Jennie's POV
I do believe now that the sunset is beautiful... 🌅
I'm Jennie Ruby Jane Kim a girl from her past .. A bisexual changed by a christian boy and the girl who changed her ..
I'm just an instrument for her to be healed... And her dummy account is the key for me to unlock myself from loneliness..
She's the sunrise and I'm the sunset..
We can't be together ..
Our memories will stay forever in our hearts 💛🖤
I always loved an unknown person from my past and I always knew she was girl..
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"Look there's Lisa"
Tzuyu said and drag me to Lisa who's busy talking with girls..
"Do you need me?"
"Do you think I'm pretty?"
A girls telling that to Lisa..
I think I've heard enough..
"I'm sorry girls but I like someone else"
Lisa said and walk to our direction..
"I need to use the restroom for sec"
I stop and said that to Tzuyu .. I turn around and walk to leave..
Why I always feel like I'm avoiding her??
"Do I make you feel like cheating?"
I heard Lisa said that .. I know she's telling that to Tzuyu .. I think they're together now..
"No not really cause"
Lisa added said .. I don't want to heard her voice anymore .. I was about to run coz I feel like I'm exploding without knowing the reasons ..
When
Someone hold my hand..
"I think that I found myself a cheerleader.."
I froze when I feel Lisa's soft hand stopping me to leave..
"I think I was the who need to use to restroom .. I'll see you later bye"
Tzuyu said and left us while smiling widely ..
"You're avoiding me for days what's wrong??"
I heard Lisa asked me .. I don't know what to answer coz I really don't know why I'm avoiding her ..!
"Is it about the night that I carried you because you're drunk?"
I wasn't ready to face her .. I was about to go again but this time she go in front of me ..
"What's wrong??"
She said while looking at me.. I look away so that I can't meet her eyes..
"I need to go"
I said and remove her hand on me but she block my way again ..
"I won't let you leave again unless you talk to me"
She said ..
"I still have class .."
I said and about to walk but I bump into her chest ..
"Are you mad at me??"
She repeatedly ask me again .. I move backward ..
"No"
I shortly replied
"Then why are you avoiding me?"
She said .. I was just looking at the floor .. I don't know why I'm acting like this ..
"I'm not avoiding you"
I replied ..
"You sure?? Then what do you call the times that you're seating beside Dahyun on the bus, the times that you're early going to the dorm bathroom, the times that you're not eating your dinner for two days and the times that you are sleeping early?? .. I'm always talking to you but seems like I look like an air that no one can see .."
I don't know too !!
"I don't know so please get out of my way"
I said ... I don't understand myself now.. So please don't disturb my peace of mind ..
"Are you protractor again??"
What does she mean??
I look at her this time ..
But my eyes still not ready to meet her dough eyes.. so I look away
"Look at me"
She lift my face up ..
"There you go .. You're beautiful if you chin up"
She added ..
"What do you what?"
I asked her with a low voice..
"Engineer Kim I want you to build something for me"
I was just looking at her confusedly ..
"I'm still a student"
I said and push her ..
"Woahhh pushing me is illegal"
Why she keep teasing me ..!
"What do you want!!?"
I tried to be mad but I can't show her any emotions ..
"I don't get your point so get out of my way"
I annoyingly said ..
"I feel sad for your christian ex that changed you but still the old you is back"
I look at her seriously ..
"I know you're trying to fight it but Jennie you can't stop your heart.. Love is love no matter the gender of the either partner..."
I avoided to meet her eyes ..
"It was a sin to love you again..I'm sorry but I can't"
It was hard to say it all .. Yeah I like her .. I was in love with Lisa.. And I know she already knew it.!
But I don't want to be the old me again .. I already made a promised to myself and to God that I won't enter a relationship with girls again ..
"I understand .."
She replied.. I walk to passed her ..
"At least I confirm that you still like me.. Now I can let my feelings go..."
I stop on my spot .. She still like me??
"You're still into me?"
I face her and saw her nodded..
"I never let go my feelings for you"
She replied ..
"But you already let go of me Lisa.. Remember the time when we're at the oval I know what you mean by saying the word 'The sunset is beautiful'.."
I said ..
"I try to let go but I can't stop myself loving you and I'm just waiting for you to tell me that you love me too.. And I'm happy that I confirm it a while ago that you still like me.."
I don't understand her emotions that she's showing me..
"I'm sorry.."
I said shortly ..
"Nah it's okay .. There's nothing to be sorry .. I was contented knowing that you like me.."
She smiled at me ..
"Aren't you not mad at me that I feel the same way but I can't be with you?"
I asked confusedly..
"I respect you .. I respect your beliefs.. Having you being my best friend is enough .. Don't worry I will forget my feelings for you but give me time to completely do that"
She said and laugh a lil bit ..
"I do the same too Lisa.. Sorry for avoiding you .. and Thank you for understanding"
I'm in pain ... It's hard .. It's really hard to push her away.. But I already choose to keep my promised .. I'm sorry Lisa .. We can't be together ..
I need to forget my feelings for you because it's the right thing to do ..
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BUT I CAN'T TAKE MY ANGER EVERY TIME SHE'S HANGING OUT WITH DIFFERENT GIRLS AT SCHOOL ...
IT MADE MY BLOOD BOIL ...
IT MADE MY MOOD CHANGED!!
ARGHHHHHHHHH !!!!!
"Lisa can we eat lunch together?"
A girl named Somi said ..
Lisa about to answer but I cut her off..
"Sorry but she's eating lunch with us"
I said and drag Lisa to follow our friends..
"You can't eat lunch and even hanging out with them again.."
I said while dragging her..
"But---"
I cut her off every time she want to say something ..
"No more buts"
I said ....
"Hi Jennie"
A guy from my Calculus class said .. I was about to speak but Lisa pulled me to her..
"Got it Hon .. I won't flirt with them again"
She smiley said and put her hand on my shoulder..
"Now let's go coz I'm hungry"
She said that made Jungkook walk away ..
"What was that?"
I annoyingly said to her..
"You're stopping me to talk and hanging out with Somi and other girls then don't talk to guys too especially that guy"
Wth!!!
"You're not my boss"
I said and remove her hand on my shoulder ..
"Okay fine .. oh Hi Dahyun----"
She's getting into my nerves..!
"Fine..!"
I said and drag her to leave Dahyun confused ..
WHAT AM I DOING!!!!???
*Cafeteria*
"Everyone thinks you're together"
Tzuyu said while we're eating ..
"No we're not"
Lisa and I said in unison ..
"Why not??"
Rosie said while flirting to her girlfriend .. Uhm yeah I forgot to tell you that they're together now .. I'm so happy for them ..
"Because we can't be"
Lisa and I said again in unison ..
"Then why are you stopping each other to talk to those people who likes you?"
Jisoo said..
"It's a best friend thing"
Lisa said so I agreed ...
"Uhmmm??"
They're looking at us teasingly ..
"Yah we're telling the truth!"
We both said again in unison ..
"Since it's a best friend thing can you kiss each other.. Hephep don't say no coz it's a friend thing"
Tzuyu said that made me froze ..
"Yah that's not count"
I said ..
"Yes it counts"
Tzuyu protested ...
"Prove us that you're just best friend"
Jisoo said while eating her chicken ..
"And if you didn't do that you're hiding something from us"
Rosie added ..
Are they crazy!!!
"C'mon show us that you're just best friend"
Jisoo said again ..
"Kissing her on cheeks is counted right?"
Lisa ask ..
"Yes it is .. Why you want her to kiss on her lips?"
Tzuyu teasingly said..
"We didn't mean that you need to kiss each other lips haha.. Kissing on cheeks is counted.."
Tzuyu added and ChaeSoo just smiling like an idi**
"Look Jungkook is coming .. I think he's approaching Jennie and wait Somi is looking at you Lisa"
My eyes landed on Somi who's busy mesmerizing Lisa's face.. What's on her.. Can she just eat her food!?
"Go first Jennie.. Kiss Lisa's cheek"
I saw Somi biting her lips while looking at Lisa.. What a flirty!!!
Urghhhh!!
I face Lisa and kiss her cheeks ..
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"OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
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Lisa's POV
"Look Jungkook is coming .. I think he's approaching Jennie and wait Somi is looking at you Lisa"
I look on the guy who's making his way to Jennie's direction ..
Why he keep bothering Jennie!?
What's wrong with this guy??
Is he out of his mind.. Tsk Jennie didn't like him ..
Stop smiling idi** she's not into guy like you ..
My blood boil when he look at me and smirk .. What's for that smirk!!!?
So you're challenging me huh!
Fine Jungkook !
I'll show you how to make her blush !!
"Jen-----"
I face Jennie and kiss her cheeks...
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"OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
I immediately pulled out kissing Jennie's lips ..
"Gosh I feel my heart bouncing on happiness huhu"
"I didn't expect that to happen"
"My ship huhu"
I can't hear what's my friends saying coz I feel like my soul left me ..
I was shocked and didn't expect that ..
I wasn't ready to slap on my beautiful face .. 😭 So please don't slap me Jennie..
My eyes landed to Jungkook who's leaving the cafeteria madly .. That work!! Now he didn't gonna approach Jennie again.. Yes!!!!
Cring.......
The bell ring ..
"I'll see you later .. let's go babe.."
Jisoo said and left with her girlfriend..
"I can't attend accounting class today.. Were having a meeting .. I'll see you both after class bye"
So that mean .. Jennie and I was the only two in here??
I gulp and face her but..
"You!"
I look at the girl in front of me .. It's Somi .. She's looking at me madly ..
"I hate you for showing me hopes to be your girl..!"
She slap my face and leave .. Wth I didn't give her any clues that I like her or I love her..
I was just friendly to her that's all ..
"She better leave"
I heard the kitten voice said behind me..
What does she mean??
I slowly face her..
"Jen I---m so----"
I can't talk normal .. I was shy and nervous at the same time ..
"What??"
She shortly said and wait impatiently for my answer ...
"I'm sorry for kissing you"
I said and look away ..
I don't know why I did that .. All I remember is to show Jungkook that I can make Jennie blush buy kissing her cheeks ...
"Looks like it's your first time to kiss someone"
She said .. So what?? And I don't find kissing someone on their lips are exciting ..
"You don't care"
I said annoyingly..
"That means I'm your first kiss?"
She said while smiling like an idi**.. Is she teasing me again .. tsk .. I just don't like someone kissing me that's why I didn't kiss someone before..
"Let's go to our class before we get late"
I said and got our bags ..
"Let's go"
I said and walk ..
"It's my first time too"
I heard her say that ..
"I don't believe you .. If Kai was going to your apartment before that's impossible that you both didn't----"
I was cut off when the plastic bottle hit my head..
"Ouch .. yah that's hurt!"
I said and face her..
"I'm not that girl you're thinking and fyi he just go on my apartment once and nothing happen to us!"
She said and leave me ..
I can feel her madness ..
All I want to say is I don't believe that they didn't kiss before 😭
"Jennie wait !!!"
What a day!!!
*Hours later*
We're here at the oval rn waiting for ChaeSoo and Tzuyu and she still avoiding me.. I tried to talk to her many times .. I already apologize hundred times but she still didn't care about my presence ..
"Nini I'm sorry"
I was standing in front of her .. She was just scrolling on her phone ..
"I didn't mean to say that ... I'm sorry"
I said and still she's not responding ..
"Nini please .."
I beg for thousand times ..
"Please talk to me.."
I know that what I've said is really a serious thing but I didn't mean her to think on that way ..
"Jennie ???"
I repeatedly said .. Is she deaf!
"Jennie!?"
I almost yelled but she still busy on her phone ..
"Okay"
I said ..
I run at the center of the oval to get Jennie's attention ..
"JENNIE KIM I'M SORRY!!!!!!"
I shouted loudly .. Students looking at me rn .. I don't care.. All I care is Jennie's attention...
So please look at me..
"JENNIE KIM I'M SORRY!!!"
I shouted again this time she look at me with a blank face .. I think she noticed also that people looking at us..
"Can you stop your annoying!!"
She shouted back that made students say ..
"Boooooo!!"
Urghh your making me insane Jennie Kim ...
"YAH STOP LAUGHING IT'S NOT FUNNY!"
I Shouted to all the students who's teasingly looking at me ..
"Hahaha go home Manoban you seem like your a beggar now begging for some foods!"
Jungkook shouted that made more the students laugh at me..
Oh really!!!?
"Yeah a beautiful beggar begging for forgiveness to the girl that you can't have!"
I shouted that made students laugh at him ..
"What did you just say!"
He approach me and students cheering ..
"I said you can't have JENNIE KIM!"
I Shouted in front of him .. Now his face turn red ..
"Oh don't be mad .. You can still beg some food outside the school"
I said and students laugh hardly ..
Now who lose... HAHAHA
"You really getting into my nerves Manoban!"
Jungkook stopping himself to punch me ..
"Just go leave beggar"
I said and students yelled to him to go home ..
"Stop calling him beggar and Yes he's leaving with me"
The kitten said.. Wth!!!
"Woahhhh Loser Manoban!"
Everyone shouted when Jennie approach this idi** guy in front of me
"Let's go Jk"
Jennie hold Jungkook hands..
Is she making me more mad!?
"No you can't leave with him!"
I said and block their way ..
"Why not .. I'm single and his single.. So back off"
She said and push me ..
"Really Jennie?? Fine leave with him and don't go to our dorm!"
I madly shouted at her..
"I'm not going on that hell anymore .. I have my own apartment now and this guy beside me is always welcome there"
She said ...
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Jennie's POV
"Really Jennie?? Fine leave with him and don't go to our dorm!"
She madly shouted at me..
"I'm not going on that hell anymore .. I have my own apartment now and this guy beside me is always welcome there"
I said while walking with Jungkook leaving her madly ..
"Jen --"
Jungkook was cut off when Lisa block our way again .. I was about to push her but I saw a tears falling in her face ..
"You forgot your bag"
She handed me my bag ..
Fu** why is she crying???
And why did I feel sadness seeing her like this!!!?
She hurt me first but why did I feel that I hurt her badly?
Jungkook get my bag and Lisa walk away ..
Seeing her walking away from me makes my breathe stop ...
"Let's go Jen"
Jungkook said but my eyes are focused on the girl walking far from me..
"I'm sorry Jungkook .."
I said and get my bag then ran faster to chased this stupid girl ...!
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Lisa's POV
You're living with him then go .. Wishing you to be happy ..
I wipe my tears but this sh** keep falling !!
Arghh can you stop !!!
I was already here outside the campus walking fastly .. I don't know I feel like I want to walk going to our dorm..
"Yah can you stop walking!"
A familiar voice yelled ..
I stop and turn around ..
I saw the kitten walking like a zombie going to my direction ..
I wipe my tears and act cool ..
"What do you want?"
I said calmly ..
"Why are you walking so fast!? Are you chasing a horse!!"
She's breathing like a cat ..
"If you don't need anything then I'll get going .."
I said and turn around but this time she hold my bag to make me stop..
"I want to talk to you"
She said while still chasing her breath .. This time I face her with a blank face..
"Talk"
I commanded still acting a heartless person ..
"Stop being cold it's not suit on you"
She said and rolled her eyes..
"Are you here to tease me?"
I said ..
"No .. I was here to talk about earlier"
She said..
"Don't worry you're still welcome to get your stuff"
I said and about to turn around and walk again but she slap me..
"You really believe me on that!"
She yelled ..
"Slapping me without any reason are unacceptable"
I replied ..
"Urghh I hate you!!"
She said in annoyance ..
"Then hate me I don't mind"
I said and this time she kick my leg ..
"Yah!!! That's hurt!!"
I was jumping like a kid ..
"You're so immature!"
She said that made me stop jumping and look at her..
"If I kick your leg aren't you gonna jump coz of pain too"
I said... What did she want !!
"Why are you so slow .. I really hate you!"
She push me many times..
I was about to stop her but I saw tears falling on her eyes..
I hold her both hands and pulled her to me ..
"What's wrong?"
I concerned asked..
"I don't have apartment"
She said ..
"Is that the reason why you chased me and crying this time .. okay fine your still gonna live on our dorm"
I said that made her look at me madly ..
"Why are you so slow!! I said I really don't have an apartment and I'm not living with Jungkook ..!"
She madly said to me ..
"I didn't chased you for nothing.. I'm here to apologize for what I've done earlier .. I'm sorry I hurt you and made you cry"
A low tone came from her..
"I didn't cry"
I lied and this time she was about to kick my another leg again but I stop her immediately ..
"Yes I cried.. I'm sorry too .. I was just mad when you approach him and hold his hand .."
I honestly said ..
"Is that all?"
She asked .. I nodded but I saw her tiger eyes .. Yah she's just crying earlier then rn there's no tears on her eyes...
"I was jealous.."
I said and look away ..
"You happy now?"
I added and still not looking at her...
"You told me you're gonna move on"
She said ..
"I'm trying but it's not easy to move on that fast"
I said ..
"Then don't"
I look at her confused ...
She was looking at me with a lot of emotions on her face ..
"I tried too but I can't forget my feelings that fast .. When you left me earlier I felt guilty for making you feel alone on the eyes of people .. I felt bad going to Jungkook side while you just did is for me to notice your presence .. I'm sorry .. I'm sorry I made you cry earlier .. I'm sorry I hurt you .."
I was reading her mind to get the point but my brain are not working..
"Don't move on .. If loving you is a sin then let hell be my paradise"
Wait did she mean..!????
"Lisa I want to continue to love the girl I met on my past .. This time no dummy account .. No lies.. No secrets .. No more Thirdy .. I want to love the real person behind that dummy account that you made 5 years ago.. Lisa I want to know more about the unknown girl.. Be my girl Lisa.. Be mine for real.."
Is she asking me to be her girlfriend!??
Wait is this real!!!???
Ofc hell yeah!
But I want to tease you for teasing me HAHA..
"Are you sure??"
I acted like I don't like her offer..
"Why you don't want to be my girlfriend?"
I was laughing inside seeing the kitten become soft and sad..
"It's okay I understand .. I push you away .. I choose to ended our relationship and stayed in friendship ---"
I cut her off by picking her lips .. I'm sorry I just want to taste your cherry lips again .. I was addicted to it ..
"I always choose to be with you ... I want to be your girl Jennie and I always will"
I said that made the kitten blush hardly...
"But loving me is a sin"
I said to remind her about something ..
"Lord I'm sorry.. I love her.."
She said and close her eyes.. This time it gives me time to mesmerized her beautiful face..
"You might melt me"
Oh she's looking at me now..
"So I'm your girlfriend now??"
I asked her happily ..
"No"
She shortly said that made my smile fade away ..
"But-----------------------------------------------"
She cut me off..
"Your my wife now idi**"
She said and pinch my nose..
"Don't make me mad again"
She said cutely ..
"And don't make me jealous again especially to that Jungkook"
I angrily said his name ..
"But I want to tell you something"
I added that made her look at me..
"Let's break up"
I said that made her shocked..
I can feel sadness ..
"I can't let you court me so I'm breaking up with you ..."
Please don't cry .. don't cry ..
"Since we're officially broke up .. Ms. Jennie Ruby Jane Kim can I call you Mrs. Manoban??"
She was confusedly looking at me ..
"I'm not letting the queen to court me .."
I hold her both hands..
"I deserve the line to ask you to be my girl .. so Can you be my girlfriend Nini?"
I was hoping to ask this in person to her.. Now that I have a chance .. I want to tell her this ..
"Can I win your heart for real..?? No more lies .. no more Thirdy .. no more dummy account and no more block.."
I smiled and wipe the hair in her face ..
"I'm sorry I broke up with you earlier.. I just want to take the opportunity to treat you like my queen this time.."
I think she understand me already..
"This road knows everything .. this road heard everything .. His a witness on the love I'm sharing with you .."
I made her smile .. Finally after a months I saw her gummy smile again ..
"If loving you is a sin, then let hell be my paradise"
She replied ..
"Thank you for choosing to fight for me"
I said and hug her tight ..
"You're worth it to be fight for"
She replied that made my heart beat so fast ..
"I love you hon"
I heard her say that .. Wait what!!? Did she just say that she love me!!
I pulled out by hugging her ..
"143 too hon"
I replied and kiss her forehead ..
"Yahhhhh idi***! Why did you left us!!!"
Jennie and I look at the people who's in the car looking at us madly ..
"Stop flirting on the side of the road .. Kids are watching!!"
Tzuyu said that made them laugh ..
Jennie and I look around and saw a lot of people looking at us ..
Shoot that was so embarrassing ..
I mean it's not .. We're just in love .. that's all!
"Get on the car and let's go!"
Rosie said impatiently ..
I hold Jennie's hand and open the car door for her..
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And that's our story ...
From dummy account to lovers to strangers to dorm mate to best friend to lovers again ..
Thanks THIRDY *Lisa's dummy account* .. Thanks because of you I met her.. :)
"What are you thinking again?"
Jennie said and sat beside me ..
"Us"
I smiled and put my hand on her shoulder ..
"Our story may end here"
I sadly said and look at the sunset ..
"Idi** at least the author made our story a happy ending"
She replied that made me smile ...
"Can I be your girl on our next story again"
I said and lay down on the sand while my head is on her legs..
"Yah stop that sad face.. Our story has no ending .. Our story will continue even the person who's reading this already finished our story .. Your dummy account will always be in their minds and us .. In short JenLisa we're always on their heart.."
I smiled looking at the beautiful angel ..
"I love you always.. I will never get tired of loving you"
I said ..
"I love you too Hon"
She replied and we both look at the sunset disappearance ..
"What an ugly sunset"
We both said in unison so we laugh at our silliness ...
"Urghh lord send me someone .. I'm tired being a third wheel"
Tzuyu said from nowhere ..
"You can hug yourself by waiting"
Jisoo said while hugging her chipmunk ..
"Yah stop teasing me and for now I don't need someone .. I'm happy to be free"
Tzuyu said and drink her coke ..
Thanks G .. Thanks for giving me this people especially this girl in front of me.. I'm sorry if we choose this but we won't forget to praise you ..
Thank you G..
I look at Jennie once again ..
I want to live my whole life with you.. I love you Jennie Kim ..
I Thirdy *dummy account* signing off :)
End......