I wasn't quite sure how long I stayed out there, but eventually, I found myself in the castle's throne room, my puffy eyes on the eyesore that was my throne. My cheeks were no doubt as red and blotchy as my eyes, and every inch of me felt drained and wore out. Hell, I was surprised I was even standing with how drained I was. And to be honest...I wasn't even sure why I had even come here, out of all the rooms in my castle.
Maybe it was because I wasn't ready to face Jox yet. No, I was scared to face him. I didn't know what to even say to him, or even how to approach him with this unforgiving news. I just didn't know what the hell to do, and I've never felt more useless in my life than I did now, while it was all falling apart.
I sighed and tore my gaze away from my throne and looked at my large hands, not really knowing where to go from here. I smiled bitterly to myself.
And to think I started out my day in such a good mood. I should have known it wouldn't have lasted long.
I dropped my hands to my sides and slunk down on the floor, hanging my head between my legs as I just sat there in the stretching, uncomfortable silence. I was going to be miserable being married to Emylle. And it wasn't even her fault, either I just...I wasn't even physically attracted to her, and I doubted I would ever see her in that way. She didn't deserve that. She deserved to be with someone who would actually care about her and be with her romantically. Besides, she shouldn't have to be tied to a man who was in love with someone else, it just wasn't right.
"Oh, there you are! I've been searching for you all day today, and...hey, are you alright?"
I flinched at the sound of Jox's voice, my heart beating faster as dread filled in the pit of my stomach. I wasn't ready to face him yet. Dammit, I deliberately wanted to be away from him until I was able to gather my thoughts together. Hell, what was I going to say to him? Why did he have to show up now, while I was completely unprepared?
I tensed when I felt a cool hand on my shoulder and a body kneel next to mine. "Are you ok, Delkele? What's wrong? Please, talk to me."
And dammit, I couldn't stop the tears that abruptly spilled down my cheeks, my heart clenching painfully at his worried tone. Jox was worried about me. He was worried and I was about to break his heart. But...I-I knew Jox would one day find another to give his heart to. He was handsome, and sweet, and kind...and whoever eventually won his heart, well, they would be lucky to have him.
I just wished that it could have been me.
A few seconds later, although it felt much longer than that, I turned to face him. He looked so damn worried for me, with his brows pinched together, and those blue eyes glittering with concern. My heart pinched in agony, and I had to look away from him to keep from crying again. Gods, I was such a cry baby.
"I-I came to a realization today," I started off quietly, staring at my hands, "about us. About whatever this is. Delra's already approached me, and-"
Jox pulled his hand from my shoulder, and when I looked at him, he was staring at the floor with a troubled look on his face. "I think I know where this conversation is going," he muttered, exhaling a humorless laugh as he shook his head in disbelief. "You're choosing Emylle over me."
I glared at him as a sudden burst of heat hit me. "I'm choosing my people Jox! Innocent men, women and children who shouldn't have to suffer because of my selfish desires. Naraka isn't like Glacida, Jox, we don't have stacks of treaties with planets that can aid us in battle. We're all we have."
Jox shook his head and my heart split in two when I saw the tears forming in his eyes. "You have us, Delkele. You have Asurah, and you have Teiken,"
"And they're still recovering after Vextian's crap, Jox. For gods' sake, Asurah is building shelters for his people so he doesn't have to lose anymore, and I refuse to drag him into my mess."
Jox then stood up, sniffling as he looked down at me with agonized blue eyes. "I've only ever given my heart to one other person, Del...and he left me for someone else, too."
My heart broke even further as I stood up as well, hesitating before taking a small step towards him. "Jox,"
Jox shook his head and looked at me, pinning me in place with those brilliant, beautiful eyes of his. "No. I get it. You have people to protect, and really, I do get it. But Delkele? You shouldn't have to be bullied into making that choice. You're your own person, and only you can choose what happens." He tore his gaze away and began rubbing his arms, looking like a kicked puppy. "Despite the claims about you...you're a good king. Anyone else would have risked war to be happy, but you...you care more about your people's needs than your own, and I understand." He then gulped and looked down at his hands. "I-I think it'll be best if I return to Glacida so I-I don't cause any unnecessary problems for you or your people. I'll have Asurah work with you over comms. He'll have more of an idea about what he wants for his bunkers than I would."
He gulped and went to turn, and I don't know what made me move, perhaps the fear of losing yet another person I cared about, but before I knew it, I grabbed his arm, forcing him to stop in place. "I-I love you." My voice was quiet, barely above a whisper, and I honestly don't even know why I said it. Why I admitted such a heavy thing so suddenly. It just...came out of me, and Jox was rigid under my hand, and now I was beginning to regret saying anything at all.
He turned slowly, bright blue eyes clashing with crimson. I yanked my hand back as if it had been burnt with fire and gulped, averting my eyes in shame. "I-I'm sorry, I-"
I gasped when Jox cut off my words with a passionate kiss, his hands grabbing both sides of my face as he shoved me against the nearest wall, keeping me in place.
Initially, my eyes were wide open with shock, but eventually...I let myself have just this one thing as I closed my eyes and kissed him back just as fiercely. One last hurrah before my life fell into misery.
I at least deserved that much.
I hummed shakily as Jox's tongue slipped past my lips, my blood warming with desperation. Was this a bad idea? Probably. But did I care? No. However, I was worried about the prying eyes of my sister and anyone else in the castle, so with great reluctance, I pulled away from the man in front of me, breathless as I caught his glazed eyes.
"We shouldn't do this here," I muttered against his lips, causing the other man's breath to catch before he nodded his head in agreeance.
I almost cried when Jox pulled away from me, rubbing the back of his neck. "Whose room is closest?"
I cleared my throat, my heart heavy in my ears. "M-Mine. But we need to move fast, I-I don't want anyone to see us and take this back to my sister. Gods know she wouldn't ever let me hear the end of it."
Jox nodded and grabbed my hand, silently telling me to lead the way. I bit my bottom lip and inhaled shakily before I gathered my courage and began dragging Jox with me, my eyes peeled for anyone out an about as I took him to my room. Luckily, there seemed to be no one meandering around, and as soon as my bedroom door closed behind us, Jox was pinning me against the wood, mouth attacking mine as he pressed his body close to me.
My blood felt like it was bubbling as I grabbed Jox's neck and pulled him closer to me, our tongues clashing as my body swelled with arousal. And in this moment, there was no one but him and me. Screw Elphes and his threats. Screw everything and everyone else. I was allowed to be a little selfish, wasn't I?
After a second, Jox pulled away, pressing his forehead against mine as he met my gaze, desire swirling in crystal blue. "Are you sure about this?"
I answered him by kissing him aggressively, lightly pulling back with his bottom lip between my teeth. "I want you, Jox."
Jox's eyes lit up and I gasped when he picked me up, the man barely straining as he walked with me to my bed, gently dropping me on top of the cushion as he stared down at me with hunger. "Good." He then climbed on me, legs on either side of my waist as he kissed me at a dizzying pace, his tongue mapping out the entire cavern of my mouth, before his kisses trailed lower, over my jaw and down my chest before he paused at a dusty nipple, his breath hot against the sensitive flesh. I admit, I was...confused why he stopped there, but all thoughts left my head when he flicked his tongue over the bud, a jolt of pleasure shooting straight to the length of me as he licked and sucked me there, before switching to the other side.
My heartbeat was loud in my ears, my breath heavy as Jox's hands rubbed my sides, his tongue now moving down from my chest and over my abs, to the waistband of my pants. Remembering what this entailed, I nodded my head enthusiastically, causing Jox to chuckle as he unlatched my buckle and pulled my pants completely off, leaving me bare for him to see.
I blushed darkly as I looked away self-consciously, Jox's eyes practically burning into my heated skin as he took the sight of me in, his pale cheeks turning red with desire before he knelt between my legs and kissed the inside of my thigh, causing me to jolt in pleasure. His lips were so soft against the sensitive flesh there, but I wanted to feel those lips elsewhere, somewhere more...straining.
"Jox, please," I gasped, trying to shift my hips in the direction of his pretty mouth.
I growled in frustration when he kissed me again, closer to my heat, but still not there as I squirmed under his steeled grasp, my whole body tingling with anticipation. I almost pleaded him again, but thank the gods above he finally indulged me, his lips wrapping around the head of me and yes it felt so damn good.
I gasped shakily and jolted to get deeper in his mouth, but like last time, he held my hips firmly down as he took me further into his mouth until he was at the base of me, the curly red hair like blood against his porcelain skin.
I was quivering, now. My body was on fire and I didn't quite know what to do with my hands other than grip the thin blankets beneath me, cries of pleasure leaving my mouth as that skillful tongue licked the underside of me, before his whole throat tightened as he sucked. I whimpered, sweat dripping down my face and neck as he stimulated me, my hips shallowly thrusting, as best as they could with Jox's grip, against his mouth, the heat in my stomach growing the closer I got to completion.
"Na'rakon, Jox," I pleaded in Narakkan, knowing that he wouldn't understand what the hell I was saying, "Sul'na mir'na!"
The heat was beginning to become too much, and I was so damn close, and before I knew it, my vision was flashing white as I came down Jox's throat, my body quivering as I recovered from the high. But we weren't done yet, oh no the hell we weren't. I wanted more than a simple blow job, I wanted to feel him in me. I wanted to feel him tearing apart my walls until I exploded in pleasure.
I wanted him, and I was going to get him.
As soon as I saw Jox swallow my essence, I wrapped my legs around his waist and flipped him around to where I was straddling him and looking down at him, his blue eyes wide as his hands fell onto the tops of my thighs. But he then relaxed when I leaned down and kissed him, letting my hands explore as I dragged them down his toned chest. I could feel his arousal under me, and a mischievous thought crossed my mind, enticing me to ground down on him, a strangled moan leaving his lips as his grip on my thighs tightened. I chuckled breathlessly and rocked against him, and though he was still technically covered by his Glacic loin cloth, he felt so good against me, and with the way he felt between my balls and my bottom...gods I almost came undone with the sensations.
I gasped when Jox flipped us back over, the man practically ripping his loin cloth off before rutting against me, his unclothed heat gliding against mine, and gods, I couldn't even begin to describe the blinding pleasure that shot through me at the feeling of him, so silky and hot against my own heat. And as he thrusted against me with the force of a starving man, he was attacking my throat with his lips, biting and sucking the whole expanse of sensitive, tanned skin.
I was ashamed to admit I came undone rather quickly, a scream tearing through my throat as I grabbed Jox tight against me, the man still as hard as a rock as he slightly pulled away, giving me one last kiss before he shoved his fingers into his mouth, coating them with his saliva.
I was breathing pretty heavily at this point, and while he was prepping his fingers, I let my attention slide down to the heat of him, red and impressive in a seat of white curls. Feeling my mouth suddenly run dry, I pushed myself up on my elbows and dragged my tongue against the base of him, causing the man above me to stagger and nearly fall, had he not caught himself in time. I took a moment to regard the taste of him, and discerned that he tasted a bit...salty. But not unpleasantly so, and with a bit of self-encouragement, I pulled the weeping crown of him into my mouth, breathing heavily as I gently sucked on him, wetting him with the saliva in my mouth.
Now, I wasn't as skilled as he was when it came to this, and I was...admittedly terrified that I would accidentally cut him with my fangs, so I only stimulated the head of him, Jox muttering sweet encouragements above me as he forced himself not to push himself further into my mouth. And as I pleasured him, I kept glancing up at him to see what his reactions were, and the poor man looked on the verge of tears as he panted, blue eyes twinkling towards me.
Finally, he pulled away from me, panting heavily as he gently pushed me back against the bed, his heat looking so flushed and red, it was nearing the color of purple. I was a bit worried about that, but all my worries vanished when I felt a thick, wet finger slip into me, gliding past my inner walls.
I moaned at the sensation, spreading my thighs further apart as he stretched me below. My heat was straining against my stomach, soaking it in pre-essence as he added another finger, and then another until I was nearly screaming in ecstasy, and there was an instance he brushed up against something inside of me that nearly had me spending my load if he didn't pull away with a satisfied smirk, the man stroking his length before he spread my cheeks further, and began to enter me.
Despite him doing his best to stretch me, it was still incredibly uncomfortable at first, almost painful as he slowly inched his way inside of me. I held my breath, willing my body to accommodate him, and once he was fully seated within me, he paused for a moment, letting me get used to him as he pressed gentle, sweet kisses against my lips and nose, his hands rubbing soothing circles against my hips.
Feeling elated by his generosity and sweetness, I grabbed his neck and pulled him down into a passionate kiss, our tongues clashing together hotly until I gathered enough courage to push my hips closer against him, the man moaning breathlessly as he kissed my nose once more and pulled back his face, staring at me with, I could only describe as, admiration as he pushed a few strands of sweaty hair out of my face.
"Are you ready, Del?"
I answered him by sharply shoving my hips against him, the heat of him feeling so damn good inside of me. "Show me how good you can make me feel," I breathed, my words causing Jox's face to darken with hunger as he shifted his weight to a more comfortable position, before he began thrusting in and out of me hard and fast, a scream ripping past my lips as he spread me deliciously.
In and out, in and out he went, lewd, wet sounds echoing all around the room as the both of us gasped and moaned, the bed slamming hard against the wall as Jox thrust into me with a ferocity that borderlined on desperation. And he was gripping my waist so hard I was sure the skin would bruise in the morning, but at the moment...Jox and I were one, synced together as if this were destined to be. With each hard, delicious thrust, he was slamming against that bundle of nerves within me, and it didn't take long before that intense heat was pooling in the pit of my stomach, letting me know that I was so damn close, and after a particularly hard thrust against me...I came so hard I nearly blacked out, my mouth open in a silent scream as I grabbed Jox tightly against myself, my back bowed almost unnaturally as I rode that pleasurable high.
A few seconds later and I was feeling Jox filling me up as he came, my name on his lips as his thrusts stuttered, before he collapsed on top of me, breathless and spent.
For a moment, neither of us moved. We just laid there, spent and basking in one another's company as Jox pressed lazy wet kisses against my right peck, out hearts now calming as we listened to the silence around us. After about two minutes, Jox finally pulled his head off of my chest and searched my gaze, his hand gliding up to cup my chin, his thumb brushing gently against my swollen bottom lip. "Say it again. Say it so I-I know I didn't imagine it."
I immediately knew what he was talking about, and despite what we had just done, my cheeks burned in embarrassment. But...despite that embarrassment that was swirling around within me, I turned my head and pressed a kiss against the palm of his hand, staring straight into his eyes as I repeated the truest words I had ever spoken.
"I love you, Jox."
Translations: "Na'rakon, Jox"/"Please, Jox"
"Sul'na mir'na"/"so close"