Fire And Flames (Under major Editing)

XXXVIII: Heartbroken!

I squealed wrapping my arms around his neck to not fall, I looked up and saw how angry he looked, damn, I'm scared "Put me down you douchebag!" I yelled, thrashing in his arms but he didn't seem to be affected by it.  he walked us over to the table and sat me on it. I immediately tried to get down when held my knees pushing them apart as he stood in between. His warm hands remained on my thighs heating the whole region, I looked at him with wide eyes "What are you doing? Let me go!" I tried to push him but he didn't budge even an inch.

He caught my wrists and held them behind me, now I'm officially defenceless. "Please let me go I promise I would never call you that," I begged in a low voice, not meeting his eyes but I could say he's still angry because of the heavy breathing and the grip he had on my wrists, oh dear It's going to form a bruise.

"Look Up!" He stated, I shook my head in no and continued staring at his abs which was visible through his shirt. I have to admit I'm afraid to look at him.

"I SAID LOOK UP!" he shouted making me flinch back, his grip tightened even more making me yelp in pain, my lips quivered in fright and I slowly meet his eyes which were angry but immediately softened when he noticed the tears in my eyes. I shut my eyes to stop myself from crying, I felt his hands loosen around my wrists, which I'm glad. I brought it to my chest rubbing it to ease the pain. The day when he almost choked me came to my mind, I just realized he's a monster who never gave a second thought before hurting someone, how can I think he'll be nice and kind to me? I was having fake hopes.

"I...I'm sorry Athena I didn't mean to hurt you," he whispered, I could hear the guilt in his words but I'm way too hurt to accept his apology.  I glanced at the red mark on my wrists slowly turning dark,  this is the third time he hurt me physically. He raised his hand about to touch my hand but I held mine near my chest "Don't" I cut him off, my voice quivered and my throat ached as a sob tried to escape.

He moved away, giving me space. I didn't glance at him but I could see him running his hand through his hair in my peripheral as he walked out the door cursing and slammed it loudly.

Tears were running down my cheeks as I cried silently, look how I ended up being sad when I'm with him, why does everything have to go wrong?

After few moments of wailing over my miserable self, I got down from the table wiping away my tears as I walked towards the door when it opened, revealing that monster, he had an unreadable expression on his face, almost as if he's remorseful. Hah, never in my life he'll be remorseful. His ego is way too huge for that. I looked down, clenching my fists and tried to walk past him when he blocked the path. "Don't leave, I brought medicine for you" he whispered so softly as if he'd hurt me more if he raises his voice even a decibel.

"I'll just go and pour some cold water" I replied coldly, no words could describe how much I wanted to escape this place. It's suffocating, I don't know what I'll do if I stay here a moment longer.

"For once can you please listen to me Athena!" my eyes widened when I heard him plead, the great King just pleaded. Wow, what else is he hiding up his sleeves? I could tell that he's trying to control his anger by his voice, so I decided to comply and walked back, taking a seat on the plush sofa.

"Give me the medicine" I stated, extending my right hand up. Instead of giving it to me, he sat beside me and gently held both my hand where it wasn't bruised. I carefully watched his face, he was examining my wound, I winced when he touched the bruise "I'm sorry!" He apologised.

I tried to remove my hand but he held it tighter but not enough to hurt "Please Athena, let me treat your wound." there he goes pleading again, is this another one of his games to bring more pain to me?

I scoffed, looking away "It's you who caused it in the first place." I muttered coldly, loud enough for him to hear.

I heard him exhale, he placed his hand on my shoulder "I didn't mean to hurt you, Athena." I whipped my head towards him almost getting a whiplash. My eyes glanced at his hand on my shoulder before glaring at him. I didn't speak anything and removed his hand from my shoulder. What is he trying to prove? Why would he care about my feelings now when he never did?

He closed his eyes, taking a deep breath before looking at me, his green eyes not feral, it was soft, I could see various emotions swirling inside them.

"I just lost my control Athena, I was really pissed of at myself and then When I didn't see you in your cabin I got even angrier. I have problems controlling my anger Athena, that's why I remain cold to everyone, I try to avoid everyone so that I won't hurt them." I continued to stare at him blankly. I was surprised he's opening up to me.

"I'm extremely sorry for hurting you, Ma Cherie! I regret doing it, please don't hate me!" There goes my heart falling for him again, how can he make me hate him and like him at the same time? What kind of magic does he use?

"Why do you care? It not that you have feelings or something." I mocked in disgust, recalling his hurtful words.

He cupped my face making me face him, "I care about you a lot!" he stated sternly, his eyes not leaving mine for a second. I stayed frozen, my mind comprehending his words. He cares about me, but is this another one of his jokes? I couldn't help but think that.

I pushed him away "What is wrong with you Zephyr, you act as if you don't care and the next moment you'll come back apologizing. I can't understand you Zephyr, what's going through your mind? Why do you keep pushing me away? Why do you constantly hurt me?" I shot him questions after questions to which he held his head down unable to reply. I was fuming by now, why does he have to make things more difficult between us?

"I don't know!" he whispered, that's the first time seeing him so vulnerable. My heart clenched in pain but I know we need time to sort these messed up feelings.

I stood up from my place, glancing at him for a moment before going over to my desk and gathered my belongings and turned to head outside. He was still sitting in the same position, lost in thoughts.

"Sort out your emotions first Mr. King, Only then I can accept your apology," I stated coldly and walked out of my cabin. This is what happens when you love someone but it's always you who ends up getting hurt. I've already said I'm willing to give him a chance but it's him who should have a clear image of what he wants.

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*whew* I almost cried writing this, I had to write many parts but finally settled on this. I hope It was interesting. Who wants to kill Zephyr?

Do you think he'll start working on his anger problems? Wanna know what made him like this?

Merry Christmas luvs 🎅