Brews Ailousos description: chocolate brown fur, with a darker brown tail, forearms, back legs, and ears. With Snow White neck fluffy and a rhombus shape in the center of her chest that was the same dark brown as her tail, and 2 stripes that went down her check from her eyes to her jaw on both sides of her face, with chocolate cream eyes
Crimsons Ailousos description: crimson colored fur with reddish cream eyes, and deeper shades of red going down her forearms, legs, and tail with 2 deeper patches around both her eyes and ears as well as on her lip
‼️ Warming mentions of self harm, a eating disorder, and blood. I will say when the parts that will have this in it start and stop ‼️
Brew POV
Trigger warning ⚠️
I sat on my bed in my room, bored out of my fucking mind
My arms hurt to, i fell on the road and bruised my arm, where my scars were
I'm lucky a certain one didn't open, it was a scar that i gave my self after having a mental break down
Probably the worst one i ever had
Maple was next to me, she was brushing my arm slightly whimpering and licking it
I don't want to do this to my self but its the only way i feel pretty, also starving my self was one of my favorites
It was finales week for our 8th grade year, i was stressed and so was crimson
Crimson was smart but she always wanted to do more then she was capable of, trying to improve her 'bad grades' when she was a straight A and B student
I was a B or C student, only sometimes getting As
In truth crimson wanted to talk more lately, Alex had the night shift at her job, so when crimson was up Alex was asleep
But i wanted to be alone, i haven't eaten in 24 hours only a bottle of water
I felt like shit and looked like shit
I avoided walking maple so I wouldn't see crimson, I didn't want her to see me like this
All this shit started in 6th after i started caring about my looks and body
Then it was not eating, but after a day or 2 i would eat and hate my self for it
I would stick my fingers down my throat and throw up, if that didn't help i cut
I got up from my bed maple just behind me, i picked up my phone and saw some messages from crimson
Crimy <3
Hey brewery, can we meet?
Sent 2:30 pm
Hellooooo?
Sent 2:50 pm
Brewwwww, come on i wanna talk 👉👈
Sent 3:00 pm
Shit, did i do something?
Sent: 3:30 pm
Please text me just to tell me your ok, that's all i need <3
Sent 3:35 pm
I inhaled deeply, i love how much she cares
But sometimes i wonder when she will be done with me and leave me in the dirt
She's probably so sick of how pathetic you are, HA, you have to starve your self to feel good
No one would ever want someone as pathetic or ugly as you
Trigger warning over ⚠️
I shook my head to get those thoughts out of my head
Maybe i need some air i thought quickly texting crimson a "I'm ok just tired" before putting maple on her leash and started down the road
The opposite direction of crimsons house
I kept walking with a head down until i heard a familiar voice yell my name
"BREW, HEY BREW, SLOW DOWN" i turned a bit and saw crimson running over to me
She was in her Ailousos form, and she was running fast
A moment later she was in front of me, she transformed back into her human form and came closer
"I was worried, you wouldn't answer my texts" Crimson said looking at me with eyes full of worry and something else
Something I couldn't read, I didn't like it
"I was just, asleep, finales week you know" i said with a nervous laugh, that was hard to force out
She gave me a worried look, i turned around and starting walking again
A moment later crimson at my side
I was glad she was here, very happy actually, i always felt better then she was around
But i knew it was bad, I didn't want her to get dragged into my spiral of trying to love my self
She had more important things to worry about, she does not have time to worry about me and my stupid problems
she always made me feel a lot better and safe, i want to ask her for help, i really wanted some help, i really did
But I didn't want to unload all this on her, when she and her sister every night have to worry about what they were going to eat
My parents never liked my relationship with crimson, hence why i was at their house so often
My dad is the CEO of a big company, and my mom is his assistant
We never had to worry about money but, due to my parents busy schedule i never saw them
They mostly lived in their company building, or that what they tell me. But i know the times they are gone all week is because they are at their new island relaxing on the beach
their goal was to be famous investors, they succeeded of course
The house i live in was the house they lived in to build their company, its not like they live their anymore
All their stuff is gone, their room is empty
Their is a cleaner that comes to the house every weekend and clean, and a cook that comes brings me meals at breakfast before i go to school, lunch if I'm home, and dinner at 8pm
Also a gardener and someone that brings groceries every month
My grandparents live next door, but they are not fond of me because I'm a homosexual
only my grandparents know because i basically lived with them until i was in 5th grade, that's when i found out about my sexuality, told them, and they freaked out
I talk to them sometimes, but they are mostly strangers now
My mom had my brother and sister in the marriage her had before meeting my dad
We are close but they are much older then me, me being 13 and my sister being 27 while my brother is 24
They are both married and have kids, so I'm alone 99% of the time I'm at home
Alex and crimson know about my parents success, i have offered Alex money on times were i know she is struggling but she refused saying "the ones who earn that money can use it"
I have tried multiple times but they always said no
I was snapped out of my thoughts by crimson speaking
"Race?" Crimson asked a smirk forming on her face
I turned towards her smirking, my depressed thoughts just a memory now
We both transformed into our Ailousos forms before getting ready to race
I turned towards the fields, there was a ditch in between the road and the field
The whole field was a good 10 miles long, we would usually start a 7/10 of the field, but today I wanted to race all the way
It was a matter of stamina and skill
i look towards crimson who was getting maple ready for the race, crimson took off maples leash and tied it to her leg so maple could race with us
As crimson turned her gaze on me i spoke "how about a real challenge?" I spoke starring into her eyes
She tilted her head with a curious look on her face
"What do you mean?" Crimson asked
My tail wagged from side to side "we race from here to the end of the field" i said pointing my head towards the field
Crimson starred at me in shock
"What, are you scared?" I said tilting my head and giving her puppy's eyes have having my ears go flat
"I- ummm" she face flashed a deep red before she shook her head and starred back at me
"I accept" she said, i always hated the way she was able to hide her true emotions so easily, it was impressive yet scary
We got in our positions on the road waiting
There was a car coming the second the car drove past the race begins
I hunched by shoulders ready to leap across the ditch
Soon the gray car passed us and the race now begins
I raced towards the ditch, me and crimson running at the same pace
I leaped across using all the power i had in my back legs
Leaping and landing perfectly before racing off again, crimson stumbled on her footing and she tripped slightly
Having to take a second to regain her balance before racing to catch up with me
Maple had shorter legs then us so she was a bit behind crimson
I was a few feet ahead of crimson something raced into my bath causing me to crash into it
Me and whatever i hit rolled together for a few seconds before getting separated and falling on the hard ground
My vision was blurred from the dizziness i had from rolling and a stumbled trying to get up
I looked up and saw crimson standing over a smaller creature
Is that a Ailousos? I thought trying to see properly threw my dizziness
Something dripped from my forehead into my mouth, it had a tang taste but then a salty sweet one
Blood i thought
I had a scratch on my forehead with a few drops of blood running down my face
Crimson walked over to me, i could smell more blood on her
I looked up and saw crimson, her muzzle was scratched and her forearm was bleeding
"Brew, you ok, ehhh that's a pretty nasty scratch" crimson said eyes full of worry
"Says the one with a hurt muzzle and forearm" i said using all my strength to hold my head up
Maple was nowhere to be found, crimson saw me looking around and spoke "maple went chasing off the fox you ran into, the fox was able to get me a bit but I'm fine" crimson said rubbing her check on mine
I smiled purring as she did this
"Come on i see maple running back here, lets head to my house and get patched up" crimson said helping me up
My vision was a little dizzy but i could walk back to crimsons
By the time we got to the road I noticed crimsons was limping on her hurt forearm
The blood was flowing out fast, that fox got a good bite on her arm
I turned towards her "stay down" i said coming up face to face with her
"What, why?" Crimson asked
"I want to check on your wounds now, Lay" i said putting a paw on her shoulders
She lied down and showed me her hurt forearm, it was a deep bite if i had some bandages it would help
I slowly starting licking her wound, what surprised me was how sweet her blood tasted
I always thought the taste of blood was good, but Crimsons was sweet, sweet like sugar, but something that leaves me wanting more
I finished cleaning her wound and looked up at her, "you taste sweet" i said rubbing my check against hers before continuing to walk towards her house
By the time we got their it was sundown and the clouds were forming in the sky for some bad whether tonight
Today was Alex's break day, so she didn't have to go to work. When we got back smelling of blood she ran over and patched up our wounds while we told her about the race and the fox
She was pissed but was glad we were ok
I slept at their house that night, falling asleep to crimsons hot breath on my ear as my eyes fluttered shut
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Reminder the first few chapters are memory's of brews and crimsons relationship before the time of the prologue
Have a good day / night :)