"Thank you?"
"Yeah" she nodded "if I would've never sent you off I can guarantee you, you'd be just like yo sister"
"My sister is doing GREAT!"
"In who's eyes? Definitely ain't mine or the lord..."she scoffed. I deeply sighed, looking the other way to keep from saying something out of the way when I'm still at work and I can't lose my job
"Now I know you probably disappointed that you waited all these years to hear that but shit, it is what it is. Ion sugarcoat shit and I'm not about to start now. Now I have nothing but love for you because you my daughter but raising you, I just wasn't bout to do that... but you take care though. And stop tryina focus on the past cause sweetheart you just gone keep getting disappointed" she bluntly said before walking off, going to catch the bus
Once she walked off I felt my eyes start to burn before tears fell and I started wiping them. No, I didn't expect her to be so heartless about it but honestly I think that's just what I needed to hear.
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"Damn. That's fucked up. The hell?" Benji reacted to what I told him about me talking to my birth mom earlier
"It kinda hurt but at this point. It is what it is... you know"
"Yeah but still. She ain had to say that shit like that"
"She really didn't" I sighed
"Don't even worry bout it. You all good"
"I can't wait to tell dr hough about that one"
Benji looked at me with his eyebrow raised "who?"
I twisted my lips to the side and he sat up still looking at me
"Who the hell is dr hough?"
"Benji"
"Nah. Tell me"
I cut my eyes at him before rolling them "she's my therapist"
"Yo what?"
"Therapist!"
He sucked his teeth, staring at me and when he realized I was serious he frowned a little
"The hell you gotta therapist for?"
" I'm still tryina figure that out myself. And I didn't wanna tell nobody cause I ain want y'all to think nothing bad of it"
"What ima think of it bad for?"
I shrugged and he laughed
"So that's what yo ass been sneakin around doing?"
"I hope you ain thought it was something else"
"I was trying not to cause if so I was gone have yo ass in a body bag instead of a wedding dress.. but forreal. You should've told me. How long you been going?"
"A few weeks now"
"See I could've been going witchu or at least help you figure out whatchu got going on."
"I don't want everybody else to get too worried about my problems"
"You know what that is Kay?"
"What?"
"Bullshit" he straight up told me "how the hell we supposed to get married in a couple weeks if you can't communicate and tell me when something going on. Shit, why you can't tell me about yo feelings but don't waste no time to tell me when yo phone bill due"
"My feelings and a phone bill are two different things"
"You right. A phone bill do more damage. Especially yours"
I laughed and rolled my eyes
"From now on don't keep shit else from me. I'm here for a reason, ight?"
"I won't" I deeply breathed, looking at Hendrix while he sat in his little chair eating some boneless barbecue wings Benji brought him "I don't have something else to tell you though.. since I can't keep nothing else from you"
"What?"
"Me and Hendrix finished the rest of your Oreos when we got home"
"Fuckin fat asses" he pushed me off of him and I laughed
"Stop.. it wasn't even that many left in there"
"That don't mean y'all could eat em"
"But our babies were hungry"
"Don't try to use that as no excuse. You just being greedy and wanna blame the baby and Hendrix just wanted it cause he saw you eating em. Now both of y'all gone buy me some more" he told me as he stood up
"Where you going?" I asked as he went and grabbed his keys
"To get my charger out the car"
The minute he said that and started heading to the door, Hendrix turned around to look at him, put his food down and jumped up out of the chair running over to Benji
"Ain nobody going nowhere" hen told Hendrix while he picked him up
"You see who you tryina convince ?" I asked Benji "you might as well take you lil mini me outside with you"
Benji shook his head and headed outside with Hendrix in his arm
Chapter Eight:
Start from the beginning
