Over the last month I have been getting better. I haven't touched a drop of alcohol since Logan and I cleaned out my house and to tell you the truth I feel great.
I have been going to therapy twice a week and sorting through all my bullshit and guilt that had been eating me up inside and I really didn't think talk to some would help, but I am starting to feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
Thanks to Logan I have made a few public appearances and they all have gone smoothly. Management seems to be very impressed according to the report Mark has given me.
On the Logan front, she has been warming up to me a little bit everyday and we try to have dinner at least together. She has been really busy with other clients on top of me and she is usually gone in the mornings before I get up, but she checks in through out the day to make sure I am on my best behavior.
We haven't kissed again since the night of the hockey game and she does everything in her power to avoid talking about it. I think she thinks that if we talk about it we'll do it again and this time we probably won't stop.
I am not going to lie, but kissing her and hearing her say she wants me too made me the happiest I have been in god knows how long.
That night I just wanted to take her in my room and make her mine all over again, but I get she doesn't want this to mess up her career. She worked hard to get where she is and I respect and admire that about her.
So I am stuck with a lot of cold showers and my hand to help me through these next 3 months.
I know she is feeling the sexual tension as well. She had been walking around for the last week wound tighter then a top and that night after we had worked out together in the gym, I saw the desire in her eyes after we were both finished and sweaty.
She was the closest I have seen to breaking down and jumping me, but she took off up the stairs and into the shower. She forgets though how vocal she is when she gets off and I caught the ending of her orgasm as walked past the bathroom.
Needless to say after hearing that I need the world's coldest shower.
Today after I finished up my latest therapy session I dropped by one of my favorite spots in Muskoka. It was this cute little restaurant that I discovered my first night here.
I went in and sat down at my usual table and the waitress came over and took my order. While I am waiting for my order my phone pings and I look down and it's Logan or as she appears in my phone "Future Mrs."
Future Mrs: "Just checking in to see how your session went today."
Me: "Great, making good progress. Slow progress, but moving forward."
Future Mrs: Proud of you. Glad the process is moving you forward. Soon you won't need me at all 😊"
Me: "I'll always need you. You are my air 😊"
Future Mrs: "Sweet talker. If we were going out I would ask you of you were looking to get lucky lol 😉"
Me: "With you I am lucky, but if you are asking if I want to see you naked. The answer is always hell yes 🍆"
Future Mrs: "You did not just text me an eggplant emoji"
Me: "Well I could have sent the real thing, but I am at a family friendly restaurant and that would have ruined all the progress we made cleaning up my image."
Future Mrs: "🤣"
Me: "There is always tonight for you to experience the really thing. He can satisfy you better than your fingers or the shower head 😉"
Future Mrs: "Fuck you heard that? 🤦🏻♀️"
Me: "I did, but I was extremely jealous of the shower head or your fingers. It was very hot. I think about it often lol"
Future Mrs: "I am so embarrassed. I am going to die now"
Me: Don't be L. It's not like I haven't heard it before."
Future Mrs: "Thanks I am just finishing up at the office and heading home soon."
Me: Meet me at this restaurant, just sitting down to have a bite."
I quickly send her a pin of where I am and try to adjust myself after that conversation.
30 minutes later she shows up and I get up and get her from the front. Placing my hand on the small of her back and walking back to the table.
"How did your meeting go with Rachel?" I ask her, as she looks through the menu.
"Really well thanks. She said that Jays Management is happy with the changes you are making and to keep up the good work. They like reading good stories about you in the press," she gives me a warm smile.
The waitress comes back and takes Logan's order. She sits back in her chair and I can see how tired she is.
"You want to get this to go and we can eat at home. You look tired," I say.
"It's okay, might as well eat here now and it's a nice place with a great view," she says looking out the window.
"I am particularly fond of the view myself," looking right at her smiling.
"Stop it," she says blushing.
"Not a chance. You bring out the playful, flirty side of me," moving my chair a little closer to her.
She doesn't stop me or move away and I smile. I place my hand on her leg and she raises her eyebrow at me.
"What is it that you are doing?" she asks taking a sip of her diet coke.
"What does it look or feel like I am doing?" I say with a playful smirk.
"Well it looks like you and pressing your luck that I won't remove you hand, but it feels like that time back in high school when you were trying to cop a feel without my parents noticing," she says smirking.
I laugh a little remember 19 year old me and how I couldn't keep my hands off Logan. Hell if she would let me I wouldn't keep my hands off her now.
I don't push my luck too much and just leave my hand on her leg. To my surprise she doesn't move it or ask me to move it.
Well I guess we are making progress there as well I think to myself.
We have a nice dinner and head back to my house. Logan walks into the house and heads up stairs.
"I think I may try out that hot tub I saw on your deck," she says with a smile.
"Go right ahead. You want some company?" I ask her.
"If you behave yourself, then sure," she says walking up and going to change.
I head up stairs and change into my swim trunks. I grab a couple of towels and head out to the back deck.
I uncover the hot tub and slide in. The heat feels nice on my muscles. I have been working them hard in the gym lately trying to stay busy and work off my built up sexual tension.
I hear the back door open and see Logan come out in just her bikini. I can't help, but stare and my eyes roam her body.
"I wasn't sure about this one. I know I have lost some weight, I am just not sure I am tones enough to pull this off," she says quickly getting under the water.
"You look hot as hell in that bikini. Please wear it more often around here," giving her a wink and adjusting myself a little.
She blushes and bites her bottom lip and she sits down across from me.
I try to look anywhere on her where it won't result in me getting an even bigger hard on then I already have, but it's not use. No matter where I look this women gets me so turned on.
"So are you at least feeling some what at home now?" I ask.
"Yeah I am. This house is great and very you. I bet it's great in the summer time with it being right on the lake and all," she says looking out at the water.
"It is, but I don't get to enjoy it a lot with being away and living in my condo downtown for the season. If I get a long stretch off though I come here to get away," I say.
"It would be great to get away here in the summer time," she says relaxing a little more.
"You are more than welcome to come and use it anytime," I tell her.
"Thanks I appreciate the offer," she says smiling.
I move a little closer to her, I really can't stay away too long and I hope she doesn't mind.
"What are you doing?" she asks looking at me.
"Something I know we both want me to do," sitting beside her.
"Tom, we can't do this right now," she says looking at me.
"Says who? We are both adults, there is nothing in the contract either of us signed. Believe me I went through it a lot to make sure. So all that is stopping this is us," putting my hand on her legs again.
She looks at me and bites her lips again and I know she is thinking about what I just said.
"Stop doing that it drives me insane when you bite your lip like that," I say running my thumb across her lips.
She does it again and this time I feel her move my hand higher on her thigh.
"Fuck you are killing me here. There is only so much control I have before I take you right here," I say.
"Then take me, but not here. In your bed," she whispers.
"Are you sure, god I am going to kill myself for asking you that if you say no," I say looking at her.
"I am sure. I thought about it in the shower the other night. Why do you think I was so loud," giving me a sexy smile.
"Fuck I am going to make you cum till the sunrises," I say grabbing her hand and standing her up.
I get out first and throw her over my shoulder and hear her laughing as I start to climb the stairs.
I put her on my bed and she looks so beautiful laying there. "You positive?" I ask again.
"Very positive. So positive I'll do this." Watching as she unties her top letting it fall off her and she shimmies out of her bikini bottoms.
I lean in and kiss her hard on the lips and press into her. She wraps her legs around and starts to push against me.
"Fuck", I think to myself. This woman is going to be the death of me.