What It Feels Like To Be ME

a ghost to you..

...never used to see me, so why do you think you will be able to now..?...

Life's taught me how to hide it better than you would have ever thought i could possibly know...

Im a ghost.

I let you see a foggy character,

A misty version of the true me....

Only for a moment but in a blink of an eye,

The dark gloomy shadow of a being with a fire in the core,

A spark that is shielded as its quite low,

trying to preserve and grow,

A shadow of a deep thinker,

A heart of gold,

Tinted with rust and cuts,

Broken pieces,

All quickly put together trying to hold the soul together,

Just for a moment,

Just to survive...

..the barrier put down for a second to feed the curiosity of the soul within.

To see if you could understand more than you want to...

A vulnerable me is never what you will ever truly see..

I let you see a foggy version,

A blur,

Of the true me.

But then,

Im gone.

Now you see me,

now you don't.

Let you believe in the person you perceive to be me....

Let you believe that the person you see before you is me...

...but i'm a ghost to the world for now....

Only those who see me without my barrier down,

Acknowledge my presence,

Only then am I me.

But I quickly hide so others may not see...

Because at this very moment,

Not many can understand me...

I'm different.

Im unique.

Im special...

Cuz nobody else can be me.

But who do you see...?...

You forget,

I'm a ghost..

...You don't know me...

Not then,

Not now.

...I'm gone...