I soon as I arrived back at the compound, I went straight to see uncle Nick and see if Aly was, with him so we could spend some time together, I kinda felt guilty for leaving for so long. He told me she was taking a nap and would let me know as soon as she was awake. I decided then to go to the training room and let all the feelings I was feeling out.
I made my way towards my room and changed into some sports bra and a matching legging and my training shoes. I took a bottle of water from the kitchen and a small towel from my bathroom and made my way towards the many training rooms. I hadn't seen the guys so they were most likely training in one of those rooms. Not wanting to socialize much I saw one room available and made my way in it. Putting down all my stuff, I bandages my knuckles and made my way towards the punching bag.
As I started to punch I was remembering everything that had happened in my life and how different I was from before. Life with my stepfather was hell, and I was so small and fragile, I let out a humourless chuckle, if he could see me now. He wouldn't dare to lay a finger on me and I most likely wouldn't have let him if he ever got the courage to. I then thought of when I arrived here, how everybody was so nice and welcoming to Aly and I. I smiled a bit thinking about how amazing it is to have such a special bond and family in my life now. I thought about all I had learned on Asgard and if all the Yggdrasil tree told me was real, a part of me thought that everything was too much but strangely my body and mental accepted everything it told me. Making me feel strong and confident in who I am, and who I am meant to become in the future.
Then my thoughts drifted to Peter, I couldn't quiet put my finger on what was happening and honestly it could be my fault for leaving, but it's not as if I had a choice. I had to go there in order to understand who I am, what I am supposed to do and become. But yet again, he maybe was really that busy. But still it sting, I was really thinking he would've come straight to the compound, but I mean priorities right? At that same moment I was taken out of my own thoughts when the punching bag I was hitting fell to the floor, breaking open letting all the sand spread on the floor. I sighed and looked up and the now small whole in the ceiling and put both of my fists on my waist as if waiting for it to magically repair itself. Just then a voice took me out of my daze,
"Hey there stranger." I turned to look at a very amused Steve, he had a big smile plastered on, I couldn't help but laugh and walk towards him, as he engulfed me instantly in a tight hug,
"Hi Steve!" I said excitedly, we pulled away slightly looking into his baby blue eyes, then I realised,
"Ew sorry, I am all sweaty." I said trying to pull away but he didn't budge, just smiling at me,
"I missed you." he tells me, with a small smile and I smiled back, he lets me go and we make our way towards the bench, where I take my towel to dry myself quickly and drink from my water,
"I missed you too." I tell him taking a sit by his side, my head down, looking at the floor,
"You look... good, stronger." he said still smiling and I looked up at him smiling back,
"Well, after what I got to, experience, to know and for what I am supposed to be doing I have to be. I guess this whole Asgard thing made me stronger." I tell him smiling, to which he just nodded,
"Did I already miss the part where you tell everyone what happened?" he asked and I let out a chuckle and shook my head,
"No, not at all. I haven't told anyone anything besides Nat and Bucky the same night I arrived." I tell him and he nods,
"Yeah Nat sent me a pretty excited message about you coming back." he smiled a toothy smile and I couldn't help but wiggle my eyebrows at him,
"How is that going by the way?" I asked still a smirk on my lips, he took a deep breath ad has his shy smile on,
"I don't really know, taking things slow, we are definitely not together but I guess we are a bit more than friends." he said explaining and I nodded, it made sense,
"I see, I see. I won't bug you about it don't worry, I am just here if needed. Always." I tell him and he just smiled thankfully,
"Anyway, what's wrong for you to beat the hell out of this poor bag?" he asked and I couldn't help but growl a bit, and shake my head,
"Peter happened." I told him and immediately he looked protective,
"Don't go all Cap on him, he didn't do it intentionally I guess. I mean we only talked a couple of times, and when I arrived I texted him and got no reply. Granted it was 3 am but still. And today well I went to his school to see him, surprise him because as off this morning I still had no answer from him, on me coming back." I tell him a sigh escaping my lips, he just looked at me, in a 'go on' way so I took a deep breath,
"When I got there he was excited to see me and so was I. Until the moment I asked him to come back here to spend time and so I could tell him everything that happened. I mean he's supposed to be my boyfriend so after so long without seeing him, I would love to spend time with him, and I thought he would too." I said, starting to get a bit sad, the anger slowly leaving to let the sadness take over,
"And he actually turned me down, saying he has this big decathlon thingy next week that he really needs to attend to and he really needed to study with Ned. Oh but don't worry 'we'll talk tonight'." I said mimicking his voice, and Steve let out a dry chuckle,
"By the way I hope you're not doing anything next week." I tell him and he shakes his head no,
"No why?" he asked,
"Well, we are all going back to Asgard." I told him, earning a confused look on his face,
"We... are?" he said and I just laughed,
"Yeah, because I am going to be crowned Princess of Asgard and all the 9 realms." I tell him in all seriousness like it was no big deal, and he just stared at me with wide eyes,
"I was supposed to become the Queen of Asgard but I talked with Odin, which also is my uncle, since my mom was Queen of Asgard and she was his big sister. I told him how much I loved Earth and actually as his Queen he had to accept, since I do have way more powers than him." I shrugged, he looked like a lost puppy, I know I dropped it on him, but I wanted to go straight to the point,
"Wow, Mia, that's amazing!" he tells me bringing me in a hug,
"Oh over there apparently my name is Mahalia. But please go on and call me Mia, because over there everyone calls me Mahalia and took me some time to get used to." I chuckled and he followed,
"Oh okay, so it means that Peter won't be there for your coronation?" he asked to which I bit the inside of my cheek and shook my head no,
"Part of me really doesn't want to tell him. I don't want to go in between his school work, which I know is really important to him." I tell him, looking at my hands and taking the bandages off,
"Don't you think you should?" he asked me,
"I don't know Steve, right now, I don't feel like I am his priority, which is fine. Honest to God. I don't want to become a burden. And since I never had a girlfriend/boyfriend relationship, besides this one, I don't want to overstep the line of what a supposed girlfriend is to do and not do." and with that the discussion had ended, he just nodded and gave me a side hug, that 's what I love about him, he never tried to push his own ideas onto someone, he would just listen, try to see from another perspective how things are, but if you are dead set on something he'll be a gentleman about it and let you go on in your reasoning,
"Oh by the way enough about me, how was the mission?" I asked as he looks back at me and stretches getting up, I followed his lead getting up too,
"It was okay I guess, Tess, the girl you rescued was of big help. You saved her life you know." he told me and I couldn't help but smile and also feel a bit guilty for not spending much time with her, just as I was about to talk Bucky entered the training room,
"Hi M- Steve, hi man, how are you?" he asked going to Steve and giving him a hug, their friendship was so beautiful, I swear ugh, they started talking and it was my cue to leave,
"See you guys later." I called to them while waving as I made my way out of the training room to go back to mine, I took a long shower not even on purpose, I was just too much in my head, I tried to see if Peter had texted and I didn't receive anything, I sighed in frustration, I didn't even bother to dry my hair and put on my blue Levi's jeans and a big hoodie, and made my way to the roof while invisible, I needed to be alone, I needed to breathe and just watch the stars, they have a way of soothing me,
I received a text from uncle Nick saying that Aly was awake and I told him I would be there in 10min, just the time I needed to recollect my thoughts, just then I heard footsteps, I turned to see Wanda, smiling at me, she sat next to me and we engulfed each other in a hug, I missed her hugs, they were quiet literally the best,
"How are you doing love?" she asked, and so I explained to her the whole Peter situation, and I felt dumb,
"You know that moment where, you know crying won't help a thing, but still you feel like crying and screaming in frustration. I feel like I don't understand him and it frustrates me." I tell her trying to swallow the unshed tears threatening to spill,
"I know, I know how you feel." she lets out a small chuckle,
"I used to feel like that so much with my brother." she lets yet again another chuckle,
"He always used to push my buttons until I would be a crying mess due to frustration and nerves. But then he would always apologise and try to make me feel better." she said looking at me as I listened intently,
"You know what helped?" she asked and I shook my head,
"Well letting the frustration out, to cry and scream always made me feel better in those situations. I remember Pietro always covering his ears." she laughed at the memory, and I could't help but laugh with her too,
"Where is Pietro now?" I asked her and she smiled at me,
"He is back in Sokovia, he actually helped rebuild after what happened and he actually found a nice little girlfriend and so he's over there. Thank God he is not here you'd have another guy chasing you." she laughs and I couldn't help but raise an eyebrow at her,
"Oh c'mon Mia, you know that like half of the male population here had or has a thing for you." she said and I frowned looking down,
"I didn't say it was your fault. It certainly isn't your fault for being such an amazing person and being so likeable." she smiled again, to which I replied with a small smile, her words ringing in my ear, I felt bad not gonna lie,
"Speaking of which.." she said making me frown in confusion just as I felt someone behind us, we both turned and Bucky was standing there his hands in his jeans pockets,
"I need to check on Vision, see you at diner." she told me giving me a quick hug which I returned and she just said a quick hi to Buck and he did the same the she left,
"Is this seat taken?" he asked smiling and I just shook my head, I didn't even time to cry and let everything go like Wanda said to do, shame, I'll do that later, he took a sit next to me and let out the biggest sigh ever,
"Everything okay Buck?" I asked him and he looked at me with a bit of sparkle in his blue eyes,
"Yeah I am fine, I just spoke to Steve and he told me for the whole Peter thing." he said and I could see his jaw clench, I ignored it and just nodded, didn't know that during their free time super soldier were big on gossiping, but anyway the sky darkening and letting place to the beautiful stars,
"It's fine Buck really." I told him, and I was, the whole Peter thing was actually no big deal, if he was fine with how things are then fine, he let out a small chuckle,
"He doesn't even know how to take care of something that should be so important in his life." he said dryly, I just stared at him and put my hand on his shoulder,
"Buck, it's fine really. Don't get worked up over something like that, I mean if he shows that he doesn't care then what can I do?" I asked him and he shook his head as if trying to remain calm,
"But he should be there Mia." he said turning to me his blue eyes making me block out the rest of the world, I was like a in a trans,
"He should treat you like the Queen you're supposed to be." he laughed at his own joke and I let out a small smile,
"He should be there for what is the most important moment in your life, everything that happened during your trip, he should be the first to come and ask you about it. He should be there." he said getting all worked up, his eyes were a darker shade of blue, I instantly put my hand on his metal one, I know he didn't like when people touched it, but weirdly it's always the one I go for whenever he needs comforting,
"Bucky, I just- I want to be there for him for all his school life, his decathlons, his competitions or whatever. I just can't see how I can do that and be supportive when I myself don't feel supported by him." I tell him honestly, I just wanted to tell him that it was fine and that I shouldn't be Peter's priority but deep down, I just was sad and mad that the thing that was the most important in my life, finding out about my mom and I, well it wasn't as important, and you know what I get it,
"But at the end of the day, the reasonable part of me gets it. We were together for what... a couple of weeks before I leave, he probably felt left out or abandoned. Anyway I mean we are not married, so if for him what is important to me isn't for him, then it's fine, it doesn't have to be. I just feel selfish actually. What makes me think my life story and discoveries are more important than whatever is going on with him in school?" I asked him, he looked at me his eyes unchanged,
"Mia, I can bet all I have that everyone downstairs, cares enough of what you lived over there in Asgard and care enough about you to make whatever is important for you, important for them. So do not get me started on that crap, because if he loved you he would care." and at that moment it was like a slap in the face, was I mad at Bucky for speaking his mind and being truthful, I don't think I was, did it hurt? Like hell it did, made me overthink, I could see in his eyes that he realised that he hurt me a bit,
"Then again, if he doesn't love me or care about me maybe it's because I left for a whole damn month! Maybe it's because I was selfish and didn't think or care to ask about him. I was self-centred and didn't see past myself!" I say getting worked up and emotional I could feel a faint pain when I was breathing,
"Mia, I didn't mean-" he said as I got up,
"Bucky, thank you so much for this conversation, and for being so brutally honest with me. But I think I have to go." I told him while having tears builded up in my eyes, I wiped one quickly, and his face fell, he got up again,
"Mia, please wait!" he said catching up to me, taking ahold of my elbow and not letting me go back downstairs,
"What Bucky? Are you going to repeat yourself in saying that Peter doesn't love me?" I asked and that's when those tears betrayed me, he came towards me and I couldn't help but sob, it was my fault,
"I am so sorry for saying that, I shouldn't have." he said hugging me, I didn't move, didn't hug back, I had my face pressed against his torso,
"It's just-" he started, while brushing my hair with his hands slowly,
"It's not how I would treat you if you were mine." I heard just above a whisper and I am not even sure I heard correctly, so I just dried my tears with my sleeves and pulled away not looking back at him and making my way downstairs. I wasn't mad at Bucky, I was mad at the fact that maybe he was right.
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