw the matching report in his last life, he knew that this matter had nothing to do with Su Xi. It's just that he didn't expect that compared to the deception in his previous life, this time, Su Xi directly locked him in such a place.
In a basement without sunlight, even normal people can't stand the erosion of darkness and loneliness, let alone a moderately depressed patient.
Late with his feet curled up in a corner out of reach of the light, Lu Qingzhu lowered his eyes tiredly, lowered his head and panted weakly.
There is a narrow small window on the wall of the basement, and outside the window is planted with large and lush green gardenias. It is February, and the green branches and leaves bloom densely with tender white buds. clean.
After three days and three nights of heavy rain finally stopped, the long-lost sunlight broke through the dark clouds, and a thin beam of light fell in the dark basement.
Probably because the flowers are about to bloom, the humid air is filled with the fresh and sweet smell of gardenias, the aroma is full of heart and spleen, and the slightly sweet smell makes him gradually sleepy.
There is no day or night in the cell hidden deep in the ground, and the only small window is tightly blocked by the lush gardenias. He is groggy and curled up in the damp darkness. When he wakes up, he can't tell the outside of the cage. The sky is day or night.
The doctor of the Su family came in to give him injections every day. From vomiting and dizziness at first to weakness later, he was always like this, waking up and falling asleep. Because of the rejection reaction of the medicine, the dry throat was always filled with blood and saltiness. .
He is too tired.
He can't take it anymore...
The voice in his ear grew louder and louder, a diabolical whisper that often tormented him at night.
Before he was detained, he sent the public security bureau evidence that he was forced to donate bone marrow because of domestic violence. The thick stack, from the day when the nightmare started ten years ago to now, records every nightmare of his tossing and turning, every scar on his body, and every time he can't help himself.
He brutally ripped open his belly, as if in a hurry, stripped his frail and dying soul from his icy and withered body, and self-analyzed and counted every unhealed wound.
His bouts of depression were getting more and more frequent, with all day long headaches and the occasional silent coughing up blood.
The monster with the same face as him was entrenched in his mind, and he used those cold and smooth hands to find every scar on his body. Every time a flaw was found, the sharp nails would be embedded in the skin to tear apart the bloody, bloody, strong stench. red.
He reached out and touched the criss-cross scars on his back, the sticky bright red soaking his palms.
In the middle of the foggy night, Lin Jinyang once hugged him, leaned over and kissed the scars that caused him pain with his hot lips. Now, the pale skin is soaked with blood, and every scar has been torn open by him again, dripping. There was blood dripping down.
Those wounds that used to be painful and ferocious, the scars that were red and ugly, are now even more painful, as if someone tore his flesh and poured it into the hot magma, extremely corrosive pain, no bones left.
He was in so much pain that he didn't want to struggle or open his eyes again, but the pain that gradually bleeds, purifies, rots and grows maggots stimulates his fragile nerves again and again.
"It's just a cheap life," he said to him with a monstrous smile, "Give it up, no one will come to save you."
"Lu Qingzhu, you should have gone to hell long ago."
"go to hell"
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After Lin Jinyang left, Su Xi left the hospital and went home.
In the basement of the Su family mansion, someone was locked in the darkness.
She stared at the boy's face that appeared faintly in the thick darkness.
After several days of training, this disobedient person finally settled down, no longer thinking about struggling and escaping.
That's right, isn't it bad to obey the doctor's advice, take medicine and give injections?
The warm light sprinkled on his body, it was the brightness of an angel, there was a bright halo on that person, and the wounds on the back were entwined into the broken wings of the angel.
The skinny teenager stood up with difficulty, leaning on his toes, his ankle dripping blood, and his pale fingertips touched the branch of gardenia that stretched into the basement.
The green that is too vigorous shines brightly in the thick darkness.
It's like using pain as light and blood and tears as nourishment, so green and pure.
In this dark and cold underground, in the depths of hell where no one cares, there are flower waterfalls in full bloom.
"Su Xi." He looked back at the girl outside the door.
Wearing a hospital gown with a beautiful hairstyle, Pingting's girl is still the same as before, with a charming and gentle look that is unique to Jiangnan girls.
Lu Qingzhu looked at him blankly, with a heavy shadow under his eyes, bloodshot at the end of his red eyes, and a sigh-like stare.
He looked up slightly, his bruised fingers lingering among the soft leaves, the paleness of the blood faded against the leaves, and the greenness was frightening.
"You will be punished."
"You and Lin Jinyang are really two idiots."
She smiled and sighed, her gentle voice echoing empty.
Lin Jinyang, such a proud person, would unconditionally submit to you because you were so humble and cowardly in love.
So, Lu Qingzhu, it would be great if you died.
Wouldn't it be a pity for someone like him to be gentle only for you?
Lu Qingzhu did not respond to him, but just stood in front of the window, holding a green gardenia leaf in his palm, as if holding a last hope, so stubborn.
Su Xi turned around and left.
The damp and dark basement, even normal people can't stand such a cramped environment.
She didn't expect Lu Qingzhu to be tortured to such a degree. Her original plan was just to teach him a lesson.
Is it because of love?
Of course not, people like her are never short of flattering men. The rich family's daughter takes a fancy to the poor boy who punches in the underground casino? She will not be carried away by ridiculous love.
What she saw in Lin Jinyang was just possessiveness in her heart, she wanted to conquer this unruly beast lurking in the dark. That's all.
Humanity is always insatiable.
Since she found out that Lin Jinyang likes Lu Qingzhu, everything has changed.
The love of two men is so ridiculous, this world will never tolerate such unreasonable feelings.
But Lin Jinyang likes him so much that he likes him crazy, and he likes him so much that he is willing to gamble his future and life for this person.
It's ridiculous.
Lu Qingzhu, since when did I start to be jealous of you?
Su Xi slowly tightened her fingers, her neatly trimmed nails pierced into the palm of her hand, and the sunken mark spread out with tingling pains.
What a terrible, unstoppable pleasure.
She is a person born with a golden spoon, a happy family, and a dazzling life. She has never lacked envy and admiration around her. But probably because she had been at a high place for a long time, she wanted to see how humble and hopeless people who were rolling and crawling at the bottom of society could live.
She wanted to see how embarrassing it would be for a person to be cornered.
She didn't lie to him, she did find someone who matched her bone marrow successfully.
what did she do? Of course she didn't do anything, did she?
Even if it happened in the end, what does it have to do with her?
She is just a victim, a poor girl who was defrauded of half a million by a greedy bastard. No one can sanction her, whether it is legal or moral.
No one will know what happened in this basement.
It is not uncommon for a person with moderate depression to have a tendency to self-harm.
Even if it is because of this that it cannot survive the recovery after surgery, it is excusable.
She had planned everything for a long time, starting from the layout, calculating carefully and prudently, watching from the sidelines, and finally closing the net perfectly.
Excessive possessiveness is the eight eyes of a poisonous spider.
A false disguise, an ugly exoskeleton.
The jealousy that has been hidden for too long is the fangs that are ready to move.
It's a poisonous spider, such a disgusting, sick species.
Su Xi pursed her lips and smiled beautifully.
It's ridiculous that someone would make such a metaphor for themselves.
Lu Qingzhu, did you know that Lin Jinyang is still looking for you outside like crazy, like a crazy beast.
But he would never have guessed that the person he loved so much was now locked in the basement of Su's house, wearing cold shackles, his neck and ankles, bound like a lamb to be slaughtered. in bed, lest he run away, or hurt himself.
Lu Qingzhu, do you know how painful it is to lose someone you love?
Will an indifferent and hard monster like Lin Jinyang cry because of other people's pain?
If I told him that I could decide the life and death of the one he loved, would he be willing to let go of his ridiculous pride and self-respect, to bow down to me like a wild dog, kneel at my feet and beg me to spare your life?
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But it's a pity.
I won't tell him where you are.
Even if the man knelt on the ground and begged me in a low voice, I wouldn't tell him.
I'm not that stupid, I'll give him a chance to save you.
People like you are not worthy of love, and the person you fall in love with is doomed to misfortune.
Just thinking about it makes me feel bad.
The author has something to say: This chapter is so thick and long, please praise me (akimbo)
The next chapter ends the abuse! I'm going to start abusive revenge!
