W a r n I n g f o r w h o l e b o o k : stuttering ;-;
W a r n i n g : T r i g g e r w a r n i n g
~ K a t a r a ' s P o v ~
They pushed me on the bus like a teddy bear, pour water on me in the bathroom, shove to me to the ground while every one points with their phone, i sigh, another day pasts by, all the same
"water tribe peasant" someone said in the distance as i walked past
"why don't you go back to the mom" another person said, pointing at me
I could feel their stares
Whispers start as i exit the school gate
Ever since i moved to this school ( a school full of people who lived in the fire nation) for 5 and a half years, being part of a " southern water tribe" somehow makes me a outcast everywhere as it being the smallest and weakest tribe that " can't defend themselves" living in poverty at it's fullest, i'm just lucky i don't live there but it can't define the fact i have the southern water tribe blood in my veins
"hey" i hear behind me
"ouch" i say in pain as i get shoved to the hard ground
The hard floor scratched my arm
"why don't you go back to your tribe, you don't belong here" Azula said as she points at me, she is a grade less than me but she choses poor choices
"leave me alone" i mumble in pain like
Every other day
"what did you say?" her boyfriend grabs my chin
"why do you hate me?" i ask in pain
I am sick of this, all of this tormenting
"well why not, didn't your stupid glasses and necklace tell you anything? " Azula looks up after glancing at her nails
My face frowns and i adjust my glasses up after nearly exposing my tears as i ran, school was over and i just
couldn't hold it in anymore
I run as fast as i can, not caring around me and head to a tall building
Jogging up the steps i head to the top of the building closing the door and i crouch down at the door
why does everyone hate me?
I cry my tears and text my dad and stepmom
I love you
I can't take it, every cruel hour of my life tormented me
Dawn had hit but the sky was blank and darkness was blinded by the bright lights that surrounded the building,
I inhale and step on the wall that i can relieve my stress on and move closer to the edge
" Man died at a young age, age of 18 by suicide and people are surrounding the park in his honour, rest in peace..."
Another building echoes the sorrow and a message for a young 18 year old
man i am turning 18 this year and he had so much ahead of him
What was i thinking!?! i don't want to die,
My legs inch back from the edge...
But in quick motion someone grabs me, my glasses falls of the edge and i fall on a
Person?
"thank spirits..." i hear "him" mumble, i couldn't see his face as everything was blurred
but somehow i memorised the symbol on his jacket and got of him, rolling over
"uh, where are my glasses?" i sit up trying to find them
The person stands up and looks at me
"what were you doing up here? where you going to jump?" "he" said in a firm tone
I stop looking for my glasses, i was speechless
"do you realise how devastated and angry your love ones will be?
Realising they can't do anything?
After all you can't do anything to save a dead person, was your problem that bad you had you had to die?" the person said stressing their what seemed to be anger on me
"i- i... was bullied for being in the s-southern w-w-water t-tribe " i say stuttering and still shocked and not in a clear mind set
The person put his hands on his hips and sighed
"come on" the person said gesturing to me
"my glasses" i mumble
The person speed walks to the exit door but stops and turns to me
" are you just going to wait for me to go so you can jump?" the person said gesturing to me to come his way once more
I stumble to stand up and follow the person figure still looking around for my glasses
The person walks down the 1 set of stairs while i struggle to trail behind, but he doesn't go for the elevator?
"wait is it broken?" i ask seeing a sign
He jog down several steps while i fall down on the first step
"ouch" i say sitting down, cupping my cheeks, the person comes up, i hear him exhale
"here" he said as he carries me
We did a piggy back ride until we reached down
" why where you up there?"
" why are you helping me?"
" are you okay?"
" did someone close to you...never mind"
I asked many questions i could think of, each time the person still trying to adjust to my weight before we finally made it to the elevator, he didn't share a word
"wait was the elevator working?" i hear what seemed to be him speak
"yeah" another person said
He put me down in anger that i can hear boiling inside of him
"are you always this talkative?" he asks me
"well maybe?" i play with my fingers
He takes my wrist and calls a taxi and leads me in
"wait can you pull down the window?" i ask the taxi driver, he does and i call out
"hey! i not sure who you are and who maybe died but i don't think they will leave you suffering for too long" i say, adding a warm smile
The person stops and looks back before the taxi driver drives off and the car window showing him walking away
. . .
After reaching home, my tears run down my face, i texted my parents i'll be gone, they must had been so worried about me
"KATARA!" my step mom hugs me as they were waiting for me for a while
"where were you?" my dad made out
I cry and fall down, breaking out to them
"we can't lose you Katara, you should of told us, i'm sorry, but don't do that again,
we lost your brother
and were not going to lose you too" my dad and step mom stressed out
"i'm so sorry" i cried
As i remember how my brother was kidnapped...
"don't worry, you will transfer schools, anything will be better than that school..." my step mom mumbled the last past
I smile in happiness
why did i want to take my life?
all i needed was help...
. . .
I lay on my bed after a rollercoaster of 5 years and to my loyal fans, post on social media my goodbyes
: thank you guys for supporting me, but i am closing this account for personal reasons :
I post before starting my new life, i then adjust my glasses in the mirror beside my night stand
i really need to get contacts...
I think to myself
I exit the app and go to shop online for contracts that will be apart of my fresh new life.