"You don't gotta do this shit if you not ready " I mumble to her softly while staring down at her on her knees about to please me . I've never been this gentle with any female before they gave me head , but with her it's different. I know she's fragile and not used to the natural aggression I give off . I need to take a different approach with her so she can feel comfortable and not forced .
Even though deep down I know she wants it as much as I do .
"N-no I'm ready "she says lowly wrapping her hands around my member making me tense up immediately. I've never been so vulnerable under any woman's touch until now . She make a nigga wanna melt in this bitch . "I just don't wanna mess up " she mumbles
I smirk down at her then pull her face up close to mine whispering some words to her . When the fuck did I start whispering?
"You got it rain , just don't think about it "
Boy what the fuck ! Rain ?! Stripper rain ? Awe hell nah I need to wake up . Wake the fuck up von wake up !
"Mmm " I groan waking up feeling a warmth on my dick . I look down and see ari mouth around me slurping up and down "girl what the hell is you doing ?" I grunt lifting her off me
"You was hard " she shrugs while I stare at her confused "I wanted to please you "
Hold the fuck up ... I thought - you know what . I'm just Finna act like that dream never fucking happened cause never have I ever dreamed about no bitch and I refuse to acknowledge it .
"I'm gonna go wake juicy up " she chirps wiping her mouth , hopping off the bed like ain't shit happen . See hoes like her nasty as hell that's exactly why I got to go before she try to trap a nigga . AGAIN .
I don't know what the fucks been going on with me lately . First I'm stalking the club for a female , popping up at my baby momma house giving her a quick fuck , and now I'm having these wet ass dreams about rain ? I need leave town for a while this shit starting to get a little to personal . This girl gotta get out my head I can't see her again .
"Daddy wake yo butt up !" Juicy yells as she jumps on the bed sending some punches to my body making me laugh before I pick her up
"Girl I den told you bout putting Yo hands on me keep playing and imma have to really piece yo ass "I warn her
"You ain't gone do shit " she says and I bust out laughing at her . I always wanted a son to be my mini me but She just like ha daddy on foe nem
"Gabbi what I den told you about that mouth girl ?" Ari says walking into the room while juicy rolls her eyes
"But daddy said I can curse in the house " she argues
"Well maybe if daddy was in the house most of the time it would apply but he's not " ari says eyeing me just to get a reaction. I just gave ha some dick what the hell she still mad fa . Always wanting fucking attention. I just wanna chill with my daughter in peace
"Daddy in the house right now " she snaps back while ari mugs her and I chuckle
"Exactly tell ha ass to stop tripping " I boost juicy
"Exactly momma stop tripping " she repeats
"Aight now yo daddy gone get you fucked up "she points at her while juicy just giggles and lays back on my chest making me proud of what I created . Everytime I look at her it reminds me that I have sumn to keep going for and it almost makes me think I could have respect fa other females but then again I be pushing it . I got love fa juicy and THATS enough . Fuck these other hoes .
"So von...."ari starts making me huff , irritated already . I already know she gonna be on bull shit "the streets been talking "
"I am the streets "I reply dryly pulling on the accessories on juicy hair while she pulls up something on YouTube completely tuning me and her loud mouth ass momma out
"Well they been saying you've been in the strip club rubbing all up on some bitch so did that come from you or the streets ?" She questions . Awe hell nah I knew baby fat ass was gone snitch to somebody . He can't keep his fucking mouth shut and he don't even know what the fuck going on . I don't even care about that girl rain and he already doing to much . I might need to check his ass .
"And if i did ? " I asks frowning "the fuck that gotta do with you ?"
"Oh nothing " she smirks shrugging "I just wanted to know what hoe you using now , gotta be some desperate bitch "
"See that's yo fucking problem now , always in my damn business and don't know what the fuck you be talking bout "I wave her off
"You said that same shit with magic and what happened?"
"Oh fucking well you not my bitch I don't gotta explain shit to you " I snap
"I don't wanna be your bitch I just wanna warn whoever bitch life you finna ruin !" She yells
"Nah you just not tryna have nobody take the place that you don't even got " I chuckle at her while she rolls her eyes looking off .
She know that's the exact reason why she still keeping tabs on me anyways . She know I don't do relationship but in the off chance I change my mind she Wanna make sure it's not nobody in line before her which is pathetic as hell .
I keep telling her to move on from me and find better but she don't wanna listen . Shit herb been tryna get at her for years now but she still stuck on me and I wanna feel bad but something in me just won't let me . I told her what it was before and she chose to accept that shit . now she gotta remember It won't be her and it will never be her . I would dropped that hoe years ago if we ain't have a child . She got lucky
"You know what you can fuck whatever bitches you want cause you always know where home at " she starts up again
"Why don't you shut the hell up and make breakfast or sumn ? " I mug ha
"Cause it's five o'clock dumbass " she argues and I furrow my eyebrows
"Damn " I mumble . Where the fuck did the day go ? "Well go make something a nigga hungry ain't that right juicy ?" I question and she laughs nodding
"Go get something to cook then daddy " ari smirks and I frown
"You ain't got no food in dis bitch either ? " I huff "I swear I'm finna dip " I shake my head
"Oh shut the hell up and go get some stuff to make Alfredo "
"That's all y'all hoes know how to make , what if I wanted a steak or sum ?" I question just to irritate her while getting up to get dressed for the store
"Go to hell " she spats back and I chuckle at her staring between her and juicy for a while before walking out to the car .
Sometimes I let the thought about settling down and becoming a real family cross my mind , but just for a split second .
Maybe one day ari and I could work it out and be there for juicy how two parents should but we knows that shit not possible. I can't be tied down and damn sure can't be no family man but my daughter knows whatever she needs I got it . I just can't be with her momma . At least not right now , especially while I'm still having dreams about other bitches that I barely even know , that would hurt me and her . She deserve better than me too.
I get in my car and drive to a local convenient store right outside my city to grab sumn quick for ari to make before I leave them for a few days . I don't be tryna stay there to long so nun of my opps know where my baby is staying . That's when the real war gone start and I gotta keep them safe . It's juicy over everybody .
I get out the car and walk towards the store then something out my peripheral catches my eye making me stop walking and look at them .
"Aye !" I call out getting their attention making them look back suspicious as hell "don't I know you from somewhere ?" I question walking up to him watching them sigh turning back around
"Nah ion think so "he shakes his head and I squint my eyes looking harder
"Hell yah you luh shordy from Louisiana ain't it ?" I question remembering him from the meeting we had with them lames . He the one who could cook and took rain out the room to calm down. Prolly coulda been solid if he didn't hang with weirdos . The fuck he doing by my babymomma house ?
"Yeah wassup man ? " he nods looking over his shoulders nervously . I frown looking at his demeanor then. raise my eyebrows shocked.
"Whatchu finna do ? Rob the store ?" I asks while he tucks his gun away sighing tryna hide it "man is you crazy or stupid? "I asks
"Look bro just mind your business "he mumbles
"Nigga do you know where you at ? " I asks him "you outside the city yo ass getting fifteen years to life for robbing this shitty ass store , you bout dumb as hell " I shake my head .
Of course this wanna be me ass nigga from Louisiana would have his youngins out here robbing shit like bums . Me and my folks could never . We run a classy operation out this bitch not nun of this bum shit .
"I'm not doing this shit fa no got damn candy bar you think I give a fuck about some damn time ?" He argues getting frustrated. I almost snap at him and then I sigh staring getting a little concerned. Lil bro can't be stupid enough to rob this store for no reason so it must be important. I know it's not my business and I shouldn't even care but I gotta know ..
"Then what you doing it fa ?" I asks while he looks up shaking his head
"My momma need her medicine " he mumbles and I huff getting upset
"Yo big homie can't help you get yo mommas medicine?! What the fuck kinda operation yall doing ova there? " I shake my head
"That nigga ain't my daddy " he says sounding like Durk while I twist my lips to the side for a second thinking before speaking .
"How much is it ?" I asks letting it spill out my mouth before I can give it a second thought . Von I know you ain't doing what I think you doing . Cmon nigga you not supposed to be nice !
"I don't need no hand outs alright "he waves me off
"Nigga how much is it ?" I asks again a little more stern and he huffs looking down
"Five hundred " he answers and I smack my lips
"Nigga that nigga can't give you five hundred fa ya momma ? That's fucking pocket change " I shake my head grabbing his shoulders pushing him in the store "I swear yall country motherfuckers broke as hell " I spat while he huffs dragging his feet behind me like a child .
I knew that nigga kentrell was lying talking bout he would double my income and all that bullshit . If he can't hold his mans down for five hunnid then what the fuck could he do for me ? Not a damn thing . See my gut never be wrong I see right through these niggas . All of em .
Especially this nigga walking behind me as we make our way to the drug counter . I see something different in him though . I see the young me , the reckless me . The one who was trying to do any and everything to survive off the little money I was getting .
I had to do a lot to get where I am today and I know this lil nigga going through it . I respect his ass though tryna get it on his own . Just not in this stupid ass way .
I just can't believe I'm actually considering doing this shit fa him . Imma just shake this shit off and count it as my good deed for the week cause this shit is unusual . I woulda felt bad if I would walked away and let another young nigga fall short though . Especially for his mom . I know exactly what he going through .
"Scuse me ?"I call out to the lady behind the counter causing her to look up
"How can I help you ?" She asks and I look over at folks nem as he gulps before speaking .
"Prescription for Mary Williams " he tells her and she types on her computer while I mug they ass the whole time . He still need to know shit not sweet
"Oh Ms Williams "the lady smiles grabbing a small bag from under the counter "this medicine starts at five hundred and should last about six months then you can refill for the same price is that okay ?" She asks
"Yeah that's fine "I nod pulling out my wallet . I count out ten hundreds and lay it on a counter before taking the bag and handing it to dude directly in the chest
"Excuse me sir but this is to much " she calls out from behind the counter
"Put it toward the refill " I nod at her before walking away with the niggga hot on my ass excited as hell
"Damn nigga are you a guardian Angel or something?" He asks waving the medicine around like a trophy with a big ass smile
"Look folks " I stop him stepping a couple feet back"this was my good deed for the week no need to talk about it nomo . "I tell him "I just hope yo momma end up straight " I nod
"I appreciate it " he says dapping me up "imma pay you back tho with interest I promise "
"Yeah aight I ain't gone wait on it " I say and he starts laughing shaking his head
"Good cause it wasn't coming " he says and I chuckle a little . This lil nigga funny . He better be glad I did this out of the kindness of my heart cause I don't play about my money . But I could use this lil nigga for something though . I wonder if it's gone work .
"So tell me sum " I start getting his attention
"Wassup ?" He asks
"Where rain at ?" I blurt out making him furrow his eyebrows looking confused
"Ohhh " he drags out as if a lightbulb goes off in his head " rain ... " he chuckles "she prolly at the crib or club by now why ? " he asks
"no reason just wondering why she wasn't at ha job yesterday " I shrug tryna seem uninterested to prevent him from questioning me . I'm already spending to much time around his ass . He still an opp.
"you own the club to or something ?" he chuckles awkwardly prolly tryna figure out why I'm so worried about this girl like I know her or sumn . I'm wondering the same thing .
"sumn like that " I mumble then take time to think about my next move .
I don't know why the thought of keeping tabs on this girl and tracking her down keep crossing my mind but it has to stop . I can't keep chasing bitches . Especially not her . Them eyes she got is dangerous as hell and she already in my dreams and shit . I'm a gangsta I can't be thinking bout no hoes . Maybe I just need to fuck and get it over with . Yeah that's what I need to do .... That's what I have to do .
"Aight I'll see you later folks "I nod at him walking off
"Aight thanks again man "he calls after me "I luh you foo " he says joking and I turn around frowning while he laughs . These young niggas so weird now days . Fruity as hell .
I hop in my car and start to speed down the rode . Completely forgetting the soul purposes of me going to the store in the first place but I don't care . My mind is stuck on one person and I'm determined on finding her this one last time to handle my business .I can't go another night with this girl floating in my head , I gotta fuck tonight and that's end of discussion.
As I pull up to the packed club I drive slowly scanning the front before finally letting my eyes land on who I'm looking for .
A smile creeps on my face as I spot her then stop the car directly in front of her waiting for a reaction. I missed them pretty ass eyes