My life is like a bird inside a cage, why? Because I am free and rich last week but now I'm in a cage, not able to fly and not able to touch the sky.
I laughed bitterly at tinungga ang laman ng bote ng beer. I am here in the street, busy drinking my expensive bottle of beer.
But in reality this beer is only 57 pesos at parang masakit na sa bulsa dahil subrang mahal. When I was rich puro expensive liquor ang iniinum ko but now, I am so dukha and I hate it.
"Khane you're so stubborn, stand up and let's go!". Zach told me at sinubukan niyang hilain ako pero humawak ako ng mahigpit sa mesa.
"I don't want to see them. Tatawanan lang nila ako at sisigawan at tatapakan. Gusto mo bang mapanood yun Zack?". I asked him. I scratch my neck at uminom sa beer.
"You know what Khane?! Im tired of your little game and I am so tired because of you! I'm done!". He spat at nag simula siyang mag lakad papalapit sa kotse niya.
Tumawa ako ng malakas for him to hear.
"Ganyan naman kayo lahat! Noong marami akong pera para kayong mga linta kung mag dikit saakin but now na nag hihirap ako? Para akong isang walang dugong bangkay na kusa niyong nilalayuan. Watch me rise again Bitch!". I shouted. He smirked at me bago siya sumakay sa kotse.
"Jerk!". I yelled. Ibinato ko ang bote at nabasag. Tumayo ako at nag simulang mag lakad ng pagiwang giwang.
He keep on telling me that I should approach my parents but hell, I don't want to see them, they are the reason why I am here suffering. They are happy to see me suffering and I hate them all.
Inalis nila saakin ang lahat, they stole my company and gave it to my bullshit brother.
I build my own company for myself, I built it alone without them and just a snap of time
Napasakamay na siya ng magaling kong mga magulang. Bullshit isn't it?
And the worst thing binigay nila ang kayamanan ko sa walang kwenta nilang anak. They never treat me like their own child and I blame my situation kung bakit hindi nila ako kayang mahalin.
Because I am not normal. I am different and I hate being different dahil sariling pamilya ko hindi ako matanggap.
I hate them. I open my car and I start the engine. I'm lucky dahil hindi ko nagawang ibenta ang kotse ko, and I am glad na hindi ko din ibenenta ang nag iisang pagmamay ari ko.
Ang condominium na meron ako sa Makati. Hindi alam ng family ko na bumili ako ng condominium at mabuti nalang hindi ko sinabi ang lahat ng ito sa kanila.
Kasi malamang kung alam nila na may natitirahan pa ako ay siguradong pilit nila akong paaalisin.
I'm an intersex and they don't want me, they hate me and they are disgusted. Sa sarili nilang anak, yes, they hate me because I am different.
I looked at the review mirror dahil sa mga malalaking sasakyan. Lalo na sa pulang mustang sa gilid. Binenta ko ang mustang ko dahil nag hihirap na ako. Wala na akong pambili ng alak that's why.
At nang madaanan ko ang harap ng building ko I smiled bitterly. That was mine, nasa harap ang pangalan ko pero iba na ang nag mamay ari. Paano nangyari? Hindi ko alam.
Hindi ko alam kung saan nanggaling ang pirma na meron ako sa kontrata na hawak ng magaling kong kapatid.
And guess what, nagpakasal sila ng magaling niyang asawa sa abroad and they use my own money para lang sa kasal na iyon.
Ang lalakas ng apog nila, ni minsan hindi nila ako itinuring na kapamilya but now, they are using my money, my name and my power sa lahat ng kausap nila, they even tell to public na ako mismo ang nag bitaw sa company ko.
I parked my car and I locked it bago ako mag lakad papalapit sa elevator. I'm glad they didn't know this place.
This building is one of the most expensive building at isa sa mga room dito ay saakin. If I'm going to sell it magkakaroon ako ng maraming pera once again but I chose to keep it.
Saan na ako titira kung sakali? Wala akong bahay at ang condo ko nalang ang natitira at ang kotse ko.
When the elevator rang ika ika akong nag lakad papasok sa condo unit ko. I smiled when I smelled my room. So manly and I love it.
Tumingin ako sa relo na nasa kamay ko, it's already midnight and I don't care about the time anymore dahil wala naman na akong trabaho bukas ng maaga. They stole it at hindi ko makakalimutan ang ginawa nila saakin.
They are my family but they treated me like a trash, I love them but they kicked me like a trash bag and I hate myself for that. Sana hindi na ako nag padala sa paawa nila.
Sana hindi nalang ako nag paloko.
I entered my room at hinayaang mahiga ang buong katawan ko sa mattress. How I love my bed. Mabuti pa ang kama may dalang comfort. I wish someone will love me too. Kahit kunti lang.
I am looking for attention and love at hindi ko alam kung saan ako kukuha ng ganung klase ng bagay.
But I am sure I'm a good looking woman, they want me because of the thing between my tights, they want me for a game, they want me for a good fuck and of course they love me because of my money pero hindi ko na alam kung mamahalin pa ba ako ng mga babae if they find out na wala na akong pera?
What a painful world.
My eyes were closed at nag hihintay nalang ako na dalawin ng antok pero hindi nag tagal gumalaw ang kama.
I ignored it and I tried to sleep, but for the second time gumalaw ang kama na para bang may katabi akong tao kaya binuksan ko ang mga mata ko.
To witness this kind of beauty made my heart jump out of me.
"What a beautiful creature". I whispered. I smiled because I know I'm dreaming. This is my first time seeing a woman like this.
She's beautiful and perfect, her nose is sharp and her lips are beautiful that makes me want to lean and kiss her.
I bet this is my most beautiful dream so far, sa kabila ng problema na dinaranas ko ay may ganito paring kagandang panaginip ang meron ako.
"I wish you're real". I whispered like a fool. I giggled and I touch her nose. It feels like she's real.
"If you are the answer to my problem then don't disappear ". I said.
I'm sleepy and I want to sleep but I tried to open my eyes to watch her sleep soundly. I'm afraid na baka bukas wala na siya, na baka bukas hindi na niya ako dalawin sa panaginip.
She's wearing a night gown and her nipples are visible. How lovely.
"Goodnight Miss Perfect.". I mumbled.