"What you want Sai?" I said and put my shirt back on.
"Where you goin? They let you go already?"
"Ion know and imma grown ass man imma leave if I fuckin please"
"Fuck you mean you don't know where you goin?"
"Hell I'm leavin I got some shit to figure out"
"Well that's sad" she said. "I was just starting to like yo ugly ass"
"Lowkey sound like a you problem" I shrugged and walked off.
Me: Who is Emerald? Why they being brought up now???
HotRod: Shidd ion know
Me: Look her up.
I put my phone in my back pocket.
"Aye hoe" Bulldog said as I got off the elevator and we walked outside
"You got what I need or nah"
He threw me his truck keys.
"Anything that get yo punk ass to leave. Bout time you left Sai don't need yo ass around she gotta nigga already"
"Hell who? I know it ain't yo ass" I said and put my backpack on the back seat.
"Mane fuck you. When imma get my shit back"
"Hell you gone know when I pull up" I said and got in the truck driving off.
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"On God yall better let me the fuck out" Tana said walking back and forth in his room
"Call down Ight? The doctor-"
"MANE FUCK THE DOCTOR AND YOU" he yelled
I'm not even going to go off on him. The doctor said that the medicine cause sudden mood changes, temporary memory loss and hallucinations.
"Tana calm down give them a minute" I said and he looked at me funny.
"Mel don't fuckin tell me to calm down you and pops gotta stop that shit" he spat and sat on the bed
I sat down beside him and held his hand sitting on the bed but he snatched away.
"What the fuck happened" he asked
"You got shot in the head and chest. Sincere brought you" I said slowly in case he wasn't taking it all in.
"I'm not a fuckin kid Mel I understand" he said
"I know I was just—"
"Mel I gotta get out I can't be in here no more I'm losin my fuckin mind" he said cutting me off and broke down.
I held him in my arms and rocked side to side. It's hard seeing him like this.
"Every fuckin time some shit happen when we good I caused you all this pain ian mean it" he said as tears fell on my lap.
I haven't seen him cry since the twins were born. Sai looked a little like Sabra and he couldn't handle that.
"We gone be ight we always good" I said and kept rocking him side to side.
"We ain't ight Mel that's the fuckin problem. I wanted to be the nigga you wanted I wanted them fuckin kids to grow up right I fucked it up. This shit started with me. It should've ended with me" he said
I just listened. Since he talking a lot now I guess the medicine wearing off.
"It ain't hit me I almost died y'all would've been by y'all damn selves. I'm just burnin bridges and shit. Sai don't give two fucks about me-"
"Yes she does-"
"Then where the fuck she at Mel? Ion fuckin see her" he said. "Psycho hell ion know about him. That lil nigga mines?" He said and I laughed. "Deadass that nigga can't be mines actin like that that's a lil Heim"
"Hell he do act like Heim and Black act like you" I said
"That's what the hell it is God put Black in the wrong stomach and now we stuck with Psycho ass" he said tryna make it make sense and I just laughed "I feel like a bitch for that cryin shit"
"Real men show their emotions don't be over here thinkin you gotta hide shit from me Tana. We a fuckin team we work this shit out together Ight?"
"Ight"
"You feel better?"
He just nodded
"Well get yo fat ass head off me" I said and he smacked his teeth and got up.
"I should fall and tell em you jumped on me" he said causing me to laugh. "Don't fuckin tell nobody I cried" he mugged
"Imma tell Heim" I said and he shot the middle finger at me. "You still mad at him?"
"I was never mad at the nigga Mari pissed me the fuck off by sayin he fucked my wife"
"Heim wouldn't do that shit and I wouldn't either. Heim FaceTime'd me twice to check on you and Sin stayed here til he got to arguing wit yo dad" I said
"Fuck they arguing for"
"They yo people they bein petty like always" I said
"Ight I'm leavin" he said and got up taking out his IVs
"Nigga-"
"I'm goin home Mel don't try to stop my ass" he said serious
"Mmcht fine we goin home but you not workin right now"
"Shittin me"
"Santana don't make me fuck you up in these people place" I said and he mugged me
"Imma do work if I need to, and if I gotta kill a mothafucka here and there then imma do it" he said
"You hardheaded that's yo fuckin problem"
"If keepin yall safe hardheaded then I'm hardheaded as hell. I can't lose no more people. My momma, Sabra and Ray. Nobody else dyin before me" he said
"Fuck it let's do it" I said
"Girl you ain't doin shit" he said and plucked my forehead
"Big body bitch" I said and rubbed my head
"Yea I love you too" he rolled his eyes and walked out.
I stayed back and said a prayer
"Lord please protect my husband. Keep him outta harms way. Forever I pray, amen."
