aster's pov
Later that day
"Hi." i waved at the boys as they entered the kitchen. I decided to do a nice thing and cook dinner for them while they were working at the quick mart.
"Hey." Fez immediately smiled as he watched me take the big dish of lasagna out of the oven.
"You made dinner?" Ash questioned with a hint of concern.
"Yeah. I was bored and so i decided to go to the store and buy things to make dinner." i set the big tray on the counter and went to turn off the oven.
"Is that a frozen lasagna tv dinner?" Ashtray teased as he went in to inspect it.
"No!" i playfully roll my eyes. "My grandma made this recipe a lot so i just followed it." i shrugged.
We both watched as Ashtray went to the hallway, probably to go to his room. Once he was out of sight, Fez wasted no time with the affection.
"Thank you for making dinner." he pulled me in for a kiss.
"Yeah well you do a lot for me, so i just wanted to do something nice in return." i wrapped my arms around his neck and smiled at him.
He returned the smile and went in for another kiss.
"So we eating or what?" Ashtray appeared again.
We pulled away from each other and just looked at Ash.
Despite being here for a while now, Ash isn't my biggest fan. He's been a lot more understanding as to why i'm here, but i could tell he didn't like me. I'm not really hurt by it because Ash hates everybody and he's used to it just being him and Fez. i just wish we got along. Especially since i'm serious about Fezco and i want him to understand i'm here with good intentions.
"I'll get the plates." Fez went to wash his hands.
"I'll clear the table." Ash walked towards the table to clear it out.
"Guess what Rue told me today." I looked over at Fez as he reached in one of the cupboards to grab a stack of plates.
"Hm?" he glanced over at me, actually interested in what i was going to say. I was so excited to tell him this all throughout the entire day. I knew he'd be happy.
"Rue's staying clean." i tell him and i could tell i was right. He immediately smiled to himself and nodded. "That's great."
"Right." i carried the tray of lasagna to the dinner table and placed it on the center. "I think she's finally coming around."
That was when we heard the doorbell ring a few times.
"I'll get it." Fez set the plates on the table.
"Okay," i watched as he walked down stairs to the door.
I looked over at Ash tray as he set the plates at each chair.
"I'll get the silverware." i walked over to one of the drawer to grab forks.
"What do you want to drink?" Ash questioned while walking over to the fridge. "And don't you dare say that nasty kale shit," he narrowed his eyes at me.
I let out a small laugh, "I bought that one pink lemonade juice you always drink. They sell it in a bigger container. I figured we could stock up," i watched as he eagerly opened the fridge and grabbed it and set it on the table.
"Thanks." he tried to hide the fact that he was smiling by walking over to the cupboards.
"No problem, kid." i smiled and watched as he grabbed three cups. He poured himself a cup and began to drink it.
"You're alright i guess." he admitted to me.
"Alright? I'm the fucking best," i playfully hit his arm.
"Okay let's not get crazy." Ash rolled his eyes.
I let out another laugh. "What's taking him so long?" i raised a brow as i made my way over to the stairs.
I could hear a commotion near the front door. It didn't sound good either. I tiptoed down the stairs and peeked to see Fezco talking to someone through the door. He leaned his back against the door and noticed me at the staircase.
"You're a fucking drop out drug dealer! You know that!" I immediately recognized that voice and it made my heart shatter. I knew exactly what was happening. She just told me she was staying clean a few hours ago at school. What changed?
I stood at the end of the staircase and stared at the door.
"You're a fucking drop out drug dealer with seven functioning fucking brain cells." i felt my blood began to boil. I know Rue didn't mean a word she was saying, but it just hurts. Drug addictions does this to people. It makes them say things they don't mean.
I flinched when i heard her bang on the black metal door. "Are you doing this because you care about me? If you gave a shit about me you wouldn't have sold me the fucking drugs in the first place." she continued to hit the door.
"Open the door!" She continued to shout.
"I can't do it, Rue. I'm sorry." i watched as Fez leaned his head on the door and listened to every word she said.
"You fucking ruined my life."
I tried my best to push back the tears. But i couldn't. I thought Rue was changing for the better. I really did. I thought with what happened the other night that maybe she would have a changed mindset. Now i just feel stupid and lied to.
"I'm sorry." Fezco softly muttered before stepping away from the door. I could see the pain turn his soft blue eyes into two cloudy skies. It pained me to see him like this.
He walked over to me and i immediately engulfed him in a hug. A hug he was deprived of. I know he's always regretted selling Rue the drugs from the get. I think if he could, he'd definitely redo that day all over.
"You did the right thing, baby." i rubbed his back in circles as he cried in my arms. I tried to hold back my tears but i couldn't. Hearing her continuously try and open the door and screaming for Fez to open it was painful. Seeing someone you love at their worst isn't fun.
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Later that night
"It's a full moon." i pointed out once we sat on the roof.
"Oh shit." he looked up.
I laid my head on his shoulder as we just stared at the moon. He lit a joint and handed it to me first.
After what happened with Rue earlier, it definitely changed the vibe of the entire day. Fez wasn't talking much, and i don't blame him. Fezco loved and cared for Rue.
It stayed silent for a while. I took a hit and handed it back to him. We continued to stare at the sky for a while. I suggested we come up here since it's been a while, and i know the stars and the moon make him happy. It distracts him from his problems, and lets him relax for once.
"You know one day she'll thank you for what you did," i decided to speak up again.
"I hope so." he spoke up, pain in his voice.
I took his left hand and interlocked it with my right one. I kissed the back of his hand and brought it close to my chest. "You're a good person with good intentions. You want what's best for people, especially Rue. She knows that. Everything she said today was all bullshit she didn't mean it. People say things they don't mean when they're upset."
He didn't say anything at first. For a while i thought he wouldn't say anything at all. "I never believe anything addicts say. It just hurt in the moment." I just felt him squeeze my hand tight.
We sat in silence for a while. A long fucking while.
"So what did you do today?" he tried changing the subject. "How was it with Maddy?"
"It was good." i shook my head when he offered the joint again. "We went shopping with Kat. I haven't seen Maddy in forever so i told her about my home life. I told her about you and I." i squeezed his hand again.
"What about you and i?" he questioned finally looking at me.
"I don't know... i told her about how you let me live with you. About how we grew closer... and how i started to like you." i admit. "And how you're too much of a pussy to ask me to be your girlfriend."
He nodded along with a laugh. "I was waiting for you to ask me.." he smiled at me. I thought i wouldn't see him smile at all for the rest of the night.
"Oh really now?" i laughed.
I never thought in a million years that i would have the urge to be someone's girlfriend. That has never been an interest to me. Of course a guy has never been in the question. I go though guys like how people go through toilet paper. Use em real good one time and flush them down the toilet and onto the next for when you need it. Maybe not the best analogy but yeah.
I never really thought i'd feel the way i feel with Fezco. Every relationship i've ever witnessed in my life has been nothing but toxic ones. I don't know what a healthy relationship is supposed to be like. And as fucked up as our circumstances are, I really like Fezco. I'll do anything for him and i know without a doubt he'd do the same for me. That's what a relationship is right?
"Honestly Aster, i didn't think we needed to ask the question. I thought it was a dead giveaway we were dating."
"It is not a dead giveaway. Somebody has to ask first. You can't just magically become a couple. Right? Doesn't someone have to ask first?"
"Okay so then ask me," he playfully nudged my arm.
"Will you be my boyfriend?" i cringed while asking. Why is this so awkward?
"Honestly.... i see you as a friend." he responded following with a laugh right after.
"Fuck you." i playfully shoved him away from me. He used his hand to hold himself steady, me completely forgetting where we were.
"See how dumb it is to ask?" he looked at me. "Its better to not ask,"
"Well i just wanted to be clear on what we are, i've never been this serious about a guy." Our eyes stayed locked on each other.
"Well if you weren't aware, i really care about you Aster. I'm not usually into relationships and all that shit. Never really cared for falling in love. I didn't care until you came along," he admitted.
"And i never wanted to be in a relationship either. I thought they were stupid and pointless. But i don't have any interest in being with another guy." i admit.
I'd be lying if i said i wasn't blushing. And he would be too.
"Im all about you, Aster. You know that." he leaned in to kiss me.
"So are we like?...."
"Depends... do you wanna make it an official thing?"
"Well im not going to lie... i would like it if i was referred to as your girlfriend." i watched as he smiled.
"Then it's official." he grinned as he pulled me in closer to kiss me again.
I smiled to myself as i laid my head on his shoulder. "Falling in love huh?" i repeated his words from earlier.
"Shut up."
—sweeteasaint
dead ass