So many awards shows had passed and I couldn't go to them because of the kids, but tonight was the Brits and I had to go to that. If One Direction won then I would go up and accept the award for them. Simon was originally going to do it, but I asked him if I could do it and so he accepted. It was going to be a girls night out with me, all of Little Mix, El, and Soph. I was getting ready when I heard the doorbell ring. It had been two months since Louis and Gemma left to go back to Australia, so it was just me and the nanny.
"I got it!" I yelled up at the nanny who I saw going down the stairs. I opened it to see all the girls there.
"You all look beautiful."
"Thank you! You too lovely."
"Shall we go?"
"Yes let's go." We all piled out of the doorway and headed downstairs to the big escalade that would take us to the O2.
"Do you think the boys are going to win?"
"Have you not seen your phone lately?"
"Um no why?"
"The boys found out this afternoon that they won."
"Oh okay. I guess I owe a call to someone then."
"Did he not call you yet?"
"I have been busy, so I haven't checked my phone."
"Isabella look now! I bet Niall is the happiest person right now."
"Alright keep your heels on." I took my phone out of my clutch and Niall had indeed called me.
"Alright so you guys won the battle, but I won the war."
"What are you talking about Isabella?"
"Niall did call me."
"Call him back and congratulate him."
"Alright keep your dresses on." I redialed Niall, but he didn't have his phone on him so I left a message congratulating him and just as we pulled up to the Brits I put my hand out the window and let him hear all the fans screaming. I laughed at the end as I told him I loved him and then hung up.
"Ready girls?"
"Yes let's go." We all piled out and the paparazzi was going nuts to take our pictures. Little Mix all posed together while I posed by myself and the girls all posed by themselves. Once the paparazzi spied Simon though it was all over and we all moved on until I heard Simon call our names wanting to take a group photo. Perrie, El, Soph, and I all walked over to him.
"Hello Simon." We all chirped to him.
"Hello girls. Picture?" We all crowded around him as the paparazzi took our pictures. I moved away as Little Mix then crowded around him to take pictures. I walked away and into the building to find my seat but before I could I got bombarded by a lot of other famous singers wanting to talk to me. I stood around and talked to them until I heard that Taylor was about to come out which meant it was time to take our seats. I found my seat at the Simon Cowell team table.
"Where did you go?" Perrie whispered to me.
"I got bombarded by other singers and models."
"Oh that happens."
"You don't say Per." She gave me that look of don't mess with me. I just sat back sipping my wine and enjoying the night. One Direction didn't win best group Royal Bloods did and I wasn't happy.
"They should have won that." I whispered to Perrie.
"It's okay they got the biggest award."
"That's true. It just would have been nice to see them win."
"It's always nice to see them win." I sighed and sat back again. The show went on and I danced to George Ezra and Sam Smith. The show continued on and it was finally time for me to go up and deliver the speech the boys wanted me to deliver. Simon told me I could add whatever I wanted. They had won British Video for You and I. I was so nervous walking up the stairs to the mic. I hugged the presenters and then situated myself in front of the mic.
"Hi everyone. So One Direction is on tour right now, but they wanted me to tell you that they are so happy to have won and they want to thank the fans and Ben Winston for making the video. Now what I would like to say to the boys is that I love the boys and I am so happy for them. I love you Niall and I'm sorry I didn't pick up your phone earlier. Congratulations honey! Thank you all and have a nice night!" I walked off stage holding their award until I got back to my seat and let the others hold it.
"Perrie I have to pee. Don't leave without me."
"We won't. Just stay though it's almost over."
"Fine but if I pee in my pants it's your fault."
"Hahaha I will take the blame then." I sat back staring at my wine that I wanted to drink but my bladder was going to explode if I took another sip.
"Perrie what is the date?"
"the 25 why?"
"I missed my period by two weeks."
"Isabella your not?"
"I might be."
"When did you and Niall do the dirty?"
"When I went on tour with them in Australia."
"Isabella you need to take a test like now."
"I know Perrie."
"Girls Isabella may be pregnant!"
"Well thanks Perrie for announcing that."
"Congratulations Is!"
"Don't congratulate me yet." The show was finally over which meant I could pee and check my phone. I quickly ran to the toilets and peed. I took my phone out and saw that Niall had called me back a minute ago and my nanny called. I decided I would call the nanny back.
"Hello."
"What's wrong?"
"James won't wake up. I rushed him to hospital." I dropped my phone onto the ground after I screamed and I slid down to the floor. All the girls ran in and plus Simon.
"What's wrong?"
"J J James has been rushed to hospital. He wouldn't wake up."
"I have Niall on the phone." I took Simons phone from him to hear Niall talking on the other side.
"Baby what's wrong?"
"J J James has been rushed to hospital. The nanny said he wouldn't wake up."
"I'm so sorry honey."
"Niall our baby might be dead."
"I'll be on the next plane to England."
"No you can't do that. I'm going to hospital now. Either I will call you or the girls will call."
"Keep me updated."
"I I I will." I handed Simon back his phone as the girls helped me off the floor and to the car. We arrived at the hospital and I ran into the ER to see my nanny sitting outside one of the rooms.
"I'm so sorry Mrs. Horan. James just didn't wake up at feeding time. The doctor told me it's called SIDS when the baby just dies. They don't know why it happens." I fell onto one of the girls and cried so hard.
"Where's my daughter?"
"A neighbor is watching her."
"Please go back to my flat and watch her." She nodded her head and walked away. I was crying so hard. My baby boy was dead. I guess someone had called Niall since I heard his voice next to my ear.
"Niall our baby boy is dead. J J James is d d dead."
"I'm on my way back. I'm on the plane already. I should be there in about two hours. Simon has cancelled some of the shows so we are all coming back for his funeral."
"Niall our baby is dead!" I dropped the phone on the ground as I was being held up by one of my best friends as I cried. I attracted a lot of attention from the doctors and nurses. My sons doctor came out and he was holding my baby.
"I'm so sorry Mrs. Horan. We don't know why they just die like this."
"Can I please hold my baby?"
"Yes of course." the doctor handed me James and he looked so peaceful sleeping there. I had silent tears falling down my face as I kissed his little forehead.
"James mommy is going to miss you so much." I held him to my chest while I rocked back and forth crying.
"Isabella may I hold him?" I looked up to see my best friends staring at me with tears in their eyes. I reluctantly handed him over and I wiped my tears as they were saying their good byes to him. I must have fallen asleep since when I awoke I was on a bed and Niall was here crying and rocking James back and forth.
"Niall!" He turned his head towards me and walked towards me. I got up and hugged him as we both cried for our dead son.
"They don't know why he just died."
"Isabella now we will have to really take care of Bindi more since her twin is gone."
"I know Niall. I think that I am going to be a stay at home mom. I'll keep the nanny on in case I need help, but I want to stay with her more now."
"I like that idea. Are we ready to let them take him down to the morgue?" I nodded my head, but before Niall handed him over we both kissed his forehead.
"Goodbye James. Remember we love you." Niall handed my baby boy over to the doctor and I just cried harder into Niall's chest.
"Did the boys say goodbye?"
"Yes while you were sleeping they said goodbye." I nodded my head and continued to cry into his chest as he held me tight.
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