"Jennie, tomorrow. Okay?"
I am trying to remind her as it's our annual tradition to celebrate Valentine's Day together. Since our training days, we are really looking forward to it every year. I remembered how emotional she was while giving me her Valentine's card, thanking me for being there for her all the time. In return, I also gave her a simple Valentine card together with a tub of her favorite milk-flavored ice cream. I smiled as I saw her eyes lit up because of the sight of it. I didn't realized that those gummy smile of hers captured my heart already without her knowing. I'm trying my best to act cool in front of them but Chaeyoung and Jisoo unnie noticed it right away. I'm still thankful that Jennie is still oblivious about it. I'm afraid on how she'll react if she knows my truth.
"Of course Lis. How could I forget that?" She replied, looking at my direction while she's watching her favorite movie, Frozen.
"Valentine's date again, eh?" Jisoo interrupted as she came from the kitchen preparing our dinner. I didn't realized that it's set already.
"I'm so jealous! Can I join you?" Chaeyoung whined as she already munching some green pepper in her mouth across the table. She always do that.
"I'm so sorry Rosie Posie, but it's our own date. Right Lis?" Jennie replied while winking at me. Damn, my heart goes into chaos again. Why does it has such an effect on me?
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After our dinner, I quickly went to my room to make my Valentine's card for Jennie. I already made for Jisoo unnie and Chaeyoung the other night. I am still thinking on how should I put my appreciation to her into words. It's really difficult this time as I don't want her to know my feelings towards her.
I walked towards my drawer and saw the black velvet box. I opened it and revealed a silver necklace with a dragonfly pendant in it. I'll surprise and give it to Jennie tomorrow.
I was so engrossed looking at the necklace as I didn't realize someone opened the door already.
"When are you going to tell her?" I jumped in surprise hearing that voice from behind. I accidentally tossed the box and fell on the floor. I quickly got it and luckily, nothing was damaged.
"Chaeyoung!"
"Haha! You should have seen your reaction Lis." Chaeyoung laughed so loud that made me rolled my eyes. She was laughing so hard that made her wiped her eyes with tears.
"Are you done?" I asked her with an annoyed tone. But deep inside, I'm so nervous as hell. I really thought that it's Jennie. I put back the necklace on my drawer. She looked at me and nodded.
"So?"
"So, what?" I was confused as to what she's referring to.
Chaeyoung moved and sat on my bed while facing at me. "Until when are you going to keep that?"
I looked down while looking at my hands. I'm still asking the same question to myself. I know for the fact that Mino, from the boy group Winner is trying to get her attention. He's really interested with Jennie and that makes me uncomfortable.
"I'm scared Chaeng."
She moved closer to me and held my hand. "And that's it? Are you just going to let that Mino guy take Jennie from you? Come on! You can do more than this Lis." Chaeng sighed and held a concern through her eyes. "Jisoo unnie and I knew how whipped you are for her. Have some courage. Okay? If you can't say it in person, maybe you can atleast try and write it down on the card that you'll be giving to her. And then, see how she'll react to it. "
Maybe Chaeyoung is right. I can't take it if someone decides to double their moves on her. It's now or never.
"Thanks Chaeng." She smiled at me while tapping my shoulder.
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I slowly opened my eyes as the sun rays peeked through my window form across my room. I smiled right away knowing that it's February 14 today. I suddenly felt so giddy knowing that we'll be going outside with the one and only, Jennie Kim.
I was fixing my bed humming some random song when suddenly I heard someone from the living room. I moved towards my door to listen.
"Jennie unnie, where are you going? And what's with the rush?" I heard Chaeng's voice. I didn't know that Jennie will be going somewhere today. We already planned to go to our favorite restaurant by lunch time.
"Unnie, just tell Lisa that I'll be going out for a while. Mino called and he wants to talk to me about something. I promise to be back by 11." I heard Jennie's reply to her. I looked at my clock and it's still 8 in the morning.
"I'll be going now."
"Okay Jendeuk. Be careful on your way." Jisoo unnie replied. I heard the door closed, meaning she's already gone.
"Chaeyounga, wake Lisa up. We'll have our breakfast now."
"Got it!"
My heart became so heavy hearing Mino's name. What are they going to talk? Will Mino confess to her? What if Jennie is feeling the same way towards him? Am I too late?
The door suddenly opened and I was faced with Chaeyoung eating some bread sticks. She was surprised seeing me standing in behind the door.
"Oh Lis, you're already awake! Let's have our breakfast. Jisoo unnie already cooked for us." She sprinted back and suddenly stopped when she remembered something.
"By the way, Jennie unnie is goin -"
"I know." I didn't let her finish. I just looked down while walking towards that kitchen to grabbed some water. I just felt so sad thinking about it. Jennie didn't even wait for me to wake up and tell it to me personally.
I kept looking at the time the moment we finished our breakfast. We were all seated at the couch watching a Netflix series. They were so focused with it, unlike me, still thinking about that brunette girl who went outside few hours ago.
9 am.
10am.
11am.
12pm.
1pm.
2pm.
3pm.
Jennie is still not here. Did she had her lunch already? Did she had it with Mino?
"Guy, just continue watching it without me. I'll just stay in my room and try to get some sleep." I declared as I stood going towards my room. I was stopped when Chaeyoung held my hand.
"You haven't eaten even a single slice of pizza here Lis." Yes, they already ordered a while ago for our lunch.
"It's okay Chaeyoung-a. I'm not hungry. You can have mine. Okay?" I smiled weakly.
I was about to close my door when Jisoo unnie asked. "Are you okay Lis?" She asked me with a concerned look on her face. She knew already why I felt this way.
"Yes unnie." I answered before I closed the door. I guess there's no Valentine date for us this year.
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"Lisa?"
"Lisa? Can you open this door?"
"I'm so sorry Lis. Are you upset?"
I opened my eyes hearing a knock on my door. I already know who's that voice. I looked at my table clock and saw it's already 9pm. Damn, I didn't know I slept that much. Now, I could feel my stomach rumbled as an effect of not having my lunch earlier.
Am I upset? Yes. I'm really upset of not having to spend my day with her. Am I jealous? Yes. Because it should be our day today, but she spend it with someone who has feelings for her. I think I already lose.
I could still hear her knocking outside my door, so I just slowly opened it trying to conceal my broken state. I saw how her face held so much guilt.
"Lisa, I'm really really sorry for being so lat -"
"Did you enjoy your day today with Mino?" I suddenly asked that made her taken by surprise. I could feel my voice echoed through the living room. I knew that Jisoo unnie and Chaeyoung was not around. They went outside for a dinner with Chaeng's sister, Alice.
Jennie didn't answer me and just looked down with her fidgeting fingers. She always do that when she's nervous. Not a while, she looked at me and slowly moved towards me closer. She was about to hold my arm when I moved backward that made her face shrunk in sadness.
"I'm so sorry Lisa." She looked at her watch and continued. "Can we still have it now? I think there's still an open restaurant across the street. I heard from Jisoo unnie that you haven't eaten your lunch."
"No thank, I'm not hungr -" I was about to close my door when my stomach suddenly rumbled so loud that even her suddenly smiled from it. My stomach betrayed me this time.
"I guess you can't hide it from me." She said while showing her gummy smiles again. Oh God, why do I easily get so weak in front of her. Not now Lisa, not now. Remember, you're upset because of her.
"As much as I know how hungry you are Lis, I'm hungry as well. So, shall we?" She offered her hand to me that made me looked at her, contemplating to go with her or not. And guess what? I didn't accept her hand and walked passed her towards the main door. I heard her chuckled when I said,
"Hurry up, you small bean! Before I changed my mind."
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I just stared at the window, watching the street lights as I let Jennie brought me to God knows where restaurant she's referring to. All I just know is I'm really upset today. I was so silent inside the car and I'm thankful that she respected me by not talking as well.
After a while, I noticed that we were heading towards an exclusive property that I know of. I have been there a couple of times because she brought me there when we have a long vacation after releasing our new albums.
Her car stopped in front of their own house. She exited then waited for me as I stepped out the car.
"I thought we're just going to have our dinner. Why are we here?"
I looked at her with a confusion on my face. She just shurgged, but I noticed something. Is she nervous? Why is she taking a deep breath suddenly? She offered her hand and I accepted it this time as we went towards her house. Why is her hand so cold? Is she not feeling well?
She slowly opened the door at her house and all I could see is pure darkness. Suddenly, a small light lit up on the far side of the room, followed by an aisle of battery operated candles lit along the way towards I supposed is a small table. I turned towards her, I saw her smiling at me. She guided me towards the table and let me sat on the opposite side. My mouth became wattery as I saw some Thai foods in front of me. It's been a while since I last ate these, being so busy with our preparation for our comeback.
"I hope you like all of these Lis." She said while looking at me.
"Did you make all of these?" I curiously asked. It's a bit difficult to prepare Thai foods especially if it's your first time doing it.
"Yes. I'm thankful to your mom and dad who taught me." Now I'm more confused. When did she talked to my mom and dad without me knowing? I thought she's with Mino the entire day.
"How about Mino?" I curiously asked.
She smiled appologitically. "It's just me. I just made those excuse so that I can go out early for this surprise. But I didn't expect preparing Thai food would be this hard. Sorry for keep you waiting Lisa. I'm really sorry."
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We finished our dinner with my happy stomach. All the food are all delicious. Jennie cleaned the table and disappeared in the kitchen for a few minutes. After a while, she went back with something behind on her back. She smiled and put it in front of me. It's a box, with a red ribbon on top of it.
"Open it Lis."
I looked at her with a confusion written on my face but I still followed. I removed the ribbon and slowly opened the lid. What I saw was polaroid photos. Not just ordinary photos, but picture of us when we celebrated Valentine's day.
"Go on." She smiled widely at me. I don't know why, but my heart beats so fast right now.
I removed those photos from the box and smiled seeing it. It's been 10 years since we became friends. And it's really a nice feeling.
February 14, 2012
"TEN YEARS HAD PASSED, STILL AS GORGEOUS AS EVER"
February 14, 2013
"REALLY GRATEFUL WITH THE FRIENDSHIP THAT WE HAVE"
February 14, 2014
"BEING THERE FOR ME THROUGH THICK AND THIN"
February 14, 2015
"BUT NEVER THOUGHT THINGS WOULD CHANGE LITTLE BY LITTLE"
February 14, 2016
"MAKING YOU HAPPY IS MY TOP PRIORITY"
February 14, 2017
"FELT JEALOUS WHEN SOMEONE'S INTERESTED IN YOU"
February 14, 2018
"THEN REALIZED SOMETHING ..."
February 14, 2019
"I'M ALREADY FALLEN, FALLING IN LOVE WITH YOU"
February 14, 2020
"LISA"
February 14, 2021
"BE MINE, MY VALENTINE <3 <3"
Tears cascading on my face as I saw and read those. I just can't believe this is all happening right now. I just thought that this is just a one-sided love. That I thought that Jennie is oblivious about my feelings. But the truth is, it's me who have no idea about her feelings towards me.
She quickly stood and moved my chair to face her. She then put her fingers under my chin to make me look at her on her eyes that was gleaming with tears as well.
"Lisa, you're so important to me and God knows how much I want to be with you from now on." She breathed deeply. "So, If you will allow me, I - "
Instead of letting her to continue, I grabbed her and captured her lips with mine that took her by surprise. Her lips perfectly molded mine and sent different emotions throughout in me. This lips that I want to cherish forever.
We then slowly pulled away while catching our breath. I leaned my forehead towards her while smiling.
"So?"
"So what?" I asked innocently just to tease her.
She pulled away and held my hand while looking at me. There's happiness swimming in her eyes.
"Is that a yes?"
I moved my hands and cupped her face. "There's no way I'm letting you go, Ms. Kim. Not now, not ever."
She showed her gummy smile with her eyes filled with tears. Who would have thought that celebrating Valentine's day would be this special for the both of us. Because I have now the one and only, my Valentine,
Jennie Kim. ❤️
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A/N: Hello everyone. I'm back!
How are you? I hope all of you are doing well. Always take care of yourself and still support BLACKPINK. 😊❤️