*No One's Pov*
"You go first, I'll go after." Said Jordan.
"Why? I can go after you." Said Jay.
"He doesn't have much time and you were closer to him."
"He could still make it, Jordan."
"Just go first." Said Jordan as she left the room.
Jay sat in silence for a few minutes before taking a deep breath.
"I'm not great at goodbyes. You'd think I would be by now but I'm not. It's gonna be hard to let you go because you taught me everything. You taught me how to survive in the wild. Make fires, eat bark or leaves. You even taught me how to get girls."
"I just...I don't know what to say. Why did this have to happen to you? Why couldn't it have been me there?"
"Cassie told me what you did for Lily. You saved her, hell you even saved me. You saved everybody in the field but no one could save you. I'm so sorry. I love you bro."
Jay stepped outside of James's room, tears running down his cheeks. He tapped Jordan on the shoulder and gave her a fist bump before she went to talk to James.
"Hey, James. It's hard to say goodbye because you were the one that made our team a family. If anyone was down, you would cheer them up right away even if it was the same story over and over again that you would tell. You comforted me when I lost Shay, even when we lost Miles. You were hurting but you were there for others."
"I'm gonna miss you bud."
Jordan came out of the room with tears threatening to spill out of her eyes. Jay walked up to her and engulfed her in a hug as they both burst into tears.
Once they were done with letting it all out, they grabbed some coffees for everyone and then returned to the others.
"Hey, we'll look after Scout and Morgan if you want to sit in with James." Suggested Jordan to Cassie and Maria.
"I've said what I want to but now I need to leave. I have to sort out a few things. I'm here for anything you need, Maria. Just call me." Said Cassie as she hugged Maria and left.
"Only if you are sure."
"Yeah of course. How about we go and see what's in the vending machines?" Suggested Jay to the children.
Morgan held Jordan's hand as they walked and Scout was in Jay's arms.
"Thank you." Smiled Maria.
*Jay's Pov*
We walked over to the vending machine after going in the lift because the children really wanted to.
"Is your arm new?" Asked Morgan.
"Yeah. It broke so I had to get a new one."
"How did that happen?" Asked Scout.
"She got shot saving one of our friends." I said.
"Can daddy get a new heart?" Asked Morgan.
"Yeah. He saved someone. Can he live?"
Jordan looked over to me with a sad look and worry on how to answer the child's question. He could get a new heart but his injuries were too extent to fight, getting a new heart, let alone the anaesthesia.
Luckily, Will saved us and came over to talk to the children.
"Hey, guys. I heard you're looking at the vending machines. I've got something for you." Said Will as he handed them each a one dollar bill.
"Thank you." They both smiled as they skipped away in front of us.
"Thanks, Will." Said Jordan.
"No problem, Lily is out of surgery if you want to see her."
"We'll go when she wakes up. We need to look after them." Said Jordan.
"Jordan, I can take them. Will's on break so he can give me a hand if you want to go and see her." I suggested.
"No it's fine." She smiled as she crouched down to talk to Morgan.
"There's Chocolate and crisps." Said Morgan.
"Is there? I'm well hungry. I'll come with you." Said Will as he followed Morgan and Scout.
Jordan stood up but wouldn't face me and her hair was covering her face.
"Hey, go and talk to Lily. She needs someone their for when she wakes up."
"She has her family."
"They don't know what she's really going through."
"She got shot Jay, not kidnapped."
"Jordan! Go talk to her."
"How am I meant to tell her? You know what it's like to blame yourself for someone else's death because they saved you. Miles saved you and me and he lost his life! I can't tell her that James is possibly going to die after he saved her."
"I understand what you mean but she deserves to know."
"She's going to blame herself and question what could of gone differently. She will think of every possible way it could have gone. One way that would have saved James."
"She may not though. You and I did question ourselves but we got over it when we realised that Miles was a mole and they actually were planning to kill us."
"Yeah well James wasn't a mole! He was a friend!"
"Stop talking about him in the past tense! He still has a chance!"
"You know what it's like to get your hopes up and then be wrong. Don't tell me how to act!"
"Okay. Okay. I'm sorry. You're right but we can still hope."
"Yeah. I'm sorry."
I walked away from Jordan as she debated whether to go and talk to Lily.
*Jordan's Pov*
I walked towards Lily's room and knocked because her boyfriend was sat in the room.
"Hey, Jordan. I'll leave you two for a bit."
"Thanks." I said as he walked past me.
"Hey, Lily. How you feeling?"
"I'm alright. I'm alive and kicking." Lily laughed which made me laugh too.
She came up with the saying when we were playing ball at base and it hit her in the stomach. They were some good times.
"You remember what James said to me when I was led on the floor."
"Yeah. He asked if you were sleeping on the job."
"Oh yeah." Laughed Lily.
"How is James? They were arguing earlier about who to take to surgery."
"Who were?"
"Zoe. Oh my god, Zoe. She's grown up a lot. I can't believe she's a doctor. And then so was Will."
"Oh. Yeah. They're both strong characters when it comes to medicine."
"So, how's James?"
"Um. He's okay. He's out of surgery." I said.
"You're not telling me something. What's wrong?"
"He signed a DNR a little while back."
"So?"
"There's a very small chance he is going to survive, we were saying goodbye to him earlier."
"He can still survive, don't give up on him so soon."
"I'm not. I'm just saying what the doctors told me."
"I want to see him."
I went and found Will to ask for a wheelchair so Lily could say bye to James.
We all stood outside his room as Lily wheeled herself back out. I was stood in front of Jay as he held me close.
The machine started to beep rapidly and all we could do was watch. Scout and Morgan were clinging onto their mom as they watched their father's hand drop off the bed.
It felt like the whole world went silent as we mourned James in those few minutes. Maria's sister came and took Scout and Morgan back home because Maria had to sign some paperwork.
"Hey, Maggie. We need to speak to James Wilson and Lily Perez." Said Adam as he walked into the hospital with Antonio.
"I'm sorry guys. James just passed but Lily is there if you want to talk to her." Maggie said as she pointed towards us.