One week after Sehun's fall into the swimming pool, he is still being treated. The doctor still stated that Sehun's lungs were still not fine. He was still injured so his breath was still heavy and painful.
Kris did not move from the room. He just went to the bathroom, washed his face and changed his clothes. Then he sat back next to Sehun, or at the very least he would sit on a sofa and listen to Tao's report sitting nearby and explain everything.
Kris' eyes have never left his son since then. Sehun was clearly aware that the tail of his father's eyes was following him, but he didn't say anything. Because his grandmother said that his father was devastated when Sehun fell and drowned, Sehun realized that his father might change.
That afternoon, the door to Sehun's treatment room was opened from the outside. Kris turned his head to find Kyuhyun coming with Korean food on a tray and carrying several carrybags containing food.
"I want to be fed papa!!"
Kris nodded and put down his ipad without saying much and walked over to Sehun. He looked at the food Kyuhyun bought for Sehun.
"Here, feed-
“HOEK!!”
Sehun Kyuhyun da Tao stared in shock at Kris who was now covering his mouth. He then ran to the bathroom in Sehun's room. Kyuhyun followed him and massaged Kris' nape.
“Hoek! Hoek!!”
"You must be late in eating! Aish, I told you to eat on time!!”
Kyuhyun was busy beating Kris on the back who was still spitting out a clear liquid that wasn't that much. Then he ordered Tao to fetch hot water for Kris.
Kris drank it. His face paled. Kyuhyun led him to sit on the sofa. “You have to check up”
"I'm well-
"YAK!! IF YOU DIRECTED BY THE OLDER JUST DO IT! DAMN IT! GET UP!!"
Kyuhyun pulled Kris' shirt collar until Kris stood up. He pulled her into the general practitioner's office. Leaving Sehun who stares in horror at Kyuhyun who looks terrible when he's angry.
"So, what's the complaint?"
“He was constantly nauseous, vomiting, but not throwing up his food. His body is weak, the first diagnosis is indigestion."
Kris then underwent several examinations. Kyuhyun furrowed his brows when Kris was invited to chat with the doctor.
"Does your stomach hurt?"
"No"
"Then you're nauseous?"
"Yeah, sometimes. Certain times”
"What kind of times?"
"Um, I don't know. If I feel nauseous, I immediately run to the sink. Can't remember exactly when I got sick"
Kyuhyun sighed, “Please take an X-ray of his stomach, doctor. So that if there is an internal disease, it can be treated immediately.”
"Okay"
Kris was then guided to follow the doctor and nurse. He entered a special room then in twenty minutes he returned to where Kyuhyun was waiting for him.
The doctor soon sat back in front of them and turned on his PC screen. Showed the X-ray of Kris' stomach to the cousins.
“Mr. Kris' stomach is very healthy. No injuries, looks like Mr. Kris ate on time right?”
“Well, I wanted to tell Guixian ge that, but he dragged me here first.”
"Then why the nausea?"
That female doctor was silent for a long time, “Is your wife pregnant? It could be that you feel nauseous—
"He's a widower" Kyuhyun said concisely and clearly. He took another deep breath. “Please do a CT scan of his brain”
"Oh, are you sure? Doing a CT Scan? I guess it is too early—
"He has a son. And that child is still young. It's a shame if He has to lose his father."
Kris sighed, “Ge, that's an exaggeration, I'm just nauseous—
“Did you know that the symptoms of brain cancer are often nausea and weakness? You don't have a wife, so there's no way you'll have morning sickness! Yeah, unless you change your hormones and become a male—
"Okay okay. I'll do CT scan"
Kris went back to the CT scan room to do a scan on his head. This time it took more time.
But he still came back to Kyuhyun and sat beside him.
Soon the doctor, who looked tired of Kyuhyun's fussiness, sat back in front of them and displayed the results of a CT Scan of Kris' brain.
"Is there a brain?"
"Ge!"
Kyuhyun rolled his eyes. He then allowed the doctor in front of him to speak.
“Mr Kris' brain is fine, no signs of pain—
"Then why is he nauseous?"
"Are you sure the woman you love is not pregnant—
"DAMN! Which woman did you impregnate?!”
Kyuhyun gripped the collar of Kris' shirt to answer it, Kris immediately shook his head. "Gege knows I don't have time for that, Ge"
Kyuhyun sighed. "OK. Ask for medicine and vitamins!” he said and left the doctor's office.
Kris smiled faintly and bowed politely. “There is no need to prescribe medicine for me. Sorry to bother you" he said and left.
"Maybe Chanyeol Chanyeol is pregnant"
Kris looked at Kyuhyun who was now embracing his shoulder. Kyuhyun patted Kris' shoulder then sighed.
"If she is pregnant it has nothing to do with me"
"Are you sure?"
Kris sighed, “I don't want to think about it, Hyung. He has a life of his own.”
"Who are you actually lying to? Me? Sehun? Tao? Or yourself?”
Kris didn't answer. Tired. Only he knows the pain. His deep longing, only he who feels, so Kris feels it's useless. He'd better be quiet.
Kyuhyun patted his shoulder and entered Sehun's ward first, while Kris walked to the hospital balcony and stared at the orange glow of the sky.
"Don't be sick, Chanyeol..."
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Chanyeol looked up at the orange sky that afternoon. His brows furrowed, Joohyuk caught that expression and stroked his wife's head.
"Are you okay?"
"Yes"
"You don't have morning sickness or something?"
Chanyeol nodded, "I don't feel anything," Chanyeol said with a faint smile. "Isn't that great? I can eat all the food I like!!”
Chanyeol smiled happily. His smile is childish. Joohyuk laughed seeing it. He rubbed Chanyeol's head in annoyance.
"You feel it, Hyuk?"
"Hah?"
Jisoo is there. Just finished the report in the living room of Joohyuk's house.
"The myth is, if a wife is pregnant, but he doesn't experience morning sickness, his husband will feel it."
Joohyuk looked at Jisoo questioningly, "Why is that?" he asked confused.
"Because his husband loves his wife so much that he takes all his pain"
Joohyuk looked at Jisoo sharply. “You mean I'm not the one who loves Chanyeol the most because—
“I said at the start that it was just a myth, didn't I?”
Joohyuk sighed. "Let's check up now" he finally said and pulled Chanyeol out to the car in the garage.
"Hyuk-ah, it's okay, I'm fine"
"Not. I don't want you to think that I don't love you very much because I don't have morning sickness."
"Hey, it's just a myth, I didn't think about it"
Joohyuk didn't hear and subconsciously continued to grab Chanyeol's hand and pull him. Chanyeol frowns.
"It hurts, Hyuk-ah"
Joohyuk released his grip on Chanyeol's hand. his eyes blinked. “S-sorry.. I didn't realize that I—
"It's okay, Hey! It's okay!"
Chanyeol cupped Joohyuk's cheek then showed a faint smile. "I'm fine, see?" he said while showing his wrist which was only slightly red.
Joohyuk took a deep breath and then hugged Chanyeol tightly. "I love you," he said in a desperate voice.
Chanyeol nodded and wrapped his arms around Joohyuk's shoulder. He closed his eyes.
Joohyuk again invited Chanyeol to enter the house. This time led him into the room. "Lie down, you'll be tired"
“I want to read a book”
"Okay, I'll meet Jisoo for a bit then come back here, okay?"
Chanyeol nodded. He took a book out random from the bookshelf and moved out, towards the balcony of the room. He sat in a hanging swing in the shape of a beehive. He sat there comfortably.
He opened the novel that looked quite old. Opening the first page, he found Joohyuk's writing engraved on the hardcover cover of the book.
'I thought that people who were already together would have their hearts together, it's a pity that I still love you...'
Chanyeol closed the book after reading that line. He took a deep breath and let it out long.
He closed his eyes. Tried to pull the memory of Joohyuk out of his head, but he couldn't find it.
What kept appearing was a man with a face he couldn't even see. Just blurry with sad eyes. Only that.
No face he recognized, no name that wasn't even said so he couldn't call that name even in his prayers every morning.
"I love you"
Chanyeol opened his eyes. Staring at the orange sky that is empty and empty. His heart beats. He turned his head to find no one in the room.
Then that clear-sounding voice, 'to whom?' he thought. He lowered his legs, now hanging down.
He closed his eyes again. Being in the lonely darkness. He tried to search in his memory which was like a puzzle.
“Our relationship is more than lovers, right? Do you feel it?”
Chanyeol turned around. Staring at himself in the arms of a man leaning on his chin. He and the man were standing in front of the dishwasher.
“For you, every day I survive. I have given all my time to you. Not a bit of my time has passed without your presence, in every breath I take, there is your name..."
Chanyeol saw himself there laughing. “Stop boasting. You're not with me 24/7!” he said annoyed but accompanied by a beautiful laughter.
"Baby you are always by my side, in my heart to be exact. Wherever I go I will always be with you.”.
Chanyeol saw himself shaking his head in disbelief. He walked hesitantly, approaching her happy self with the man. He wanted to touch the man's shoulder to be willing to turn, Chanyeol wanted to remember his face.
“I believe God created you just for me. He created us with the same soul.”
Chanyeol in the boy's arms laughed. “Stop boasting, I'm getting scared—
“Believe me! I love you more than I love myself! I even always pray to God to lift all your pain! I! Let me feel it—
“Do you think I would be happy if you were sick? Just as you love me that much, I also love you that much!”
“I love you more sunbaenim!”
"No! I love you more Babe!”
"I!"
"I!!"
“Ishh.. Yooouuuu!!”
Chanyeol in that man's arms laughed. He turned around to hug the man tightly.
Chanyeol's heart, which had been silent for a while, watching, had been silent for a long time. When his eyes met his, he was laughing happily.
They exchanged glances for quite a while. Until the young man rubbed Chanyeol's head and kissed the top.
“Love you, Chanyeol Park…”
"Hmm? That's not my name."
The young man chuckled. He cupped Chanyeol's face and kissed his forehead.
“I love you, Chanlie Wu”
Chanyeol gasped. He opened his eyes and found Joohyuk in front of him smiling.
"You slept so deep that you couldn't feel me picking you up and moving you to bed?"
Chanyeol laughed. He looked out the window and felt his heart empty. Even when Joohyuk hugged him from behind now, they were lying sideways and hugging each other.
Chanyeol felt empty and lonely. But he covered it. He held Joohyuk's hand which was on his stomach to rub his stomach.
Chanyeol remembered that he was pregnant with Joohyuk's child. Chanyeol wasn't sad, nor was he disappointed, it was just that he was confused.
He became Joohyuk's wife, became the mother of Joohyuk's child, but his heart..
His heart belongs to a man who he still can't remember.