Just so yall know, TW means Trigger Warning. Its mostly for suicide and self harm. So, sorry for not telling yall earlier. Now to the point of why I'm writing this!
This is about why yall are important to me.
Well, today, my friend started reading this and asked, "how can you constantly say 'I love you guys' to a bunch of people you've never met? Isn't that phrase a little too personal "
I never thought so because I do really care for you guys.
I thought about you guys having a right to know as well, so here goes nothing.
One day, I was feeling depressed, which isn't unusual for me, and just, ended up in a dark place.
My thoughts drug me deeper and deeper into my own Hell of self hatred.
But they were interrupted by my tablet. (Because I always forget to turn the sound off)
I am an Internet addict, and my tablet going off is like my baby crying for me, so I had to get it.
It was just one notification on Wattpad.
It said: @shizayaforlife commented on your story Love/Hate Relationship.
I wiped my tears and clicked on it, unable to resist, being me.
I felt a bit better reading the comments on that chapter, so I went to earlier ones. Laughing at reactions, and smiling at compliments on my work.
Eventually, I forgot everything I was feeling beforehand.
You guys always cheer me up.
That's why I'm fine saying 'I love you guys'. So you get a small bit of the fact that on multiple occasions, you guys' comments kept me from doing a lot of scary things. And for that I xan never thanks you enough.
'I love you guys' is only four words, and they hold something for me.
I'm sorry if I wasted your time. Or bored you or something, but you had to know.
<3Lizzy