Tom's POV
I walked into the room expecting to find Lexi still in bed. She wasn't there and instead there was a piece of paper with a note written on it.
'im really fucking sorry. I love you x
P.S. I brought my phone so you can call me.'
"Fuck" I whispered checking the room to make sure her stuff was still there. Everything was and that at least gave me some sort of relief. But the fact I didn't know where she was unsettled me. I realised that's how it must feel for her. How it must have felt when I yelled at her for no reason at all really and then left with no explanation as to where I was going. I didn't really know where I was going but talking to her would be nice. I pulled my phone out and called her but she declined
'you okay? I got ur note x'
'im fine. Me and Adam went to watch a film at the cinema. We talked stuff over. I'll make it up to you'
'whats that supposed to mean?'
'dont make it weird Tom. I'm just being nice.'
'sorry x see u when you get here' I turned my phone off but it soon buzzed with her response
'i love you x'
Lexis POV
"I've got to go for a meeting later. With Dom and Mikey. About the on and off tour dates."
"Send my luck. To all of you."
"Thanks." I hugged him tight "Just so you know if he ever hurts you I'll get him"
"Shut up Adam. Go get ready for your meeting."
"Bye" he let go and walked into his room whilst I slowly walked to my own. I knocked on the door and Tom opened it to let me inside then sitting down on the bed.
"Can we talk?"
"Sure. What about?" I asked him sitting down across his lap facing him
"Dunno. About you just freaking out?"
"What about it?"
"I just...it scared me. To not know what you're thinking in there" he lightly tapped the side of my skull with his pointer finger before rubbing his thumb gently over the spot to soothe it "I don't want to be scared. What if I lose you? Mentally. And then-"
"You won't. Ever. I promise you that as long as you are here I will be too. Some soulmate destiny shit or whatever" he laughed making me start too "I am trying to be serious" I whined
"Awe but it's cute." I leaned forward burying my face in his neck out of sheer embarrassment. He wrapped his arms around me tightly and held me there for a minute or two before speaking "I don't want to do this anymore."
"What?" I said pulling away panicked
"No. I'm not leaving you. I just mean the whole friends with benefits thing. We slept together once. Both of us in a shitty place and I don't want to do it again. I wanna keep this forever not fuck it up." I looked down
"I feel the same way. I guess I just needed something other than cuddles to try and make the pain go away. But it never did. And you gotta swear you never felt anything Tom because-"
"I swear to you it was never like that. You don't have to feel guilty. You never made me feel like it could be more. I'm fact you were very clear about what it was. So was I."
"I love you more than anything. And I don't wanna get that confused so you're right. But I still want cuddles and shit so don't think you can get out of that so easily." He took my hands in his pulling me forward so that my forehead fell against his, our noses touching lightly making me smile wide.
"Wasn't planning on it. I love you too. And it sucks that for the longest time she made me too afraid to say anything. But not anymore." I pulled away and fell into him sobbing into his shoulder which surprised him since it seemingly came out of nowhere
"She fucked you up so bad Tommy. How could she do that?" I sobbed "I'm sorry she hurt you like that. I wish I would've done something"
"We won't ever have to see her again. And she won't hurt me." I nodded and eventually he managed to calm me down "Cmon now darlin'. Calm down a little more for me. Just so I know you're alright" he said softly which stopped my anxious breathing altogether "Good girl" he praised stroking his hand through my hair "I'm gonna text Adam and we are gonna hang out. Then you're gonna go to bed and get some good sleep." I didn't like it when anyone told me what to do. But for some reason the love and care behind what he was saying made me nod in agreement "Okay. You go get into something comfy and I'll message him. Yeah?" I nodded
"He's got a meeting though so it won't be till late"
"That's alright." I wiped my eyes "Go on then sweetheart. I'll be right here."
"Lex. You're falling asleep darlin'. You need to go to bed" I shook my head and smiled still with my eyes closed "Lexi. You're playing up now. Get up and go to bed."
"And what are you gonna do? When I go to bed?"
"Probably go to Adams room and have a drink. Let you sleep."
"Will you at least stay here until I fall asleep?" He nodded and stood up giving up fully on trying to pry me away "I can walk Yknow?" I said sleepily as he tucked me in
"Yeah? Then why didn't you do it?"
"Cus I wanted you to carry me obviously. Like a princess" I grinned at him opening my eyes just for a moment to see him roll his.
"Whatever. Sleep well yeah" he leaned down to kiss my forehead gently "I'll go when your asleep."
"Go now. Enjoy yourself."
"You sure?" I closed my eyes again and nodded
"I'll come get you if I need to."
"Promise you will"
"Promise. Now go. Don't worry about me"
"I'll always worry about you. But I'm going."
"Love you. Both of you"
"You too" Adam returned "Night."
Tom's POV
"You don't think I treat her like a baby too much though?"
"She seems to love it." Adam joked
"Seriously though. I don't wanna patronise her. But I also don't wanna overwhelm her with it all."
"There's no right decision. But you love her. And you're doing everything you can right now. It's all anyone could ask for. Dom said that he's glad she's got you"
"He actually said that?" I asked obviously sceptical
"Yeah. When you came down with her. When we went out for coffee. Said that if he can't be the one to be there for her he wouldn't have anyone else. And that he regretted drinking himself nearly to death because he'd never get to thank you" I looked down at the beer bottle in my hands unable to stop worrying about Lexi even for a moment "You alright mate?"
"It's all a mess Adam. I don't know how much longer I can take lexis up and downs. I just wish that Dom would set aside his stupid fucking pride and let her come back."
"I'd normally defend Dom but Its true. That's the only thing in the way. He fucking loves her. And he fucking loves you too."
"When you go back tell him where we are. I'm sure he knows but let him know I wanna see him. That I miss him."
"Sure I will." I nodded sniffling a little "You wanna go back and check on her?"
"No I'm fine. I can have fun without her."
"Tom mate. Go back to your room."
"But you and her fought cus of me."
"Forget that now. I watched you carry her to bed and tuck her in. Realised how it's not just stupid school kid stuff about who's the favourite." I traced my thumb over the top of the bottle losing all interest in the half of the contents still inside. I'd only had that one. While Adam was now on his third. "Go on. Go check on her to out your mind at rest."
"Mind if I take some of that?" I asked pointing to the case of beer that he'd somehow managed to get into the room without being noticed
"As long as you're gonna be alright then yeah. You're free to take it. I'm gonna go bed anyway. Just promise me you're alright though?"
"I'm fine. Not gonna drink much but I'll take it back to my room and we can do this tomorrow night."
"Okay. Night mate" I stood up and picked the case of beer up careful to hold the open end shut
"Night"