FEELINGS WRITTEN, NOT SPOKEN

I love you but I cant have you

I love you
I really do
But fate is cruel
Playfully ill
Cause Im real
And you're not
Coz i exist
And you dont
I am a reader
And you're a fictional character
I am a writer
You're a subject
I work for creation
You were a product of imagination
I love you
Yet i cant have you
I love you as my man
You love your co-fictional woman
I want you like you do to her
But I know you were for your co-fictional character
I am supposed to be an audience
A supporter of your love story
Yet im bleeding
Craving for our own fantasy
I know it impossible
And will never be possible
But damn talk to my heart
Scold it if you want
Im sorry for it was involuntarily beating
For someone who only exist in my imagination
Sorry for i unknowingly loving
Someone who supposed to be just a wonderful creation
I didn't even see it coming
I haven't figure out falling
I never imagine crying
I cant believe fantasizing
Someone without existence
Someone who is 100 percent non-existent
Someone who only belongs to other world
A world where all my  fantasies and imaginations exist
A world where i am the only one who knew
A world that only exist in my deepest depth of thought
And smallest part of my heart
And Im sorry if i love you
Sorry for wishing to be a part of your world
Sorry for wanting to be the one you care for
Sorry for loving you
Though i already know
I knew from the start that i cant have you