• HYDRA Base •
• Unknown location •
"Hey! Food's here. Wake up!"
The sliding sound of a small compartment in the middle of the metal door made you groan from your fake sleep.
One of the henchmen sled a tray through it harshly like he was forced to do so.
Well, sure there wasn't anything in the offer letter that wrote about feeding a kid, right?
You stared at the small bottle of water and two pieces of buns that if you saw it the first time again, you were absolutely sure that it was a rock with a bun undercover.
It was usually just a bun but you kind of made the superior happy and they gave you a reward.
You, who had been showered with variety of food back home, hesitated to eat it in your first few days but the henchmen realized it and that started your torture.
You had no choice though. That was the only edible you got to fill your stomach and away from starvation.
As terrified as you were with your new surroundings, you still wanted to live and you hoped that your mother and your family would come to save you and kill all these bastards.
You didn't have any idea where you were and what day it was already.
But guessing from the time the tray came sliding through the door, you were sure it indicated a day.
So, you started to count the trays you got to know how many days you were here, in the dark and damp room. It felt like you were in a dungeon for a thought.
But when it reached 40 trays, you gave up.
The thought of the last day before you got kidnapped replayed and your mind started to make a conclusion.
Your family didn't care.
Your mother didn't care.
Tortures had became your routine day by day. It started with just a few hard slaps from the henchmen after you didn't stop crying for your mother and they found it annoying.
But the man with the white coat kept his word to make you his lab rat.
And that was where it began the real torture.
Flashbacks
"What is this? I've never seen something like this."
The man that introduced himself as Dr. Myers questioned in amazement as he looked through the microscope after getting a drop of your blood on the glass slide.
You were strapped on a table as each of your limbs were tied securely. All you could do was stare at the ceiling as you were curious at what he meant.
"Your blood cells- it's different."
He kept on twisting the lenses and the focus knobs on the microscope to make a clearer look.
"It's like you're coming from a different breed, not like every human I ever tested on. Who are you and where did you come from kid?"
"I think you know that I came from the fucking Avengers when you kidnapped me. It's in the file, read it." You replied sarcastically with your eyes rolled.
You knew what kind of answer he wanted but you kept your mouth shut as the thought of what Natasha told you about how she got pregnant with you played in your mind.
"This is bizarre. No wonder the Avengers kept you hidden. They must've got something big that they couldn't share with the world. Ohh I think I've found a perfect candidate to be tested on my new serum."
He went from confused to grinning like a mad man.
Well, he was a mad man.
"Let go of me! You're crazy, you know. I don't want to be your stupid rat. I want to go home!"
"This is your home now, sweetheart."
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The numbers of jabs on both of your arms and a lot of hard training made you not recognize yourself anymore.
You became cold and slowly became the nightmare of your mother.
A killer.
You were sent to a mission for the past 4 days and now you were instructed to go back home.
Before you stepped into the jet, the common feeling on your neck was felt as your sight became darker.
You felt how one of the henchmen that were with you on the mission carried you on his shoulder and put you on the designated bed before the jet made its way to the HYDRA's secret base.
And it was like magic that when it landed, you automatically awoke from the sedation.
Rumlow took the lead and ordered you to follow him to the lab.
When you arrived, you realized that Dr. Myers was waiting on his chair with a crossed leg.
Rumlow cleared his throat and pushed your small body harshly when you were hesitant to take a step.
"Ahh you're back. But I don't see a head in your hand." The scientist got up from his seat and made his way to you.
"I told you this kid will mess up the mission." Rumlow scoffed.
Dr. Myers held up his hand to his second in command as his gaze was still on you, waiting for your answer.
A moment of silence giving you a hint of what he wanted.
"He-he escaped." You said nervously with your head down.
And you knew exactly what would happen next.
"Tsk, tsk, tsk. So, you failed your mission- again."
He pulled out his gun and lifted up your chin with the tip.
And you had no choice other than looking at his hideous face.
"I- I'm still working on the powers you gave. You don't give me much time." You said with a slight bravery that came out of nowhere.
He glared at you with a disbelief look and put away his gun from your chin.
"Strap her."
Without hesitation, Rumlow picked you up and slammed you on the customized bed before you could even resist.
"You know I don't listen to excuses." He said with a devilish smirk that it was very terrifying for a kid like you.
"Please Sir. I will do better in your next mission." You pleaded as tears started to pool in your eyes.
"Better? I want PERFECT."
He then injected you again with his serum with the intention of perfecting you more.
You screamed your lungs out as you struggled to escape the restraints.
As he pulled out the needle after emptying the serum into your body, you felt like you were about to explode with the burn you felt in your body.
"I know your DNA can take more of my serums. I still don't have any idea where you got the genes but I sure love them very much. It perfected my serums when nobody else did. You're my best prize pupil, y/n. The Avengers don't deserve you."
He said proudly as he watched you scream, knowing that your body was trying to adapt with the foreign thing inserted into you.
"The- Avengers- will- k-kill you. I'm- sure- of that."
You tried to endure the pain as you muttered him word by word even though deep in your heart, you didn't have the hope that they would come for you anymore.
"Ohh don't worry, I will prepare to welcome them."
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• Avenger's Compound •
• Same day •
"N-No baby, it's m-me, mama. I'm h-here, baby."
Natasha kept on mumbling the same words over and over again as her body didn't stop moving and shaking.
Droplets of sweats were all over her forehead as her brows furrowed in her sleep.
The harsh shakes on her body made her jolted awake from whatever she experienced just now and a fist came straight onto the person's nose.
"Ow!"
Hearing the groan, she instantly widened her eyes and became aware of her surroundings.
"Oh God, I'm so sorry, Steve."
She held the blonde's jaw with her both hands and took a closer look at the damage she'd done.
"I'm fine." He said but for sure he wasn't.
His nose looked unaligned.
"You're not." She said guiltily, "Do you trust me?"
Steve looked at the redhead at the sudden question and nodded his head.
She didn't need to ask twice when she cupped his nose and cracked it back to its place.
Which made the super soldier shocked and shuddered.
"Fuck, that hurts."
"You're a super soldier for God's sake, Rogers." She teased, "And mind your language."
Steve rolled his eyes as he felt far more comfortable now with his nose.
He cleared his throat, "It's your nightmare again?"
Natasha looked down at her lap and nodded as the images appeared again.
It had been weeks since the first time she got nightmares again.
For sure she had it because of her traumatized past, but this one hurt her more, and it felt very real.
Steve sighed heavily.
"She- She didn't remember me, and- and she pushed me away." Natasha said as her tone cracked, "My baby didn't want me to touch her."
Natasha rested her head on his chest as he kept mumbling calming words to her.
He never left her side since she told him to stay and he did. He was head over heels for the redhead and he would do everything to get her most precious one back.
"I'm scared, Steve. It had been 2 months and we got no signs of her at all in all those bases we attacked. No one knew who or where she was."
They had found most of the secret bases of HYDRA and there was a little bit more to cross off the list.
"We're almost there, sweetheart. I'm sure we will find her soon and she'll be back in our arms safely in no time."
But the only problem was, the list never stopped. Just like the organization's motto,
'Cut off one head, two more shall take its place.'
And they didn't joke about that.
Maria and Nick kept on giving new secret bases they found to Tony and that somehow angered the redhead more and soon it changed into frustration.
"What if we found her- and- all of my nightmares come true, that- that she really doesn't recognize me at all, and- what if, she- she-"
"Hey, hey, stop it. Calm down, Natasha. Listen to me, I'm very confident that she's still out there, waiting for us to come and save her. She's a Romanoff and she's our little girl. She's strong, like her mother."
Being a Rogers wasn't easy. He was always the person that kept on spreading great speech, positive vibes and pep talks but not everyone knew that he could also break down and cried when he was alone.
And for you, he really did.
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Posted on 14th December 2021
Edited on 24th June 2023