l cracked open my eyes as I felt a heavy weight on my tummy. The, bulky tattooed arm belonged to Big Baby himself and felt my heart skip a beat as my eyes trailed over his sleeping face. He looked so innocent and pure. He definitely didn't 't look like he fucked the shit out of me yesterday.
His long eyelashes touched his high cheekbones and his
mouth was slightly parted open. Aw. I turned slightly to face him and he just shifted a bit but didn't wake up. I moved forward to kiss him all over his face but I held myself back. No. What was I doing? We aren't a fucking couple. I can't be doing all this lovey dovey shit with him and neither should I be feeling this way.
We were just strictly fucking right?
l'd started gaining feelings for him. This was ridiculous.
I never thought l'd be the first one to fall into this. Fuck,
I though l'd never fall into him. But here I am, trying to
convince myself to stop feeling this way.
We're just going to fuck. Yeah we're friends. Who just like to have some fun. Some real fun. After last night, I was beyond convinced that Jisoo was naturally gifted in all aspects when it came to pleasuring the opposite sex.
And here I thought l'd need to teach him some stuff. Fuck
that, he already knows.
My eyes scanned over his face once again as goosebumps spread out on my body. The same clenching feeling overcame my heart. I wad then horrified by the realization that I wouldn't mind waking up to this for the rest of my life. I wouldn't mind being all tangled in the sheets with Jisoo's huge body covering mine.
I shut my eyes tightly and forced myself to get rid of the
thoughts. I couldn't be feeling this way. I myself laid down the rule of not falling for him and now I'm going down? Hell no.
Fuck the feelings.
You sound stupid, My conscience sneered at me.
But I couldn't let myself fall in love. I was way too fucking
emotionally damaged to ever feel that again. The only person I'd ever loved was dad. And look what happened. He left me with broken promises. It had taken me 22 years to build these walls around me and I was in no way going to let some guy tear them apart.
I carefully lifted his muscular arm and tried to shift away. He immediately groaned in his sleep and pulled me even closer. Fuck.
Just then, my eyes wandered to the clock I had on the wall. My eyes widened as I saw the time. 9:15
l immediately panicked and threw my hands at his back and started throwing punches.
I squealed "Jisoo! Wake the fuck up! We both have class in 15 minutes!
He waved off my hits and turned around mumbling "Just one minute. This bitch.
l jumped off the bed, climbing over his back making him hiss in pain.
He cracked open his eyes and saw me standing there, naked. He blushed and smiled at me.
"Bitch stop blushing and get dressed! You have Mrs. Reyes in fifteen minutes!"
At that, his golden brown eyes widened and he immediately got up and my eyes wandered to his slowly hardening dick. Fuck, did that thing actually go inside me yesterday? All those nine inches? Goodness, me is proud of me.
If we had time, I would start off his day with a nice blowjob. But, we're running late.
"Later, later:" I waved my hands, as if convincing myself that we'll have time later. "Go get ready.
His face was still red as he walked past me but not before giving me a sweet kiss on the cheek and grabbing a handful of my bare butt.
My eyes widened at his brave actions. I've created a monster.
In another 10 minutes, both of us were hurrying out the door and into the elevator. I was having a hard time breathing because I was now getting flashbacks of last night. My core clenched as I remembered the way he lost control and slammed into me. I don't think I can wait till tonight.
As soon as we were in, I pushed him onto the wall and placed my lips on his. He groaned and kissed me back, trying to match my pace. His large hands squeezed my ass and mine was into his mane of hair. Just the feel of his body on mine, Could make me start creaming my panties. Good lord, I'm really gone. Shit.
Just then the elevator doors opened and I hastily pushed
away from him. A lady in her forties and some boy of around ten walked in. The woman eyed us suspiciously and I smiled at her.
Eh. But really, thank god she came in or else I would be riding jisoo by now. Now that I had a taste of him, I didn't plan on letting go anytime soon.
I'm another fifteen minutes we were on the campus.
Most of the crowd had already dispersed to their lectures.
I waved a bye to Jisoo and literally sprinted towards Mr.
Huygen's class.
Luckily, he was not in the class when l entered. I walked next to Chae and sat down. She was going through her phone and quickly looked up at me and grinned.
"How did it go with Lisa?" l asked remembering her anger and tears yesterday night.
Her smile dropped a little and she replied "I didn't think
I would need to tell him about my feelings under those
circumstances. I was a mess.
"What happened, though?
"I told him about my feelings. I fucking broke down in front of him. He didn't say anything other than console me and tuck me into bed. I don't know what he feels yet."
I nodded and was about to mumble some encouragement when Mr. Huygen walked in.
The hours droned on and it was finally break time. Chae and I were walking into the cafeteria to join everyone but just then, Kai stopped me.
"Jen? Can we talk?" I turned around, nervousness crawling into me.
I really wanted to tell him to stop keeping hopes and that I wasn't going to sleep with him again. The only guy I could imagine sleeping with was Jisoo. The thought scared me.
I nodded and told Chaeyoung to go ahead.
I followed Kai out of the door and leaned into the wall.
"Why didn't you come to my place? I was at least expecting a text or something" he seemed frustrated and annoyed. A deep frown stood in between his eyebrows. His strong jaw twitched every now and then.
"We can't do this anymore.
He looked down and his glare crept up my face to my eyes. suddenly had a burst of confidence and puffed out my chest and straightened my spine.
"Why? Is this because of that fucking faggot?
"Anger lit like a flame in me and I pushed myself off the wall.
"His name is JISOO.
"Yes, he. I didn't expect your standards to drop that low."
Acid dripped from his words and I scowled fiercely.
"Walk away, Kai. Don't make me fucking snap. Keep Jisoo's name out of your fucking mouth."
He took a deep breath and hissed out "He will never be able to satisfy you like I did."
A laugh bubbled from me and I grinned at his furious face "He already has.
At that, Kai turned on his heel and walked off. I sighed
deeply and pushed myself off the wall to walk into the
cafeteria.
My anger immediately melted when Jisoo looked up from his plate and smiled at me. I now know what it is to have someone's smile work wonders.
Everyone was at the table. I quickly got two slices of pizza for me and sat next to Taehyung. Ann was playing with her food mindlessly. I frowned at her and asked "What's with the long face?
Jisoo who was sitting on my other side, he placed a hand silently on my lap under the table. Goosebumps immediately erupted on my skin and I smirked at him,
He blushed lightly and squeezed my Jean clad thigh.
Just then, Ann looked at me and smirked.
"Nothing at all.
I found something fishy in her manner but shrugged it off.
Half an hour later, Jisoo and I were in his car, driving home.
I wanted to jump his fucking bones already. I mean, I've been controlling myself since morning.
Just as we pulled into the parking lot, my phone rang noisily. I picked it up and immediately scowled at the called ID.
"What." I spat, placing the phone to my ear.
"Hi dear. Its been a long time." Jessica's sickly sweet voice floated into my ears and I immediately wanted to throw my phone out.
"What the fuck do you want, Jessica?" Jisoo gave me a side glance, worry written all over his face. He placed his palm on my lap and I squeezed it, smiling at him.
"You know, for all that I do for you, I think I deserve a little respect.
A sarcastic laugh bubbled from my mouth.
"Don't forget what you did, you witch. You're never getting respect from me.
Jisoo parked the car and leaned back in his seat, waiting for me to finish the call.
"Anyways, halloween is around the corner.
Jessica was swift to change the topic. I frowned at her
statement. What the fuck did she mean to say?
"I want you to come around here for Halloween.
A loud cackle escaped me and I retorted "And why would I do that?"
Jessica sighed. "Stop being so difficult. It's been ages since you've been home.
"Don't act as if you care, Jessica"
Again, silence.
"If not halloween, then Thanksgiving. Bring your Korean if you want to. But you're coming. That's that." saying so, she hung up on me.
Spending Thanksgiving in that god awful house when I could be here with my friends?
But, I knew I didn't have any choice. I didn't want Jessica
pressurising me with phone calls or suddenly dropping by to annoy me. I would go for Thanksgiving, stay a day or two and then leave.
"So?" Jisoo asked, curiosity clear in his tone.
"I'm spending Thanksgiving in Nashville. Yay" I grumbled.
Jisoo unlocked his door and got out as did.
"You're coming with me" l informed him, my mood sour.
Jessica really knew how to dampen my spirits.
We got into the elevator. My mind swam back to our morning here and how l'd kissed him. After that phone call with Jessica, meh. I didn't really have any mood.
"l am?" He asked as we walked towards our apartment.
I nodded, glumly. The last thing I wanted this thanksgiving was Jessica hitting on Jisoo or Kyle's subtle tries to hit on me.
I'm going to have Jisoo fuck me hard and good in the room next to Jessica's. Just to get on her nerves.
"You okay?" he asked in concern, a frown set on his beautiful face. I faked a smile and stood on my tippy toes, placing a kiss to his lips. I turned around and was just retuning to my room when, I was pulled back into a hard chest.
"I know when you fake your smile, sweetheart." my eyes
widened once again at his dominant attitude. I didn't say
anything for some time and he sighed.
Pecking my forehead, he said softly "If you need me, I'm in the next room."
I know I wouldn't be needing him in the other way today.
Neither did I want to talk to him right now. I wanted to just be left alone with my thoughts.
After a few minutes, I was in my room. I quickly undressed and pulled on a very loose sweatshirt. I lied down on my bed.
The minute I shut my eyes, flashbacks from my past hit me and a shiver went down my spine. I remembered it all like it was yesterday. Each little incident that had torn mine as a child was painfully embedded in my memory. Just thinking about my incredibly fucked up family always took a toll on me. Once again, dad appeared behind my shut eyelids. It was a memory. He was teaching me how to ride my little pink Disney princess bicycle. I rendered each detail on his old, tired face.
He never let me come to light with the ongoings between
Diane and him. He kept me in the dark about that. He tried to do his best to play the part of both the mom and the dad.
Why did he never come back for me? This thought was
constantly on my mind. I prayed with everything in me, that he was somewhere safe and alive.
A single tear slipped from my eye and I curled myself into a ball.
Why did he leave? Why did he make those fake promises
which always left me hoping?
And to this day, I still hope. I still hope that I'l see him.
Walking down the street in his long green overcoat, flashing a smile to anyone he recognized from.the crowd, his huge beaten boots, making a rough sound as he walked. Maybe his hair would be a little whiter. Maybe he'd be bald. He always told me how he never wanted to go bald.
I would be so much stronger than I was right now if he was here. I wouldn't need to hide behind a smile that stopped nyone from seeing my soul crying to the moon for help. But, he wasn't here. All that he'd left were his promises.
let my eyes fall shut as I cried myself to sleep.
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