i'm very uneasy about publishing this song, as it feels wrong and weird to do so. this song may suggest otherwise, but i'm actually fine. i'm holding up okay and trying not to look back. i'll make it. this is just me letting go of all that i bottled up for months :)
i'm aware this song has a darker meaning than anything i've posted before and it's not a lifestyle i'd like to promote. you're beautiful/gorgeous the way you are <3
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, YOU'RE EVERYTHING TO ME!
WRITTEN: 04/22/22, 04/23/22
1ST VERSE:
beauty is pain
as we've been told
but do you truly know?
are you aware what it's like?
that content deprived kind of life?
tell me, have you ever felt it?
tell me, have you ever given into society's bullshit?
do you think the person behind you did?
PRE-CHORUS:
answer me, would you like to?
beauty is pain
do you think it's worth it?
are willing to sacrifice every second
just to be drop dead gorgeous
CHORUS:
yes, i have to know
exactly how far you're willing to go
all the limits and hypocrisy provoked
it's all just for the show
go and take a seat across the front row
i'll write your lines and script
from now on, i'm in control
you'll be a big name in my play
afterall, beauty is pain
2ND VERSE:
faint and fall
follow the trail of tears
all the way to the bathroom stall
no no, i'm not here
or am i really?
until all cognitive thinking has disappeared
is it real? is it real?
it's just another day, another life
when will it be time?
haven't i crusaded miles?
PRE-CHORUS:
do you really want to wake every morning
to only break all your own amendments?
who cares about dignity
beauty is pain
and isn't beauty everything?
CHORUS:
yes, i have to know
exactly how far you're willing to go
all the limits and hypocrisy provoked
it's all just for the show
go and take a seat across the front row
i'll write your lines and script
from now on, i'm in control
you'll be a big name in my play
afterall, beauty is pain
BRIDGE:
you're losing, you're lost
it's all becoming loosening
maybe you're hallucinating
you're running, you've stopped
all this time, was i really rooting?
you're losing, you're lost
it's all becoming loosening
are you so sure you're only dreaming
darling, you asked for this
or did you not wish to achieve the pageant dream?
beauty is pain
BREAKDOWN:
beauty is pain
but it's not what you thought it out to be
it was never that easy
was it ever really?
everyone is everything you'll never be
and you're never enough, are you?
PRE-CHORUS:
beauty is pain
but the pain feels numb
you need to hurt more
or then the beauty isn't there
is there any other way
that beauty isn't pain?
but isn't beauty everything?
CHORUS:
yes, i have to know
exactly how far you're willing to go
all the limits and hypocrisy provoked
it's all just for the show
go and take a seat across the front row
i'll write your lines and script
from now on, i'm in control
you'll be a big name in my play
afterall, beauty is pain