Angst oneshot
Prompt : Philza's crows are dead people reincarnated into crows coming for eternal resting . And he always welcomed them with love and affection and took good care . But then there's that one crow he never expected or wished to see near....one is particular
Tw : character death . Derealization panic attack. ( he's convinced he's dreaming / hallucinating and can't tell who is sons are anymore )
Minecraft world + irl similarities
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Phil walked on the damp snow that was covering the was-before grass , followed by his lovely crow friends. Snowflakes softly Falling from the Sky , he made his way deep into the forest. The cacophony of the crows got to his head , making it pound slightly. The avian shushed his residents , them all quickly lowering their tone after phil's demanding noise.
The old man was known for keeping all the neighbouring crows near him , calling him the crow keeper , crowza or even the ambulant noise mansion , referencing to the constant squawks of the hundreds crows he kept with him. Most of the time they would be the man everywhere , unless he grew tired of their noises and needed a break , chasing them away for a while. But that rarely occurred because their man , the one and only Philza minecraft , was a man known for his astonishing tolerance and patience.
Many questioned the origins of the crows and why they would come to him and only him , but never got an answer. It was the birdman little secret. Some people thought he was crazy when he would get emotional at a crow arrival. Something that most people don't know is that philza crows are dead people reincarnated into the body of birds. And they all had a story behind their mind.
Each bird at their arrival told the way they died , some were outrageous deaths , others were peaceful ones and with time , Phil learned how to deal with their words. You don't know how damaging death talks can be to someone mental.
And only the purest souls reincarnated and got to rest by philza's sides.
He sauntered deeper into the forest , carefully following the path. He had left his son's under techno's guard after he announced them of him going to get some wood ressources.
His axe in his left hand , he positioned his arm for the crows to perch on it. Listening to their conversations , he giggle at the weird talk his friends had until one came from the back to announce him a new he refused to believe
"......,.,,,,,,.,,,.,,....." a crow murmured to his ear. He frowned, stopping his pace and standing still. Processing the information he had been told , he turned to his announcer. " w-what? No that's a lie " he playfully muttered , softly shaking his head. Although what crow said was true , it had happened.
At this right instant , a crow landed in front of the standing man. You may think it was a crow just like the others but this little one had something that no one had , something that disguised them from the others.
Philza titled his head , leaning on the ground placing his axe down and kneeled to the crow. " hey little one " he cooed , the crow getting closer. He placed his finger a step forwards the crow and it soon jumped on it , being moved upwards. Philza then stood up , and gave a warm smile to his new friend.
The crow kept silent as something was bothering them , they didn't dare speak up.
" don't be shy , tell me how you got there," he reassured his bird friend. The crow gets itself in a better position , lifted it's paw accidentally letting it see all of it.
His heart sank , eyes widened.
"No it can't be " he thought
There was a ring on it's paw.
My mom's ring. It was a one of a kind ring , only one in the world wide world of this design. He had got it as a gift to his mother after he marriage ring broke during a past family fight.
The avian frowned , confused, angry alongside as scared. Else the crow had stolen it from his mother , else the crow...... was his mother.
" where did you get that " he half growled , keeping his tone low to not scare the crows away. Looking down, the crow murmured. "It's mine phil, it's me ! Your....mom "
The surroundings went silent. No escaped Phil's mouth as he shook his head.
" no. " he let out " no , no no no that's must be a lie it can't be " he stammered , shaking slightly.
"It's not...I'm gone! But I'm he-"
" NO , YOUR LYING " he cut the crow off . " You are not my mom , she's still alive " he growled, fighting against the tears that threatened to fall. "She's at her home , safe and sound! She's surely not stuck into a stupid bird body " he shouted but regretted it. He had insulted the crows .
The birds started to squawk loudly after Phil's remark , causing him to lose it. "SHUT UP" he yelled Out, stretching his wings to scare the crows away and soon he was alone. Only one crow stayed , the crow that pretended to be his mom. "WHY ARE YOU STILL HERE , CAN'T YOU Just leave me alone....." Phil's voice trailed off. He was shaking and could barely stand up anymore. " you have to accept it phil ! Or you'll just be more hurt" she squawked , but Phil refused to cooperate and didn't listen.
Instead , he flew up into the sky , leaving his axe on the pure white snow and disappeared into the clouds. Grunting , the crow or should I say , Phil's mother swung her wings up and down at her turn , projecting herself in the sky .
The avian flew through the wind and snow particles. Barely able to keep his eyes widely due to the amount of tears he was shedding. His mother wasn't dead , it was just a stupid bird putting a prank on him, nothing more.
Upon arrival , he bursted into his and his son's house . The atmosphere was dense and the mood saddening. He looked at his son's that were seated on the couch. Tommy wasn't there so he supposed he had gone to sleep since it was getting late.
" What's wrong " his voice was wavering and shaky . Anyone could tell he had been crying. Maybe he already was aware of the situation.
Silence flooded the room , Philza's anxiety went up to surface .
" we got a call ... your mom she....she died "
Next thing they saw Philza collapsing on his knees , begging that it wasn't real. " no it's not real , it's not because if it was it would mean that the crow wasn't lying but ,, but I ,, it wasn't real I could swear it wasn't real I don't " he stammered , his breathing becoming erratic. His sons knew about the crows origins so they quickly understood that Phil's mom had already reincarnated into a crow.
His vision blurred and everything went fuzzy. He felt detached to the world.
" no,, ,, n-no I-it's just my imagination this is n-n-not happening I'm j-just hallucinating. '' he slurred , he felt hands wrap themselves around him , who were they? He couldn't tell , there were people's bodies clutched on him but who? Who was he? What was happening? They're not real .
He wanted to scream but no sound came out , his body didn't want to move , didn't allow him to. Where was he? He couldn't feel his body anymore , was he dead? Everything went dark , he was clearly dead. He couldn't breath .
" it's not real it's not it's not real , I'm not real I'm just dreaming I'm going to wake up it's not real I'm not real " he said , bringing his hands to his head , gripping his hair.
" it's real Phil , it's all real ,you are real! Feel my hands on yours? You are real . It's not a dream " Wilbur cooed to his panicking father. They were used to him panicking this way , completely derealizing .
Phil couldn't hear his voice properly , it was all muffled. Who was talking ?
Who was here , he heard footsteps , not it sounded like a bird step. A bird ? He was a bird ? Part human . Everything felt fuzzy . What's that sound ? Mom ?
Mom
He opened his eyes , feeling like he came back from death. He looked down , seeing a crow. The same crow with the ring. His mom. A sob left his lips . the crow got closer and jumped on his lap. Phil welcomed her with open arms , hugging the being as soon as he felt her on him. He hugged her tightly , bringing her close to his chest.
" I-I'm sorry mom..." he wept .
His sons, still hugging him ,gave him the comfort he needed. Allowing him to fall into deep comforting sleep. Hugging tightly on his mother crow.
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Haha who said derealization was only for ranboo
Phil brain goes bRRRRRRRRR
I don't really like this since it doesn't sound right , i wrote this at night please bare with me
Next angst might be gory lory hahahahaha be ready
If you guys want fluff please request because my brain went on angst mode
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