I was just facing the mirror. Looking at myself and asking why I'm feeling this. She captured my heart and I don't know why? What did I do to feel this?
Natawa ako ng mahina at nag simula ulit na mag hakot ng damit at ibalik sa maleta na dinala ko noong unang dating ko dito.
After the incident yesterday I decided to go back here and spend the rest of the day thinking about that asshole. I was just happy because I had the opportunity to destroy his fucking face.
I so much hate his face, why? Because we have the same face, magkamukhang mag kamuka kami and Selena was right, he is the boy version of me and I hate that. Ayaw ko na ulit ma involve sa buhay nila.
I looked at my knuckles, it was already violet because of the impact of my punches. Glad that I broke his perfect nose and I think we're quits now.
I smiled bitterly at isinara ng mahigpit ang maleta na hawak ko. I grab my jacket and I made my way out. Sa labas nakaabang na si Tay Ben at sina nanay Helena. Lumapit ako sa kanila at nag mano. I turn around to look at my small house.
Atleast may babalikan ako in case na mangyari ulit ang nangyari.
"Nay Helena maraming salamat po sa pagbantay sa isla na ito ah. Sana patuloy niyo pa rin akong samahan". I seriously said.
"Wala iyon Keni. Mabuti nga dahil hindi na namin iniisip ang renta sa loob ng limang taon. Maraming salamat sa pag papatira saamin dito.". Nakangiting sabi niya. I embraced her and tatay ben.
Mahigit tatlong buwan at kahalati rin akong nanatili dito at napamahal ako sa bawat gawain at kina Nay Helena. Kasama ko sanang babalik sa city si Selena pero hindi pa niya nakuha ang go signal ng kompanya na sinasabi niya.
"Basta bumalik ka parati dito kung wala kang magawa sa siyudad ha". She said. I smiled at tinulungan na ako ni Tay Ben na ilagay sa bangka ang maleta ko.
"Hoy! Galingan mo mag benta ng Ice cream ha, at ikaw Madie, sa susunod na balik ko dito bibigyan na kita ng cellphone". Sabi ko sa kanilang magkapatid.
"Sana lang hindi mo ako paasahin ate Khane ah". Natatawang sabi niya at lumapit to give me a tight hug.
"Eh ano ang saakin?". Tanong ni Selena.
"Susunod ka rin naman doon basta inform me kapag pupunta kana doon para naman maayos ko ang condo ko.". I said.
Maaga kaming umalis ni Tatay Ben para maaga rin akong makarating sa city. Medyo dalawang oras ang biyahe papunta doon isama mo pa ang biyahe sa bangka. Kailangan ko pang mag maneho at para hindi ko na maabutan pa ang traffic.
Habang nasa gitna ng malalim na dagat, I was thinking about that particular email na dumating kahapon lang. Finally, Anastasia send me an email na may lamang formal letter telling me that I should go back.
Dumating na siya, her message told me so kaya papunta na ako doon ngayon. Ayaw ko sana, I want to live my life here and not to think about her anymore pero may nakalagay sa message na kinakailangan ko talagang bumalik.
I don't know her reason but whatever her reason is, she still dumped me without a word. Just a weird sticky note. If she truly likes me sana manlang sinabihan niya ako ng maayos.
One more reason why I decided to go back, is because of this fucking feeling. I still want her, I still need her, fucking love her! My feeling is deep, I'm inlove with her and she didn't even cared about me.
The reason why she emailed me is because of business matter. After three months of waiting, finally she's back. Gusto pa ba niya ako? Or she's happy now?
"Mag iingat ka sa pag drive Khane". Tay Ben seriously said. Buhat niya ang maleta at inilagay sa compartment ng kotse. I faced him.
"Thank you Tay Ben. Kayo na muna ang bahala sa isla. Mag iingat din po kayo pabalik". I said. I embraced him and after that nag simula na rin siyang bumalik sa pampang.
"Aalis kana boss Khane?". Tanong ng guard na nag aalaga sa kotse ko.
"Kailangan ko na ulit kumita". Biro ko.
"Ayos ba ang makina?". I asked.
"Lagi ko yang nililinisan. Maayos ang preno at ang makina boss ready to go na". Sabi niya. Lumapit ako sa kaniya at nag bigay ng kunting pera.
"Thank you boss. Hindi mo naman kailangang mag bigay ng pera trabaho ko namang mag bantay ng sasakyan ng mga private owner. Pero malaking tulong ito para sa pag aaral ng anak ko". Nakangiting sabi niya. I patted his shoulder at sumakay sa kotse.
"Ingat Boss Khane. Salamat uli!". I smiled.
While I am driving, Anastasia is running inside my head. Mas lalo ba siyang gumanda? Is she okay? Is she happy now? Kakausapin pa kaya niya ako? Magiging kagaya pa ba ng dati?
I don't know, she's like a puzzle, difficult to read.
I miss this feeling. Driving. Mas binilisan ko pang mag maneho and I am enjoying, the air is so fresh and it was cold.
Kinuha ko ang phone ko and I start it. Hindi ko kasi ito nagagamit sa isla dahil walang signal, kailangan ko pang pumunta sa bayan para lang ma connect sa internet.
Natawa lang ako dahil basag ang screen ko and I remember na ibinato ko pala ito because of her message. I smiled bitterly and I focused on driving.
After an hour I reach my building, I mean ang building kung saan ang condo ko. Lumabas ako and I'm carrying my luggage papasok sa entrance.
"Welcome Back Miss Khane! How's your vacation?". Tanong ng guard.
"It was great". I said back at lumapit sa receptionist.
"Good Morning Miss Khane. For good na ba ulit?". The woman asked, she's trying to hit on me but I just smiled.
Everyone here has a crush on me, I'm being assuming right now but I think I am right. The way na pakikipag usap nila saakin, the way na tignan nila ako mula sa paa pataas, or they are just insecure because i'm so hot and handsome but so gorgeous? I don't know, it's just my genes.
I press the 38th floor at nag hintay. I can feel mixed emotions right now, i'm hurt, i'm sad, excited, nervous and happy. Happy because I will see her again. I can't deny that I miss her and I am excited to see her face again.
I'm craving for her and I want to kiss her again, but how? Gusto pa ba niya ako? I'm being desperate but who cares, I'm just inlove.
The elevator opened at kinuha ang susi ko to unlock my unit but I'm surprised dahil bakit hindi nanaman ito naka lock. Seriously?
I immediately open my door and I check all of my appliances and I'm glad my things are still here, walang nagalaw, walang nawawala. Even my smart t.v nandito rin..my ref my stove, everything.
I sighed in relief.
Umupo ako sa sofa to relax myself after a long drive. Ang nakalagay kasi sa email ay kailangan kong mag punta sa office niya ng exact 10:00 am so I look at my watch.
I still have two hours to relax myself but I stood up dahil naalala ko kailangan ko pa palang ayusin ang mga damit ko sa maleta. I'm too lazy to do that but I need to, gagawin ko rin naman mamaya.
I opened my bedroom door to see a mess. I scratch my neck. Marami nanamang tanong sa isip ko. I look around, sa buong living room ng unit ko at nag lakad papalapit sa kitchen.
Really? Who the fuck did this mess? Napakamot ako ng noo ko at lumapit sa sink. May mga platong gamit, lumapit din ako sa ref ko to check but to my dismay, it has a variety of food. Vegetables, meats, eggs, can beer, chocolates, yogurt, ice creams, batter, sodas at isang cake na may bawas na.
Tumayo ako ng tuwid at napaisip. Did someone occupied my condo while I am away? I'm sure wala namang nawawala, nandito pa ang mga gamit ko lahat lahat, hindi ako ninakawan or what, but that culprit just used my ref, my bedroom and my whole condo, really? For free?
I'm gonna file a complain against the management. I will report this. Pumasok ako sa room ko at pinulot ang mga nakakalat na robes and I even pick the black panty malapit sa kama ko.
Magulo ang queen size bed ko na para bang may taong gumising at iniwan nalang na ganito. Really? Ang kapal ng mukha.
Pinulot ko pa ang isang bra and even my bathroom, puno ng mga gamit ng babae, from the shampoos, lotions, make up kits, pads, gezz. Hindi nga ako gumagamit ng mga ganito. Binitawan ko ang bra and that's it. Puno na ako and I badly need to report this.
I was just about to open the door when I noticed a three sticky note. I read the first one.
I know this time you are reading this note. I'm glad. I'm back Keni. I'm sorry because I'm using your condo for I don't know how many days, maybe ten or twelve, I don't know.
Biglang may gumuhit na ngiti sa labi ko nang mabasa ko ang unang note. What a woman.
I'm occupying your condo because of my personal reason. Get your ass here and explain yourself. Where have you been?.
I frowned, I think she's the one who owe me an explanation. I look at the third one.
I messed up your condo. We will just clean it later. Get your ass here! You signed my contract so come or else I will sue you...
And there's a three heart.
Ngumisi ako. So ibig sabihin siya ang culprit? Damn. I think she just answered all my questions earlier. She still want me so that's a good news.